I counted your steps,
while you were leaving,
i felt sorrow ,
didn't dare to dwell,
but after eight steps that you made,
i felt so happy when you fell.

i am meant to die in a heavy snow,
in a land of forever, never to be known.

my pride?
i have lost it
can't find it among my stuff
im better off without it
now my words are rough.

I stopped buying blades
i outgrew that phase
now i cut myself mentaly
now i am scared my own face.

i haven't told you a thing about the rain
she dent my lips a bit..
she kissed my lips s bit...
and she was gone away..

in a field of daisy bells ,
where the hopes are laid,
there has been a thunderstorm,
that abolished them all away.

I carry a few specks of love
in a depths of my pockets.
Those are only things she left me with.
Yet i can't find a reson not to love every bit of her

i'll give you a riddle,
but you have to guess:
you can solve your pain with it,
within you can drown your mess.

I can't formulate:
what makes you think,
what makes you talk,
so i make you laugh,
by telling a joke!
I may not know,
how the muscles twich,
but that smile of yours,
is an awesome gltich!

I am the Atlantis,you are my sea,
i slowly sink into your depths,as you devour me.

It's been raining all night long,
washing away selvedges of the sky,
the dimly dawn still prolongues,
the arrival of the light.

People drink their morning coffee,
leaving their homes in a haste,
as much as they add in sugar,
still left with bitter aftertaste

I would let you live in my skin,
for the eternity if you wish,
but you could never carry my sin,
under the burden you'd be squished.

I would let you wear my shoes,
for miles if you find it sweet,
but you could never handle the screws,
they are built of concrete.

I go contantly in circles,
the past and the future addled together
making a bow,
my hands shake so desperately,
i don't know which way to go.
What awaits me in the end,
i can't help but to fear,
deeper in hell i descend,
with every falling tear.
Which way to select,
so my heart won't ache ,
i can't help but to suspect,
the past makes me fly into a rage.
No back ,no forth,
when i said to myself "i'm fine", i've lied,
my compass shows no south or north.
                   Can't you see that i am terrified?

She hits me,
i fight her until we are  blue and red
our bruised body ache for each other
we have gotten mad

i've been denieing my emotions,
telling my heart that it's for you,
it seems easier to hurt myself,
instead of hurting you.

I wish that my memory could be erased.

you can't hurt me,
no, you can't hurt me,
you can not hurt me,
say,why would you hurt me?
I knew it...you wouldn't hurt me,
you never thought of hurting me..
Do not hurt me.
No,no you can not hurt me.

You went away,
or your were part od dream?
I forgot your name,
i forgot your 7 kind of smiles.
i never counted those 58 steps
we took holding each others heart,
you can not hurt me.
there is nothing to hurt.
i never loved the way you were.
Or did you hurt me..?

Ironically i wait for time,
to grab me and feed off of me,
taking my youth,innocence,smile,
my memories and people i love ,
so it can create new things out of me
like a playdough, it chushes and takes,
so it can make new things out off the same flesh.

she came to me with a song and smile
my feathers were black, hers in style...

she wanted to stay by my side
she put our differences away, like she was blind

she was nightingale announcing spring
i was a crow with broken wings

she sang beautiflly while i was crawing
she stayed until cold wind started blowing

when winter came she was gone
deep in snow,burried with her song.

that was the last spring that i know
it has passed a milenium,and in my heart stills snows.

we owned a tavern
in little town where i came from
i got used to people coming and passing by
hearing stories, laughs, fights, problems, drama
as a child i was amazed by that world full of drunks.

It became my job requirement,
to be with people who come and go...
feeding myself on their stories and smiles,
i am unable to love,staying in that cursed place
makes your heart became a tavern full of drunks..

why did you leave me in silence,for so ******* long
why did you leave my mind all scattered,now i dont know where i belong
why did you lock me in this room of memories
why when you didn't mean to return my call,
i'm sick of this,of your stories,
this time i won't take the fall...

why you bother to come back now,how long has it been?
i forgot to feel love i forgot the sun, the wind
why come now..oh god,you are so mean

why do i fall for you so easy,the moment i see your tears
all of this time,all off your flaws,all of you i've missed...
when will you visit this room of mine,where you let my body to rot
i'll start to hate you until you return...i'm lying..ofcourse i won't..

the man who lost the fight
must endure the laws of the winner.

hey jessy if you were here,
what would you say right now,
would you pat my back and stay,
until the dawn comes around?

hey jessy would you let a tear,
for all the nights i cried?
i think your story is as sad,
behind your broken smile.

The echo in my chests is in a form of pain.
I say your name and it send chills down my spine.

i wanted to commit romantic suicide
by hanging myself with your fake hair
i wanted to commit romanic suicide
by cutting my wrists with your hair clips
i wanted to commit a romantic suicide
by drinking your beauty pills.
but as fake as you are i will just commit a fake siucide.

I wish i was one of your stars,
just to revolve around you.

Have you ever had someone
that could sweep you off your feet,
and you cannot help yourself
but feel captivated about their everything?

Five against the one,
in this hollowed night,
i couldn't stand this feeling,
it wasn't alright.

Five against the one,
try and see my might,
i have 12 broken bones,
as souvenirs from fight.

Five against the one,
i fought for you this time,
i broke someones nose,
i've fracture their spine.

Five against the one,
for your lovely hand,
because they don't love you,
they all just pretend.

i have spent too many nights
connecting marks on your back
you have dreamt of flickering lights
we sleept soundly,not knowing that the world is wracked.

we played soundly inside of our world
there we could be what ever we wanted to be
inside our games and innocence i was swirled
so the time you transformed into a woman, i didn't see

now i spend to many nights
trying to bring our time back
do you still dream of our flickering lights
and sleep soundly,now when you know the world outside is wracked?

Her friends call her Nancy,
as long as it's not a name given by him..
He always called her Jeanny,
when he clipped away her wings.

He found Jeanny on the streat,
when she was just a child...
Nobody knew the painfull past
behind Jeannys broken smile.

He hurt Jeanny,and kept her locked,
never to get outside,
she made Jeanny beg for her life.
until he broke her mind.

Jeanny stabbed him 20 times,
then she cut away all off his limbs.
But late at night she still hears his voice,
"come Jeanny ,i need to cut your wings"

Be strong,
there is more of you inside then mere sadness,
so get a hold of yourself,you can do it!
I strongly believe that the desteny is something that we choose
so you just have to make it the way you want it to be!

the pain is all that s left from you,
that is why i need to treasure it.

you are a gemston of my heart
beloved lady.
you are the tune and the verses
to my melody.

you are the prettiest of all the women
beloved lady
the grace you bring with your presence
noone can surpass

you put a shade over the whole world,
my lady.

adventure has started
you have to capture my heart,
i will be running ,
so begin the hunt.

adventure has started
be careful to choose the right path,
my forest is enchanted,
you might fall into a trap.

adventure has started
pick a weapon for this fight,
you must be cautios,
don't let me out of your sight.

adventure has started,
i'll be hiding somewhere far,
watch your moves,its dangerous,
i could leave you a scar.

adventure has started,
i think you have a chance to win,
just let your mind run wild
and keep your heart clean.

Would you dance with me,
somewhere far away,
in a small hotel room,
while kissing farewell the day?

i feel my nose hitting the ceiling of a coffin,
am i already dead?
i heard her crying and a fer whispers,
sorry,our love was hangng by a thread.

i grew up beside you
we learned to walk together
our paths have been changed directions
but we will always carry small parts of eachother