Blowing smoke
Rolling up
Let it burn
Take a puff

Little escape
From the day
Open minds
Stolen time

Filled to the rim
Sips with friends
Tilt up the end
Pouring again

Little break
From a life
Open bottles
Stolen dances

Party with them
Party with us
Party for fun
Party for love

It hit me like a brick wall

Like I had been punched in the gut with pain, despair, and self loathing..

Shadowed hearts
Dancing on a broken flame
Where they are going
They shall remain

Fractured souls
Ignoring the burning urge
To become whole
Into darkness, they surge

Candle light
Illuminating the shelter
Of those alone
With lives so helter-sketler

Drifting comrades
Ignored calls in the dead of night
Lost in thoughts
They've backed down from the fight

Holy water
Poured out by a pastor
Forsaken love
From thy father

Abandoned faith
Drenched in the guilt of blood
Confusion sets in
Guidelines as clear as mud

I spent a lot of time building bridges
But can't maintain that **** anymore

So I'm gonna burn em down
Say **** em
And watch the ashes hit the floor

And  it hurt
Hurt so bad

And I caved
Caved again

And I know
I'll never make it

Sparks suspected to have caused this flame to be ignited
Put under pressure to hide it, conceal it, deny it
Insecurities and greed are the main culprits of all the violence
Curses foretold as warnings in the planets' alignment
Ignorance has been molded into an art or a science
If it isn't explicit, expect that they've securely implied it
So many sounds, go deaf and then drown in the silence
Invading homes and thoughts as though it was invited
Truth exposed is sneakily altered to disguise it
Misleading masses to control a majority's mindset
Freedom lost as they prevent attempts to revive it
Attempts to distract from the reality that existence is timeless
Peace of mind secured when tensions are excited
Crippling angels to prevent the liberty of flying
Heavily fueled by a cocktail of deciet mixed with spite
Significant events whispered as pointless wars are incited
Think of unity as a gryphon paralyzed and rendered flightless
Crowds convinced to be content when mindless
The search continues for those not mentally lifeless
What is considered humanity's finest
Authenticity has yet to be provided
It widens the gap that has us divided
The flame of those being blindly misguided
Runs the risk of roaring wildfires being ignited
No requests for your all, you've already supplied it
Made oblivious during the time of a crisis
Values labeled on treasures proven priceless
Privacy no longer permitted to be private
Eyes wide open yet views remain sightless
Individuality, a thing of which we may one day be reminded
Exterminations ordered of all those free and enlightened
Fortune concealed as the desperate all struggle to find it
Identities and dignity become commonly traded
If only they knew they were being violated
Unfortunately, their ignorance has been properly validated
After the ******, I wonder who lives to inaccurately explain it

Words once so tangible
Phrases so easily written
Character after Character
Flowing so elegantly
Cascading flawlessly
Dripping from ****** lips
And filled with a ******'s confidence

Artistic expression
Which can only flourish
In the shallow waters
Of innocence's temper

Dreams clinging foolishly
Fueled by nonexistent beliefs
In nonexistent things
Unknowingly temporary
Oh, so faithful were they
As they faded into memories
And we drained every ******* bit

Purity once so present
Talent once so black and white
Blurs into grey, stoner stories,
Pipe dreams, and *Childish Things

Life is like a box of chocolates
People don't read any guide
And we take a bite out of everything
To see whether we like it or not

She is pretty and bright
She laughs at the jokes
And she sings along

She goes on hot dates
She makes the guys drool
And she is all too alluring

She is funny and sweet
She is a pleasure to meet
And she is liked by plenty

She plays and she smiles
She is supportive and kind
And she holds anyone's hand

She winks at the boys
She is flirty and fun
And she hides it very well

She weeps when there is no one to see
She does things no one would believe
And she screams at herself obscenities

She claws at her skin
She fears she'll give in
And she has no one to tell

She hates her reflection
She knows she's unworthy
And she'll never be released

She drinks too much in silence
She cuts a couple fresh wounds
And she wonders when it will stop

She's an addictive personality
She's addicted to bleeding
And she wishes someone would see

Dear Love,

When you're with me
You heal my heart

But when you're away
I'm sad to say I fall apart

I am ruled by an addiction.
However, this addiction is not my own.
It is someone else's, someone who should be more important that anyone on this planet to me.
But, because of her addiction, is no more than a horrible burden that does nothing but bring tears and hatred.

You could give me
A million reasons to hate you,
It wouldn't matter
Because you've given me
A million more to love you

Corrupt and quiet
Brain damaged
Like a mental hemorrhaging
A ****** heart's craving

Tattooed on your clear skin
Running hands over it
Dusting off your innocence
Dancing on ground that's caving in

Men and women in pain
Broken children going insane
Holding their breaths
Hearts heaving in their chests

Painstaking memories
Sipping tears from souls unclean
Empty verses, lyrics obscene
Children who will never be seen

You've lost your health
Now, what do you have left?
***** just like the rest
Nothing to show, no family crest

Tear jerkers
Hard workers
Acid-bathed men
You simply cannot win

Thoughts under arrest
Burning names off the list
Fighting with a pointless fist
Lost in the lifeless mist

Life hanging in the balance
Sanity hanging by a thread
I'll take my scissors
And cut that thread
Watch my reality crash
For a peaceful life, I never asked

Desperation splattered against my face
From the onslaught of your apologies

Patience radiated from me
To the flood of your guilt

Depression bathed the love
While I gave up on the battle that is my mind

My dear, I love you still and forevermore
But I now bear this ****** crown of thorns

Not a savior am I, for I yearn for one
Only a deeply tired peasant, longing for rest

Now I cannot simply dream a dream
My reality has taken refuge in a nightmare

Being wary of spoken adoration
Longing for my previous joy to return

I'll burn down my yesterday
Drown in the ashes

I'll cut my past to pieces
Choke on the shreds

I'll choose to love my today
And be devoted to my tomorrow

He stumbled through the high grass
It stung as it slapped his face
His mission was to find Joseph
No one else cared about Joseph
And so he would save him
It would be no one but himself

Then there was a leg
One he did not notice
Until he had fallen and
Landed right on top of Joseph
For a moment, he felt joy
But such a fleeting moment it was

Joseph was only another casualty
Nothing but a mound of flesh
His gut was blown out
No one had covered Joseph
When he needed it
No one had known Joseph needed it

But now, he did not allow sorrow
There was no place for it here
On this brutal battlefield
Death was too often out here
Some his friend, some his enemy
Some tears, some rewards

Death had made its impression
Imprinting itself in his brain
Settling into the depths of his soul
Scratching, burning away at him
Yet it did not **** him
He would live to die another day