Don't look into my eyes
Please don't read my soul

You'll see things you don't want to see
You'll know things you don't want to know

Don't look into my thoughts
Please don't read between the lines

You'll see my darkest secrets
You'll learn my most disturbed characteristics

Don't get to know me
Please don't try to find the truth

You'll find my flaws
And You'll stop loving me

while we sat
and we waited
talking about nothing
too much to think about

                                                          ­         while we worried
                                                         ­          and we debated
                                                         ­          moving for nothing
                                                         ­          too tired to end our rest

it all fell apart
we watched
we felt but
we made no attempt to help

                                                           ­        our energy was gone
                                                            ­       we had determined we'd stay alone
                                                           ­        too exhausted from life
                                                            ­       to care that our world was falling

while we rode the tide
into oblivion
not changing course
or crying about anything

                                                       ­            while we felt our lives
                                                           ­        crumble before us
                                                              ­     not minding that it was over
                                                            ­       or seeking out refuge

we held hands
and shared one last kiss
for our love
was all we'd really miss

Wine can be so sweet
It can taste so good
Just like the life we live
Living like teenagers forever

Tequila can be so kind
It can open your mind
Just like our music and movies
Pop and rock and nothing classic

Whiskey can shine so bright
It can light up your darkness
Just like our words and phrases
Cursing and cussing at anyone close

***** can be so hot
It can burn up your thoughts
Just like the things we do
Messing with your head all the time

Drinks can be so human
They can be so life-like
Just like our humanity
They're like us, our personalites

My life would be so much easier
If you would drop dead.
I was laying in bed last night thinking
And that thought just popped in my head.

End
Where are you?
Resolution
Where will I find you?

End
Will you come near?
Resolution
When will you reveal yourself?

End
Do you yearn for me too?
Resolution
How far away are you?

End
I really need you.
Resolution
You need to come here.

Confessions stating that I might be in love.
Deep down I wish that it had been enough.

I swallowed the truth but you know that it was tough..

So familiarize what having to swallow this pill is like
It happens all the time, they take your heart and steal your life
And it's as though you feel you've died because you've been killed inside
But yet you're still alive which means you will survive
Although today you may weep because you're weak and
Everything seems so bleek and hopeless
The life that you're seeking, it begins to seep in
That's the only thing keeping you from leaping off the motherfreaking deep end

And I'm pulling for you to push through this feeling
And with a little time that should do the healing
And by tomorrow you may even feel so good that you're willing
To forgive them even after all that **** you been put through.
This feeling of resilience is building.
And the flames are burning quick as fire would.
Through this building. you're sealed in
But you're fireproof, flame retardant, you withstood it.
And as you climb up to the roof, you're just chillin' and you look down
'Cause you're so over them you could put the heel of your foot through the ceiling.

As time passes, things change everyday
But wounds, wounds heal
But scars still remain the same
But tomorrow today's goin' down in flames
Throw the match, set the past ablaze

So feel the fire beneath your feet
As you barely even perspire from the heat
Exhale deep and breathe a sigh of relief
And as you say goodbye to the grief
It's like watching the walls melt in your prison cell
But you've extinguished this living hell
Still a little piece of you dies, you scream..

A winter wind
Kisses thy flesh

A gentle breeze
Your face, it shall caress

I envy that air
For it must never stop
It's touch

Myself, however,
Has limits on how long
I may hold you

I'm bleeding out
Almost empty



You spite me
You tried to **** me



Sorry, I should have told you
I'm immortal



I bathe in blood
Drink the souls of those who fail



I created evil
Gave birth to fear



Yet, you think it's simple
To end me here?



Hear that ringing in your head?
That's a sign



Soon enough, I'll have your life
It's mine!



I can't wait until the moment
I steal your breath



It's such a rush
My own ecstasy



Oh, don't even scream
No one cares



Not a single person will hear it
They just don't value life anymore



Haha! Isn't is funny?
It's all because of me!



Now, cry. Beg me!
I want to hear your suffering



It's nothing to be ashamed of
You were misinformed



You didn't know who I was
Now you see



Shh It's all over now
Don't worry dear


After you die
It won't sting

The trees
                       Their leaves
                                                   A brilliant green



The flowers
                       Their petals
                                                   Such majesty



The wind
                        Its grace
                                                   With powerful haste



The sky
                        Its wonders
                                                   An intense unknown

All the world has
And can behold
All the earth contains
And can know

                                                                                                     I present to you
                                                                                         With a glee so obvious
                                                                                                      With such love
                                                                                       I adore your everything

Each word you say
Every breath you breathe
Give life to these things
For they are our connection

                                                                                 Like gifts of the springtime
                                                                              I'll hand you a summer's day
                                                                                       Simply to call you mine
                                                                            And to claim your heart today

When you can feel the rush
The pressure

When you can't breathe
Or think

When the world spins
The walls close in

When no one notices
You fade away

I can't get out
I'm stuck in this cycle
Over and over
Again and again
I make the same mistake
Because I'm too stupid
To realize
That it's my own choices
That caused all this pain
Well done, me.
I've succeeded at ruining
Everything

Our love could be like a Fairytale

Twisting, winding down brick trails

Full of mystery and wondrous spells

Unguarded hearts with happy tales

Endless room without fear to fail


Our love is exactly like a Fairytale

No matter how bad I want it, It's just not real.

Thoughts like jagged shards,
Little pieces of broken glass.
Splinters stuck inside the brain
Just survive, simply maintain.

Crumble like a house of cards,
Under the weight of a broken past.
Scenes on replay, definition of insane.
Mental stability, a fantasy to obtain.

No matter how hard I try
I won't ever forget you
I'll never let you go
I gave you my heart
You ripped it apart
You couldn't care less
I have honestly tried to release you
I've tried to forget
But you were my first love
My first truth
My first devotion
You cheated me
You ruined me
You traded me in for something newer
Someone better
And though I have found another
My own someone better
I'll still keep you within my mind
And you'll still haunt my heart

If you follow me
I will always follow back

The words she crafted
Slipped through her pale fingers
To dance upon her smooth flesh

The phrases were deaf
To her orders to flow from her lips
They simply ignored her frail voice

They wound around her neck
And she choked on their power
For she now came to the realization

The words were never hers to command.

Clinging losely
To whatever you have left for me

Privately
I talk to myself

Why are you here?

I don't understand

You say you love me
The years prove it true

But, God, I'm ugly

Utterly void of any virtue



I swear I'm dying inside.


I know you can't save me

But let's pretend
If only for a moment
That you and I are real

Am I enough?

I don't feel so
I never do

You don't know what I see

Mirrors aren't kind to me

....
God, I hope you know me.

*******!!

For all the poems I ever ******* wrote you!

For all the letters I ever ******* gave you!

For all the "I love you's" I ever ******* told you!

For all the kisses I ever ******* got from you!

For all the "Together forever's" I ever ******* expected from you!

For all the trust I ever ******* had in you!

For all the time I ever ******* wasted on you!

For all the tears I ever ******* shed over you!

For all the nights I ever ******* stayed up for you!

For all the times I ever ******* cared about you!

For all the "I'm sorry's" I ever ******* told you!

For all the secrets I ever ******* shared with you!

For all the love I ever ******* had for you!

*******!!

I am the phantom
That walks through the halls
Of your sad, empty mind.

I am the spirit
That reminds you, endlessly,
Of the reality you left behind.

I am the ghost*
That keeps you awake and afraid
Of facing another pitiful day.

Your taste, so sweet
It's addicting
Your skin, so smooth
It's relaxing
Your words, so true
It's amazing

I've fallen a trillion times
Everyday
I'm in love with them
Words you say

Miles, I'd travel
Barefoot
Across jagged gravel
Broken glass
Novels, I'd write
Draft
All day and night
A love story
Just to see your face
Hold you
Any time or place
Meet you

There's not a word
I wouldn't say
There's not a thing
I wouldn't do
There's not a lie
I wouldn't tell
Just to Stay In Love With You

No, I don't still love
No, I don't miss you
No, I don't regret the things I said

When I said it I meant it
When it happened, it was final
When I walk away, I'm not coming back

I need someone who wreaks of cannabis
A guy with moscato sitting on his lips
With the stress of nicotine on  his mind
And the threat of bankruptcy in his kiss
One who makes it snow when he sniffs
And lets me go when he finally quits

It's like broken ribs
It's excruciating, breath taking
But no one but you knows it
Not another soul can feel it

It cripples you, drains you
It takes all it can from you
And just when you think it's moved on
It stabs you yet again

As if to tell you
It's best to just give in
It likes to make you cry, weep
Your joy, it likes to take and keep

You'll want to give up
For that is its goal
It'll take your will to live
And crush it without a second glance

It's the product of too much evil
Sometimes too much love
It comes along when you want it least
For many of us, the pain may never cease

You were all that she wanted
Her everything
Her reason to keep going

But then you decided
To throw away that façade
To show true

You knew you had her
You knew it all too well
She wouldn't leave
She'd never tell

You're her mountain
That never ending climb
Her anguish

Boy: You're beautiful. Did you know that?

Girl: I've been told otherwise..

Boy: Plastic ******* have to do that kind of stuff because they don't even almost compare to genuine women.

This truly is
The High school
Teen Girl Saga

Bubble-wrapped
Overflowing with
Teen Girl Drama

Who kissed who?
Who to choose?
Teen Girl Trauma

Broken hearts
Disarrayed
Teen Girl dogma