You’re perfect, a sight to be seen,
Sometimes I wonder,
Why you are sitting here with me,
and not up in the sky,
Sitting on the clouds, Where you belong,
With the rest of the angels, singing songs,

But it doesn’t matter, I’m not going to complain,
Just please, don’t leave me lingering in pain,
My love for you, well its kind of insane,
From your thighs to you hips, front and back,
Just the sight of you could give me a heart attack,

You’re beautiful, amazing, smart, funny, sweet,
To be with you right now it’s really a treat,
One that I get to enjoy every waking day,
Thank you for this angel, to the God I pray.

What is my value?
To anyone and everyone,
How much would
Someone give, for me?

To have to me alive,
To have me in their
Position, or to just
Know me,

Know how I feel,
What I feel,
Know how I think,
What I think,

How much would
They give,
For my happiness,

How much would
They give,
For my satisfaction,

How much would
They give?

What would they give,
For me?

How much would,
You, give for me?

How much am I worth...

You drove me to this,
Your fault,
No choice for me,
Always a choice but not here
Not now somehow, you've decided this.
Your doing.

I press the blade down gently,
Run the cold edge along the
Popping vein of my wrist,
Blood, spewing out,
Like an uncontrollable fountain.

It hurts at first, stings,
But then you get used to it,
Feels good. An equilibrium of pure sensation
Not to mention the satisfaction,
Your, pure.

Demons drained out of me
A wondrous feeling, now I see!
But now the feeling is gone,
It just hurts as its always done,
The pain rises my fingers numb,
I collapse, my skin cold, lips blue,
As far as movement there was nothing i could do.

And now my corpse lay here to rest,
Did i fail one of life's tests?
This empty feeling, it's nothing new,
Now forever my dear, i shall be thinking of you.

Its back again. The pain; Love.
She's not mine,
I guess she's his,
For now.
But he's most certainly not hers,
At least he doesn't act like it,

Many are his,
But he is nobody’s,
Selfish.

She deserves better,
Better than him,
Even better than me,
But if for that she'd settle I’d be in eternal glee,

She devotes her heart,
To him.
He doesn't even acknowledge.
My darling girl. She belongs with me,
I’ll treat her right,
I know could and I know I would.

I think this time it's worse,
I've fallen deeper,
It's more than love, it’s obsession,
From the way she moves, to how she talks, to things she finds funny,
Shes amazing, flawless, sweet like hunny,

And her eyes,
They glime in the light,
As if the rays of heaven have shown in my line of sight,
I could stay up till dawn staring at her,
Every seconds still as amazed with her as the last,
To her I beg come to me and leave him in the past.

Today was hard,

Like every day,
But worse,

And it pushed me,
To the edge,

I couldn’t handle it,
So now,

I’m laying here,
Feeling this pain,

Hoping,
It will go away,

All because,
I gave up today,

Because life is a game,
And I wouldn’t play.

Feel the same every day,
Pure pain won’t go away,
I’ve got no reason to stay,
I know you feel the same,

Pressure making me submit,
The crushing urge to just quit,
I’ve decided I’m going to end it,
Blank face, cold hands, wrists slit.

It’s true,
You regret the things you didn’t do,
The chances you didn’t take,
The opportunity’s you didn’t make,

The hands you didn’t hold,
The secrets you never told,
The dances you didn’t danced,
The things you never said,

You regret the things you didn’t do,

The places you didn’t go,
The people you didn’t meet,
The things you’ll never know,
The times you didn’t eat,

The things you never gave back,
The things you didn’t appreciate,
The people you didn’t date,
The things you never realised,

You regret the things didn’t do,

The things you didn’t try with,
The people you didn’t keep,
The things you didn’t hold on to,
The things you didn’t put your all into,

The things you didn’t stop,
The things you didn’t turn down,
The things you never thought mattered,

It all matters now,
You regret the things you didn’t do,
It’s true.

I’m lost, my location,
Unknown,
All these bad roads I’ve
Been shown,
Trying to lure me away
From home,

But you still found me,
You know how it feels,
Became someone who
I could talk to,

About my struggles,
I don’t always treat you how you,
Truly deserve to be,
But you don’t mind you forgive
And never judge me.
On my darkest days you guide
Me through,
Leading me in this wilderness,

You’re only just discovering it
Yourself, but take me
Along anyways, for I have a
Special place in your
Kind heart, as you do mine,

We long for home,
In search of a place
To call our own,
And along the,
Journey discover,
We’ve found home,
Within eachother.

The way birds need trees,
And flowers need bees,
That's the way I love you,
That’s the way I need you,

The way kings need a throne,
And people need to moan,
The way plants need light,
I need you in my sight,

The way that boats need
The sea, I need you to
Love me, you are my want,
My Need,

My hearts only desire,
The way that heaven
needs angles and hell,
Needs fire

Because I just want you,
And that’s the only truth.
And that’s the way I love you.

Love,

What a sensation,
I think, You overthink,
You feel, I get sensitive,
I laugh, you giggle,

It wasn't always like that,
But I like to think it was,

What is love?
I never knew,
But now I do.

It’s a type a pain,
The kind to drive one insane,
Whatever happens it’s there,
Always near, always clinging
On, it stays close.

From the moment,
I saw you, in my way,
You took my heart,
And you lead it astray,

And then I came to find,
That with my heart,
You controlled my mind.

I guess I’m still the one
To blame,
I allowed you, to drive
Me insane.

I’m just, tired.

That’s what you tell people,
I need some sleep that’s all,
Well I’ve been just tired for
about 6 months or so now,
And the feeling is just foul,

It’s just not easy,
Leaves me needy,
No matter how long I sleep,
I’m still just tired,
Still need some more sleep,

The world has opened to me,
The sick twisted horrors
this world is now revealing,
To be honest, Suicide has
never been more appealing,

I’m a depressed mess.

But still all they hear is,
I’m just tired,
I just need some more sleep,
Because I’m just tired,
I just need some more sleep,

Or someone to take that leap,
Have a conversation with me so deep,
Find out I use the dark nights to weep,
Cos all I want to do is sleep, forever.

Because I’m just tired, of everything.

By chance we met,
Oh! I’m glad we did,
Just like dreams
I’d have as a kid.
Straight away
I fell in love.

Your hands
holding mine,
they fit like a glove.
I knew right then
you were to be my wife,

You became the
brightness in my life.
Forever my sweet, rain or sun,
You My Dearest are The one.

Sometimes I hurt myself,
Sometimes I cut myself,
Let the blood pour out,
Let the pain flourish,

Sometimes I burn my arm,
Blushing burns on my cold caucus,
Scaring it, every mark a ventilation,
Sometimes I hit my head
Smash it against the wall,
Still the demons remain,
And still I do not change,

Sometimes I imagine something new,
Sometimes I imagine ending it too,
You see all these terrible things I do,
It’s because Sometimes, I think of you.

But we all have bad habits.

Look at the stars,
They shine so bright,

Look up at night,
Glowing moon light,

Look at the sky,
Darkness with might,

Look into my eyes,
Looking back at yours,

Feel the wild wind,
Breezing past your skin,

Feel our hands holding,
Talk to me, let me in...

You picked me up when I was low,
You took me higher than I’d flown,

But how was I to know,
You would only to let go,

Let me fall so deep,
Then leave me to weep,

Take me so high,
Knowing it was a lie,

Leave me in pain,
Its happened again,

Made me trust you,
Only to brake it,

Told me you loved me,
Only you faked it.

Sometimes,
The stars don’t align,
Sometimes,
It’s just the wrong time,

Sometimes,
You’re not meant for each other,
Sometimes,
You’re not supposed to be a lover,

Sometimes,
It’s not really meant to be,
Sometimes,
You’re not supposed to be happy,

Sometimes,
You don’t have good luck,
Sometimes,
You just mess things up.

He sits in a corner all on his own,
Waiting, for the chance to take you
home,
He lives under a waterfall,
Where there’s no body that can
hear you call,

His words are few,
He loiters and lurks,
Waiting for you,
He stays indoors, all on his own,
Waiting and waiting to pick up
that phone,

He lays in his bed feeling
nothing but sorrow,
Waiting and waiting to see
You, tomorrow.

Even if the stars won’t align,
And we can’t get it right,
I’ll still stand by your side,
Till the day I die.

Even if our what if’s come true,
I’ll stand by you,

Till the day I die,
I’ll stand by your side,
Until we can get it right,
Even if the stars don’t align,

How wonderful it would be to die?
To fall into oblivion,
No feelings, no more pain, not one lie
Nothing forever more,
I'd be motionless, emotionless, and just die,
Nothing leaving me sore,
No one could bother me for there I would lie,
Oh wouldn't it just be wonderful to die?

But how would I do it?
Depends, how quick or slow,
Do I want my family to know?
Do I want to feel,
Is it to be a big deal?

I could jump in front of a train,
I wouldn't feel a thing,
The opposite to now,
Or could slash my throat,
Maybe write a lil note,
Or hang myself,
Or jump from a high,

Whos cares so long as I die.
And a few may ask why?
Why am i so eager to go?
Truth is really I don't know,
But this is something I must try,
It might just allow me to fly,
Wouldn't it be wonderful to die?...

She’s a light in the darkness,
With ocean eyes, Indie vibes,
Loves lifes highs, tells no lies,

Stretch marks on her thighs,
Hips, ****, honesty is all she
Ever asks, a Real Woman.

Her curvy silhouette,
Slim, smooth waist,
And Impeccable taste,  

She’s gained another fan,
Had plenty of boyfriends,
But she’s never had a man,

She’s had plenty of endings,
But never love with no ends,
Affection and attention,

Thoughts and a mention,
To his friends, his family,
All that’s ever on his mind,

She’s precious, and so kind,
Straight talker, no messing,
A woman so perfect, a rare find,

There’s so much to love in her
But no one’s really loving her,
So she shows zero love in her,

So much more to loving her,
An alliance, great guidance,
Miss independent herself,

Has no need for anyone else,
She can really hold her own,
Like a queen on a thrown,

Nothing that she can’t do
Nothing that she can lose,
No one, she can’t choose

She’ll get treated well,
Get everything she deserves,
I know that she’ll prevail,

Everything that she’s learned,
I know she’ll use it well,
With her you won’t get burnt,

Her head won’t get turned,
Her heart will start the same
So if you lose her, you’re to
Blame.

It’s okay,
If all you did today,
Was live,

It’s okay,
If you’re just trying
To survive,

It’s okay,
If you don’t exactly
Feel alive,

It’s okay,
If you don’t know,
The way,

It’s okay,
If you don’t want,
To stay,

But stay,
Even just for today,
It’s okay,

Through the pain,
All the rainy days,
The cries to sleep,
All night I’d weep,

The sudden realisations,
And paralysing sadness,
Triggering’s of jealousy,
Feelings controlling me,

I’ve learn that,

Time controls everything,
Circumstance decides all,
And patience is a skill,
Always to be improved,

Comparison is the thief
Of joy,
Appreciation is the key
To happiness,

Through all that’s happene,
I guess what I’m trying to say,
It’s so hard to say, I miss you,
And I learned that, I need you.

I had a dream the other night,
I was living with her,
Best dream I’ve ever had,
Take me to this dream world
I promise I’ll never be sad,

She’s dreamy,
Literally.
We were in a world
So simple, so sweet,
peacefully
We were in perfect
harmony,
How unrealistic I know.

I’ve tried many times since,
To go back to that land,
The one I love now so much,
Sleeping won’t bring me back,
So I use it to drive me,

I’m working towards that land,
I will get my life together,
Get a proper job, clean up, go sober,
Because of what I want,
That dream it’s pushing me,
A few years time,
I will look at my life that dream is what i will see.

Let’s get drunk tonight,
Let’s make love tonight,

Let’s get lost tonight,
We can have a fight,

Get high as a kite,
Forget it all tonight,

Just come with me,
For the time of your life,

I,

Linger in the pain caused by you,
Oppress my uncontrollable feelings,
Value every moment and memory,
Embrace the sensation of seeing you,

You appreciate me unconditionally,
Obsess over every detail about me,
Understand always and support too,

I love you.

She hurts because she’s hurt and,
She hurts him because she’s hurting,

She smiles without smiling and
She laughs but she’s not laughing,

She’s made a life, that she is living,
But doesn’t live, to make a living,

She starts a fight to fright her spite,
And cry’s at night despite her might

She chases her dreams,
Not materialistic things,

Talks with benevolent themes,
And of her intelligent schemes,

She loves to endorse a good cause
And forgives all flaws,

She feels on her own,
Because inside she’s alone,

But she’s always positive,
Never the opposite,

Never hear her moan.

Only the wild ones,
Give you something,
To remember,

Only the wild ones,
Are the ones you,
Can’t get back,

Only the wild ones,
Are the ones you,
Can never catch,

The only ones to,
Make you, feel,
The only ones to,
Make you, do,
The only ones to,
Make you, you,

Only the wild ones,
Take you somewhere,
New,

The ones to show you,
A different path,
Always make you smile,
Make you laugh,

Always the wild ones,
The ones who aren’t,
Afraid,
The ones who don’t,
Care,
The ones who always,
Share,

Only the wild ones,
Are the right ones.

Honestly I want to put my,
Trust in you,
But you can see if I have,
Trust issues,
I’m gonna need an awful,
Lot from you,
And I really hope we can,
Make it through.

You know you love her,
When hearing her upset,
Actually hearing he cry,
Causes you physical pain
From deep inside,
And twisted true guilt,
To stop the tears,
And tell her how much,
You love her.

I smile, with the biggest
Frown on the inside, but
I smile,

Even when the world is
Getting me down, and,
My feelings overwhelm,
I smile,

Even when I want to cry,
And I’m asked how I am,
But I just stand and lie,
I smile,

Even when I am broken
Inside, all I can do is hide
And fake happiness so,
I smile,

Hiding my pain, nobody,
Sees me drowning in this
Hateful world, so vast,
I smile,

For there’s peace, at last.

Do you ever feel lonely?
Ever feel like the everyone else
Has this life, planned out
But you’re just wondering

Like a lost soul,
Trying to find you’re place,
But never finding it,
Never finding where you fit in,

Never finding the place
Where you feel just right,
Like you’re just stumbling
In the night,

See even if I found my place,
I’d probably still feel unwelcome,
That’s just how I think now.

It wouldn’t work,
wouldn’t end well,
I knew that, But I
still wanted it to happen
For better or worse,
Because what is life
without love?

I wanted to feel like the one,
Even just just for a moment,
Thought it’d be worth it,
But look at me now-
Nah it was still worth it.

I hate everyone,
They say loneliness
Is just the inability to
Connect with others
Around you but I know
For a fact I would still
Hate them all,
Fake, stupid people,
I hate people

This girl, she saved me,
And she’s kinda wavy,
But I think I ****** it up,

All these feelings lately,
**** diving me crazy,
I really need my love,

Thought it’d all go away,
If I blocked her for days,
Thinking I didn’t love her,

Now I’m dealing with pain,
This **** never goes away,
I think I ******* love her,

But now she’s found another,
And he’s a ******* good lover,
He loves to ******* **** her,

He thinks he ******* loves her,
Never puts anything above her,
She’s thinks he really loves her,

Gets on well with her brother
And even better with the mother,
She’s found love, clear to see

She’s forgotten about me.

Hold me,
The way you did that night
That we kissed, underneath
The stars, sitting in our car
Love that would never end,
Love that wouldn’t dent,

At least that’s what we thought,
But I guess that was just a lie,
One of many that were told,
By you and I.

Hold me like you did, once more
And don’t let go,

Misfits, outcasts but it is
Them who we shall outlast,
Forgotten, we don’t fit in,
Some would call us pioneers,
Changing ways not doing
Things, proper, how maverick.

But no not I,
I choose to stray away
From the flock,

Not from a need to be special,
Or edgy but a need to just be,
Different, to not do these things,
They all do or at least not the
Same way in which they do,
An urge to rebel and repel,

I don’t want to be normal,
Never have, but nor do I wish
To be abnormal, just something,
different, you could call it

A unique style, or poor taste,
I have both yet neither of these,
I am me, not just an individual
As we all are, but independant,

See the world needs people like him and her,
But also people like me, you see
We deter,

From the norm, they don’t
Understand, no one truly does,
Going left when they go right,
It’s simply a buzz,

You question me while keep
Walking forward never looking
Back, always ahead,


Reassurance? I need of none,
You probably still don’t understand but for those
Who do my work here is done.
But it is not work, simply fun...

Waking up at 4am,
Thinking of you,
Laying awake in bed,
Thinking about the

Times we’d lay there,
Together,
Thought it would last,
Forever,

But like all things it
Seems it had to end,
But did it?

I told you to leave but
Never said goodbye,
I said I wanted us to
Stop, but that was a lie,

I caused you pain
But it hurt me more
And now you have
Moved on, from me

But I’m still stuck in
The past,
I just, thought we
Would last...

I don’t know what to,
Say,
I don’t know what to,
Do,

I told you to just let go,
But I never did myself.

I’ve been thinking,
About life, about me
About, everything,

Things I do, things I say,
Things I think, how I feel,
How I act and how I speak,

And I realise how much
Of lie, I am, I live a lie,
Never being truly honest,

Because I can’t, and I can’t
Even say how sad I am or
How much, I hurt because

I can’t, and who’d care
And I’m scared, and if
I did, If I were to open
Up and say how I truly

Felt all of the time,
It would hurt to much,
It would be too hard,

I can’t get through,
Life,
It’s too hard to do,
Alone,

I give up.

It seems hopeless,
She wants to hide,

Have you ever had
A battle inside your
Mind?

Have you ever had
A problem you can’t
Find?

Have you ever felt
Like all ever do is
Cry?

No, cos you’re not
Her,
And you’re not me,
But,
That don’t make us
A speciality,

I’m just saying we got
Different personality’s,
I think it’s clear to see,
She’d rather be with me,

Because you don’t get
Her,
And you don’t really fit
Her,
And I think you’ll forget
Her,

You’ll forget her needs,
She need reassurance,
Passion, trust, love, get
On your knees, marry her,
That’s what she needs,

And if you won’t do that,
Then you should leave,
Let her fall in love with me.

I need to ease the pain,
If possible erase the pain,
Better than taking a razor blade,
To my arm again, I’m stopping
That from happening.

I know exactly where to go
And where I want to go,
That euphoric land of numb,
And I can get there with just
That sweet 20 in my hand.
Looking better to me than
Golden sand.

My clothes are torn, I’m kneeling,
I want to feel that warm feeling,
I put the needle in my vein,
But it doesn’t draw any blood,
My heart begins to thud,

I try all round my body, trying to
Find that an open vein,
I find one, the one on my neck,
Looking at myself in the mirror
I think what a monster I am,

I sit down then open a can
Pour it into my cup, get some
Ice cubes, chuck a few in,
Then sit back and think about
My life, what the hell am I doing?

You were the honey,
I was the bee,
He was the bear,

I’m trying to make you see,
See what happened there,
He took you from me,

You were mine and
he stole you For himself,
And made you love him,

More than you loved yourself,
That was hard to do,
But you did it for him,

Even though he treated you,
Much worse than I did,
You didn’t batter an eye lid,

You’d lay down for him,
Let him walk all over you,
What a painful view,

Seeing you get hurt,
Time and time again,
I knew you would leave,

I was just waiting for when,
But I didn’t expect you to
Go back to me,

I didn’t know what to say
Exactly, So I told you no,
saved myself from pain,

So you went back to him,
Again and again,

It’s not like was before
She doesn’t want more
It’s him I bet, he’s stolen
Her,

I should **** him,
Dig my fingernails into
Either side of his throat,
Pushing deeper into his
Scummy skin, crying in
Pain as my fingers claw
Deeper into his throat,
But no pain matching
What he cause me,
Stealing my girl, she was mine.

Or maybe a should **** her,
Cheating *****, she stopped
Caring, stopped wanting me,
I should gouge both her eyes
Out, push my thumbs in and
Stop her from gazing upon
Another man again.

Instead I wait,
Wait for her to return,
And if she doesn’t
I’ll **** everyone,

Love me again,
As you once did,
Grow old with me,
Even have a kid?

Let my hands run down your cheek,
As I kiss you your lips,
Pulling you closer,
Hands now on your hips,
Moving up to your waist,
Kissing you nice and slow,
just how you like it,
We’ve got time to waste,

Let me cuddle you all night long,
As we used to do,
And let me just..gaze at you,
Hold those soft gentle hands,
The ones I’d hold all night,
And then to kiss you again,
Oh it’d be a delight,

I miss you my sweet,
I hope you miss me too,
Please my darling I beg,
This feeling is nothing new,
Release those feelings I know you’ve hid,
And love me again,
As you once did.

It’s not like was before
She doesn’t want more
It’s him I bet, he’s stolen
Her,

I should **** him,
Dig my fingernails into
Either side of his throat,
Pushing deeper into his
Scummy skin, crying in
Pain as my fingers claw
Deeper into his throat,
But no pain matching
What he cause me,
Stealing my girl, she was mine.

Or maybe a should **** her,
Cheating *****, she stopped
Caring, stopped wanting me,
I should gouge both her eyes
Out, push my thumbs in and
Stop her from gazing upon
Another man again.

Instead I wait,
For her return,
If she doesn’t
I’ll everyone,

Teary eyes, it’s only me who try’s,
I love those eyes but hate your lies,
But even more, I hate goodbyes,

And cutting ties, Cutting loose,
From your tight noose, closing
My windpipe, I think it’s alright
Because you are my life light,

The singular light in my cold life,
Relieving pressure on this cold knife,
Wresting on my wrist, wrestling this,
Dark feeling from all my **** dealings,

Dealing with my pain,
It won’t go away,
I just can’t stay,
Another day.

I hope life gives purpose,
I’m sick of all the hurting,
And feeling so murderous,

Thoughts of violence,
Flowing in abundance,
I need that something,

I really need loving,
To do some sharing,
To feel some caring,

Love is the answer, the key
I’m over flowing with hate,
But, there’s more love in me,

But no one’s loving me,
So much love in me,
No one will ever see,
There’s more to loving me.

But I’ll show no love to him,
And no one’s loving him,
Love in him I’ll never see,
So he shows no love to me.

I,
Linger in the pain caused by you,
Oppress the uncontrollable feelings I feel for you,
Value every thought, moment, memory I have with you,
Embrace the sensation of seeing you,
Yield to the might I see in you,
Obsess over every detail about you,
Understate my love for you..
I love you.

Phobia: An extreme or irrational fear or aversion to something.

I fear it,
I get extreme worries,
Thinking about the
Possibility of it,

It’s scary,
Scares me, I hate it,
But it is not
Irrational, to me

Even though the possibility,
As of right now is very little,
I still fear it beyond belief,
My phobia: losing you.