Today I lie here
Naked and Numb
Waiting for you to be a blanket
That covers me up.
Wrap me up,
With your warmth
And I shall show you
How long I have
Craved for you.

Today I lie here,
Naked and Numb
Waiting for you.

There’s times
When we are lost
There’s times
When we are done
There’s times
When we really got to
Do our part
And then there’s times
When we find ourselves.

I was lost.
Lost in the woods.
I was scared.
Alone and cold.
Nowhere to go.
No one to call for.
I kept walking and,
I saw this sparkle of light,
Far of from a cave.
I could now walk stronger,
I could now smile with a hope.
The hope for something,
That's calling for me.
I kept climbing, climbing,
Getting closer to the light.
I am not weak anymore,
Not exhausted anymore,
Not sad anymore.  
I stood there gazing at the star,
That was sparkling,
Calling me into the cave.
Just a step ahead from getting in,
The cave slammed down leaving no trace.
I was alone and cold,
But not scared anymore.

There’s these nights when I go on a tour back to my past.
Taking stroll on all the Shouldn’t have, Could haves.
But isn’t that all what makes us more human?
Mistakes and regrets?
If we no longer had those, we would be too perfect to be called as Humans.

I closed my eyes,
Watching blood streams flowing from me.
My body felt lighter than ever.
My veins felt emptier than ever.
My skin felt barer than ever.
My heart felt slower than ever.
My soul felt stronger than ever.
Watching blood streams flowing from me,
I closed my eyes.

I wish to be
That " me "
From my dreams.
That " me "
Who has no worries.
That " me "
Who can sing.
That " me "
Who has no limits.
That " me "
Who can fly.
That " me "
Who has no pain.
That " me "
Who can float.
I wish to be
That " me "
From my dreams.

I met the man of my dreams.
Not once,
Not twice,
But a few times,
Each time in a different person.
None stayed.
Who am I meant for?
Who am I made for?
Who is my soulmate?
Wait, Do soulmate really exist?
I wonder.
Who could it be?
The man of my dreams?

Maybe.
Maybe it is not like how I think.
Maybe it is all just for the time being.
Maybe it is what I am meant for.
Maybe it is what I am destined to be.
Maybe it is all just in my head.
Maybe it is all unreal.
Maybe there's something more to it.
Maybe this is not the end.
Maybe there's still hope at the other side.
Maybe this is all just the beginning.
Maybe.
Maybe.
I wish maybe.

I was in his arms, dreaming of us.
Aware that he would never be mine.
He asked me if I loved him,
I could not help but confess.
He held my chin up,
Looked deep into my moist eyes.
When our lips met, time froze.
I leaned against him and lost myself.
He explored each inch of me,
And I loved all of him.
That moment, He was all mine
And I was all his.
Wrapped in love and lust,
We were lost in our world.
A **** woke me up, from my dream.
I was still in his arms,
But he was never mine and I was never his.
It was all just in my head, never real.
He kissed my forehead,
And we were parted forever.

Every night.
When I'm on my bed, eyes closed,
Sinking deep into the world of dreams,
I travel.
.
Last night.
I was at the white sandy beach of Hawaii,
Sipping into my blue Margarita.
.
Tonight.
I am at the roaring waterfalls of New Zealand,
Diving into the blue waters.
.
Tomorrow.
Where would I be?
Would it be the Amazon Rainforest of South America?
Or would it be the Endless Deserts of North Africa?
Or would it be the Fairy Pools of Scotland?
.
Every day.
All I wish is,
For the nights to arrive soon,
For the dreams to take me away,
For it never ended,
So I could always travel and be in Peace.

Today my World is void.
I can't feel it above me.
I can't feel it around me.
I can't feel it below me.
Today my Heart is dead.
I can't feel its wants.
I can't feel its needs.
I can't feel its beats.
Today my Life is sad.
I can feel it's fake.
I can feel it's ache.
I can feel it's broke.

I was alone.
I was fine.
The artist happened,
Taught me life on Canvas.
I fell in love.
He left me in vain.
The hunter happened,
Taught me life in Wild.
I fell in love.
He left me in pain.
The teacher happened,
Taught me life of Words.
I fell in love.
He left me insane.
The writer happened,
Taught me life with Ink.
I fell in love.
He left me drained.
The NoFace happened,
Taught me life,
I fell in love.
He left me dead.

Now I feel so lifeless.
As if there’s no tomorrow.
Just this moment and maybe today.
As if everything’s falling apart.
Do you ever feel so numb at heart,
That you check upon yourself
To see if you’re still alive?
Ah! I just did.

I’m a star gazer.
I watch sky so much,
That I feel I’m a part of it.
What if I came from a star?
What if that’s my home?
What if that’s why,
I feel that I don’t belong here.
Sky,
Stars,
And Silence
Keep me Alive.

I’m a dreamer
I fly around galaxies
Finding my home
I was once trapped in stars
The ones that shines the brightest
My squint eyes still tried to look for
The home that would take me
Days passed by
Months passed by
Years passed by
I will never give up
I will never ever let go
I will never ever let go
‘Cause I'm a dreamer

Amidst the stars he took me in his arms.
I fell deep into his enigma.
I was one among him.
We were destined to meet,
My heart said.
His magic crept on my skin,
To my soul.
Unaware of the day or time,
We kept exploring each other,
And the universe surrounded.
Together we were wrapped,
In the most beautiful enigma.
He was an unknown.
Now, I am too.
I was a dreamer.
Now, he is too.

Is it strange that.....
When I’m amidst people,
I want to be A.L.O.N.E.
In my own form,
In my own mind,
Not acting,
Not Reacting,
Just being in my own.
Just being myself.
To be someone I dream of,
To go through those memories.
I got to be A.L.O.N.E.
.
And then,
When I’m truly A.L.O.N.E.
I want someone,
To remind me who I am.
To make me better.
To bring out my ownself.
To tell me it’s okay,
To be A.L.O.N.E,
To be Myself.