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Someone recently asked  me what do I think about modern dating? I responded by saying we live in a culture mired in instant gratification, i call modern dating fast food dating high volume dating low nutrition dating We constantly consume But are forever           more       and          more lonely, we do not spend the time to build value in our own        soul, love in our hearts , so we come to a relationship  taking and taking and taking     instead of giving.      Fundamentally selfishness is the massacre  of        all relationship, and our culture specializing in crowning self ruler of all.    And selfishly we surmise that We are all Kings      and          Queens
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Jul 13, 2018
Jul 13, 2018 at 5:50 AM UTC
Kings And Queens
Happy Mother’s Day to the person who’s always with me To the one who helped me become the person I’m today To the one who taught me to treat others how I treat myself Happy Mother’s Day to the person whose approval I craved To the one who helped me understand that nobody will ever care for me To the one who taught me that I’m a piece of garbage myself Happy Mother’s Day to the person whose laugh I was scared of To the one who helped me know that I’m undeserving of love To the one who taught me to hate the mirror image of myself Happy Mother’s Day to the person whose voice haunts me To the one who helped me avoid responsibility and criticism To the one who taught me reasons why I should **** myself Happy Mother’s Day to the person who made me scared of thinking To the one who helped me breed hate in who fundamentally am To the one who taught me that others will always be better than myself Happy Mother’s Day to the person who made feel guilty of my depression To the one who helped me find innovative ways to hurt me without a trail To the one who taught me that everything wrong is a fault in myself Happy Mother’s Day to the person who made me a mom to my siblings To the one who helped me get rid of my carefree childhood joy To the one who taught me that in life one can only care for themself Happy Mother’s Day to the person who isolated me of the ones I loved To the one who helps me know my worth in negative numbers To the one who taught me jealousy and that I'm hers   Happy Mother’s Day to the person who fed me lies as facts To the one who helped me befriend an ED princess To the one who taught me that was the only way to be one Happy Mother’s Day to the person who made me scared of accomplishing my dreams To the one who helped me endure years of abuse and neglect as a mask for love To the one who taught me that I could never be truly happy Happy Mother's Day to the person who polluted the word mother for me To the person who made me dread being a mother myself To the person that I'm horrified of emulating and ******* other child's life up Happy Mother's Day to my mom
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May 10, 2020
May 10, 2020 at 10:11 PM UTC
Happy Mother’s Day
Happy Mother’s Day to the person who’s always with me To the one who helped me become the person I’m today To the one who taught me to treat others how I treat myself Happy Mother’s Day to the person whose approval I craved To the one who helped me understand that nobody will ever care for me To the one who taught me that I’m a piece of garbage myself Happy Mother’s Day to the person whose laugh I was scared of To the one who helped me know that I’m undeserving of love To the one who taught me to hate the mirror image of myself Happy Mother’s Day to the person whose voice haunts me To the one who helped me avoid responsibility and criticism To the one who taught me reasons why I should **** myself Happy Mother’s Day to the person who made me scared of thinking To the one who helped me breed hate in who fundamentally am To the one who taught me that others will always be better than myself Happy Mother’s Day to the person who made feel guilty of my depression To the one who helped me find innovative ways to hurt me without a trail To the one who taught me that everything wrong is a fault in myself Happy Mother’s Day to the person who made me a mom to my siblings To the one who helped me get rid of my carefree childhood joy To the one who taught me that in life one can only care for themself Happy Mother’s Day to the person who isolated me of the ones I loved To the one who helps me know my worth in negative numbers To the one who taught me jealousy and that I'm hers   Happy Mother’s Day to the person who fed me lies as facts To the one who helped me befriend an ED princess To the one who taught me that was the only way to be one Happy Mother’s Day to the person who made me scared of accomplishing my dreams To the one who helped me endure years of abuse and neglect as a mask for love To the one who taught me that I could never be truly happy Happy Mother's Day to the person who polluted the word mother for me To the person who made me dread being a mother myself To the person that I'm horrified of emulating and ******* other child's life up Happy Mother's Day to my mom
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Could ADD just be a term we describe a growing amount of people who's consciousness has been fundamentally shaped from an early age from a heavy exposure to videogames, culture, computer usage, television and our educational system in tandem.
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Sep 24, 2014
Sep 24, 2014 at 9:09 PM UTC
Da Deficit
Up very early on this particular morning couldn't sleep not unusual. Trillions of thoughts racing in his brain leaving his lovely wife in bed! knowing to well the problems he'd created met another himself he hated. Nine months Jamie had been having an affair his wife asking why he was late. On numerous days his mistress wanting him easy to say it just happened! How could he let his fling get out of hand he knew it was underhand. Couldn't rest his conscience nagged him no children with his spouse. Practically one less worry for him to resolve now his mistress was pregnant! The usual cliche he still loved his wife aware this situation was rife! This didn't help sort out the mess he was in what was the solution? None of the answers were fundamentally good but could not escape the truth. It would break her heart to if he were to leave who he never wanted to deceive! With a deep breath he prepared for honesty it had been a long time coming. Prided himself in being an upstanding man not noticing how low he'd sunk. Seven thirty approached he heard Emma stir he had to go and tell her! With a burning guilt consuming his whole being he made his way for judgement day! The Foureyed Poet.
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Dec 27, 2011
Dec 27, 2011 at 7:59 PM UTC
Mistress
Science *This is instant messaging in the smallest scale. Two (or more) particles are separated in space. An action performed on one is repeated by the other. Once entwined, they are fundamentally connected.* Romance Two lovers that were torn apart by fate, against them from the start. They kept a secret close to heart, a way to stay connected -- how smart! *Wherever you and I may be the stars are there for us to see.* And so the lovers could agree: to share the heavens, they were free. Day or Night matters not, it changes neither script nor plot. A love that cannot be forgot conquers any rational thought. But as the days went by fear gripped her. She thought, *It scares me that we'll never know if one of us has stopped looking up.* He knew this day would come, and had responded in advance. She could hear him say, *If you look up, so will I. If you stop, I will too. It's spooky how we'll know, but we will. Fear not the coming of that day. It may not even come, who can say? Two souls entwined, though far away are never truly led astray.*
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Mar 29, 2013
Mar 29, 2013 at 5:51 PM UTC
Quantum Entanglement (Science vs. Romance)
More folk need to learn About Cause and Effect Respecting others Is fundamentally what earns respect My dad was raised Christian Episcopalian But left No disrespect He just wasn't convinced So when I was a child Our attendance at church was sporadic Sometimes a source of contention And, usually, more pain than joy The summer of 1969 Men walked on the Moon And my parents Split My dad moved across town I saw him one day each weekend The most time we had ever spent together. When I was twelve the earth moved Sixty-four people died And my father embraced Buddhism And Buddhism embraced him In a way nothing else ever had and he learned moderation Regaining his freedom What got him was the Law of Causation Cause and Effect What goes around comes around The Golden Rule Unencumbered With the baggage from his past The philosophy of common sense His pianist's artist's teacher's mind Could comprehend Grasp and hold for good My twelve-year-old mouth Would not be denied And so I one day announced That chanting Was simply another form of prayer A fact he acknowledged reluctantly but ultimately with humor and grace And was it my father's turn to Buddhism That sparked my own Journey into Spirit? In 1972 With Godspell on the radio I saw Jesus Christ Superstar At the Universal Amphitheatre Twice And when my sister joked "Let there be light" And all the lights came on Then she genuflected Before taking her seat It was only partly in jest For there was reverence in the air And a sense of the Eternal The foundation of the story Of every story Cause and Effect Later that year I was baptized Before I realized That no church held the key For the key was within me As it resides within us all More folk need to learn About Cause and Effect We are here on earth to Love. And respecting others Is fundamentally what earns respect. 6/7 July 2005 Approx. 2 AM
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Jun 27, 2015
Jun 27, 2015 at 1:36 AM UTC
Cause and Effect
More folk need to learn About Cause and Effect Respecting others Is fundamentally what earns respect My dad was raised Christian Episcopalian But left No disrespect He just wasn't convinced So when I was a child Our attendance at church was sporadic Sometimes a source of contention And, usually, more pain than joy The summer of 1969 Men walked on the Moon And my parents Split My dad moved across town I saw him one day each weekend The most time we had ever spent together. When I was twelve the earth moved Sixty-four people died And my father embraced Buddhism And Buddhism embraced him In a way nothing else ever had and he learned moderation Regaining his freedom What got him was the Law of Causation Cause and Effect What goes around comes around The Golden Rule Unencumbered With the baggage from his past The philosophy of common sense His pianist's artist's teacher's mind Could comprehend Grasp and hold for good My twelve-year-old mouth Would not be denied And so I one day announced That chanting Was simply another form of prayer A fact he acknowledged reluctantly but ultimately with humor and grace And was it my father's turn to Buddhism That sparked my own Journey into Spirit? In 1972 With Godspell on the radio I saw Jesus Christ Superstar At the Universal Amphitheatre Twice And when my sister joked "Let there be light" And all the lights came on Then she genuflected Before taking her seat It was only partly in jest For there was reverence in the air And a sense of the Eternal The foundation of the story Of every story Cause and Effect Later that year I was baptized Before I realized That no church held the key For the key was within me As it resides within us all More folk need to learn About Cause and Effect We are here on earth to Love. And respecting others Is fundamentally what earns respect. 6/7 July 2005 Approx. 2 AM
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"strange"                                                  is declared                                                   of person                                          who rationalizes                                                 that matter if                                          non-human                                          non-animal                                          non-living                                       merits recognition                                       as being good                                       on it's own                                       but really                                                are we                                          the ultimate stewards                                                of absolute purpose?                          what confirms                      our judgement                                         in deeming what deserves                                              to exist for it's own                                              and what belongs                                                  to our means                                                                             and ours alone?                                       is it so fantastic                                                   to suggest                                       that by some means of                                                            indefiniteness                                                   of intangible                                                                             comprehension                                                 all matter                                        is fundamentally intertwined                                                in the sense                                             everything is stardust                                              created by                                                                    the universe's omnipotent hand?                                       don't you                                                  ever get the feeling                                       inside of your conscious                                                                   too?                                       doesn't your awareness                                                ever whisper                                                    as a sentience                                                 you have an obligation                                                 from some unspoken contract                                                     signed before birth                                                   to uphold the integrity                                                   of everything                                                   that inhabits this earth                                                        whether or not                                   it thinks in the way                                       you do?                                       for what purpose                                            we exist assembled into                      abrupt                 profound               togetherness                                       remains             undecided earth's fabrications will survive harmoniously but will you do the same?
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Aug 24, 2015
Aug 24, 2015 at 1:55 PM UTC
manifest destiny
"strange"                                                  is declared                                                   of person                                          who rationalizes                                                 that matter if                                          non-human                                          non-animal                                          non-living                                       merits recognition                                       as being good                                       on it's own                                       but really                                                are we                                          the ultimate stewards                                                of absolute purpose?                          what confirms                      our judgement                                         in deeming what deserves                                              to exist for it's own                                              and what belongs                                                  to our means                                                                             and ours alone?                                       is it so fantastic                                                   to suggest                                       that by some means of                                                            indefiniteness                                                   of intangible                                                                             comprehension                                                 all matter                                        is fundamentally intertwined                                                in the sense                                             everything is stardust                                              created by                                                                    the universe's omnipotent hand?                                       don't you                                                  ever get the feeling                                       inside of your conscious                                                                   too?                                       doesn't your awareness                                                ever whisper                                                    as a sentience                                                 you have an obligation                                                 from some unspoken contract                                                     signed before birth                                                   to uphold the integrity                                                   of everything                                                   that inhabits this earth                                                        whether or not                                   it thinks in the way                                       you do?                                       for what purpose                                            we exist assembled into                      abrupt                 profound               togetherness                                       remains             undecided earth's fabrications will survive harmoniously but will you do the same?
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You! Hey. Good-day. I presume. Pessimistic flu. Hypocritical to annoy. The poor man's Rolls Royce -is the pessimists one good choice. They live with fragility, -unwilling rigidity, -and rarely tranquility. Some weep at morbid memories, -others at faithless fantasies, -do they (or you?) see the precipices -between the then, now and will be? So what if you take a blue bruising back-slap -for your lacking, a juicy reminding -for regretful whining, lifetime timing, -miraculous hopes of a future shining -because you're wasting your time -and not even minding! So listen, or in duller cases, read; -thoughts are naught but mares and dreams, -man made mind transparencies -will's the sum of immediacies -like waiting in your station -but you're deciding the destination -your journey fundamentally what you make it -it's simple but pessimists are complicated -would you not trade freedom for a life you hated? Pessimistic man, forget it Ranting is silly - you just don't get it You didn't see the golden beauty I bet it Gold is copper to you anyway What would Fibonacci say!
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Dec 6, 2013
Dec 6, 2013 at 5:38 AM UTC
φ and his good friend Fibonacci, or '1.618033988749894848204586834...'
You managed to horribly fail every test Yet you bore the honorary family crest Until you abandoned me As friendship isn't free Leaving me incapacitated In the infernal infirmary You had only exacerbated My own gory purgatory But I want to see the end of the story Though it's not going well Carrier pigeons bring messages of your progress By ******** on my head I solve the problem By staying in my bed When all I see is red From all the blood we bled There was a deep connection Crossed with a ****** infection You were so fundamentally friendly Was it just for the drugs we were blending? Now I just have nightmares of your life ending And ponder the value of the time we were spending Your spirit animal is a coyote Mine an exploding car My fragile heart is imploding From all the black tar Coming from your lips like the needle Rushing through my veins until I'm fetal From your sedating voice I heard an invading choice Live alone or die alone The dog gnawed the bone with it's clone I just want to hear you're doing fine So I can stop feeling so **** guilty And I don't have to hear about you again For my heart has been untamed When I feel this constant pain From a friendship down the drain There is no peace to be attained For the friendly fire in my brain
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Aug 24, 2017
Aug 24, 2017 at 5:57 AM UTC
Friend
Society has made a pact On how we must act People tell me to be a real man But that seems like a stupid plan Because every time a guy describes a real man I hear the way they perceive themselves A father Says a real man takes care of his children A fighter Says a real man is a protector We need to break this masculine projector I used to think being a real man Meant having a ***** But I'm not even sure about that anymore How do we unlock This malebox? We'd have to leave our houses of hiding And walk to the road that connects us to each other But when the fashion is to fake Our compassion starts to break In a world Where things are simple We can't have a pimple In a world Fundamentally filled with maleboxes We search for a loving locksmith
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Sep 19, 2017
Sep 19, 2017 at 5:03 AM UTC
Malebox
wieso es nicht gelang wieso es gelang als sie mich suchten zum liebemachen als sie mich fanden zum liebemachen wer von ihnen sang wer von ihnen sang sie kamen in scharen mit freunden verwandten all jene damen all jene herren ich weiß nicht wann ich weiß nicht wo doch ich weiß wie ich weiß es wie mir ist bewusst: dichter und autoren werden keine liebe füreinander hegen (poet's note: my opinion on the last three verses above has fundamentally changed since i been publishing here.) liebe mich freund liebe mich freundin gib mir schenk mir suche mich finde mich ich habe mich auf der suche nämlich versucht kennst du, bruder, den weg? den zugfahrplan? die bedeutung der stahlstreben? ich brauche eine antwort von den damen den herren finde mich suche mich verschenke mich vergib mir denn ich schrieb über zivilisationen von witterung und gier witterung und gier freunde sind zwischen dem glitzern auf dem fluss versteckt wie perlen sie aufzuspüren zwischen dem wittern zwischen dem wittern während des witterns ich weiß nicht ob du weißt wovon ich rede ich rede aber das ist in ordnung freund aber das ist ok freundin wir müssen bloß bruder wir müssen bloß schwester fragen sie sitzen am gleis bei den zügen sie sind immer da wie der “ICH-BIN-DA” aus der kinderbibel meines sohnes verstehst du das? begreifst du das? fühlst du mich? viele afro-amerikaner fragen “you feel me?” wenn sie etwas ausdrücken und teilen wollen ich liebe diesen ausdruck er zeugt von etwas gutem, das manchen menschen fehlt auf der brust trage ich das tattoo welches du abschriebst in einer stunde aus schatten witterung gier ich wollte das ich wollte dass du zu mir kamst zwischen den schatten unter der gier über der witterung in einem augenblick des “you feel me” wie unsere häute glänzten wie unsere augen glitzerten wie unsere hände zitterten wie wir… ach komm! was sage ich dir, freund was sage ich dir, freundin du weißt es doch dir ist es bewusst denn du schriebst mein tattoo ab in ein buch mit perlweißen seiten ein buch mit onyxschwarzen seiten du bist perlweiß freund du bist onyxschwarz freundin du bist perlweiß freundin du bist onyxschwarz freund ich liebe habeshas ich liebe äthiopien ich liebe meine frau ich liebe meinen sohn ich liebe meine tochter you feel me?
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Dec 28, 2019
Dec 28, 2019 at 5:27 PM UTC
Lied Von der Langen Ankunft (An Arrival Song)
wieso es nicht gelang wieso es gelang als sie mich suchten zum liebemachen als sie mich fanden zum liebemachen wer von ihnen sang wer von ihnen sang sie kamen in scharen mit freunden verwandten all jene damen all jene herren ich weiß nicht wann ich weiß nicht wo doch ich weiß wie ich weiß es wie mir ist bewusst: dichter und autoren werden keine liebe füreinander hegen (poet's note: my opinion on the last three verses above has fundamentally changed since i been publishing here.) liebe mich freund liebe mich freundin gib mir schenk mir suche mich finde mich ich habe mich auf der suche nämlich versucht kennst du, bruder, den weg? den zugfahrplan? die bedeutung der stahlstreben? ich brauche eine antwort von den damen den herren finde mich suche mich verschenke mich vergib mir denn ich schrieb über zivilisationen von witterung und gier witterung und gier freunde sind zwischen dem glitzern auf dem fluss versteckt wie perlen sie aufzuspüren zwischen dem wittern zwischen dem wittern während des witterns ich weiß nicht ob du weißt wovon ich rede ich rede aber das ist in ordnung freund aber das ist ok freundin wir müssen bloß bruder wir müssen bloß schwester fragen sie sitzen am gleis bei den zügen sie sind immer da wie der “ICH-BIN-DA” aus der kinderbibel meines sohnes verstehst du das? begreifst du das? fühlst du mich? viele afro-amerikaner fragen “you feel me?” wenn sie etwas ausdrücken und teilen wollen ich liebe diesen ausdruck er zeugt von etwas gutem, das manchen menschen fehlt auf der brust trage ich das tattoo welches du abschriebst in einer stunde aus schatten witterung gier ich wollte das ich wollte dass du zu mir kamst zwischen den schatten unter der gier über der witterung in einem augenblick des “you feel me” wie unsere häute glänzten wie unsere augen glitzerten wie unsere hände zitterten wie wir… ach komm! was sage ich dir, freund was sage ich dir, freundin du weißt es doch dir ist es bewusst denn du schriebst mein tattoo ab in ein buch mit perlweißen seiten ein buch mit onyxschwarzen seiten du bist perlweiß freund du bist onyxschwarz freundin du bist perlweiß freundin du bist onyxschwarz freund ich liebe habeshas ich liebe äthiopien ich liebe meine frau ich liebe meinen sohn ich liebe meine tochter you feel me?
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the pages of my notebook are probably more lovelorn than i'll ever be idk i never longed to be a tree burying my roots deep into Her soil, moaning okay maybe i did because sometimes i only exist in crumpled up shreds of graphing paper between my awkward handwriting and things i wish i'd have told you, residing at the bottom of the ******* bin (we're all writing about somebody) fundamentally, i only exist between the blue lines and the margins i want to be a tree again Mother Earth is a **** (i mean, dang bruh, she's beautiful) want my roots reaching as far into her as they'll go / want her attached to me in every way possible / want her in every way possible i want to stay here forever if i fall alone in the forest **** right i'll make a sound: symphony of the lovelorn branches in C-minor except it's not really a symphony i'm just giving an impromptu solo to my ******* bin, i have played the viola since 6th grade and heartstrings since 7th
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Jan 26, 2014
Jan 26, 2014 at 2:48 AM UTC
Ache On The Lovelorn Pages
How can I Falcon fly While I die In a web of lies Where they brutalize Us like flies We must communicate By connecting To avoid rumors of hate That are infecting The non-inspecting No problem detecting Yet happiness expecting Tyrant electing Issue deflecting Fascism respecting Public that's perplexing So the Internet should remain harmlessly neutral Instead of adding to our economic Kama Sutra Finding new ways to ***** each other Like restricting access to information So we won't hear the screams of our brothers To the rich and powerful's elation Dealing with this pseudo-fame Feels like a burdensome shame In order to listen to people I have to hear them talk But I fall into a deep hole When their ignorance is written in chalk Easily erased But also easily traced Yet not so easily faced Until we're easily replaced By the voices of our oppressors Promising to alleviate the pressure If we'll take a position that's lesser And never ask them to be a confesser Each electorate Must be kept separate And must be made desperate So take away their voices That should limit their choices The rich want to be molding the clay So they say to touch it you'll have to pay I can't sit here and stand it This particular predicament That's beyond my bandwidth Eating this **** sandwich Given by a grand witch So I add the name capitalist To my ******* list Which they seem to agree with They rationalize you have to be an ******* to survive They explain in business that's the only way to thrive Yet get upset when I call them the biggest ******** alive The Internet can do infinite good Yet it is minimized and misunderstood The faithless fathom It as a nameless chasm Made inside our rage filled cabins But they refuse to see the connections The healthy introspection And historical corrections They'd rather use deflection Mentioning mundane memes Or divisive digital teams They see the shell But not the turtle They put us in hell With a data girdle Everybody has the same capability to add to the Internet So they should have equal capacity to use the Internet Sometimes our economic systems make us act counterintuitively To what is fundamentally needed by our species Something humanity has never had before A comprehensive brain that can connect and inform us all We've seen money corrupt the minds of humans Let's not let it corrupt the mind of humanity
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May 18, 2018
May 18, 2018 at 1:22 PM UTC
Data Girdle
How can I Falcon fly While I die In a web of lies Where they brutalize Us like flies We must communicate By connecting To avoid rumors of hate That are infecting The non-inspecting No problem detecting Yet happiness expecting Tyrant electing Issue deflecting Fascism respecting Public that's perplexing So the Internet should remain harmlessly neutral Instead of adding to our economic Kama Sutra Finding new ways to ***** each other Like restricting access to information So we won't hear the screams of our brothers To the rich and powerful's elation Dealing with this pseudo-fame Feels like a burdensome shame In order to listen to people I have to hear them talk But I fall into a deep hole When their ignorance is written in chalk Easily erased But also easily traced Yet not so easily faced Until we're easily replaced By the voices of our oppressors Promising to alleviate the pressure If we'll take a position that's lesser And never ask them to be a confesser Each electorate Must be kept separate And must be made desperate So take away their voices That should limit their choices The rich want to be molding the clay So they say to touch it you'll have to pay I can't sit here and stand it This particular predicament That's beyond my bandwidth Eating this **** sandwich Given by a grand witch So I add the name capitalist To my ******* list Which they seem to agree with They rationalize you have to be an ******* to survive They explain in business that's the only way to thrive Yet get upset when I call them the biggest ******** alive The Internet can do infinite good Yet it is minimized and misunderstood The faithless fathom It as a nameless chasm Made inside our rage filled cabins But they refuse to see the connections The healthy introspection And historical corrections They'd rather use deflection Mentioning mundane memes Or divisive digital teams They see the shell But not the turtle They put us in hell With a data girdle Everybody has the same capability to add to the Internet So they should have equal capacity to use the Internet Sometimes our economic systems make us act counterintuitively To what is fundamentally needed by our species Something humanity has never had before A comprehensive brain that can connect and inform us all We've seen money corrupt the minds of humans Let's not let it corrupt the mind of humanity
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I spend. I drink. I rationalize. I think. No filter. I speak. Hypocrite. I leak. Overdrive. Can’t stop. Socialize. I shop.    Mentality. No breaks. Try to heal. I ache. Pray. For sanity. Vanish. Vanity. Love. Conditions.         Strive. Submission. All is fine. Squander. Why? I wonder. Stand up. I pledge.         Not worth the fight. Allege.         Drained. Mentally. Stained. Fundamentally. Saved. Eternal. Grateful. External. Unchanging. All praise. Loved. Unfazed.
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Mar 2, 2021
Mar 2, 2021 at 7:50 PM UTC
My kind of crazy
I think what hurts the most is that you are so deserving of love and I wanted nothing more than to give it to you. But you did not want it from me...Why? It is in that moment, I am 8 years old again, and I am shouting //WHY NOT ME?! WHY WAS I NOT ENOUGH?!// I have so much love for you that it makes me ache. It makes me angry. It traps me like an animal in a cage. Why don't you want it? Was I too willing? Too honest? Or fundamentally, am I just not enough? Has this all just been a reminder that no one really wants my love? That they settle, if only temporarily, until someone better comes along and they no longer need this placeholder. How was it so simple and so easy to pretend? Sure, you never said the words, but your lips pressed against my forehead - your fingers interlocked with mine - we shared sorrows and dreams - //WE WALKED YOUR CHILDHOOD NEIGHBORHOOD// How can it be true that it was nothing? How am I supposed to just forget and accept it? How could you know me so intimately yet care so little? How could you? //OR MAYBE THE REAL QUESTION IS// How am I still so dispensable after all this time?
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Sep 10, 2023
Sep 10, 2023 at 4:06 AM UTC
N Flower St
among milkweeds and thistles, on rocks and scraps of metal that tear our clothes, in a mock lacking more than ivy, but plenty of barbed wire, the game is clean. unadulterated. the slowest five seconds birthed via a fundamentally sound thing of beauty. hands back, the other way. ah the sweet spot. we conjure trajectory: wind, speed. geometry. run away!
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Jun 17, 2011
Jun 17, 2011 at 1:04 AM UTC
the industrial confines
I’ve been busking about since young and fair The atmosphere from onlookers, like skating on thin air So unconventional, prior to the old smacking ways That’s how I’d spend my entire waking days Melodic riffs, dancing over bass lines Harmonising daily, to some lonesome feeling ballads Playing finger-style guitar, without any speeding **** hazards Along the boardwalks of Venice Beach In unlikely places, that you’d ever encounter or reach A folksy blues musician, you can’t wait to hear Independent, from a money-making machine, that’s so clear A young black musician, singing ‘bout life’s rights and wrongs With an aching intimacy, strings are strummed, to original songs The overall effect is something like a blend Of other musicians, with a depth and subtlety More suited to the stage, than a street with a dead end While the busking experience is fundamentally a freedom, luckily Still taking a fading, battery-powered amp, with heaps of torque Along with a flattop, down to the busy LA boardwalk I think the best thing you learn from being downtown Is how to be really optimistic, while still being on your own Busking was like practicing with a metronome It started pulling on a few chords, like not ever knowing a safe home Then, thoughts of ones life coming to an end, my tick-tock time Then, I go back to playing a song, people tossing me, a silver dime I imagine, how it would sound, playing along with four in a band I’ve never really been dealt, a very good poker hand Trying to re-create myself, like an over paid, auto tuned, music star Well, as much as I could, with just a worn out, acoustic guitar They say, I picked up the guitar at seven At first trying to play lap style, just keepin’ it even Because, I couldn’t reach across my scar torn body Early childhood lessons, gave me a foundation in blues After that, I wasn’t taught nothin’ by nobody I just kept playing like that, what did I have to lose I could learn by ear, until I heard the rings at the checkout It would take a while, but I’d figure it out, what they were all talking about.
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Nov 22, 2019
Nov 22, 2019 at 8:30 AM UTC
Busking About
I’ve been busking about since young and fair The atmosphere from onlookers, like skating on thin air So unconventional, prior to the old smacking ways That’s how I’d spend my entire waking days Melodic riffs, dancing over bass lines Harmonising daily, to some lonesome feeling ballads Playing finger-style guitar, without any speeding **** hazards Along the boardwalks of Venice Beach In unlikely places, that you’d ever encounter or reach A folksy blues musician, you can’t wait to hear Independent, from a money-making machine, that’s so clear A young black musician, singing ‘bout life’s rights and wrongs With an aching intimacy, strings are strummed, to original songs The overall effect is something like a blend Of other musicians, with a depth and subtlety More suited to the stage, than a street with a dead end While the busking experience is fundamentally a freedom, luckily Still taking a fading, battery-powered amp, with heaps of torque Along with a flattop, down to the busy LA boardwalk I think the best thing you learn from being downtown Is how to be really optimistic, while still being on your own Busking was like practicing with a metronome It started pulling on a few chords, like not ever knowing a safe home Then, thoughts of ones life coming to an end, my tick-tock time Then, I go back to playing a song, people tossing me, a silver dime I imagine, how it would sound, playing along with four in a band I’ve never really been dealt, a very good poker hand Trying to re-create myself, like an over paid, auto tuned, music star Well, as much as I could, with just a worn out, acoustic guitar They say, I picked up the guitar at seven At first trying to play lap style, just keepin’ it even Because, I couldn’t reach across my scar torn body Early childhood lessons, gave me a foundation in blues After that, I wasn’t taught nothin’ by nobody I just kept playing like that, what did I have to lose I could learn by ear, until I heard the rings at the checkout It would take a while, but I’d figure it out, what they were all talking about.
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I'm afraid that if I die People wont know things only I know Like how N likes their carrots Or how L loves her dad Only I know this, like this Of course others know some of this too, some of the time But no one Not one single person knows that you You two Are perfect I mean this literally I was gifted this knowledge when you were born I know this viscerally, like this. Or that you're beautiful in ways that make me hate words In ways that render language hollow, meaningless, obscene I am not being dramatic. And also that you are good By which I mean loveable Like very and always Fundamentally, inherently This is not something you can ever change even though you'll probably try And you might convince other people Maybe even your dad, or your therapist, or your lover, or yourself But you'll never convince me I don't know why I just know this And I need you to know this too
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Aug 6, 2022
Aug 6, 2022 at 12:53 AM UTC
To my kids
So what do I think, When wandering through The hordes of armoured advice That is offered in chains Of expectation That can close like a vice? If they go to war When you ignore Their oh-so-nice Advice, It’s no advise at all, But an order, a command, A carefully concealed demand. You can listen to it, sure, But I’d sooner bed the enemy. Advise should be a gift, Nothing taken, only this: Remember what the Cat said, “If they were right, I’d agree, It’s them they know, not me”, A fundamentally Self-serving philosophy. Isn’t that the point? Or do our friends think We’re no longer free? Keep your own council, And leave my wars To me.
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Apr 17, 2015
Apr 17, 2015 at 6:50 PM UTC
Advice
fornicate and lay back asleep against the cold steel heal your wounds with fire limes are burning lemons yearning his fruit is turning into wine mindless meditators mediating madness fundamentally flawed raw and cored like apples and hone(st)y posthumously imbibed nominal anomalies rusted tire chains as thunder complains of its own ignominy eyes awaken lands are taken and what's far worse is that we have all lost our voices demanding silence stem-cells signal sentences denser than a dozen dollar bills dancing on a pinhead reprimand and then repeat again the end is near feet in fear move slowly are you impressionable my dear a glimpse of eternity and your hair turned white as snow suppress emotion keep composure learn to control your own will
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Sep 6, 2018
Sep 6, 2018 at 1:51 PM UTC
nominal anomalies
As a child I did not know whether it was the act itself or the knowledge that I was the receptacle for malevolence and cruelty that made me so vulnerable. At first I thought it was God's punishment for something I had done. I took an inventory, desperately seeking the deed that triggered the retribution. But I could not identify a single act. Even my accumulated errors, transgressions and unkindness’s did not exact the cost. Then I understood: if I could not isolate a deed, or pattern of deeds, commanding the punishment, it must be me. It is not what I did. It is who I was...a fundamentally, intrinsically and irredeemably bad little girl. I negotiated my adolescence and early adulthood with the mathematical symbol for "less than" (<) attached. I would like to be able to write that I am no longer negotiating my adulthood with the same mathematical symbol attached. But that would be a lie. It is pervasive. It is formidable. And if I do not keep it contained, I am so afraid it will be debilitating….I've been down that road a time or two. At times it has enveloped me, penetrating my pores and drowning everything essential and vital inside. Undisturbed, it is docile, sated. But aroused by even the slightest hint of beauty or strength or grace it is a painful reminder that I am...somehow...contemptible...that I am still fundamentally, intrinsically and incorrigibly...what? Flawed, imperfect & bad? You may say, "But we are all flawed and imperfect. And our flaws and imperfections make us more interesting...more truly beautiful...more human." And perhaps you are right, but this inexorable deprivation makes me somehow subhuman... less than human...permanently broken. I am a receptacle for malice. I skillfully deflect praise directed my way, an effort to soothe the inescapable conflict inside. Moderate praise induces a subtle twinge of embarrassment; more effusive praise incites the consuming and agonizing feeling that I am irreparably damaged, hopelessly broken. It has contaminated, compromised and diminished every accomplishment, soiled every success. People sometimes tell me that I am humble and that it is an admirable trait. But the modesty and humility they identify helps me to mask the mortification stirring inside. I have gotten so good at hiding it from others that I have nearly learned to conceal it even from myself. At least that is what it feels like...right now.
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Oct 20, 2013
Oct 20, 2013 at 8:21 PM UTC
It is not what "I" did...it is who "I" was...
As a child I did not know whether it was the act itself or the knowledge that I was the receptacle for malevolence and cruelty that made me so vulnerable. At first I thought it was God's punishment for something I had done. I took an inventory, desperately seeking the deed that triggered the retribution. But I could not identify a single act. Even my accumulated errors, transgressions and unkindness’s did not exact the cost. Then I understood: if I could not isolate a deed, or pattern of deeds, commanding the punishment, it must be me. It is not what I did. It is who I was...a fundamentally, intrinsically and irredeemably bad little girl. I negotiated my adolescence and early adulthood with the mathematical symbol for "less than" (<) attached. I would like to be able to write that I am no longer negotiating my adulthood with the same mathematical symbol attached. But that would be a lie. It is pervasive. It is formidable. And if I do not keep it contained, I am so afraid it will be debilitating….I've been down that road a time or two. At times it has enveloped me, penetrating my pores and drowning everything essential and vital inside. Undisturbed, it is docile, sated. But aroused by even the slightest hint of beauty or strength or grace it is a painful reminder that I am...somehow...contemptible...that I am still fundamentally, intrinsically and incorrigibly...what? Flawed, imperfect & bad? You may say, "But we are all flawed and imperfect. And our flaws and imperfections make us more interesting...more truly beautiful...more human." And perhaps you are right, but this inexorable deprivation makes me somehow subhuman... less than human...permanently broken. I am a receptacle for malice. I skillfully deflect praise directed my way, an effort to soothe the inescapable conflict inside. Moderate praise induces a subtle twinge of embarrassment; more effusive praise incites the consuming and agonizing feeling that I am irreparably damaged, hopelessly broken. It has contaminated, compromised and diminished every accomplishment, soiled every success. People sometimes tell me that I am humble and that it is an admirable trait. But the modesty and humility they identify helps me to mask the mortification stirring inside. I have gotten so good at hiding it from others that I have nearly learned to conceal it even from myself. At least that is what it feels like...right now.
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Out of concern I write. Don't judge if am wrong or right. Fundamentally, it is my right, To address an I'll that is becoming a rite. Many  swell like foam, Being pumped to boom By needle or rather ***** But in reality that are just but fume. Peer pressure is  powerful  witch. But can only enchant you if you wish. We are empowered to be the wizards of our life, To make freewill choices devoid of strife. Aunty, getting slim tea is now slim. Brother, guys are sleeping in the gym. Boss, your colleagues are booking for liposuction. I still wonder why you guys are rushing liposyn injection. Ladies with Bees made of silicon Counting themselves among the slaying lexicon, In negligence of the pains to reckon, They do whatever it takes to be a beauty icon. Smokers are liable to die young. You ignores it as if it's written in ching-chong Liposyn users are liable to kidney failure, You ignore to prove your velour. You are made from the best kit. Don't risk it all for a **** Stop thinking anticlockwise. A word is enough for the wise. Blessedinkz
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Jan 30, 2019
Jan 30, 2019 at 12:44 AM UTC
Inflated baloons
you were fundamentally burnt out. you were a ******* human, not a machine. i didn’t blame you. as humans we rot from the inside out. the marrow of our bones, blackens, and our hearts freeze over. i didn’t blame you. you were breathing at a pace more rapid than the ticking of the clock on a sunday night. in between dry-heaves you told me “i’ll be okay, i’ll be okay, i’ll, be okay.” i wanted to believe you, but i didn’t blame you. i think the sound of your voice on a tuesday afternoon is conclusively what kept me going.
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May 21, 2014
May 21, 2014 at 9:53 PM UTC
i never blamed you
Why do poets insist on dwelling on Love? What a futile, tragic endeavor, indeed. The only thing, however, more futile and truly tragic is to believe that we ever really had a choice in the matter. Poets cannot help but to root around the subtle and revel in the profound. And Love seems to be the most natural and confounding sickness around. Its the most fundamentally complex ailment we've found to date. So continue to unravel my dear friends and pinpoint and storm about. Carry on with the exploration of the rawness, the disappointment, the unmatched excitement and roaring self-doubt. Keep prodding and analyzing and let me know if you discover a way to cure oneself of unwanted, unrequited love and live without.
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Apr 25, 2013
Apr 25, 2013 at 5:12 PM UTC
A Dog Chasing His Own Tail
In response to a Post by someone: 'Eckhart Tolle, after 27 years of acute depression, overcame this, in a state of bliss in ONE DAY. Is that possible?' We are unhappy as we hold ourselves too seriously, too tightly, too selfishly, too judgementally. In Zen and Taoism, we get rid of our ego, we don’t have fixated thinking, we accept life in all its facets—joy and sorrow, the pleasant and unpleasant—-we follow the flow of life and don’t fight against it. In our centred-ness, we hold our equilibrium in equanimity. Ingredients making for happiness and sane living, in any culture, are fundamentally the same: acceptance, kindness and compassion, love, generosity, simplicity, humility, patience, insight, forbearance, magnanimity, forgiveness, humour and in adoration of the transcendental, the divine and all that which is beautiful and life-enhancing. This is a lifelong journey—we don’t need to lean on any person or their thinking. ET has many critics, but also a huge following- it shows the extent of existential angst of so many people in our anxious, restless and confused world.
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Nov 2, 2021
Nov 2, 2021 at 12:07 AM UTC
In Response to a Post on Eckhart Tolle