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"endeavoring" poems
“Moby ****  Herman Melville <•> ~for the lost at sea~ after a year of saltwater absence and abstinence, return to the island caught between two land forks surrounded by river-heading flows bound for the ocean great joining the Atlantic welcomes the fresh water fools, bringing with them hopefully, but hopeless gifts of obeisances, peace-offerings endeavoring to keep their infinite souls sea accepts them then drowns the warm newcomers in the unaccustomed deep cold salinity, which sometimes erodes sometimes preserving their former freshwater cold originality I’m called to depart my beach shoreline  unarmed, no kayak, sunfish or glass bottomed boat needed, walk on water and my toes, ten eyes to see the bottom, no depth perception limitation, reading the floor’s topography, millions of minion’s stories infinite, many Munch screaming god’s foot, heavy upon my shoulders, a daytime travel guide, hired for me, not a friendly travel companion,  nope, God a pusher showing off a drug called deep water salvation, designated for the masses, can handle large parties my in-camera brain  eyes, record everything for playback - the lost and unburied, bone crossword puzzles walk shore to ship, on soles to souls, is this my new-summer nature welcome back greeting? puzzled at the awesomeness of vastness, conclude this clarification for me of the occluded-deep, is a stern reminder of my insignificant existence, my requirement to walk humbly, spare my sin of vanity, and forgive my trespasses upon the lives of others perhaps then the infinite of my soul perchance restored, older visions clarified and future poems will write themselves and sea to it my predecessors be better remembered Memorial Day 2018
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May 28, 2018
May 28, 2018 at 11:53 AM UTC
“the sea... jeeringly...drowned the infinite of his soul...to wondrous depths...he saw God’s foot upon the treadle of the loom and spake it”
“Moby ****  Herman Melville <•> ~for the lost at sea~ after a year of saltwater absence and abstinence, return to the island caught between two land forks surrounded by river-heading flows bound for the ocean great joining the Atlantic welcomes the fresh water fools, bringing with them hopefully, but hopeless gifts of obeisances, peace-offerings endeavoring to keep their infinite souls sea accepts them then drowns the warm newcomers in the unaccustomed deep cold salinity, which sometimes erodes sometimes preserving their former freshwater cold originality I’m called to depart my beach shoreline  unarmed, no kayak, sunfish or glass bottomed boat needed, walk on water and my toes, ten eyes to see the bottom, no depth perception limitation, reading the floor’s topography, millions of minion’s stories infinite, many Munch screaming god’s foot, heavy upon my shoulders, a daytime travel guide, hired for me, not a friendly travel companion,  nope, God a pusher showing off a drug called deep water salvation, designated for the masses, can handle large parties my in-camera brain  eyes, record everything for playback - the lost and unburied, bone crossword puzzles walk shore to ship, on soles to souls, is this my new-summer nature welcome back greeting? puzzled at the awesomeness of vastness, conclude this clarification for me of the occluded-deep, is a stern reminder of my insignificant existence, my requirement to walk humbly, spare my sin of vanity, and forgive my trespasses upon the lives of others perhaps then the infinite of my soul perchance restored, older visions clarified and future poems will write themselves and sea to it my predecessors be better remembered Memorial Day 2018
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Three Nails (...) Not so many as to denounce A job done to make me well. Three rudimentary spikes to nail A man's own flesh to wood. Three nails cannot Seem so much to proffer; Human efforts complementing God's sacrificial offer. A self-inflicted crucifixion? Yes, I would do my part; Would do me good, I think, To offer up an offering to God. So let this painful work, Human endeavoring, Perfection capturing, Begin. A simple thing, I think, To hoist and hammer Nails into myself, A manly job to undertake Impaling self To spare my God A little work. The first, perhaps Most painful... To stop the feet Their wandering ways, To give me pause for just a bit To meditate in pain And to reflect or to project Myself in better ways. . Then on to nail number two, One hand to hold the nail And one the hammer. The pain intense Impacts my good intent. . And yet, I've nailed number two, And finding where the problem lies, I have no way to nail thrice. My living flesh begins to writhe Its will-ward way, E'en though in sky-ward Agony my soul now wails. Then I remember Someone said, "Your crucifixion stands Upon a different hill, Hangs on a different tree." . . . Though I can never end my flesh, He paid my debt for me.
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Dec 13, 2012
Dec 13, 2012 at 9:01 AM UTC
Three Nails (...)
680 Each Life Converges to some Centre— Expressed—or still— Exists in every Human Nature A Goal— Embodied scarcely to itself—it may be— Too fair For Credibility’s presumption To mar— Adored with caution—as a Brittle Heaven— To reach Were hopeless, as the Rainbow’s Raiment To touch— Yet persevered toward—sure—for the Distance— How high— Unto the Saint’s slow diligence— The Sky— Ungained—it may be—by a Life’s low Venture— But then— Eternity enable the endeavoring Again.
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O LOVE! O LOVE! WHY ARE YOU EVER DEVOID OF LOGIC? Alexander K Opicho (Eldoret, Kenya; [email protected]) Mankind in its pathetic folly entice you in a dint of stupor Knowing not your true colour and texture Endeavoring to achieve glory in your mastery With the so limited human capacity In grey faith that you are a cradle of bliss But O love! Why are you ever crooked? Young men and women in strength of their sinews Toil day and night in ******* of humanity Praying and whining incantations with the hope for optimal love Ornamenting their bodies with diamond and bronze Fibre and silk ornamented to helm of providence In the foolish quest for love equillibria But in full stretch of your vice, you impish love You catapult all away to the shifted goal posts O love! O love! Why are you ever ruthless? You hate the learned but you favour the strong You hate professors but you favour the soldiers You hate the rich but you favour the agile You hate the lawyers but you favour the footballers You hate the pastors but you favour the ruffian You hate the whites but you favour the Negroes You hate the groomed but you love the ragamuffin You hate the chaste but you favour the mistress O love! O love! Why are you ever illogical? Love, I revere you for wickedness and irrationality In all of your history you scored sum *** laude In the duo as blend of your domain, Look; You never dwell in a genuine companionship You like where the couth will interject; Amidst fornication between married and single ones Amidst adultery in the triangle of foul compassion Amidst miscegenation between black and white Amidst infatuation between the whole and the lame Amidst conjugal appetite between the old and the young Amidst concupiscence between house master and houshelp Amidst immorality of married master over the wallowing servant Amidst libidos between literate teacher unto the peasant pupil Amidst disordered passion among the sly lesbians Amidst impious ********** among the suave gays O love! O love! You are the most wicked force! Love I am told; your colour is red You may be red or you may not be red But all in all, you deserve poetical veneration For your herculean ability to bend the most wise; In your force you made sagacious Shakespeare to bend In your force you made Princes Diana to bend and bend Bending downwardly stooping for Afawoyed the moor, In your stupefying dint you made Napoleon de Bonaparte To bend and bend downwardly stooping for Josephine Josephine a famed she-Casanova in the gone Paris Among the then humanity and the then animality, In your impairing machinery you set sons on their fathers In the roman empire of Antony and Ceaser In the scramble for Cleopatra, the Egyptian queen Beauty of her aquiline nose heavily hovered perhaps In the eyes of the Roman beholders The father and the son only to sent the empire To the love forlorn smithereens!
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Dec 3, 2013
Dec 3, 2013 at 5:08 AM UTC
O love ! O love ! why are you ever devoid of logic ?
O LOVE! O LOVE! WHY ARE YOU EVER DEVOID OF LOGIC? Alexander K Opicho (Eldoret, Kenya; [email protected]) Mankind in its pathetic folly entice you in a dint of stupor Knowing not your true colour and texture Endeavoring to achieve glory in your mastery With the so limited human capacity In grey faith that you are a cradle of bliss But O love! Why are you ever crooked? Young men and women in strength of their sinews Toil day and night in ******* of humanity Praying and whining incantations with the hope for optimal love Ornamenting their bodies with diamond and bronze Fibre and silk ornamented to helm of providence In the foolish quest for love equillibria But in full stretch of your vice, you impish love You catapult all away to the shifted goal posts O love! O love! Why are you ever ruthless? You hate the learned but you favour the strong You hate professors but you favour the soldiers You hate the rich but you favour the agile You hate the lawyers but you favour the footballers You hate the pastors but you favour the ruffian You hate the whites but you favour the Negroes You hate the groomed but you love the ragamuffin You hate the chaste but you favour the mistress O love! O love! Why are you ever illogical? Love, I revere you for wickedness and irrationality In all of your history you scored sum *** laude In the duo as blend of your domain, Look; You never dwell in a genuine companionship You like where the couth will interject; Amidst fornication between married and single ones Amidst adultery in the triangle of foul compassion Amidst miscegenation between black and white Amidst infatuation between the whole and the lame Amidst conjugal appetite between the old and the young Amidst concupiscence between house master and houshelp Amidst immorality of married master over the wallowing servant Amidst libidos between literate teacher unto the peasant pupil Amidst disordered passion among the sly lesbians Amidst impious ********** among the suave gays O love! O love! You are the most wicked force! Love I am told; your colour is red You may be red or you may not be red But all in all, you deserve poetical veneration For your herculean ability to bend the most wise; In your force you made sagacious Shakespeare to bend In your force you made Princes Diana to bend and bend Bending downwardly stooping for Afawoyed the moor, In your stupefying dint you made Napoleon de Bonaparte To bend and bend downwardly stooping for Josephine Josephine a famed she-Casanova in the gone Paris Among the then humanity and the then animality, In your impairing machinery you set sons on their fathers In the roman empire of Antony and Ceaser In the scramble for Cleopatra, the Egyptian queen Beauty of her aquiline nose heavily hovered perhaps In the eyes of the Roman beholders The father and the son only to sent the empire To the love forlorn smithereens!
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Such an abused past, much vast… Darkly basked and masked! Badly, sadly bruised or roused, from the cold or scold! Bold or old! Coerced or forced! Victims of heroism, terrorism, **** or scraps. Casual, intellectual, punctual, sensual, ****** or virtual. However its clever affliction, direction and infection. Its con- densed defense, a pretense of self-sense and intense suspense! Unfortunately, if induced, seduced or misused, the abused may eventually fuse! An abstruse spruce, controversially in use. Gratefully to some; the increasing of peace and a truce is to become. I proclaim with claim! It blames, deems and seems forever! For those endeavoring, policing and severing this noose and nuisance of abuse!
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Mar 29, 2012
Mar 29, 2012 at 9:50 PM UTC
POEM ENTITLED: “ABUSED”
*An unprecedented night with friends. We were talking about the moon and the stars, figuring out the constellations that we were too young for, and for some reason, love, we were talking about you instead. She declared that you've permanently lost your dear lady, that I personally could not do without. For some other reason, darling, I was in awe of your beauty. However, you were encompassed in an aura of self-confidence, and I couldn't believe you all along. That smile never left your visage, so I was left wondering how you do it, making it seem like you've reached salvation easily. This tear-stained paper I'm writing on is my heart breaking into pieces for you. You will always have my condolence, my skinny love, and my worthwhile silence. Never have I imagined being distraught this much, for I am in a state of self-loathing, despising how I didn't try harder to be in your company. To confront you, and to endlessly love you. But I'm sorry I never got the chance to tell you how beautiful of a soul you are. Maybe someday when you're truly jubilant, with no fake smiles and no dry tears, you'd read this poem and perhaps, you may think of the girl who let you borrow her pen but left it with you on purpose so she'd have a chance of talking to you again, only to find out that you never gave it back. Love, it's okay now because I have a wider scope of things, and you may have been too occupied shedding tears for her to pay some attention to my green ballpoint pen. I forgive you. And I hope you forgave me when I lied to you and smiled, because in reality, we are all sad souls with fleeting moments of happiness, endeavoring to reach solitude, with neither of us saying what we really mean. And I guess nobody ever does.*
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Feb 8, 2015
Feb 8, 2015 at 9:19 AM UTC
An Apology Letter For Mercury
*An unprecedented night with friends. We were talking about the moon and the stars, figuring out the constellations that we were too young for, and for some reason, love, we were talking about you instead. She declared that you've permanently lost your dear lady, that I personally could not do without. For some other reason, darling, I was in awe of your beauty. However, you were encompassed in an aura of self-confidence, and I couldn't believe you all along. That smile never left your visage, so I was left wondering how you do it, making it seem like you've reached salvation easily. This tear-stained paper I'm writing on is my heart breaking into pieces for you. You will always have my condolence, my skinny love, and my worthwhile silence. Never have I imagined being distraught this much, for I am in a state of self-loathing, despising how I didn't try harder to be in your company. To confront you, and to endlessly love you. But I'm sorry I never got the chance to tell you how beautiful of a soul you are. Maybe someday when you're truly jubilant, with no fake smiles and no dry tears, you'd read this poem and perhaps, you may think of the girl who let you borrow her pen but left it with you on purpose so she'd have a chance of talking to you again, only to find out that you never gave it back. Love, it's okay now because I have a wider scope of things, and you may have been too occupied shedding tears for her to pay some attention to my green ballpoint pen. I forgive you. And I hope you forgave me when I lied to you and smiled, because in reality, we are all sad souls with fleeting moments of happiness, endeavoring to reach solitude, with neither of us saying what we really mean. And I guess nobody ever does.*
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1759 Which misses most, The hand that tends, Or heart so gently borne, ’Tis twice as heavy as it was Because the hand is gone? Which blesses most, The lip that can, Or that that went to sleep With “if I could” endeavoring Without the strength to shape?
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Eventually We all become believers You will see We all hit the gutters And deceive What we know Into what we need Feeding On the hope To cope With the NO Of every plea Foiling The gaping holes While fruitlessly Feathering dreams Of ceasing To be Anywhere but there Anywhere but here Afraid and aware Lying barren On a hair To everywhere But where we want to be Your everything Believed in our belief In our grieving Of a meme Obsolete and teething on a *** Seething in seeing it Unseamed And undone Unto nothing Disconnected dots Unlit Breathing out And away From meaning Slightly clinging To the things Believed To Matter Scattered over The tattered matters In meteor Metaphors Seeding The other chapters But not until after Factoring in The tractor beams Of nothing Just waiting On the bottom Of the gut Crawling up The throat lumps And stuffing our luck With all the succulent stuff We are made of Until eruptions Of higher functions Save us From the **** When enough Is enough And we just stop Giving a .... And let go Blow after blow Until we know Who is in control Of what is real And what is Made up From atoms to the eave Of our dreams We must glean What we need to To get us through These words Of hurt Out from lurking In the work Of our enemies Forever tempting me To blaspheme In the wake Of your passing The endeavoring Ever lasting In careful mapping Of the synapses Collapsing Into relief Though brief Locked in eternity Oh the possibilities My everything And my humility Locked in a single thought In anxiety Gone quietly My hands before me Steady Always ready Blanket me In blank Make me Or break me Take me To forever
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Jun 12, 2013
Jun 12, 2013 at 1:03 AM UTC
Divided
Eventually We all become believers You will see We all hit the gutters And deceive What we know Into what we need Feeding On the hope To cope With the NO Of every plea Foiling The gaping holes While fruitlessly Feathering dreams Of ceasing To be Anywhere but there Anywhere but here Afraid and aware Lying barren On a hair To everywhere But where we want to be Your everything Believed in our belief In our grieving Of a meme Obsolete and teething on a *** Seething in seeing it Unseamed And undone Unto nothing Disconnected dots Unlit Breathing out And away From meaning Slightly clinging To the things Believed To Matter Scattered over The tattered matters In meteor Metaphors Seeding The other chapters But not until after Factoring in The tractor beams Of nothing Just waiting On the bottom Of the gut Crawling up The throat lumps And stuffing our luck With all the succulent stuff We are made of Until eruptions Of higher functions Save us From the **** When enough Is enough And we just stop Giving a .... And let go Blow after blow Until we know Who is in control Of what is real And what is Made up From atoms to the eave Of our dreams We must glean What we need to To get us through These words Of hurt Out from lurking In the work Of our enemies Forever tempting me To blaspheme In the wake Of your passing The endeavoring Ever lasting In careful mapping Of the synapses Collapsing Into relief Though brief Locked in eternity Oh the possibilities My everything And my humility Locked in a single thought In anxiety Gone quietly My hands before me Steady Always ready Blanket me In blank Make me Or break me Take me To forever
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I. Incumbent incubus; An evil man sees the light So he seizes the light Zealously endeavoring to extinguish its fervor II. Duplicitous snake; Trembling, the ground gives way All the while shadows in his mind Animate a reflection of life All embracing, smothering him Enveloped like a butterfly in his chrysalis III. Beguiling wolf; Frantically he seizures Oh, unbeliever With magnificent gusto, Manifests the Inferno Ubiquitously irradiating To both cleanse, and drive the shadows hiding just beyond sight Once more into the infernal abyss
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Sep 5, 2013
Sep 5, 2013 at 4:39 AM UTC
False Messiah
Nightfall stretched out like a canvas, Discordant screams rattled the night; People hid within the darkness, Endeavoring to survive until morning light. A grotesque creature, long-decayed Clawed at my arm as I cowered; In a moment I would die and Be entirely overpowered. Gunshots lashed at the air, And the monster's hands fell away from me. I turned on my heel and ran, Began to quickly flee. I tripped on what felt like a corpse, And cried as footsteps sounded behind me; But it was a human hand that pulled this time, And human voice that sounded, "Let me lead." Guns blazing, the strange man led me, Through the streets of the rising dead; And we said not a single word, Until later when it was time for bed. We nestled together under the stars, And he held my face in his hands: "You are a very handsome, And attractive man." I would blush if I were not wholly content, Staring into the blue of his eyes; The next morning there would Be even more undead to fight. But this night we had each other, Were completely safe and sound; I was lucky that I had Been saved and found. "Thank you for saving me," I whispered to the man; And he kissed me then, withdrew, And said, "Love is my foremost plan."
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Jan 20, 2016
Jan 20, 2016 at 10:47 PM UTC
Romance of the Night
vitamin after vitamin envisioning happiness laced in each one maybe it will "help" or maybe its all in your head and you're endeavoring to place it in mine with a glass of water and slight smile
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Sep 3, 2013
Sep 3, 2013 at 8:03 AM UTC
"have this, it'll help"
I am a little drop of tear Falling from the eye of a soul in heaven Willing to make his lover hear That he watches her twenty four seven. At the moment of despair When he sighs out warm air I make my way back to him As if I was called upon by the grim To finish my journey on land And come back with memories hand in hand. He never notices me Since I am a ****** dew So he never sees That the people I trust are just few, The people I love the most Are limited in my heart. I fall again When he cries for his lover I tap my fingers on her window But she ignores it as she doesn't know How much effort it takes To help someone reunite How much tantrums people make When they have a fight. His screams growl in the sky The lightning flickers like a broken bulb I am too shy To tell I'm not comfortable being his messenger When I have a message for him But I still try, To reach her, Endeavoring to break her window With the infuriated winds To try and tell her he left But now he only thinks About her and no one else Not even the one beside him, his messenger The shy messenger, the silent one Trying to wake up the resilient, His lover, who has become deaf After years of misery and listening to the heaven's cry Without realising that it was her lover, And an effort of the lonely messenger to make them reunite. I am the small part of this story, The story of three lovers, I being the messenger Being the soft and small part of his tear, Reaching his lover, Trying to make her smile, Trying to make him smile But as the rainy season ends, All the tears freeze, The cold winds start to blow, The hard to bear heavy breeze, I regret to make a delay In trying to make him smile in glee For all my petty efforts failed To make him see that day When like all the romantic stories End in a cliche.
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Mar 12, 2015
Mar 12, 2015 at 3:11 PM UTC
Cliché
I am a little drop of tear Falling from the eye of a soul in heaven Willing to make his lover hear That he watches her twenty four seven. At the moment of despair When he sighs out warm air I make my way back to him As if I was called upon by the grim To finish my journey on land And come back with memories hand in hand. He never notices me Since I am a ****** dew So he never sees That the people I trust are just few, The people I love the most Are limited in my heart. I fall again When he cries for his lover I tap my fingers on her window But she ignores it as she doesn't know How much effort it takes To help someone reunite How much tantrums people make When they have a fight. His screams growl in the sky The lightning flickers like a broken bulb I am too shy To tell I'm not comfortable being his messenger When I have a message for him But I still try, To reach her, Endeavoring to break her window With the infuriated winds To try and tell her he left But now he only thinks About her and no one else Not even the one beside him, his messenger The shy messenger, the silent one Trying to wake up the resilient, His lover, who has become deaf After years of misery and listening to the heaven's cry Without realising that it was her lover, And an effort of the lonely messenger to make them reunite. I am the small part of this story, The story of three lovers, I being the messenger Being the soft and small part of his tear, Reaching his lover, Trying to make her smile, Trying to make him smile But as the rainy season ends, All the tears freeze, The cold winds start to blow, The hard to bear heavy breeze, I regret to make a delay In trying to make him smile in glee For all my petty efforts failed To make him see that day When like all the romantic stories End in a cliche.
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In a world of repression, Struggling for salvation. Amidst an aura of dolour, Searching for that fragrance of ecstasy. Amidst the loathing black clouds, Searching for the glint of intimacy. When lost in a desolate land of colluders, Looking for a true companion to breeze in. When squawk of exploitation went unheard, Shrieking to pull humanity out of vice. In a world of tyranny, Pacifistically,Endeavoring for liberty. Struggling, shrieking, endeavoring and dreaming for a just and virtuous world, YES I AM ALIVE with a hope.
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Oct 15, 2014
Oct 15, 2014 at 2:24 PM UTC
Hope...
Oh, to be a sad balloon... and sail the wayward wind alone To leave this troubled world behind, embark upon the vast unknown Yet somewhere.. I can hear the soulful song that loneliness intones I realize that there are things your heart, and mine… could not condone It seems that I may so escape my darkness.. in the shining sky Perhaps to drift away in blue, where sorrow fails to underlie I hope you realize, within my dreams… I never saw you cry I rise to sad uncertainty, with cigarette and eau de vie I wait for the approaching light, and hope to witness healing dawn The sun however, fails to so provide what hearts depend upon But I suppose the wind has seen to ordination .. love foregone To leave my spirit resolute, embodiment of hope withdrawn These thoughts that crowd my mind at times, have left me strangely ill at ease Though I recall my dreams of love, do not misunderstand me please My aspirations lie above, and there are many thoughts of these Until my sorrow once again, arrives upon the savage breeze To leave me here in desolation, endeavoring to soar the skies To wonder, when will truth contend... dispatch the dread and dire lies Can I have hope of happiness?... well I don’t know...but I surmise My sorrow stands as barricade, for tears I’ve placed there in your eyes So I aspire to ride the wind, out far beyond the waning moon To leave disorder furthermost, where love and kindness then commune So I may know the many reasons, hearts were broken... much too soon I bid farewell to radiance, in a wretched ode to a sad balloon... Dean Evans 12-31-14
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Jan 1, 2015
Jan 1, 2015 at 7:14 PM UTC
SAVAGE BREEZE (ode to a sad balloon)
Oh, to be a sad balloon... and sail the wayward wind alone To leave this troubled world behind, embark upon the vast unknown Yet somewhere.. I can hear the soulful song that loneliness intones I realize that there are things your heart, and mine… could not condone It seems that I may so escape my darkness.. in the shining sky Perhaps to drift away in blue, where sorrow fails to underlie I hope you realize, within my dreams… I never saw you cry I rise to sad uncertainty, with cigarette and eau de vie I wait for the approaching light, and hope to witness healing dawn The sun however, fails to so provide what hearts depend upon But I suppose the wind has seen to ordination .. love foregone To leave my spirit resolute, embodiment of hope withdrawn These thoughts that crowd my mind at times, have left me strangely ill at ease Though I recall my dreams of love, do not misunderstand me please My aspirations lie above, and there are many thoughts of these Until my sorrow once again, arrives upon the savage breeze To leave me here in desolation, endeavoring to soar the skies To wonder, when will truth contend... dispatch the dread and dire lies Can I have hope of happiness?... well I don’t know...but I surmise My sorrow stands as barricade, for tears I’ve placed there in your eyes So I aspire to ride the wind, out far beyond the waning moon To leave disorder furthermost, where love and kindness then commune So I may know the many reasons, hearts were broken... much too soon I bid farewell to radiance, in a wretched ode to a sad balloon... Dean Evans 12-31-14
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Fractured, ruined, lost within my thoughts. Soaked too the bone with baneful memories, Like vines entwined in my brain banging at the door just to breath, Your insensibility, absurdity and nonsense is like a fire burning deep within me, because if it wasn't for your ignorance we wouldn't be in this reality. Your words like venom spiting cruel **** Always saying I love you but, “Your thighs are too thick” So choke on you articulation on this proper occasion, suffocating on your enlightening ******** as if finally you taste the appalling choice of your vocabulary, Instead of feasting on the frightening idea that you’ll be alone. Forever most likely. Instead of feeling the warmth of an embrace, the sweet softness of a kiss, or the burn of passion between two bodies. You'll shrivel up like skin that’s been adrift in the ocean, wrinkled, wreaked, and wicked ****** I feel sorry for you and the way that you’ll die, Cold and heart broken like a vase that was dropped from the sky. Ill pry that one day you’ll awake from this malevolent slumber And be forced to endure the endeavoring of your madness, To feel every verbal scar you left on anybody. Tearing away from beneath your skin, Slowly forcing you to mask holes of athencity to your past. So release me from your obnoxious, vicious grasp, Allowing me to be free from my entrapped sanity And leave the minefield surrounding me, Just waiting for it to backfire and convulse right here in front of me. Take back the conversations, Take back the fights, And late nights. Cut the memories right from the root and untangle them from my mind. You may have wasted my time, But I swear to you I lied because I wont love you any long for all time, I wont care for you, You’ll be an old bruise on my fragile body. Because I’m Fractured, ruined, and lost within my thoughts.
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Jun 8, 2015
Jun 8, 2015 at 9:29 AM UTC
Fractured
Fractured, ruined, lost within my thoughts. Soaked too the bone with baneful memories, Like vines entwined in my brain banging at the door just to breath, Your insensibility, absurdity and nonsense is like a fire burning deep within me, because if it wasn't for your ignorance we wouldn't be in this reality. Your words like venom spiting cruel **** Always saying I love you but, “Your thighs are too thick” So choke on you articulation on this proper occasion, suffocating on your enlightening ******** as if finally you taste the appalling choice of your vocabulary, Instead of feasting on the frightening idea that you’ll be alone. Forever most likely. Instead of feeling the warmth of an embrace, the sweet softness of a kiss, or the burn of passion between two bodies. You'll shrivel up like skin that’s been adrift in the ocean, wrinkled, wreaked, and wicked ****** I feel sorry for you and the way that you’ll die, Cold and heart broken like a vase that was dropped from the sky. Ill pry that one day you’ll awake from this malevolent slumber And be forced to endure the endeavoring of your madness, To feel every verbal scar you left on anybody. Tearing away from beneath your skin, Slowly forcing you to mask holes of athencity to your past. So release me from your obnoxious, vicious grasp, Allowing me to be free from my entrapped sanity And leave the minefield surrounding me, Just waiting for it to backfire and convulse right here in front of me. Take back the conversations, Take back the fights, And late nights. Cut the memories right from the root and untangle them from my mind. You may have wasted my time, But I swear to you I lied because I wont love you any long for all time, I wont care for you, You’ll be an old bruise on my fragile body. Because I’m Fractured, ruined, and lost within my thoughts.
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Just fractured textures Excerpts of memories, Forgotten conjectures Trapped in space and time; Just figments of rendered sectors that I’ve assembled to fabricate my reality beyond measure I’m tethered but the pressure Never lessens whatsoever Forever endeavoring to sever my essence Or consciousness altogether The splendor of the Nether Whether it’s my pleasure to ever enter Or remain a lonely specter destined to beg the question, but plagued to always remember I invent scenarios in my head And fantasize how I long to be dead While conceptualizing my grave end Though I dread the inevitable attempt The hand I’m dealt lost in the shuffle My walls crumble deciphering life’s puzzles Disillusioned with the hustle and bustle Solutions come full circle at the bottom of a bottle Mental status: unstable Cerebral stasis turns tables Visibly miserable and unable To cope without the love of my chemical savior From the apex, I’m ready to sail While failing to grasp what all it entails I steadily hide intent in my tales In my dreams I’m haunted since leaving the cradle Life is beautifully frail I see myself dancing in the portrayal with the reaper as the main feature veiled together in a cerebral theater Patterns intertwine In fashioned structures I slumber and suffer Painting caricatures Of a perfect life I yearn to capture In lustrous colors That fail to convert
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Jul 31, 2019
Jul 31, 2019 at 7:40 AM UTC
Fragments of my mind
Educate... Let them trade those weapons they hold so dear with papers and pens. Let them cease the bombing and hostility that's behind the aching of countries, families, and friends. Educate... Let there be no conflicts resolved through blood spilled by innocent souls. Exchange it for drops of ink endeavoring to mend and put the pieces back together of a country that was once whole. Educate... To foster peace and force change.
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Jan 3, 2014
Jan 3, 2014 at 1:05 PM UTC
Educate...
I imagine that I will fold my arms over the cage around my heart, subconsciously endeavoring to suppress the air in the hollow beneath it. But I'm sure I'll only succeed in drawing attention to the vulnerability I was trying to hide in the first place. Even though few people consider fleeing as an act of bravery, I hope I will find the courage to turn around and run. But glancing back, I will drink in that which I've been pining to see - your face, handsome and solemn as ever. Your heart no longer says my name, yet mine has yours written all over it. I'm scarred from all the times that I scratched it out with a razor in the hope that I could somehow forget. It's a battle that I continue to lose. I don't know if I will ever win. I'm doubtful, but ever hopeful.
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Oct 30, 2012
Oct 30, 2012 at 2:01 AM UTC
If I Were To See You Again
Golden wings flutter lightly across the back of my hand, relaying to me traces of dreams only their feeble minds could capture. Soft, flickering melodies descend through their grey, wintry-like gazes, as their quiet thoughts echo through their silent, fragile words. Endless emotions reverberate from the walls of their minds, as I gaze at their rapid movement, endeavoring to weave their tales together. Still, reality and fantasy keep swimming aimlessly across my brain until finally, finally, I stroke the blank page with my pen. One by one, those butterflies stop, as they scrutinize the wondrous obsession which led to my desire, my passion. They watch as my fingers drum impatiently against the page, somehow sensing the troubled confines of my imagination. It wasn’t long before they stop floating by. Instead, they begin to watch me, with those intelligent, naive eyes of theirs. Whether it be from confusion or amusement, I couldn’t tell. Still, even with my now small audience gathering near, I am left only with a memory of what once was my own. I could only pick up my pen, and write down their movements, their thoughts and emotions, the curiosities and sanities that possessed them to be near me. I wrote down the beauty of their strong, fragile wings, all the while keeping their quiet sonnets to myself. I read and reread, write and rewrite, until there was nothing left of the forgotten, neglected space I once dreamt of. And so, I could only gaze back at the butterflies from my own madness, all the while looking back at the page I filled with my own words. Black words, golden words, words that carried both blessings and curses, words that tore my heart asunder, while keeping my sanity whole. Then, in that same breath, I shoo my butterflies away. I begin my story.
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Dec 28, 2016
Dec 28, 2016 at 11:35 AM UTC
Once Upon a Time
Golden wings flutter lightly across the back of my hand, relaying to me traces of dreams only their feeble minds could capture. Soft, flickering melodies descend through their grey, wintry-like gazes, as their quiet thoughts echo through their silent, fragile words. Endless emotions reverberate from the walls of their minds, as I gaze at their rapid movement, endeavoring to weave their tales together. Still, reality and fantasy keep swimming aimlessly across my brain until finally, finally, I stroke the blank page with my pen. One by one, those butterflies stop, as they scrutinize the wondrous obsession which led to my desire, my passion. They watch as my fingers drum impatiently against the page, somehow sensing the troubled confines of my imagination. It wasn’t long before they stop floating by. Instead, they begin to watch me, with those intelligent, naive eyes of theirs. Whether it be from confusion or amusement, I couldn’t tell. Still, even with my now small audience gathering near, I am left only with a memory of what once was my own. I could only pick up my pen, and write down their movements, their thoughts and emotions, the curiosities and sanities that possessed them to be near me. I wrote down the beauty of their strong, fragile wings, all the while keeping their quiet sonnets to myself. I read and reread, write and rewrite, until there was nothing left of the forgotten, neglected space I once dreamt of. And so, I could only gaze back at the butterflies from my own madness, all the while looking back at the page I filled with my own words. Black words, golden words, words that carried both blessings and curses, words that tore my heart asunder, while keeping my sanity whole. Then, in that same breath, I shoo my butterflies away. I begin my story.
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I watched you walk Shoe laces untied Right out that door I peered at more Your spine shimmering I gave you hell But here you are Leaving Your bones rake and rattle I can here them when i'm close But what got me What really got me Was the skyscraper you seem to pull out every time there it is Holding your soul at such a peak But your bones are frail And i yet weak You hold but a piece of me Yet i am weak Endeavoring is only the conquest Am i not right? Or am i a bit bashful I wish you farewell sky Scraper Until at last i reach your soul At the top
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Aug 3, 2014
Aug 3, 2014 at 4:16 AM UTC
Bye bye
Sin so sickening yet beckoning you closer, Its twisted tendrils of temptation seeking your destructive desires, Your purity is worthless and hidious, it seeks your submission to the sinister Ferociously endeavoring its newest prisoner Devouring your sanity, it enters your skin Surrounded by blackness, you start chasing sin
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Nov 29, 2015
Nov 29, 2015 at 7:31 PM UTC
Sin
Simplicity is not often with me, For I am constantly spinning myself Into a labyrinthine web of words. (It's a problem - the spinner in my head Cranks out WAY too much thoughtful thread.) But I know how pointless it is to live this short life without openly sharing my truths, So, full of ambition, I endlessly aspire to keep the door open To this messy box. So I wade through the mess Collecting anchoring chords, Endeavoring to weave them Into an elegant and refined tapestry, Ready to be presented to you. One that says, "Ever see the sun as the star it is, hanging in the sky?" "Imagine giant glaciers bowling over these plains," "What's stopping us from staying out all night?" or "Let me list all the ways you are a beacon to my spirit", "Please tell me about everything you love," "I look forward to these moments with you every other moment." But that's always, like, way too much.
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Oct 17, 2017
Oct 17, 2017 at 10:46 PM UTC
Day 17: Graceful
Why is your soul so attractive to me?        I wanted you before I knew you I made you up                     unknowingly piece    by     piece                           you came together    in my past, endeavoring, thoughts before I knew I had you        in front of me From the first moment I knew    I felt like we've known each other before                           maybe we have.. It sparked my curiosity         why are you so intriguing    it is rather exciting          Cognitively, I put up my security       and held up my heraldry But I am slowly seeing, you are not one to be fearing        Why are you this way?                Why are you so beautiful     Perhaps because I am use to the hostile You must experience darkness to appreciate the light     I embrace your light and soak it up like the rays of the Sun                     Of all the questions I have but just one         to answer me, please       can we continue to be
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Jan 24, 2013
Jan 24, 2013 at 12:00 PM UTC
a light in the darkness
Is it possible, to be walking worthily, before our God, in a world that’s dying? While we have some defined understanding of the constraints that are placed on us, are we making the effort or even trying? Are we operating with humbled mindsets of lowliness, meekness and long-suffering? Have we grasped the full purpose and plans, for our vocation within His eternal Kingdom? Do our actions show that we’re endeavoring to move beyond personal crusades and desires to impress anyone, whose lives intersect ours? Is there a unity of The Spirit, whereby we can have serenity with everyone around us? Are we being productive or just wasting hours? Does our Christian lifestyle reflect the idea of us having one Lord, one Faith and one Baptism? Are those, within the Church or outside of it, being edified by the way we conduct ourselves? Or are we acting out… in spiritual vigilantism? . . . Author notes Inspired by: Eph 4:1-16 Learn more about me and my poetry at: http://amzn.to/1ffo9YZ By Joseph J. Breunig 3rd, © 2016, All rights reserved.
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Feb 27, 2016
Feb 27, 2016 at 6:57 PM UTC
Poem: Walking Worthily?