"affraid" poems
I think inside the box
I'm affraid to think about the outside
I think outside the box
I feel disgust to think about the inside
Then I get rid of the box
and my mind is free as the wind blow
Jun 18, 2015
Jun 18, 2015 at 7:47 PM UTC
Don't have much to say
Just writting, my heart to obey
Everything hurts so much today
Everything falls along, but not my way
I, a slay..
A clueless little girl, so gray
No way for me to go, affraid
Scared and alone once more, no hey!
Can't believe what my eyes saw today
Why do I feel so alone again, Sunday
Another week has passed away
I'm scared to ask for help, I pray
My lips where yours, your prey
My hips you touch, no shame
Is that your new girlfriend, Fray?
I can't believe what I saw today..
Jan 12, 2019
Jan 12, 2019 at 4:15 PM UTC
I belive it was in a rest stop outside of Nashville when I first discovred just what lost truely
was.
The people moved ants to a hive.
Ghost's to the shell so to speak.
Looking up routes streching worn stiff leg's and existing in personal bubbles.
Affraid a seconds conversation would burst a moments ******** cast
existance.
But I only sat watching happy to be a viewer to many seperate acts in a bound for nowhere
play.
Hey you have the time?
I dont even have a watch.
I replyed to some lost south bound kid more ******* up looking
than myself.
He said nothing more as he simply faded into the herd.
They were all bound for somewhere and me I was just killing time.
My home was wherever I could catch a few hours sleep.
And hopefully I'd be outta this state befor long.
I was a nomad most called me a ***
A traveler of fate and a lazy ******* to caught up in my own personal gains to settle down.
The voices of reason would seem to echo through strangers.
Whenever I'd take time to speak like some twisted record player
they'd always repeat.
So where you heading?
Nowhere and hopefully it has a bar.
Why you on the road?
Well really I just decided to take a walk one day.
Where from?
North Carolina.
Wow why you in Texas.
It's a long walk.
Man your weird!.
Arent we all in some way?
And with that the conversation would fade into my beloved silence.
And I would view the highway and it's ever changing landscape.
The mountian sunset's ,the desert in the moolight ,
A city slum to a rest stop outside of Nashville where you find me now.
I'd seen Americas watercolors and her sharp edges and still charming sleeze.
And from a shared ride to a cold park bench.
I was embracing the forbidden fruit spoken of by
far better fools and writers than me.
For true freedom was seldom safe.
But I viewed this world a travller a stranger to all including myself.
And from strange looks to even more bizzar remarks from thoose who couldnt fathom
someone existing with no true purpose.
The question always was asked
from so many forgetable faces.
So where are you going?
Im just taking a long walk home.
Sep 25, 2012
Sep 25, 2012 at 8:23 PM UTC
Sense of self-worth is something,
yet I don't know who I am
supposed to be,
Say something I could understand
and promise me to leave
me alone,
I don't understand why I have
no money and I am obsessed
with an image of someone
that I can never be,
I really want to write the
things I could never say and
I am affraid to say what I
want to write,
This is out of my dictionary
and the right words never
come and I lose the meaning
of it all,
I am an imitator and a
parrot,
my feelings frustrate me to no
end and precisely everyting
bothers me, to be honest,
what do I need to do when
I smile and grin at the
same time?
Something is horribly wrong
with me and I cannot make
sense of my surroundings,
this... this is what I
wanted to do! Yeah!! Oh, and
ontop of that, I'm somehow
consuming more than I
could chew;
there is nothing wrong with
me in a way and I
care about what happens when
I die,
Yes, I'm angry all the time
and it all starts from one simple
word that I did not understand
and it goes out to show that
I'm scared to be alone and
I do want to say so to someone
who cares,
life itself confuses me so there's
no point to even trying,
I lie and scream all the
time for no reason except when
I want to say something .. then
I keep quiet,
my mind is way too confusing
for people to understand so
there's no point in even trying
to speak,
the end is where I begin and
in the void I shall end!
Feb 5, 2019
Feb 5, 2019 at 5:54 AM UTC
Tired of the same old scenes around here.
Thought hey im gonna explore space.
Introduce Little space dudes to bad habbits
nudie mags and maybe share a beer.
Yeah it'll take some getting use to
anti gravity bars.
Pack up the whiskey and of course the kids
honey cause were moving to mars.
People kinda look at me like my
mind did slip.
just cause im going round collecting cans.
Hell with what else are ya supposed use to
build a spaceship.
I made a few changes it runs of corn whiskey
instead of rocket fuel.
You might think im crazy.
but when my home made rocket takes off
it'll be cool.
Say goodbye kids to your ***** grandfather Bert.
Hey darlin from up here I can see down your shirt.
It's three seconds to lift off people
ya might wanna move your houses as well as cars.
Cause lord knows whats gonna happen.
in my attempt to move to mars.
Its time for lift off crap honey do ya mind lighting
fuse.
Hey kids after this maybe we'll get a reality
show.
I mean if we dont die that would only make the local
news.
The homade rocket ship rattle and shook.
I knew i forgot something I mean it's a minor thing.
Steering wheels are overrated guess I should have got a book.
And as it lifted off into the sky.
I screamed like a little girl.
I forgot I was affraid to fly.
Yes I kinda fell short on my quest to the stars.
cause i crash landed in New Jersy.
Well kids sorry but Atlantic City is probaly
a bit more fun for daddy that is.
So much for moving to Mars.
Dec 26, 2009
Dec 26, 2009 at 10:22 AM UTC
Oh
Man
I ask you to
Stay
Ominous in the Sky
And I fly and I fly : . . : : : :. . . .::
Don't cry
I'm not affraid
I'm not affraid
To be lost inside your thoughts
You're reading my words
The ocean is waiting
Raging inside
Read in the wild
Read in the wild
Awwwwwwghhhhhhh
My name is so easy to love
And it Feels like falling
Awaiting for a mild
Air strings wilted
Winds of time
Dreams
Defined
Dreams
Defined
Deep into Lungs
Deep into Lungs
Flowery secrets lurk like
Molecules Merging
Lovers into the bright bloom
Both luminous
Both luminous
Writing these love letters
To each other
To bloom
Write me a love letter
With an invisible
Ink and a Magick
Figurative
Pen
A
Pen
Friend
Lover
Romance bourne
A thorough
:. . .
:
:: :: . . .
Falling
A thorough
. . : . .
::
..
:: . .
.
:
Falling
Apr 12, 2015
Apr 12, 2015 at 5:50 AM UTC
In this world full of hurt and pain, I need someone who would help me through the rain. To comfort me when Im sad, Doing everything just to make me glad. In this world I need a Brave Knight, Who would never give up any fight. A knight who would dry away my tears,
Helping me to overcome my fears. A knight who loves me for who I am inside, With him there's nothing more I need to hide. A person who will still be standing strong, Eventhough everything has gone wrong. I need someone who is willing to give me more, Someone I can call my Knight In Shining Armor
No love
sitting here staring at the closed door, i dont even know what for
the thoughts in my head are what make me feel dead, but then i remember its just in my head not what anyones said.
the times at school when u look at me like a fool, the hipster that made me take a fall embarressing me infront of all
its all you that made me like this, stuck here wondering what life is?
round and round the thoughts go, just like the room bellow
the drugs are cause of the lack of hugs, while i do it tough i get no love
while i feel like im drowning in the noon day sun you are all out just having fun
leaving me here to struggle alone my mind blown
stuck in this room feeling so small, and you stand up and walk so tall
confiendent and strong i just smile and play along
fake it til you make it they say well i do everyday! but look where its got me now
here alone in this room eating a thing they call a shroom
it takes away the pang of the day
now its night fall and im not looking as tall
i take it out on those i love and blame it on the drug
i know the morning will come but it wont be any fun
just like any other day i will just lay
staring at the room around and listening to every single sound
freaking out and affraid feeling betrayed
here goes another day wasted and feeling low why dont i say good bye and just fall bellow
Feb 12, 2014
Feb 12, 2014 at 5:13 AM UTC
I support the protection of animal right
even though i'm not an animal
I support human right of same gender marriage
even though i'm not gay
I have my belief
they have their ideals
we have our freedom
they have their right
you yelled that your belief teach love
but you curse their right to express love
I'm not betraying my belief
I just realize that it has nothing to do with their freedom
it's okay if you don't like them
it's not my bussiness if you affraid of them
that doesn't mean you can abuse them
that doesn't mean we can restrain them
maybe this word is not absolute
but if you keep trampling them with your belief
then you are centuries too early
to talk about humanity
Jun 28, 2015
Jun 28, 2015 at 9:17 PM UTC
Noises, voices, news, comercials, advertisements, pop ups.
All day we spend time been invaded with all kind of sounds, images and smells
Dragging our mind to the outer abyss
Being influenced, affected or accesory.
At night trying to sleep becomes realy hard
Those sounds, images and smells have created feelings
Ideas attached to my mind and they don't go away.
No at night I'm affraid, at night is quiet, it's dark
But my mind is bright, full of life and energy more than ever
Being in calm, darkness, quietness... Silence
Yes I'm affraid of silence, cutting of the external influences
Finding a way out of that outer abyss
Entering in that inner universe
Where the mind has no limits
There is not borders, there is an entire inner universe to explore
Where the mind has all the space to expand and try to be able to understand
And fail get up and try again.
Fear invade me at night
My mind get used to the limits, borders, the edges setted in the outer abyss
Setted by "morality", "customs", "traditions" anyway what people say is "correct"
My mind wants to be free, but is to scared of what could be found beyond.
Some times at night the outer abyss clashes with the inner universe being my mind the only witness.
Mar 17, 2014
Mar 17, 2014 at 11:27 AM UTC
The final page ..
I wanna do this one alone
I have friends
I'm never actually alone
I just always feel alone
I'm strong , intellectual and still in pain .
It hides behind a perfect mask
Called a smile
I really do love you too
More then you know, think and feel
I want to talk laugh and be with you
but I can't.
I can't hear myself think anymore.
I scream and can't hear myself anymore.
Its like a darkness inside of me and it feeds off all the negativity in my life.
Then there's you and my family
The light that outshines any darkness.
I'm completely speechless on the outside.
But I could write a book from what's in side of me.
The part I'm still affraid of
Is what's on the final page
Jan 16, 2014
Jan 16, 2014 at 1:37 AM UTC
I miss you like crazy!
This is'nt fair loving you is all I want and you're not here
I daydream about your lips and your gentle touch
partly because I can't sleep affraid of missing your call I tell mista sandman to come back tomorrow.
I think of you all day long you smile brittens my day. I want you here now! today!!
What have you done to me I'm useless for anything else my hours and mins drag on without you. The day seems pointless without you. Your love is my drug and i'm feening. Whitney said CRACK IS WACK but all I want is my drug back. This little time drags for eternity I need you here my serenity. My piece of mind from the tolls of the world my gift of peace that completes me.
Aug 25, 2014
Aug 25, 2014 at 1:05 PM UTC
i feel like i've been here before..
taken in by your eyes,
over powered by old lies..
i feel like i've walked across these grounds,
but i was broken before,
you read my mind,
so i left you there....
i feel like i've heard you speak my name,
but this was not the same,
you're different....
before you spoke my name out of anger,
and i sat quietly,
hushed in the corner.
i feel like i've cried my last tear,
not out of sorrow..
but out of loss....
i realized that i was never jealous....
i was affraid to lose you,
to something you began to miss....
Sep 25, 2011
Sep 25, 2011 at 8:12 PM UTC
An artists life is blue
When its mind is red
A gipsies say is true
When you're already dead.
A smiley can be sad
and crying can be good
A life can be pointless
If you can't see where you stood.
A world can be square
and a line can be straight.
It's a neverending line,
because you are affraid.
Affraid of the face of blue
And the colour of red
Affraid to see you
Affraid of the dead.
Nov 7, 2019
Nov 7, 2019 at 11:36 PM UTC
You say you don't sleep
you say you won't eat
you say many more things
that bring tears to my eyes.
I see you sliiping away
silent and fast
and I don't even know
who you are any more
or how long you'll last
But that's not what concerns me
It's that I can't seem to reach you
Far off
in your distant world
To give you advice
to help you see clear
that you are still here
that you can still live
You've already accepted
your impossible fate
I'm affraid I'm too late
to make a difference here
So I let you go
I watch as you die
Darling spread your white wings
and fly my friend
Fly.
Jun 21, 2012
Jun 21, 2012 at 8:47 PM UTC
Misstreating your corpse
Is sin
But i was forgiven
Scared of the dark
He stands in the corner
Looking like a foreighner
He motions me to come near
His face very unclear
Standing in the dark
His completly stark
As he walks near
I begin to hear
His voice speak and say
"Why dont we play"
Affraid and scared
I was unpreapared
For what came next
I would never have dared
Left lying there
As he sits in the chair
Theres a feeling in the air
Unhappy and sad
What just happened was bad
Knowing you just want me naked
I completely faked it
Feb 12, 2014
Feb 12, 2014 at 5:41 AM UTC
i gave you every sign,
you are on my mind.
im sorry i upset you,
You care i know you do.
im scared to show me to you....
you know you are my world,
and im your baby girl,
but im affraid of heart break,
i hope you understand.. ): <3
Sep 28, 2011
Sep 28, 2011 at 10:50 PM UTC
Ever had that one secret?
you cant tell anybody, but some know.
Ever have that one secret you wanna tell...but your affraid?
Ever had that one secret where you wanna start over
and not tell anyone?
Ever have that one person you thought you could trust,
then the truth comes, and you know you cant?
ever have that one secret, the school finds out,
you lose friends and gain some.
Ever have that one secret, and where you lose a friend, you know they arnt really your friend.
Ever have that one secret....
you just wish you had never told.
Everyone has secrets....
you just never know how bad someone's is.
Jan 13, 2011
Jan 13, 2011 at 5:50 AM UTC
Who's in control?
You or the labels around you
Your conscious will eat at your soul until you find you.
What are you affraid most?
The answer is probably yourself
No reason to fear them.
What will they do? **** you?
Free you from the imprisonment
Of this world
Unleash the person in the mirror.
The quiet soul
Whispering when heard
But screaming to be understood.
Jan 12, 2014
Jan 12, 2014 at 12:51 AM UTC
You can't frighten a man with death, when his not afraid to die
So when your knifes and guns don't scare me know that is the reason why
There is nothing more dangerous than one that doesn't care
So you had better tread lightly, you better beware
There's nothing more dangerous than one not affraid of death
Unafraid to take that final breath
I'll have a smile when I walk the reapers way
So all you ********* go on and bray
About the beauty of life and all them lies
I have lived this life, it's only made me cry
And I am not affraid to die
Mar 12, 2016
Mar 12, 2016 at 2:00 PM UTC
Your eyes seem to flare, your words rip through my skin.
My body trembling, my heart racing.
will there ever be an end?
Will I ever be enough?
Do you have to be so tough?
I'm in the corner, affraid, it's dark.
Your words slice through me.
If only looks could ****
Taking my life, like it would make a difference.
Leaving you, you would never learn.
A gentle touch, a warm embrace.
These are things I yearn.
Things you could never understand.
Feeling alone, bared a child, scorned, a one night stand?
But yet you're here. I see you sitting there.
Cold distant, a wrongful demand?
To want you to embrace me, to love me, to understand.
An hourglass, waiting for the sands to settle.
I'm sorry, I didn't mean to mettle.
I look at you, I see rage, blackness, cold.
I never will be enough. Who was I to think it such.
Tattered, torn, and affraid.
My heart today...
But any way...
Nothing matters.
May 17, 2015
May 17, 2015 at 11:26 AM UTC
Swimming in the sea of ecstasy
Is where I want to be
Just you and me
And when the storms blow
There's no need for fear to grow
We'll just drift with the flow
We can float on our backs
There will be nothing we lack
And when the sharks attack
You'll just pull out your blade
That with your own hands you have made
I won't be affraid
I will cherish these days
You set my soul a blaze
Into your eye's I'll deeply gaze
My icy cold heart will start to drip
As I kiss your soft lips
And we tighten our grip
The waves will carry us along
As our hearts beat out a lovers song
Because I know in your arms I belong
For it's you I adore
And there will be so much more in store
When we wash up on that sandy shore
Mar 14, 2016
Mar 14, 2016 at 9:42 PM UTC
A man plants what another sows but only God can make it grow
a man breaks his faith and praise the world
deny his soul for he's afraid
and in the world he stays
Men's sinful antics crippling as he strays fear is the master of his shame
The shinning stars are magic to a child's gaze
Children swing in laughfter not affraid to go faster they see clearly threw the rain
Devils telling riddles planting seeds of doubt inside his brain
One will look for answers one will pray while science gains and art decays
God gets his defients an alliance must be made
let not what we doubt or understand be so dreadful to withstand
For pride grows like wild weeds inside a man
Lifted by the crowed he's praised
Man is weak and drops him on his crown to end his reign
He put his faith in man and left in pain thank God we live to fight another day
To seek the truth my
friend so rest your tired eyes and be at peace their is an end.
Feb 21, 2018
Feb 21, 2018 at 9:55 AM UTC
I walked alone for so long,
I tried to sing a happy song,
I did and i liked the tune,
But there were no words
I was brave and I carried on,
No words would fit my happy song,
I tried to find the words to fit,
But nothing came they wouldnt sit
Now since you i sing the words,
I'm even watched by the birds,
They look and wonder where i am,
They ask each other how i can
The answers simple my feathered friends,
I found a love that just wont end,
I fell in love thats why i sing,
I'll ask the girl to wear my ring
I sing my song now and i'm not affraid,
I realise how love is made,
If you listen you will know,
Just how a song of love should go.
Apr 20, 2012
Apr 20, 2012 at 6:03 PM UTC
You remind me of my needs
Floating by me in your summer dress
We were alone, but you kept yourself
All I wanted was your kiss
Fingers gently rolling off your lips
A goodbye fell from your tongue
I couldn't be more affraid
Forgetting your face, your lips, your eyes
You told me what you wanted
I darkened the sky so you could see the stars
I removed the earth so you could fly
You were all I needed
BB2013
Apr 20, 2013
Apr 20, 2013 at 7:51 AM UTC