Now that I'm awake, I once again realised what I've lost.
I guess I'm just used to being used around and tossed.
If you can make mistakes, but I can't...
I just keep wondering who really is my friend.
Now that I'm sober, I can finally see them appart.
Those who dropped me when things got hard.
Those who are still near me even though I made a fuss.
All aline, an empty line, no one cares thus...
All alone an empty world with only those who are near.
Forced to care by blood or court, I'm seeing so clear.
Am I so difficult to love, in moments of despair.
With come and go perspective, I just don't think it's fair.
All those who read this might understand.
For this last poem, is for all those who denied my hand.
All alone at last, I will finally give up on you.
For I am human, nothing more, no one understands me too.
For this last poem I will walk alone, awake my rust.
For it will be hard for me to ever, ever gain more trust.
Awaking from my depression, noticing that in my moment of weakness, I rise alone. All left me in my worst period, all dropped me in my biggest moment of need... I do not believe in people anymore