The final page ..
I wanna do this one alone
I have friends
I'm never actually alone
I just always feel alone
I'm strong , intellectual and still in pain .
It hides behind a perfect mask
Called a smile
I really do love you too
More then you know, think and feel
I want to talk laugh and be with you
but I can't.
I can't hear myself think anymore.
I scream and can't hear myself anymore.
Its like a darkness inside of me and it feeds off all the negativity in my life.
Then there's you and my family
The light that outshines any darkness.
I'm completely speechless on the outside.
But I could write a book from what's in side of me.  
The part I'm still affraid of
Is what's on the final page