It's so hard to go through life
Separated from your friends.
Without a friend to tell everything to,
Be it everything that was great,
Or everything that wasn't,
You feel empty.
Alone.
Depressed.
Conversing via text,
Facebook,
Or snapchat
Just isn't the same.
You want someone to hug you
Or run up and surprise you
Just for the heck of it,
Or just to make you smile.
You want to feel the connection
When you look into someone's eyes
And can see their story.
And you want someone to listen
As you try to unravel your own.
Especially if you're broken
And torn to shreds
From all the use
Your so called friends at school
Put you through.
You want to know that someone's
There
At 3 am
When the tears and hurt won't stop.
But how do you know
If the person you text everyday
Will be there for you
When you think about ending it all:
The pain
The sleeplessness
The everything?
How do you know
They're there
When you never hear their voice
Or see what's behind their eyes?
How do you know
They're not fed up
With all of your life's problems?
How do you know...?

I don't.

This silence is killing me.
Was it too much?
Am I that annoying?
Should I give them space?
The mind is a powerful thing
Because it can make or break someone's day
With all the crazy concoctions
And scenarios it cooks up
And the pain it inflicts
Even when there is nothing there.
It's all about interpretation.
The mind can help you pass a test
Or make you fail.
The mind can make a dream come true
Or ruin it with the nightmare of
Reality.
The mind is where I see you and me.
The mind is where I am free.
From pain.
From torture.
From life.
My mind is where I go
When I can look in the mirror
No more.

I need to go somewhere else
Where pain is illegal
And happiness is free -
If I could find that place,
Life would be so much easier for me...
Because all I know is that society's corrupt
With the fake and the impossible
And the hurt and the cruel
The only option i see is for me to just give up...
But I'm stronger than that. <3