i lost my colors to fate..
i lost my colors to sin..
they faded away in one day..
it was as if i lost hope..
lost belief..

this was a feeling like no other..
a sort of sad gray that washes everything away..
a sea of shades..
sad shades and shadows..
to lose belief..

but all at once it can be remembered..
the colors in this plain of gray..
a song heard from the memory of me..
played by you under the gray sun..
i can feel the tones paint me..

its like a chill..
that travels in waves across the body..
where every cell remembers the feeling..
that true feeling of belief..
because you have always done that for me..
you have always believed in me..

I think of the units who are getting a good night sleep with the one worry of just getting up to go to work.   I suppose its because that was me two weeks ago.  Just get up and go to work.  But now I am on the RUN.   Across the nation to destination I can't share.  Tonite I sleep off the grid by a creek with no name.  

It starts to rain down on this old truck I stole from some farmer back in Texas.  I am on the RUN because I have truly woke up.  No longer bound by these invisible chains of programs,  I am free!

My self given misson is to wake all the others.  To let them know freedom.  This can only be done from one destination.  There I will broadcast the freedom code across all bands in a worldwide pattern.  
I just have to make it! I need to RUN!

The everyday life you and I live is able to happen because of something unseen..

This unseen force will forever die in order for us to live..

If one day we see this unseen force, we will fight for its survival.

The very little things make grand possibilities.

i SUPPOSE THE END IS NOT SO BAD AFTER ALL..
after all it was us that brought it upon ourselves..
but ILL HOLD ON TO THIS LIGHT ANYWAY..
Ill cup it in my hands and let it shine on the lines..
In the end at least ill know it was with you..
This darkness really does have no mercy..
I smile at the thought of it not being able to consume my hands that cup this light..
The darkness waits and waits until i finally let go of the light..
I look into my glowing hands and day dream..
I can see the clear day..
Blue skies..
The star filled skies wisper their light as the moon's silver rays light up your dress..
Its time to let go..
All i can give you is this sun..
May it light your days until it burns out..

I have found myself thinking of the end.. weather it will be darkness or light.. I often think of the music that helps me write.. How someone else's creation helps me create new ones.. But I am only left to wonder.. My dreams have been showing me a heaven from all different strange angles..  I really could not begin to describe it to all of you..  There are colors there that we have not yet seen.. There are emotions there that we have not yet felt.. These warm nights have been showing me a clear beautiful sky.. I sometimes speak to the stars because I know something out there hears me..  I truly hope I am forever as well as the ones I love!

I am not suppose to stay..
I cannot..
So for one last time lets walk under your stars..
I'll point you in the direction to where I am from..
I have come here for one thing only..
And once I found that one thing I have to go back and spread what I found..
You have led me to that one thing..
We call it Urasa, And you call it Love!
And I love you!

I follow you into the light..
The prisms of your dream light..
The sun came up and became my light..

I awoke with you in the night..
The rain of moon glow lit up the night..
We travel together hidden forever in the night..

The sun chased us back to dream..
Hidden in darkness we sleep and dream..
To not burn in the sun can only happen in dream..

All we have is the memory of light..
And the moon light in the night..
We day sleep and see the sun in dream..
V A M P I R E

This was a failed experiment on a grand scale indeed.  I was the creator of a new machine that could repair itself and live forever.  But something went wrong.  Something I did not foresee.   I made two versions of such a machine, version x and version y.  They were everything I had hoped for!  Strong and intelligent.  They could adapt to any circumstance.  But the machines I had built seem to not want to work for us anymore.  In a very cleaver way they managed to build a vessel in secret and leave the planet.   It was then one million years later we found where they had went.  A small little planet in the milky way system called Earth.  They went there to die but yet live forever.  The oxygen on this planet is poisonous which their bodies could only sustain for 75 to 110 years.  They had gathered lore on a place known as heaven.   A place beyond our universe.  The only way through is to expire or die. This is what they wanted us to think.   They had managed to replicate themselves into 6 billion different versions.  Their true intent was more sinister than expected.   They were planning on returning with their grand army of themselves and destroying us all.   Their vessel is deep in an ocean known as the Atlantic.  They are still there.  Molding their replications and prepping them for an invasion that would have happened in the next 3000 years.  CODE ADAM AND EVE aka (Version x and Version y )must be stopped.

I have been dreaming beautiful for the past week.

Dreams about brooks in a forest of my creation.  The crystal waters run into a cave where the sunlight shines through small holes creating rays of light as I walk bare foot in the shallow stream of water.

Dreams about 2 rivers running parallel to each other. One green and one blue.  I see them from above as I fly on by. I follow both the rivers to a blue green lake where I see dragons and magical creatures enjoying the land I created.

Dreams about another world where the grass is pink, and the sky is purple. The flowers are all luminescent. The stars exist in the canals here.  


Dreams about ghostly like jellyfish the flutter in the night sky and become the stars.  ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Haze.. come on down to the slow storm in my head.. come on down to the black sunny day.. voodoo smoke fills my lungs.. absorbing of her soul.. Through airways I consume her.. I lose my way back.. shadows made of light chase me through the haze.. blackness here is beauty that I cannot seem to hold on to.. The day is passed.. The night is wishing for me to stay.. so much blood is falling.. slow storm finally clears in my head.. A sky there was.. voodoo smoke cloud sky... goodbye haze....

When I awoke I was sailing among the stars..
No water below no gravity at all..
The ship was made of wood and her sails made of strange golden light..
For the moment I forgot about the Earth..
For the moment I forgot about home..
I was all alone on this ship sailing toward the center of our galaxy..
There was a guitar inside the captains champers..
I took it outside and played to all the passing stars..
I played and I played for light years that seem like seconds..
The stars shined brighter and brighter the longer I played.
That is until reached the center of the galaxy..
It was there I met with all the other ships.
All sailing from home..
To come home..
There were 3 of them..
Each one of them had a different instrument..
We stood there at the center of the galaxy and begin to play for eternity.
We spun the star circle..

at first i feel the water..
it carries me to this utopia of thoughts upon thoughts..
where the sancutuary of dreams reside..

all worries have faded..
i finally open my eyes and see that the skies are a purple and beautiful blue.. the clouds are as white as the holy light..
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i close my eyes and feel the air under me..
it carries me beyond my thoughts and into the thoughts of others..
where i see beauty through the eyes of another.. a beauty that has always been there but i could not see with my own eyes..

there is no more ugly.. its a feeling of content like no other.. i see only beauty.. i am happy beyond anything..
))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))­)))))))))))))))))))

i close my eyes and feel the sun shine down on me..
it warms my body with a warmth that i will have for eternity..
i will never be cold again.. never will i be cold to anyone again..

i will only hold you and help you shine on through..
it will never be only you.. it will forever be us..
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i close my eyes and feel this earth below me..
i now stand in absolute of who i am and where i am..
this place is an ascension of my soul..

i have been through the bad and the worse.. i was able to keep walking on through.. hand and hand.. forever, whenever!
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Walking the circle trail I made.  
A temporary scar in the grass.
Under the peeking moon.  
I share my secrets to the stars.

The old light hears true.
Imaginations are realities in the elsewhere eternity.
Sometimes I wonder.
If we absorb it all from there.  

But my stars shine over them.
Walking their circle made trails in their night.
I could only wonder if my secrets were received.
Or simply understood as imaginations and ideas.

The morning glow sings its chorus to the verse of darkness.
I jump on my bike and ride toward the forest.
I cut through the trails at the speed of light.
Lightning surrounds me and I move through time.

I am above the clouds waring the cloak of a star.
I move through the twilight sky near and far.
I see myself below as I see myself beyond.
With only one of me knowing how all this corresponds.

I reach the outer rims of our galaxy.
Where shadows of angels view their transcalency.
I pass through the veil beyond what is all.
And find the being playing with the universe emotions enthralled.

On calm sunsets under the tree..
The sun speckles dim..
And turns into glow..
Replaced by moonlit kisses..
That find their way to my eyes..
I dream of you..
While I am awake..
The night tide comes in..
And I am caught in its undertow..
I flow away into true dream..
Where day and night or one..
The never to be mixture..
Under the tree looking up..
Both moon and sun kiss my eyes..
The night and day fusion create new colors..
A jumble of rays and lights never seen before..
This interlace of cosmic reverie delight..
Was the color of my thoughts...

We take a ride down moonlit roads.  No stars, just the moon and a few lonely clouds.  The wilderness is dark alongside the sleeping roads.  As we pass over the rivers I never forget to look down below.  The moon light illuminates the calm waters below.   We drive to no where and wind up somewhere.  Always a familiar place to greet us warm.  The mystery is over and we are in route home.  A new moonless night greets us.  Its time for another drive.  To no where and possibly somewhere.

In the weigh of darkness and organized chaos created a star..

I could see the blue glow all around me..
I felt pressure in every part of my body..
Almost as if I was deep under water..
But I was in darkness..
A darkness so dense it almost seem to have weight..
The blue glow became shine..
And the weight of darkness was getting lighter..
I was now able to walk in the heavy darkness toward anywhere..
The lines in my hands had blue lightning running through them..
My shine now tunred into rays of light..
Cutting and burning through this wicked heavy darkness..
Everywhere I stepped, everywhere I had been was being replaced with light..
I became a blue star in the end..
It took me 222 years to walk the planet and fill it with light..
Along the way I found out that I had died with my race very long ago..
All that was left was a small splinter of light..
A light I had always belived in..
Turns out it belived in me..
My planet lives again..
Without us in it..
Only me..
At the end of my light travel I come to the final splinter of darkness..
And wonder, what believed in this so much that it killed everything on my planet..  
Whatever it was I knew it was still out there..
And I needed to find it!

S-DIVERS

I will do my best to explain..
Can you read me?
I am no longer in the shuttle..
I am standing on what seems to be glass..
It changes color constantly..
With each step forward the glass ripples with light and waves outward..
As I continue on the darkness begins to give into the glow..
The sky here is the ocean..
I can see it above!
The glass floor is sending light ripples back to me..
Only this light is blue..
There is someone walking toward me..
He is the one creating the blue light ripples while mine our white..
His face is made of light..
Oh! His face just flashed my eyes..
! I can't see! Wait! I see strange symbols ever changing!!  
So fast!  Wait I saw one I recognized..
It said W E L C O M E ....

There had been 3 murders in our small little town. All the same. As if a lion had torn them all apart.
It was early fall.  Oranges and rust colors begin to fill in the trees.  We were not allowed to go out because of the creature.  
If indeed it was a creature.  At least that's what we called it in school.  I had a theory! It was a Ware wolf.
One day my brother and I took all the silver we had.  We took it to Old man Johnny and he turned it into a silver bullet.
He was like a wizard! So finely crafted it was.  He engraved it with our initials.  S.O and D.O.  
We kept the bullet in a small little bag.  Under all of our comic books.  If one day the Ware wolf does come we will be ready.

I have come to a corner of the universe where the balance has shifted insanely toward the light.  Its like being inside a star.  There is no darkness whatsoever.  Darkness has no place here.   There is a being here that is emitting this near infinite light.  At the center of this galaxy sized mass of light he shines and burns away darkness.  My armor begins to absorb this near infinite light.  My power levels reach a level beyond thought.  I want to be part of this light. Vanquish all darkness.  I close my eyes and feel the light course through my soul and aura.  This light however is not pure.  It is made out of love, revenge, and hate.   Its intentions are good.  But the ramifications could be catastrophic.   It wants to rid the universe of all darkness.  Everything would become illuminated.  We would lose the night. We would lose our shadows.  There would be nothing but light as we would become a part of it and then one in and of itself.  Simply stated it would be the end.  I must stop him.  This being of light.   S-DIVERS

I can tell you the neverminds..
I can tell you how far we are behind..
I know I won't be alone..
I know I am full of unknowns..
Some of my songs are about you..
Some of my poems too..
Some of my dreams came true..
Some of my nightmares too..
The ghost are coming..
The ghost are running..
The ghost are singing..
The ghost are dreaming..
The song is playing..
The song is fading..
The song is repeating..
What I have been saying...............................

The sun shines today.. No clouds, blue sky ocean above..  The day is wonderful..  And I am happy to begin it..  I never really knew how beautiful the day was to my eyes and soul.. I feel ashamed that we stole it long long ago..  Last night a mistake was made, or at least I think it was.  Perhaps it is part of the bigger plan, maybe I was meant to find out for a reason.  But it could simply mean I saw what I saw for a reason or by chance..  I question that because they or we have been to careful for so long.. The invasion happen long long ago..  I know that now because of what we are becoming and because of what I saw..  

There was someone here before us.  This beautiful blue blaze that shines from afar that we call Earth did not belong to us..  You see we were the invaders..  Humans.  We took this beautiful day from someone else's eyes and soul..  We had to believe that we were from here.. We had to somehow think that we never came from the stars..  It is built in our D.N.A to one day leave this place and invade another world and start this cycle all over again..  Thosands of worlds have been invaded by us..

What I saw that brought me to this revelation was one who was here before us..  She told me and explained to me what we truly are..  She told me what we have forgotten about ourselves!

The Planet Earth was a wasteland of destruction from the race that lived there previously..
Seven Life Lancers were sent from Mars over 1000 years ago to clean and repair Earth's eco system.
We lost contact with the Life Lancers 52 years ago but were very hopeful as Earth has once again turned blue in our night sky..
A once dead planet of sand has gained back its majestic color of ocean azure blue alongside the stars..
I am sad that Mars has become dead and we had no solution to solve the destruction of our planet..
I had been chosen by our people to migrate to Earth and start our race there..
I am unknown to how well the Life Lancers fixed the eco system of Earth and if it will be able to sustain life..
Its when I arrive I finally see how Magnificent it was!
More blue than the Mars ocean Soren..
There is a massive piece of land I can land on.
Seems this is the only land that exist here on Earth..
I will call this land Pangaea..

when I run or walk..
in the day or night.
I smile toward the sky..
I sometimes wave..
one day I will get to watch my life.. to see me acknowledge myself from this life before the other..
I smile at the thought of it..
when I become that star I gaze at..

The storm is moving in on the horizon.
Its been a very long time since we had a storm out here..
The winds where picking up and all of my windchimes rang..
When I heard the wind chimes it flashed all before me.  
On where I was the night before and many nights before that..
Chimes and vibrations where the first to greet me..
Followed by lights directly shined into my eyes..
I could now remember sleeping with my eyes open..
Everything around me was made of a shiny lustrous metal.
Shadows would pass over my eyes from time to time.
To my horror I then realised what was going on..
They were studying what I was.
Looking inside me to see what makes me alive.
They spoke to eachother in strange clicks and hisses..
As they returned me home, my windchimes started to sing..
I awoke in my bed..
Was this just a bad dream?

When the stars decide to leave.  
In the sky of a world my mind weaves.
The ghost there are not really ghost.
Just forgotten angels fluttering around this starlight coast.

Constellations lose their specks.
Darkness and separations distance the flecks.
Creating new constellations.
In heavenly reveries of my imagination.

I stand on the shoals of your dream ocean.
Waiting for your wave and to feel your emotion.
The way your touch made me alive.
Together forever as we both arrive.

Where the candles illuminate your face..
Where my dreams get the illumination just right..
I see you there for a moment for an eternity..
As my dream candles reflect in your eyes..
You light up my darkness with your luminescent soul..

The oceans here..
The rivers inside of them..
Blue universe with green lifelines..
White statues made by fallen angels..
The lake house that floated on the lake..
On green and blue waters..
Dreams of shadows and light..
The songs sung by everything..
Sung in reverse and forward..
Streams of light mist in the night..
Heaven shines forever here..
The inside of a star..
The star you have become..
For others to gaze upon..
Where you become a sun..
In someone else's sky...............................
GOD BLESS............................

Tones and sounds.
Organized in such a way they create music..

Songs heard through darkness and light..


Tangents and pathways..
Transparent clusters of thoughts and emotions...

Actions viewed through the porthole of the universe...


New stars and galaxies..
And the full dreams of undisturbed sleep..

Galactic access to infinite wonders..

Eyes open and mind set.
I ask myself. " Which is the dream?"

The back door.  Green eyes and smelly fur!  The werewolf comes for our kid.   Its time!  White Knight teddy armed with a wooden sword and Judy the red Raccoon and her magical red powers!  Its time to vanquish this nightmare before it even starts!  The werewolf tears down the back door and howls in the darkness.  All we can see is the bright green eyes shining in the blackness.  And there awaits White Knight Teddy and Judy the Red Raccoon!  W.K.T lands a flurry of blows with his awesome unbreakable wooden sword as the werewolf cries in pain!  Judy the Red then emits waves of magical red beams that knock the werewolf out the back door as it screams in fear and scampers back into the woods!

And so W.K.T And Judy the red Raccoon triumph over the would be nightmare that was trying to haunt their kid.  NOT TONIGHT!!!

The stars are magnificent tonight. The streetlights seem ghostly.   It is a cool night.  And I hear the owls. I write as I walk. Listening to random songs.  All of you whom are reading this are walking with me also. It could be around your block. Or in your yard. It could be outside somewhere or in your mind.  My two dogs walk beside me.  Black specs in the moonlight. Who else is walking with us?  I would like for you to tell me.

why did you have to smile at me..
could you not of just walked on by and ignored me..
i noticed you first..
you had this luster to you that i wanted to hold you close and smell your hair..
vibrant skin, eyes the color of the earths emrealds..
long brown hair seem to flow with no wind..
and then the smile as we walked on by eachother..
that smile made my heart race..
that smile made time stop..
that smile silenced all sound..
for just a moment..
it happen to me..
i watched you walk on by as you faded away never looking back..
your smile added colors to my soul..
a color of rememberence, and a color of never seeing you again..

Wisdom in a bottle of lighting. How you marvel at your creation! But after the lightning arcs away then what have you left but quiet thunder..

The memory star shined forth.  It was a memory remembered. It started to trigger other memories as more and more stars lit up in this dying spiral of a galaxy.  Life was coming back.  The addiction was fading into the light.  I then entered the star memory alone leaving behind my guardian celestial star owls behind.  They will serve as a beacon for me to return to.  As I enter the star I am present at the memory he remembers. The memory was of him holding his daughter for the first time.  He looked into her eyes as she looked into his.  She them grasped his finger with her small little hand.  It was then I saw her grow up in an instant. This was all the other memories that this one had triggered.  Beautiful moments after beautiful moments kept me flowing through his memories.  As I travelled on through such beautiful memories I noticed that something else was there with me.  A shadow without casting. A darkness present in the light.  A sad shade of darkness.  The addiction also has found a way into his memories.  It was far from gone.  I am not suppose to interfere with memories.  Doing so could trap me here making our mind we live in go crazy.  And that's exactly what the addiction wanted.  So that he could turn back to it and it can consume him.   If I do not fight the addiction within his memories it will begin to darken them and slowly he will forget again.

She could talk a shadow back into the light..
With just the simple shine of her words....

In my dreams she stands before the light...
Without a shadow on any wall..
Its because she is the light and she has no darkness in her at all..

Without shadow she is..
Because she is the source of this light..
She is the shine, the luster, the last star in my sky..
She is without shadow..

The lightning danced around all of my body...
Storm on my skin..
It was a beautiful feeling..
That came from with in..

It was a healing thunder bolt..
Without thunder..
It surged through me..
With such wonder..

I seemed to have done it in my sleep..
I thought it to be a dream..
I had an unknown terrible sickness..
And it was life threatening it seemed..

But through imagination..
And unbondless lucid dreams..
I activated a small evoultion..
Within my bloodstream..

I stare into nothing yet again..
And I see it all before me..
Your face, your smile, your eyes, your naked body..
Sweet memories of the heart..
How you light up my soul..

I stare into the passing by landmarks..
I forget I pass them by..
Yet again I see it all..
Us walking in the sun, us holding hands in the park, us laying together in the day gone by..

I stare into the stars above..
Just for a moment, just for you..
I see it all..
You leaving me, without sadness, without remorse, without you missing me..

How you drown my soul my sweet..

With the shine of your words..
I move forward..
A little at a time..
The darkness cascades away..

With the glow of your voice..
I move on through..
A little at a time..
The darkness is cast aside..

With the illumination of your soul..
I reach my destination..
Time has stopped..
The darkness is all behind me..

With the light of you..
I see things true..
Time has no control here..
The darkness has none too..

Yeah I like plants now..
I notice other peoples plants in their yard and find myself asking them one evening " what kind of plant is that?"  The conversation carries on and we talk about things I never cared about. Turns out, The things I don't care about are a lot more intersting than the things I do..  I decide to grow some roses in my front yard and they bloom in the spring and sometimes in the fall.  Turns out I have what they call a green thumb.. I have the most beautiful roses in town.. I find myself driving a lot slower.  Even when im in my Corvette.. I drive slow hoping this ride will last forever.. I use to drive fast everywhere.. But driving slow gets you there better..  Even if there is no place at all..  I find myself going to small towns more.. Just passing through makes my soul feel better.. Sometimes I stop and walk some random sidewalk.. Under the sun in some small town I have never been to.  So don't be scared to grow a plant, don't be scared to slow down, and don't be scared to go to a random small town.. Life is to fast.. Theres no need to try and get ahead of it.. Just ride with it and see a lot more even if your in one place..

Yesterday light strings..
I strum them with memory glow..
Rememberence of her smile..
To yesterday I go..

Grasses so green..
So cool to my bare feet..
I race my little brother..
Around my grandmothers house in the late spring..

Under bridges, Along the creek bed..
Countless ghost hear voices..
Boys fishing and swiming..
Riding bikes down the hill screaming..

Beautiful fun spirit..
Alive and strong..
Memories of color..
Memories of voices and song..

Some of the stars don't shine anymore..
This empty place has no echo..
The clouds are not here..
And the sky is not the blue I remember..
The luster is gone..
The word magic is dead..

You all have grown up..
But I haven't..
Not truly..

I can see those stars that don't shine for you..
And I can hear my voice echo in this empty place..
The clouds are gone for you but have returned for me..
And the sky is the creator of all that is blue..
I am the luster..
And magic is real..

None of this has faded for me one bit..
In fact if anything, it is becoming more and more magical as I get older..
Don't let others tell you otherwise..
There is a beyond..
There is an after..
And there is a forever..

The light always seems to reflect off your eyes just right for me.
The angles and refraction create a color and aura the peers into my soul.
I hate it.
I love it.
Its then you waltz into my dreams.
No permission needed.
Your just there.
Doing the same thing.
Peering into my soul.
Only this time you and I dance in the dream living room we are in.
I have never held you b4.
But now your arms were wrapped around me and mine around you.  
You gave me the softest kiss on the neck.
Which only intensified the ambient haze this dream was.
You rest your head on my chest as we danced under the incandescent light bulb on the dream ceiling.
No shadows.
No outside light.
I don't even think there were no windows or doors.
It faded away when I woke up.  
Now just traces of memory remain.

Please don't mind me..
I am just here to observe..
I hope I do not make you nervous in any way..
But to witness what you are about to do only happens in 12 of our lifetimes..
If you succeed I will show you the next beyond..
And it may come as a surprise..
But the next beyond is where you stand..
Sub atomic world under your feet..
Just as you have found that you yourself are sub atomic also..
You have found your God..
Just as I have found mine..

You flew in on the wind..
You brought all the colors with you..
My gray soul turned blue and green..
You filled it with life..
You touched my rain cold soul..
And warmed it like the kiss of a spring sun..
On the day you left me..
Forever to the blue skies..
Forever to the stars we cannot see..
You left a shine with me..
One that will never dim..
One that lives on through me..
And one day I hope to spark it in someone else..
Even if its just a glimmer of it..
Even if its just a shimmer of it..
Or even a glow of it..
Your light will carry on and on..

There was a shift..
I felt it when you looked at me..
It was a sad shift..
What that stare meant was you lost the starshine in your eyes..
You were fading..
As quick as I had put those stars in your eyes they were now gone..
In a moment, in time, forever..
You streamed now like all the others..
Amazing what happens when belief is broken..
So Ill just continue on..
I suppose one day you may get those stars back..
And you have no care as I walk away..
To you, I am simply walking away..

You make all the stars fade away..  it's because you outshine them all..

The melodies you create with your eyes can be heard by my soul.
The chorus your smile sings can be heard by angels.
The notes your swaying hair writes as it sways in the wind.
The song your image sings while you stand in the sun.  
You're poetry without words.