Mostly standing still- not moving at all. No, direction, No for-thought, No thoughts of the here-after. Down but not out, Through but not over, Perplexed but not consumed, Empty... Motionless but still here. Someone said as long as you're breathing, there's still hope. You still have a chance... to change, to grow, to live, to love, to experience something new in life; to be. Yeah! You still have a chance to be. Mostly standing still- not moving at all... was how I use to be. Now, I move freely... Honoring my creator for giving me the right... to be.  The Right To Be!

These Eyes have seen to much.....Heartache-and-Pain..... Disrespect-and-Neglect, it's all the same when you've learned to mask your shame. These Eyes have seen to much ..... Abuse-and-Misuse, Abandonment-and-Rejection; Being left alone with no direction to----- Fight for your-life.....as a child with no protection. These Eyes have seen to much...... Brothers killing their brothers for something as meaningless as a color, Mothers pimping their daughters for the next high or for a man-----who lives in her quarters. These Eyes have seen to much ..... Hatred-Heartache-and-Pain....... I still myself and wonder.... Will, Things ever change?! These-Eyes!

Love the skin you're in. We are all fearfully and wonderfully made by the masters hand. Unique, Beautiful, Amazing, Brilliant....and more alike than different. Lets walk in our truth, embrace our likeness, love ourselves, and others as well. Lets get to know one another..... Honestly.... put aside our issues and be about being better people. I see your humanity..... can you see mine? I dare, you to open yourself up to something new.....Honestly try to be  friends with someone... who--- doesn't look like you..... open yourself to loving them too! Instead of spreading hate, lets share love---- it's the only thing that, this world does not have enough of. Love The Skin You're In.... and allow others to love you as well.

For out of the abundance of the heart, The mouth speaketh! Whatever's, In your heart you will speak. I'm, Just waiting to see, if you're the truth or a fool!

They took my brother in the middle of the night, said that he looked at a girl that was white.
They took my brother and beat him so, until his eyes popped out into the ground,
His flesh was open, bruised, battered, and torn; and blood ran freely in a space all around, but in all of this he wouldn't make a sound.
They took my brother an cut his ***** off and to degrade him, they stuck it in his mouth.
They took my brother and hung him to a tree, then they set him on fire...right in front of me.
They took my brother, he was so sweet, gentle, and kind; he was so beautiful to look upon and oh...what a brilliant mind.
They took my brother and no-one said a word, and because he loved us so...not a sound from him was heard.
They took my brother 'cause he stood for what was right, and said no to a girl...that was white.

They Took

Love is just a word.... Until you find ---Someone to give it Definition. Hearts are like glass.... be careful--- they can break. I'm not like anyone else.... I don't need to follow anyone's lead.... I'm all I will ever need to be. I'm just simply me..... I'm just Simply Unique.... If, You want me to fall for you then ..... you gotta give me something worth tripping over. I am saying, I'm perfect... I'm far from it--- I'm just saying, I'm worth! God determines who walks into your life.... it's up to you to decide who you let walk away... who you let stay, and who you refuse to let go.... I didn't want someone... I can live with... I want--- Someone..... I can't live without! Things I've learned along the way.

Think..... I'm a nasty girl? I'm the one who rocks ya-world! U..... Can call me Bambi..... Yea---- I'll flip ya-- mommy!I'm down.... You'll never be lonely..... I'll be your private joy----- into you only. Still Waiting...... You want the best;  I Wanna Be Your Lover----- from cover-to-cover; I'll take you-- Uptown..... then you can go down town. Head! OOOO... We gonna-get-it! No- Really, All, I want is a Kiss.... and all night long---- you can Get-Up-On-This! I got, A ***** Mind..... It gets me sometimes, you know that it's true---- cause you got one too! Controversy....that's what they say of we.....All, I-Know, is that you make me free. Do Me Baby.... Call My Name, It's Gonna Scandalous..... I have no shame. My life is with you.....Under The Cherry Moon.

I'm up in more ways than one.. .and I'm ready wanna have some fun? I'm ready.... for a real good time, I wanna try to fine that spot... OOOO--- make the rain fall..... hot! Think-I'm-Nasty? I'll back-it-up! Drop-It, Make it stream-line..... enter me and find, the place you  wanna go--- sounds so nasty. Back- It-Up, I'm really tryna blow your mind.... I'll go down on you any time..... drink you up, just like wine; Do you think... I'm nasty?  No-No! Nasty's fine.... Especially when it's from behind!!! Really- Rough, but gentle too, squeezing tight, pushing threw-and-threw....Do, you think you're ready? Bodies ablaze, hands- unsteady.... Kiss-Me! TRY-Not to touch, Driving you crazy.... not in a rush...... Do-You-Think-You're-Ready? Think- I'm-Nastyy?!  I'm ready, Will-You be steady..... Steady long-and-hard? Steady, Even-and-Vast..... make-me ***; make it last-- will you?  I wanna taste you're breast, lead-me into the vastness of your garden... OOOOo! Tongue, teasing your ****.... with ice in my mouth I gently ****-on-it! I can taste the rain.... back-arched, strawberries--- the new cherry and there's no pain. Think- I'm-Nasty?!  Nasty- Nasty.... as can be. Fill-Me-Up, readily. Every, Inch into the mile....have me wetter than the Nile. Bend- It-Over, Make-It-Split.... You can even spit on it...... Bite-and-Lick it too, Splurge on my face; Do what you want.... I belong to you! Oh-Yes! Right-There, Spank-Me.... Pull-My-Hair! ***** all the way, Bring the camera..... press--- play! Don't fast-forward..... let me ride it to the end.... Play-It-Backwards..... Where-We- Begin..... Before, I knew you were...... NASTY!

Thinking back, To when I was the light that brightened your way,
Thinking back, To when you hung-onto every word that I would say.
Thinking back, To the times you would run to me, Just because.
Thinking back, To how you stood with me on every 'cause,
Thinking back, On the love we use to share,
Thinking back, On the time when we use to care.
Thinking back, On the way you made me smile
Thinking back, On how you use to drive me wild.
Thinking back, On the way you use to touch my soul,
Thinking back to  a time, that I really thought, that you made me whole.
Thinking back, On how you use to make me feel,
Thinking back, On a life that now- doesn't seem real.
Thinking back, I'll do no-more...There's nothing left worth thinking back for.
Thinking back has made me free, 'Cause me to except what had to be,
Thinking back now I can move-on, Love again, Live again, Because I'm strong.
Thinking back we both played a part, but love was not enough to keep us from falling apart.
Thinking back, Yes! My last time, must move-on to a new rhythm; must find a new rhyme.
Thinking back my heart is clear and forever I'm sure that you'll be near,
Thinking back, we both are free and forever; friends we will always be.
Thinking Back

Riddle- Me- This.... How can I be your forever--- as well as your good-bye? How can I be sweet kisses and you be all-the-things that, makes me cry? How can I be sun to your rain and you be love--- the kind that, gives one pain? How could you allow me to love you--- beyond myself....and keep me at casual--- like everyone else. Riddle- Me-This.... Why, Should I stay with you.... When, There's someone else..... Someone, Who loves me greater than--- them-self? I'm empty for you.... I have nothing else. This is my good-bye.

Free as the wind in the spring time, gently kissing the face of mankind, Lazy as the sun in the winter; Easy-going and always the center- of- all-that- is: Sweet as honey in mint tea... that's all you-- to me.    Thoughts out loud                                                                                                                                                   Open like New York at Night, Wide as the sea, High as Mt. Fuji, and vast as eternity that's... freeing me; I yield willingly.                                                                                                                                                Thoughts out loud                                                                                                                                                   I breath you, You are my air, I feel you though you're not there, I smell your scent from miles away; I live on every word you say.                                                                                                                                 Thoughts out loud                                                                                                                                               Tall as the Empire State, Wide as Victoria Lake, Flowing like the Nile...on horse-back riding free. Gentle ray of sun, sweet as strawberry ice tea: Soft spoken and wild that's... Me and you my child.   Thoughts out loud.

It was easy to fall for you.... it was the way you walked inside my mind and undressed my soul....The way you spoke into my life and transformed my being; your **** was in the way you carried yourself....The way you cared for others....and in the the brilliance of your mind--- I find myself falling for you over-and-over....in-and-out-of-time. I saw your ****---- through the brilliance of your mind. Through The Brilliance Of Your Mind!

Love.... I've fallen for you more than once.... I've been  been broken by you--served like hell: I've been misunderstood  by you: put down, misused, and even abused. Yet, I still come back to you...doesn't matter what you do--- I still show-up: heart-in-hand...giving all to you. This time I feel you close.... not like before: I feel like now I'm ready---and you know what for. Love, If- You're- Listening-This-Time....I'm not going to push but I will wait....wait until you fall for me! I'm going to wait til love falls for me. Til Love Falls.

Find Love In Me...... and let me Find Love in You..... it doesn't matter if, it's the love of a friend or deeper...... I just want it to be true, I just want it to be true. To Be True......

To him that is pure all things are pure. Beyond the chaos, brokenness, dark shadows, pain, loneliness, lies, disappointments, and shame. In the midst of the uncared for garden...... there's innocence of some kind. Close the door to judgement .....and open the eyes of your mind.

Words like to hide is shadows.... but actions always brings them to light!

Take me to the moon..... Like an old time jazz song; then let me rest in the depth of your being.

Touch me in a way that makes my soul yield...causing me to give all of myself. Kiss me in a way that, makes my heart sing... the kind of song that, brings chills to the whole body and takes ones breath away. Hold me with passion and make love to my soul... be the beat in my chest... I'll give you rest, from all that might harm.  My skin I shed to keep you warm... Touch me beyond the physical, make love to my spiritual... take me deep into non-******; and make me wet with your intellect...I surrender to your tender. I'm wet... Mind, Body, and Soul.... I scream-- take me... take control. All, I want... All- That- I- need is your touch.

No! I get--- it. You can't put into words how you feel about me.... Look, I'm not into shadows---- I'm real and I see. If, I have to wonder.... where I stand with you..... Maybe, Us is something that, We shouldn't do! No! You didn't say that, in fact you didn't say a thing; but the depth of your silence..... really spoke to me.... I heard everything that, you wouldn't say.... and I fully understand how you feel about me. It's alright.... I'll be okay.... Truth-Is, I feel the same way!

Day 1-
When I woke up yesterday, I realized that it was today, and the vision
I had for my future had faded away; so I yelled to myself
All the things I couldn't say. 'Cause my I wasn't me, and my me walked away.
Myself stood alone in this large empty room, Wanting someone to hold but my- I was just too cold; so the me said to I: "Can I hold you?" And my I realized myself is fine, so I touched myself.
Me stood alone ashamed and in pain then I turned to me and kissed me again, and we stood me, myself and I.

Day 2-
Staring out the window, I find myself needing comfort, so I looked to myself; I mean who knows me better than me? My likes, dislikes, my joys, {you know the things that make me happy} and of course I know what brings me sorrow. {like the day you walked out the door, left me not only with a broken heart, but with eyes filled with tears}. I looked to myself for answers and comfort from the rain, for everything I needed...I found in myself again.

I wonder, What you think at night... When in my arms he holds you tight.                                                 I wonder, If you feel my lips... When she kisses below your hips.                                                            ­      I wonder, If you know-- That I cry... because I know that, U live a lie.                                                          I wonder, If he knows you well... When there're many secrets you don't tell.                                              I wonder, If she ever knew... That you sexed-- Him, Me, and Her too.                                                          I wonder, If you could tell... That I'm like you... and wish  you well.                                             I wonder, When I touched your lips... Did you feel my or his finger tips.                                                     I wonder, When I was inside... was it him or you I did ride.                                                            ­                All- Night... within your sugar walls, Songs of passion--- Fire falls.                                                           ­                                                     I wonder, When... You -She does taste... can she see-- His or My face.                                                      How did you think, that I couldn't tell... When on you... their scent I could smell?                                 I wonder, If they knew it too... When we decided to stay with you?                                                          I wonder, If this was meant to be: U- I- He- and She!

Never change your flavor to fit-in with someone else. Either, They except you for all of who you are, or they don't. Be true to you...... Unapologetically-You!

Different is a beautiful thing..... be you and be the best you: that you ....can be. Never, Be what people want you to be..... be yourself--- unapologetically . Whoever you are.... Whatever you are.... Just be---you......Unapologetically.

Love is kind, giving, caring, and true.....all of the things that, I don't find in.. you. Love is gentle, long-suffering, meek, and mild..... You are hateful, uncaring, crazy, and wild. Love is tender, selfless, humble, and fair.... You are cold, selfish, proud...... you just don't care. I wanted love..... Life gave me you! Life's a b-----, You are too. I'm a person of peace and you a person of war.... WE fight not knowing what-for. Life gave me you.... I give you me.... It's crazy, but we're as happy as anyone could be. I free you..... You give purpose to me, for us this is love......Unconditionally!

There're somethings, you can't unsee like you walking away with him, and forever leaving me, you did it out-the-blue I never thought; I'd be in a world living without you. Never thought I'd see the day when you,  would no-longer be in love with me..... there're just somethings...... you can't unsee.

Could you tell, That I was into you? Could you tell, That I like a river flowed to you? Could you tell, That my smile was because of you? Could you tell, That my heart yearned for you? Could you tell, My body burned for you? Could you tell, Like rain I fall for for you? Could you tell, That I would give my all to you? Could you tell, That I would be slave to you?Could you tell, That I live my life for you? Could you tell, I give all to you? Like water.. I'm weak for you.Like honey, I'm sweet for you; like fire I'm hot for you, Like wind I blow for you; Could you tell?

Inside My Head

She, Told him that he completed her. He, Smiled and replied.....No! I complete us, because we are both whole. Beloved, It takes two whole people in order to make one; One relationship, One love, One life that's full in every way. You don't complete me...... You complete us.....together us two are We! All....She could do was look----- Loving into his eyes.

I'm not into shapes,height,color, or size.... With me, it's all about how we vibe. I'm not into what kind of car you drive, where you live, or how hard you strive...... With me, it''s about how we vibe. I don't care about the clothes you wear, how you comb your hair, or if--- you be truth on a dare...... if, We vibin' I simply don't care. I'm not about minding-your-business, playing on your stage, bring you drama, or causing you rage...... if, We vibe I'm down for you...... and it doesn't matter what you have, where we are, or what we do! If, We vibe.... I'm down for you!

Wake-Up! Black L won't matter to anyone else until; Black L really matters to us. It's like expecting someone to love and care for you..... when you don't love and care about yourself..... we must learn to embrace all of who we are and love each other without conditions. We matter  and We should matter to each other regardless of skin tone.

If, The eyes are open but the mind is closed.... You walk in darkness; and can not see.

He: I don't wanna be alone tonight! She: I just don't wanna be lonely.

You go to my head.... I long for you--- it doesn't matter where we are or what we do..... I only want to be with you. Come--Clean..... You want me too!

She: I love you--- Heaven knows that I do.... but--- I'm not in love with you! He: I was right.... I was hearing--- everything that wasn't being said! Thanks, for finally coming clean. She: We can always be friends.... I truly care about you. He: Thanks, but know-thanks: I could never be--- just your friend. War of The Heart.

Waterfalls
Skies blue when there's no rain.
Like a rainbow after the pain
That comes every time I hear your name.
I remember the first time you said that
It would be the last time
That you hit me
Made me see stars
I get it
Men are from Venus
Women from Mars
Acid rain
Coming from the sky
I'm a man
I refuse to lie down and die
Who could I tell
Who can I run to
The things you do to me
Did someone do to you
I go to work
I rush right home
I run your bath
Put your dinner on
I meet you at the door
Drink in hand...
Just the way you like me; wearing nothing but skin
I bow to you
My Queen
On your knees
I make ready for your mean
A kick to the face, heels dig deep into my side...
I'm going to take a bath; burn my dinner
I'll tan your hide
Eyes... black,
Blood running from my nose
You're all I know
This is how our story goes
In bed you take me, over-and-over
Sometimes I feel like
I'm your woman
You're my man
I want to be stronger,
I want to be free...
More than that
I long just to be...
Loved--by you
For the rest of my life
That's why I married you
Made you my wife
I can't keep hiding,
What you do to me
Who can I tell
Who would believe me
This secret, I will keep
Until death do us part
I remember waterfalls...
Natures work of art.
I remember
Waterfalls...

Welcome, Have your way with me-- all that, you want-- I give willingly.Drink-Me, Like wine, Taste-Me softly, eat-me completely and don't forget to beat-me..... with your tongue so sweetly. Welcome... Lay-Me-Down- Easy... Please, Don't tease me; You're welcome to come into the heart-of-me: Take-All, From me-- only relieve me. You're-Welcome..... to my mind--- it's yours....to my body it belongs to you....to my soul--- I give you control. Welcome, Take this life of mine; I yield to you a thousand times. Welcome-To.... My lips as sweet as honey. Welcome-To..... The bank of-me--- Take all my money. Welcome, I'm yours, Completely..... Taste- Drink--or-Eat-Me. You're Welcome!

We the people.... Though we be many, we are one. One blood.... The life source, flows through us all; out of one blood we all came.... at the end of the day....The only color that really matters is red. Red the color of blood that, cries out from the earth.... of all those who died for freedom, who was killed for being different, who was killed because of shade of skin, who was unjustly enslaved..... and was treated less then human. Red is the color of our redemption.... Red is the color that, bought we free. Red is the color that God sees from above.... Red is the color of truth and brotherly love. We the people..... Though we be many, We are one. Though we be many..... We are one.

It doesn't matter what kind of person you are, be it fallen or redeemed; bad, good, or indifferent.... We all want to be loved... We were made for it.

What is love.... can someone tell me? What should I look for.... What should I expect to find? Is-It,  A feeling or a state-of-mind? What is love...... when the one you thought had your back-up and walk away.....without a word---nothing did they say? What is love.....Is-It, When you give all of yourself to someone----and they treat you like they--- do everyone else? What is love.....if, it just ups and goes? What is love..... I want to talk with someone who really knows---- What is love! I'm in the lost-and-found-----hopelessly seeking for more than a rebound..... Needing--- Wanting------ Something real----Just once....I would like to know how it truly feels to be----Loved! Please, Humbled to my knees.... I'm willing to do the work. I know, Nothing that last forever comes with ease.... Please---- Somebody tell me-- What is Love!!

I want to experience, what it truly feels like to love someones humanity; regardless of ethnicity, ***, sexuality, class, or social station. Just, Want to uplift their worthiness, love the God in them; walk in their truth, embrace their peace, speak to their hurts and usher them into healing; laugh with them in good times, cry with them in sad times, and truly get to know them....The-Real-Them, behind the mask. I want to learn and understand their journey and for them to know and understand mine..... and truly understanding, what it means to be a friend that; stays closer then a brother. I, want to experience what it truly feels like....to love someones humanity.

I want your hands all over my body..... I want to feel your breath on my breast..... I want you to posses me, make me yours.... taste, eat, drink, feel.... and own all that I am. I want to feel the depth of your soul and spirit within me.... I want  to drink of your essence. I want to lay within the ease of all that you are..... make me scream forever more. ....you asked, and this is what I want!

When it's real you'll know.... because love gives you peace..... even in the midst of a storm.

When we're together....Time stands still..... as we drink our fill of love. Love that gives birth to passion and passion that, gives life to overwhelming pleasure..... Always, When We're Together.

Just because I don't tell you where I am, doesn't mean that I don't know; where you are or what you're all about. I'm just chilling knowing that, you think that you're getting over on me.... When you're Not!

When you're with the right one....all that you were missing-- you find in them..... all that they ever wanted, they find in you! Plural is two that, becomes one....One heart beating in the chest of two; One rhythm they flow in, but neither ever knew. When you're with the right one....they can hear the words that, you can't find away to say... they can feel your hurt that's, to deep to convey. They find you when, you're missing yourself---- and love you through your brokenness.....building you up and speaking life---  that gives you health. When you're with the right one...all that you were missing you find in them....all that they ever wanted they find in you. Free-Falling, No nets.... when it's real... when it'd true. Plural is two that, becomes one...always and forever....in shade or in sun.....One heart beating in the chest of two---you become all they ever wanted.... all they ever knew. When You're With The Right One!

In the beauty of your smile, In the kindness of your eyes, In the silence of your soul, In the peace of your spirit, and in the glory of your essence.....is where I belong.

Whisper in the shadows...... A song of love. See-Me, in your dreams..... my angel from above. Let-Me, walk inside you... find rest for my soul. Shield, me from all danger and make me whole. Whisper in the shadows...... I'm one with you..... Time stands-still as we do- what-we -do! I drink you in..... You swallow me whole. It's a beautiful thing..... Love-Story, that has never been told. For- We..... Whisper in the shadows.

Icicle limbs... Frostbitten lips, Tell-Me--- If, This darkness is as good as it gets? No-One, Said, It would last a lifetime.... I truly thought it would be hasty..... Simply because this defeated, broken-down-mind has been going crazy. Tell-Me, If, the abyss is any deeper than this?I've searched through my vision and I thought my vision, was a view but I've come to realize that, my vision was not in view..... Icicle palaces---- hate- be you! Rain and then there's sun.... I've born my soul... Your flesh has won. You drink me like water-- My tears are dew.... but I'm so tired of yielding to you. Tell-Me, If-- Anything about us was true! Antarctic shoulders that you gave... put me in this despair---I now call me grave. You chew me and spit me out... bits-and-pieces of my heart ---on the floor. Glaciers become my feet...... in this terrible white heat.

How would, I describe myself? I would like to think that, I'm caring, kind, understanding, giving, respectful, responsible, God-Fearing, strong, open-minded, and a good person...but honestly, I'm broken, brokenhearted, cast down but not out, shattered-and-tossed to the four winds, a light that has lost it's brightness, a cause without a purpose, a song without a melody, the truth-holding unto a lie, hope-deferred, a wounded warrior, misunderstood-and-mishandled, abandoned-and-mislead, strength covered in weakness, lonely but not alone, poured out...with nothing left to give, a shadow walker looking for a reason to live, divine-and-human, fearless but not free,  an eagle with broken wings, looking-hoping-wanting..... for someone. Someone, to truly love me. Who, Asked this question?! Someone, Who truly, wants to get to know the real me!

Why should I cry, when it was you that caused the pain,
Why should I believe, when you've lied to me over and over again?
Why should I pretend, that it won't happen again?
Why should I believe, that you love me or that your my friend?
Why do I continue to hide what you do?
{I mean the make-up-the dark shades-and the long sleeves too}.
One day I'll tell it , One day you'll see; One day I'll be strong enough to stand-up for me.
Didn't think that they would find out, Thought I hid it well.
Funny how, that from the grave...My story I did tell.
Told you, That I would fight back, said "That I would be strong enough for me".
Why did I have to die, In-order to be free?
Why??