The-One.... was not-- who I thought you were, I thought that, you were close to the one. ...The other one that, I wanted but you were not--- and I'm over it..... Are- You? You-Know, How sometimes you think that, you want something or even someone but when you have it--- or get them; it's right at that very moment that: You realize or that it hits you-- like a brick that, you really don't want them....or it at all. Ever, been there? Ever, said that--- You loved someone just to have *** with them--- and after you were done..... You realized that, it was a big mistake; I mean not only was it not good--- but now you feel bad: because they're into you and all--- you want to do is run. I mean, Like run...... Real fast and take a bath..... wash them off--- of you and somehow---- wishing that you could wash them ---and the act right out of your head?Have, You ever told someone that, they looked good in an outfit; that you--- knew that-they....Looked a hot-mess-in....Just because you didn't know how to tell them, that they were jacked-up? Then, a few minutes later someone else comes in and tells them...... Upfront-- that they....looked like a hott-mess; and they go off on you-- for not being {as it were real.....honest?} I'm just wondering...... Why-Why, Do We Do It!!!!!?

Love covers a multitude of sins.... Love always look for the good in others... Love is the only thing that, can heal a broken heart or a wounded soul. Can we all just give love a try.... Love without conditions... Love deeds and in truth?

Eyes wide shut, Legs shut open, Nose that can't taste, Mouth won't smell, Ears won't feel, Hands won't hear, Lips won't beat, Heart can't speak; Without-You.  Sun won't rain, Rain don't shine, Sky can't flow, River won't cover, Moon won't smile, Stars won't dance, Nature don't grow, Flowers won't change; Without-You. Sweet not honey, Hot not tea, breeze not cool, Sun not hot, Mind not think, Voice not speak, Body not breathe, Heart not beat; Without-You.Without-You, There's no-me.... Without-You... Life can't be, Without-You.... Songs don't have melody, Without-You.... Sun won't rise; Without-You. World stands still.... Heart can't speak, Live no-life, Empty over full, Soul happy-sad.... Love's mad-happy, Life hard soft---- Tears- Cry- Eyes...... Without-You. Water won't wet, Towels can't dry, Flow won't blood, Bleed won't flow, Clothes won't shelter, Shelter won't clothe, Bark won't cat, Dog won't meow; Without-You. Without-You..... Nothing in this world is right, Without-You-- My brightest day is night, Without-You.... Life has no-meaning, Without-You..... I'm merely breathing; Without-You.Rain won't fall, Without-You, Sun won't shine--- Without-You, I'm incomplete.... Without-You, Heart just won't beat..... Without-You, I die now....... Without-You. ..... Without-You!

As he relaxed within her arms, He whispered," It doesn't matter where we are... In the valley or on the mountain top; When I'm in your arms like this--- I know that I am home. I know that, I have found my good-thing and I am safe; for you keep me safe from the storms of life..... and even from myself. He closes his eyes and say.... 'I'm free-falling for your love.... over-and-over again; I'm not afraid--- I'm not afraid of falling. She holds him tightly in her arms, kisses his neck sweetly and speaks softly-- into his ear: " There's, No-Need to be afraid, I got-you.... I'll be your safety net for a thousand life times. I will compass you about and keep...all harm at bay--- I will be your help meet until my dying day." It doesn't matter where we are, In the valley or on the mountain top: With you, I am home.

Her eyes were as warm as a mid-summers day, filled with love and compassion. Her  neck was as stately as the Empire State in all it's glory, adorned with shields of ten thousand heroes. Her breast were like twin lion cubs playing in the beautiful plains of the En-geti, perfect in every-way... they were fierce. Her body ....a living work of art, like the Nile it flowed... every curve magnified it's magnificence.  Her skin was as golden as fresh honey and as smooth as Shea- butter... flawless she was from head-to-toe.  When she spoke it was soft and sweet, like strings playing in a symphony....soothing to the soul. She said.... '' Listen and tell of me.'' ... and I knew that, she wanted me to tell her story. She said.. '' I was born of man... He carried me inside of himself; until the fullness of time. Then, The Great Physician caused him to fall into a deep sleep... in the cool of the day: as he slept I was taken from his side. When, He did wake... he looked upon me.... and called me -- Wo-Man. For he said, " I was flesh of his flesh and bone of his bone, made for his pleasure, and to the glory of God!" Woman, to be his help meet, to stand beside him, to encompass him about; and he was my covering. Then, she said..." That, I Am spoke.... and His voice was like the sound of many waters.... and He said," Wonderfully and Fearfully were you made.... One plus One equaling One, for you two who came out of one .... are one again!" I Am Woman the glory of man... made in the image of God and for His honor. Then, it was like... I awaken from a deep sleep as weak as water... but somehow renewed: and I did write ... that which she spoke to me in a vision. She... who is .... Woman.

I was thinking, as I sat here. Vanilla cream scent filling the room, rain drops sweetly kissing my window... Butterfly kisses--it's like strange but that's, how I see the rain. Soft music flowing in the back-ground; Sade... Makes me want to get down. Bring-out... the **** me, or maybe this is how it's suppose to be. I was thinking, Like the moon I rise for you; You set me like the sun, in the middle of Spring-time--- tender breezes easy... I unwind. Like a gazelle... Graceful, Wild, ****, Fast, and Free; Hot-as- Fire... turned-on, Yeah! That's we. Moving in and out of time, gentle- touches sweet as wine...or honey smooth as butter are your lips, rose pedals blossoms as you sway your hips. I was thinking about the taste of the nectar beneath your waist; hidden wild flowers calling out for April showers. Gently- Kissing the mouth of your gate, tongue moving slowly as passion escapes. Moans of pleasure,  waves of ecstasy, an you shower me with your rain; something not like the rain... on my window pane. I was thinking, Black-Rose standing strong , hard as the wind on a winter's night... I enter your garden now wet with rain, riding waves of passion-- you... screaming my name; as one we explode. A soothing release, Like after a war-mmmmmm.....Sweet peace. I was just thinking, must have gotten taken away but... I'm just remembering yesterday. Yeah! How sweetttttt!!! I was thinking.

They took you from me..... and left us broken. Yes! We know why the  caged bird sings!

When the silence is to loud and the noise in my head refuse to be calm; when peace is hiding from me and joy stands a-far-off; when laughter comes from pain and compassion seems to be the fuel, that fans flames. When love seems to be a song that, no-one wants to sing; and my heart is heavy within me..... I think of you and the peace you give--- when you're holding me in your arms. I think of how you kiss me so gentle and sweet---how you **** on my lips as though they were your favorite treat. I think on how you speak love into my life and how blessed I am to be your wife..... and I know that, I'm alright--- all is well and our future is bright. You are the gift that, God gave to me and for that, I'll be grateful through-out eternity. You Are The Gift That, God Gave To Me.

I loved you with all of my being..... I loved you from my spirit which cried out to God for you..... for a moment in time with you. I loved you from the very depth of my soul..... You were my life.... my hope... my heart's desire.... you were the very longing in my soul. I poured all of myself.... all of my being.... all of my love.... all of my substance.... all of my worth: I poured into you..... and you broke-me! You took all of my being and through it on the floor..... shattered me into a million little pieces..... you turned the light-off on my love and kicked my heart as though---- it was a toy; one that you hated after---- it had given you so much joy.Yes, You broke-me.....and all I ever did was love you---- that was the price.... I had to pay..... but it's okay..... because I got to love you. Have fun when you tell your friends..... that you broke-me......but be sure I want die from this.... and in time I'll love again..... tell your friends that, you broke-me but I will love again. You Broke-Me!

Feeling like a queen in drag
Longest night
Ever had
Like being late for the ball
Standing alone against the wall
Seeming big but feeling small
Fading to black
Confused and shattered
I know I'm better than that
Pass the *****
Give me gin
I'm ready
I'm at the door
Now let me in
I feel like a drag queen
Late for the ball
Wondering how I got here
And about to give my all
Ignoring what you heard
Ignoring what you see
You wanted the best
They sent you me
Feeling like a queen in drag
About to give all...
You never had
When it's all over
Your high on my essence
I'll smile and give you kisses
As I cry in my admission
Wondering why I keep giving over
To submission
No need to cry
No words to say
I wonder sometimes
How I got this way...
Feeling like a queen in drag

You get me off..... I'm so confused. I've never been here but I like being your muse.... make me cream....make me cry...take me there--you know why---you get me soooo high...so high in your deep--so sweet, so tight, so warm, so right.... I surrender all to you-- I be yours all night. I'm so confused.... when it's this good, I don't mind being used. Use-Me-Up, I be your muse.

You wouldn't believe that I'm wearing your shoes, your house shoes; the white ones that feel like you're walking on clouds. They were the last ones, you would ever wear. You liked them but not as much as you liked your blue ones. I wanted to feel close to you or feel you close ; maybe I just wanted to walk in your shoes, whatever the reason I'm overwhelmed with thoughts of you. I can see you walking in these shoes....with your slow-hurry, hands in mines--- smiling as if, all was well and all, we had was time; I can feel the warmth of you, I can see the God in you, I can hear the beating of your heart, more than that, I can see the readiness in your eyes... I don't want to... I try to shield myself against it; I try to make you want to stay...I plead with God, give me more time with you...and He does but you're ready. You're ready to go to Him and He's ready to receive you. Memories of you are running down my eyes again but it's okay....I'm wearing your shoes and right now, I believe that I'm going to be alright. You're with God and He's  with me....I believe as I'm wearing your shoes. I believe as I'm wearing your shoes.

Momma had an addiction and she had me... at 12 she said these words candidly .....baby girl you're beautiful, smart, and fine, and I thank God for making you mine! I love you...God knows that ,  It's true but there's somethig that, I need you to do! He, Who would be first was simply the worst.... He broke me-- took my body and soul...left me bleeding, naked, and cold crying on a concrete floor... Momma covered me with ***** sheets.... said ,that I done good and the cycle repeats. The next one took my lips....my mouth  a warm surprise, and the next took my hips and thighs; did things to my body that, my heart despised. The next took the very essence of me.... looking into my eyes.... he said--- that, He loved me! Words, I'd never heard before.... at my breaking never more. I remember, standing on the bridge about to give my all..... when  I heard a voice that, said-- I'll catch you when you fall....You saved me Lord.... saved me from it all... gave me new life and made me your own.... You Saved Me! Nova St.Paul

Tell-Me-Why.... Why, can't you love me the way, that I want to be loved? I want all of you and more.... I'm open to anything---- come lets explore. My soul is crying.... I really need to be loved, I want you to love me in a way that, I've never known....Touch my soul and cause my heart to be blown..... whisper to my spirit words that, awakens every fiber of my being---- hold me and cause my soul to be at ease.Tell-Me, Why, Why.... can't you love me the way, that I want to be loved? Maybe, What, I want, you've never known! You've Never Known!

Lord..... You could have come while, I was coming but you waited..... while I came. For-That, and for all that you do, will do, and have done..... I am eternally grateful. Amen.