Momma had an addiction and she had me... at 12 she said these words candidly .....baby girl you're beautiful, smart, and fine, and I thank God for making you mine! I love you...God knows that ,  It's true but there's somethig that, I need you to do! He, Who would be first was simply the worst.... He broke me-- took my body and soul...left me bleeding, naked, and cold crying on a concrete floor... Momma covered me with ***** sheets.... said ,that I done good and the cycle repeats. The next one took my lips....my mouth  a warm surprise, and the next took my hips and thighs; did things to my body that, my heart despised. The next took the very essence of me.... looking into my eyes.... he said--- that, He loved me! Words, I'd never heard before.... at my breaking never more. I remember, standing on the bridge about to give my all..... when  I heard a voice that, said-- I'll catch you when you fall....You saved me Lord.... saved me from it all... gave me new life and made me your own.... You Saved Me! Nova St.Paul

I loved you when I didn't know what love was.... I loved you when I didn't love myself. You made me feel like there was only us....no-one else. You made me love you beyond myself...had me thinking-- you loved me the same.... I was thinking about taking your last  name; . Then,  He came and everythng changed, the way you touched me, the way you called out me name--- when we would do our thing.... made me think that, maybe you wanted him more then me. I was into him too but I told myself.... not more then you! I loved you so... you loved him more.... I love him too.... and he loved me more then he loved you; We've been together for ten years now, three minus one equals two... I find myself loving him now more then you!

I'm  dying....it's been like this for awhile now...I've grown,  good at hiding my pain behind my smile. I cry tears that no-one can see, I scream out in anguish--- wow-it's me....so tired of being strong, just wanna be free-- just wanna be allowed to be me. I'm dying.... bleeding on the inside... wanting to cry out... but can't abandon my pride; I'm a lion not a lamb;  gotta be strong... no-matter what... Oh-****! I never saw it coming, had no-time to prepare, mother-sister...why did you leave me there? Abandon, Eventhough you sent me back home.... I felt rejected and all alome. Mother-Sister, Why! Did you bring me home.... you never loved me the way you loved the other's.... I felt like a slave put aslide and left alone. Yea! You said that, You loved me but I couldn't tell.... it's okay --- I'm doing well. I've survived the abuse, the misuse, and the rest I want tell.... I love you mother-mother and I wish you well. I forgave you a long time ago.... that's why I can be here,  for you whatever-comes-or-go.Sister-Mother, I forgive you too, it's been hard but I have truely forgiven you. I'm dying, but now I'm dying to live, dying to love, and dying to forgive. Yea! I'm dying to live.

Empty, Lying on the floor....crying don't leave- but honestly can't take much more. Make me cry then make me moan, make me smile then rub me wrong; give me roses say...you'll never hurt me again... by nights end we're in the mix again. Trying to run but not wanting to be free, wishing-- praying that, one day you'll love me. Black-and-Blue, I have no shame, love me hard , and I'll call out your name. I would crawl for miles in the sun or rain, I would take a bullet; I'd do anything, to keep you from harm or pain. Some, Say, I'm crazy....Some, Say, I'm a fool.... Thing-Is, I don't wanna live without you.  I know that, I could but I don't want to...I love us enough and I love me... enough for you. Enough For You!

Can you teach me--- How to still the silence, when it's so loud I can hear it in the deepest parts of me. Can you teach me, How to give voice to my funk and sway my blues away? Can you?

In the beauty of your smile, In the kindness of your eyes, In the silence of your soul, In the peace of your spirit, and in the glory of your essence.....is where I belong.

It's not everyday you meet someone, who sees you beyond your flaws, and still stay with you-- open their wings to you. Who, Excepts you as you are and strengthen  you when--- you are weak!

She: I humble myself before you.... all that I want--all that I am....I find in you.   He: I feel as though, I've loved you for a thousand lifetimes....and I am prepared to love you, for a thousand more! For-Me, You are my always-and-forever...You are my now and forever-more. I feel I've loved you for a thousand lifetimes, and I pray for a thousand more. I want a thousand  lifetimes.

I want you heaven knows--- that I do but, I'm afraid--- I'm afraid of loving you. I'm afraid of sharing my colors with you....it's taken me a lifetime to get here but, I wanna be naked before you. I want you heaven knows..... that I do but; I'm afraid of loving you!

I'm not your ex.... if, you step to me--- better come correct.... I'm so much more---- I could be the life you've been waiting for! I'm not your ex..... step to me---  with respect.... bring-respect and respect you'll get.  I'm gonna build you up..... help you obtain your dreams.... Love you down easy---- make you whole---- give you peace...... walk in your soul. I will be one with you---- you become one with me..... All-That, We imagine.... through prayer-- we will be. I'll hold you down.... walk in the rain for you... I'd crawl a mile just to pull you through whatever that, was binding you. All, I ask is that you do the same for me..... we've both been hurt---- and I stand,  to bring you into my free..... My wings I open for you.. Find rest inside of me--- allow me to rest in you. Don't fall back on me--- I'd never fall back on you. I'm not them...... They did things.... I'd never do. I'm not your ex!

Remembering a time--- I loved beyond myself. It was a time so long ago, a time when innocence was real and pure..... When a man's word was his bond.... and people loved genuinely from the heart. Those, Days seem so long ago.... so another lifetime and I'm just remembering. Remembering, When all of the adults neighbors on your street---- had the right given to them by your parents to give you a beat-down; if they saw you out there acting-the- fool.... being-the-clown---- unknowingly letting your parents down. They, Would pull you aside in love---- bust your ***-just cause .... and take you home---- tell your parents and from there it was on! It was truly a village and they loved you like their own. I'm, Remembering a time---- I loved beyond myself....... It seems like it was so long ago--- so another lifetime.

My body baby--- I yield to you.... come have your way.... whatever, You want--- I'm willing to do....Insatiable.... My-Body, When it comes to you.Whatever, You want---- Do-To-Me....and I'll- Do-The-Same-To-You, Insatiable, My-Body--- When it comes to you. You wanna do it to me... and I wanna do it to you too--- No-Roles..... Insatiable--- My-Body.... When it comes to you..... When it comes to you!

Love is good.... When the one you love---- Loves you back. Love is good... When the one you  love--- has your back.... no-matter-what! Love is good... When the one that you love..... Loves you back---- No-Matter-What...... No-Matter-What!

Art has a way of speaking.... even through the silence.

I open my wings to you....don't leave me out in the cold... Love-Me... Body-and-Soul...For, To you-- I give my all over-and-over....and over-again.... Body-and-Soul.

I want someone to see me--- beyond my flesh or what they want me to be. I just want someone to take the time and truly get to know me--- emotionally, spiritually, personally, beyond my flesh: know my humanity. I just want---- Somebody- Someone-Who....takes the time to know me.

Not looking for someone to complete me.... I'm already whole-- just wanna find someone, who can add to what's already here..... yeah-- add to what's already here!

I want more than just your body.... I want to make love to your intellect--go- down on your intelligence..... be aroused by the essence of you, find myself in the realness of you..... loose all of me-- in the whole of you. I want more than just your body...I want all that you are, and all that you ever will be. Forever-And-Always.... I want more than just your body---- Forever- and-Always!

For out of the abundance of the heart, The mouth speaketh! Whatever's, In your heart you will speak. I'm, Just waiting to see, if you're the truth or a fool!

Looking in the mirror.... it's getting clearer to see--- I can make-it.... without we! Looking in the mirror....It's all clearer---I'm, Ready to be free... I' m-Ready, to be free! Looking In The Mirror!

Our need to love is just as important as our desire to be loved.

Don't get it twisted..... I'll never chase you-- if, you wanna leave.... I'm way to good at goodbye. Won't, Try to stop you...if, you wanna leave... won't shed a tear--- why! Should-I, If, You don't wanna be here? Don't get it twisted.....don't get me confused....If, You wanna leave, no-way will I grieve. I'm way to good at goodbye..... I'M Way-To-Good-At-Goodbye!

I tried to tell you---- that we liked the same things! I'm sorry, you like pink and so do I, I didn't mean to hurt you but honestly to you I didn't lie. I told you upfront that, I know you like pink--- but so do I. I love the get-down-between pink and I..... and if, you're cool with it you can be my guy.You like pink..... and so do I! Lets go beyond *** or sexuality... and give love a try for you and I. You like pink and so do I.... lets drop the labels and give love a try...... You like pink and so do I!

You make me feel like,  I've never been in love before. I've been in love--- but never with someone, who makes me feel the way that you do. You free me and make me believe again.... in love. All that, Love is! You-Make, Me feel like... I've never been in love before.... what it is--- is that, I've never been in love with someone like you. Real-Talk, You have never been down with anyone like- me, I'm your wholeness..... and you be my free. Never-Been- Down.... With Someone Like Me!

The only thing that matters is.... I will always have your back. Whatever, the case might be,  I'm down for you for an eternity. Always-and-Forever... it's you and me. I will always have your back..... so you never need to wonder you know exactly where I be...... right by your side, now and throughout eternity. The only thing that matters is..... I will always have your back...... point-blank-period.

I'm everyday. What i want is simple.... I want..... forever!

We don't have to take our clothes off-- to have a good time. I won't ask to see yours so don't ask to see mine.  It's about evolution so lets evolve.  Free your mind and the rest will follow.

Words like to hide is shadows.... but actions always brings them to light!

Flowers-We- Grow-In-Concrete. Strong and Fragile, Beautiful and Brilliant, Soft and Warm.... Built to Survive....Born to Thrive.....Planted to Rise....Amazing before our eyes! We are flowers and we grow in concrete. Flowers!

The Glamorous Life without love it ain't much! Someone said, What's- Love, got to do with it? Today, The way people go.... I can honestly say nothing. No-One, Loves anymore it's all about meaningless ***, hookups, and nothing-ever-after! A bunch of lonely, empty, hurting, lost, confused, simple-minded people, using their bodies as holes with no meaning. We all need the glamorous life.... Without- Love--- It ain't much!

It-Is-What-It-Is..... Your actions speaks a whole lot louder than your words and your actions don't lie. You can say that you love me all day long--- but if all you do is treat me wrong---what am I to believe? I might forget what you say to me--- on the regular but I will never forget how you made or make me feel. Your actions are the real representation of you, who you are.... all that you are! They speak the good, bad, ugly, and even the indifference of you. It-Is-What-It-Is.....

Roll-Up-On-This.... It belongs to you. You don't have to window shop this it's yours. Come-Get-It.... All-Night-Long---- Nothing this good could ever be wrong. Roll-Up-On-It.... Make-It, Your own....Lets sweat... Lets moan..... Roll-Up-On-This.... All-Night-Long!

Love.... I've fallen for you more than once.... I've been  been broken by you--served like hell: I've been misunderstood  by you: put down, misused, and even abused. Yet, I still come back to you...doesn't matter what you do--- I still show-up: heart-in-hand...giving all to you. This time I feel you close.... not like before: I feel like now I'm ready---and you know what for. Love, If- You're- Listening-This-Time....I'm not going to push but I will wait....wait until you fall for me! I'm going to wait til love falls for me. Til Love Falls.

I'll tell you what--- Freedom is to me--- No Fear- No Fear.... of theses and more. No fear of being my different authentic self, No fear of being hated or even killed, because of the color of my skin, No fear of being hated and or mistreated because of my ****** orientation, No fear of being discriminated against because of my ***, age, religion, or fundamental beliefs: No fear of living my best life without judgment..... That Would Be Something Close To Freedom!

Come-Away-With-Me....Lets kiss so deeply that, I find myself in you and you loose yourself in me. Come-Away... With-Me, Lets find what we've been looking for.... I'll be heaven-- I'll give you joy.... down for whatever--- I'm--Ya-Boi! Come-Come... Come-Away-With-Me, Lets make history.... You-Plus- Me.... put it on eternity.Come-Away With Me.

Let Love.... Give-Us-Our-Free. You don't have to agree with how I live.... I only ask that, you allow me to live in peace. God will separate the goats from the sheep. Love-and-Let- Live.... For God is Love and he that, Loveth is born of God... He that loveth not, knowth not God for God is love.Love covers a multitude of sins.... Let freedom ring.... let love be the song that,our hearts sing.Let-Love.... Give-Us-Our-Free...let Love.

I hate you! From, The look in your eyes--- To the bitter-sweet words you choke out. I hate you and everything   you're about.. The way your hands caress my frame... Leaning in close to whisper my name. I hate that, I can never.... Never love you again. How, I thought we would last a lifetime....An eternity. I hate how now you've decided that can never be...I hate you and all that, you've done to me.Bewitched-My-Mind, With thoughts of you--Cursed my soul with your witches brew.I hate that I love you more now....than I use to. When I dream at night it's never a dream come true....I hate that, I hate myself more than I hate you. You hate... me ....as I hate you...For all of the things that, you put me through. I gave heart... Soul... *** .... Mind...to you.You ******* me literally--- slapped me... Played with my blue. My-Blue, That rained for only you. I spread my wings just to be cut by you. You drink me deeply.... Swallowed me whole. Played with my intellect, Straight- ******* my soul--- Yet, You hate me! That, Can't be true---Just last night---I received all of you. You came into my intellect--- Seized my soul....******* my mental....Made me your own.You say--You love me but that's, not true---I hate you more: Bout time you knew....My flowers are yours....your horn I've already blew--You hate me but I hate you too! Where do we go from here...is what I ask of you.

Icicle limbs... Frostbitten lips, Tell-Me--- If, This darkness is as good as it gets? No-One, Said, It would last a lifetime.... I truly thought it would be hasty..... Simply because this defeated, broken-down-mind has been going crazy. Tell-Me, If, the abyss is any deeper than this?I've searched through my vision and I thought my vision, was a view but I've come to realize that, my vision was not in view..... Icicle palaces---- hate- be you! Rain and then there's sun.... I've born my soul... Your flesh has won. You drink me like water-- My tears are dew.... but I'm so tired of yielding to you. Tell-Me, If-- Anything about us was true! Antarctic shoulders that you gave... put me in this despair---I now call me grave. You chew me and spit me out... bits-and-pieces of my heart ---on the floor. Glaciers become my feet...... in this terrible white heat.

Meet me on the rooftop... come make me your own.... make me cream and I'll make you moan. Go-Deep and Go-Long.... I'll let you taste it....you be Gin.... I be Patron.I'll take your bass make your moans falsetto.... no-one has ever gotten me wetter. Meet-Me, On the rooftop come lets explore..... whatever, gets-you-off....I'll do and more! I have no-hang-ups... I won't hide the freak...I'll make your bass-- falsetto....straight moaning for me.Meet-Me....Meet-Me... On The Rooftop.

When you're with the right one....all that you were missing-- you find in them..... all that they ever wanted, they find in you! Plural is two that, becomes one....One heart beating in the chest of two; One rhythm they flow in, but neither ever knew. When you're with the right one....they can hear the words that, you can't find away to say... they can feel your hurt that's, to deep to convey. They find you when, you're missing yourself---- and love you through your brokenness.....building you up and speaking life---  that gives you health. When you're with the right one...all that you were missing you find in them....all that they ever wanted they find in you. Free-Falling, No nets.... when it's real... when it'd true. Plural is two that, becomes one...always and forever....in shade or in sun.....One heart beating in the chest of two---you become all they ever wanted.... all they ever knew. When You're With The Right One!

You call me a freak because.... I'm about reaching your peak. I'm beyond what you originally thought... way beyond what your moms thought or your dad taught....I'm the one hidden in you...The freak that, you have embraced but never new. Whatever you want to do---I make possible to you....I'm the depth you never knew...the part of you that's alive and true.... whatever-whatever---I be true,

Play me like the blues.... take me to the moon... ride me like crazy---make me your baby. Relax, in my being... flow in my emotions... Love-Me-Beyond-Yourself: see you with no-one else.... forever and a lifetime. Play-Me-Like-The-Blues.... I be yours and you be mine....Forever, and a lifetime..... Play-Me-Like-The-Blues!

I'm broken and you're broken too; maybe it's your brokenness that leads me to you. I don't know what I want---yet, all I think about is you....are you the forbidden fruit or just my taboo? I can't tell...all that I thought was real---Changed, when I meet you. You like frilly things and I like them on you.... You like the truth... honestly to me the truth is you!How could something that, seems so right be so wrong, in the over-view? I'm broken and you're broken too;maybe it's your brokenness that, lead me to you.I'm not sure....all that I know is that: I'm spent... . all in  and it's because of you.I don't know if, it's really wrong or just taboo.... all I know is that, I'm in love with you: my forbidden fruit... my taboo ... now-until-forever... I will love you.My Taboo.

I'm not afraid.... I'm wide open. Let, Me see inside---- Let, Me see beneath your beautiful  tonight---I wanna love all that, You are. Let-Me, See beneath your beautiful tonight and always. Hold-Me.... and Let Me See.

Intimacy...... Real intimacy can't be shared with everyone..... Some people won't get it no-matter what: They, Simply won't understand--- Who, You truly are! Intimacy..... Is being able to be naked before someone.......naked with your clothes on and your soul bare. Most, Can't find you there..... You can't have true  intimacy with everyone.

From-One--Black-Man-To-Another......IT cost us nothing to lift up each other. Lets, Be about positive change and reinforcement for we are our brothers keeper. Lets, Show  the world how to love us by loving, supporting, encouraging, caring-for, and speaking life into one another. Brother-To-Brother.

Bottom Line......The way you react matters more than you know.... Never-Let, Anyone bring you down to a negative place or make you respond out of character .You are greater then that! Bottom Line.

I can work with this..... can you----Boi, you send me! That's what she said'! I'm down with you--- Let's, Let it do what it do.... I'm all about- building with you! That's-What, He said! The-Rest-Is-History...... How WE Got Over!

Wake-Up! Black L won't matter to anyone else until; Black L really matters to us. It's like expecting someone to love and care for you..... when you don't love and care about yourself..... we must learn to embrace all of who we are and love each other without conditions. We matter  and We should matter to each other regardless of skin tone.

I wanna make music with someone, who knows how to make love to my soul; keep it in the key of we.... and flow with me to ecstasy.