I think about you daily on many levels. I smile sometimes when I remember your smile or the crazy sound, you would make when laughing. I remember hanging- out in the summer time, spending the night over your house or mine. Telling jokes, playing games, and laughing so hard we'd cry; even- though it wasn't always funny.. It was funny to you and I. I think about you daily... Sometime I wonder why, a light so bright and beautiful-had to go and die. You where the most giving person that- I ever knew. Always helping others even those who would hurt you. Your-Smile, was like the sun on a cloudy day, so warm and loving.. Just like you in every way. I watched you go from 226 pounds of muscles hard as stones, to 95 pounds of ashy, skin and bones. I saw the pain you tried to hide, behind your brilliant smile... Cloaked, in laughter ever groan with the faith of a new born child. Even, when your light was dwindling, to others you would still give hope.. We are young you would say" No-Need to frown or mope. You never changed, never let it get you down; continued to live, give, and spread love all around.. You! Wonderful-You! I think about you daily and every thought, seems to make me smile; You were my best friend... Crazy, Loving, Brilliant, and Wild. I celebrate you my friend... Your light will always shine, in the lives of so many others and in this heart of mine. Yes! Your light will always shine. I Think About You .

Come in
Yes I know it's raining
Why do you ask
Are you really complaining
I let you kiss me
I let you feel
I never told you
'It was real
You say I tricked you
Gave you a disease
I'm so sorry
You bought it...please
Goodnight
Lock the door on your way out
That's right
And leave your key
This is the last time
You pay and say it's free

Waterfalls
Skies blue when there's no rain.
Like a rainbow after the pain
That comes every time I hear your name.
I remember the first time you said that
It would be the last time
That you hit me
Made me see stars
I get it
Men are from Venus
Women from Mars
Acid rain
Coming from the sky
I'm a man
I refuse to lie down and die
Who could I tell
Who can I run to
The things you do to me
Did someone do to you
I go to work
I rush right home
I run your bath
Put your dinner on
I meet you at the door
Drink in hand...
Just the way you like me; wearing nothing but skin
I bow to you
My Queen
On your knees
I make ready for your mean
A kick to the face, heels dig deep into my side...
I'm going to take a bath; burn my dinner
I'll tan your hide
Eyes... black,
Blood running from my nose
You're all I know
This is how our story goes
In bed you take me, over-and-over
Sometimes I feel like
I'm your woman
You're my man
I want to be stronger,
I want to be free...
More than that
I long just to be...
Loved--by you
For the rest of my life
That's why I married you
Made you my wife
I can't keep hiding,
What you do to me
Who can I tell
Who would believe me
This secret, I will keep
Until death do us part
I remember waterfalls...
Natures work of art.
I remember
Waterfalls...

Red rose pedals, lying on a bed of 100% Egyptian cotton; as we touch all hurts and pains are forgotten: on 100% Egyptian cotton.
The sun rises...between your thighs; I'm completely mesmerized.
I open up my wings to you...all the forbidden things we do.
Suspended animation as we fuse into one, My universe raptures your sun...on 100% Egyptian cotton.
Red roses pedals an all is forgotten...like honey to the bee, nectar so sweet; The juice of lust has become our treat.
I open up my mind to this, I've tasted the forbidden fruit, on 100% Egyptian cotton...where all time is forgotten...
Red rose pedals dripping with sweat and the sweet taste of passion.
Dripping like morning dew, as I fuse my likeness inside of you.
You drink from the well-wine so sweet...I pull from your treasures; delightful treats.
Strong yet tender, hard yet soft, wet and dry; My wings are open and we fly.
Up and down, in and out, around the sun, beneath the moon, together as one; We come not soon.
Emerged together, like rain in June...on 100% Egyptian cotton, with red rose pedals, where all time is forgotten.
I lost my love.
I found my passion.
I lost my pureness it erupted in your ashes...resurrected from the grave.
Your love drew me and made me slave, I yield to this sin...
Got my passion and lost my friend on 100% Egyptian cotton red roses where all is forgotten.

Love the skin you're in. We are all fearfully and wonderfully made by the masters hand. Unique, Beautiful, Amazing, Brilliant....and more alike than different. Lets walk in our truth, embrace our likeness, love ourselves, and others as well. Lets get to know one another..... Honestly.... put aside our issues and be about being better people. I see your humanity..... can you see mine? I dare, you to open yourself up to something new.....Honestly try to be  friends with someone... who--- doesn't look like you..... open yourself to loving them too! Instead of spreading hate, lets share love---- it's the only thing that, this world does not have enough of. Love The Skin You're In.... and allow others to love you as well.

I said, Lets talk, but you wouldn't hear; Instead you walked,
Walked away without saying a word, but your actions- Be sure that I heard.
You say, I'm ready now... but thing is--I just don't know how,
Never learned, to converse...only yell, scream, and curse.
Never learned, not to lie...but say whatever to survive
Never learned, To depend on another; Be it friend, lover, or brother.
Let's talk, you said to me-got my attention; speak-be-free.
Now it's me, With no words to say, 'Cause no one has ever come to me this way.
You see, I never learned how to converse, Only listen while they would yell, scream, and curse.
Never learned, how to lie...stand on the truth and never cry.
Never learned, how not to depend on my brother, lover, or friend.
So we converse, our flow is real-for better or worse.
We converse, like never before; have we opened a forbidden door?
A door that leads to truth, a door that may expose our youth,
You tell, your secrets and I tell mine...as we converse about old times.
I see the tears as they fill your eyes, I see the hurt that you have tried to hide.
You can feel the pain, that I thought was only mine, as we converse...we realize, that there's no-need to compromise.
I'm here for you and I understand you pain, your down for me and in truth we maintain.
Let's talk, for-better-or-for-worse, we must learn...to converse

I'm not into shapes,height,color, or size.... With me, it's all about how we vibe. I'm not into what kind of car you drive, where you live, or how hard you strive...... With me, it''s about how we vibe. I don't care about the clothes you wear, how you comb your hair, or if--- you be truth on a dare...... if, We vibin' I simply don't care. I'm not about minding-your-business, playing on your stage, bring you drama, or causing you rage...... if, We vibe I'm down for you...... and it doesn't matter what you have, where we are, or what we do! If, We vibe.... I'm down for you!

Feeling like a queen in drag
Longest night
Ever had
Like being late for the ball
Standing alone against the wall
Seeming big but feeling small
Fading to black
Confused and shattered
I know I'm better than that
Pass the *****
Give me gin
I'm ready
I'm at the door
Now let me in
I feel like a drag queen
Late for the ball
Wondering how I got here
And about to give my all
Ignoring what you heard
Ignoring what you see
You wanted the best
They sent you me
Feeling like a queen in drag
About to give all...
You never had
When it's all over
Your high on my essence
I'll smile and give you kisses
As I cry in my admission
Wondering why I keep giving over
To submission
No need to cry
No words to say
I wonder sometimes
How I got this way...
Feeling like a queen in drag

I was thinking, as I sat here. Vanilla cream scent filling the room, rain drops sweetly kissing my window... Butterfly kisses--it's like strange but that's, how I see the rain. Soft music flowing in the back-ground; Sade... Makes me want to get down. Bring-out... the **** me, or maybe this is how it's suppose to be. I was thinking, Like the moon I rise for you; You set me like the sun, in the middle of Spring-time--- tender breezes easy... I unwind. Like a gazelle... Graceful, Wild, ****, Fast, and Free; Hot-as- Fire... turned-on, Yeah! That's we. Moving in and out of time, gentle- touches sweet as wine...or honey smooth as butter are your lips, rose pedals blossoms as you sway your hips. I was thinking about the taste of the nectar beneath your waist; hidden wild flowers calling out for April showers. Gently- Kissing the mouth of your gate, tongue moving slowly as passion escapes. Moans of pleasure,  waves of ecstasy, an you shower me with your rain; something not like the rain... on my window pane. I was thinking, Black-Rose standing strong , hard as the wind on a winter's night... I enter your garden now wet with rain, riding waves of passion-- you... screaming my name; as one we explode. A soothing release, Like after a war-mmmmmm.....Sweet peace. I was just thinking, must have gotten taken away but... I'm just remembering yesterday. Yeah! How sweetttttt!!! I was thinking.

Take me to the moon and back again..... Play me like the blues.... in an old love-song. Drink of my love and leave me weak...... I've been waiting for you all day long. Come- Take- Me!

He said: ("I know...I'm sorry--I said it would never happen again. He's my boy...and she's your bestfriend. I never meant to cause you pain, I hate hurting you, and Yes! I'm to blame. Oh! My god!, I can't stand to see tears flowing from eyes...that girl, envoked me. She took me by surprise...and now it's to late. I've caused tears to enter your eyes. I know, forgive me! I said never again but, I found myself committing the ultimate sin; against you, the one that i love... You're Gods gift to me from above. I don't know! How i got here--here in this state doing all the things, I love but hate. I used her! Hurt you and him...but my focus is on us... I can't think about them. Please, will you forgive me? Give us another chance...I promise--before God only you will i romance. Look, I love you! You're my bestfriend, my lover, my wife...and when I said I do I meant it for life. I understand...you're right, this is my again--but now i really realize that, I can't live without...my wife,my lover,my friend; will you please forgive me and let me back in?:)"

   She said;("I forgive you...that's the easy part--because after the first time; you no longer had my heart. Yes' I know, you did it again and this time with my so-called-friend. Boyyy' I'm not, even mad at you...because this time I did it too. These tears, I cry...I cry for me' They're tears of joy...because I'm free, free to tell you...what you didn't know; while you were out there playing the *****. Yes! We've been on this road before but this time i decided to explore. What! You didn't think that we knew... Oh-yeah! He knew about her like I knew about you. I guess, in short... what I'm trying to say is-that; I left you long before today. I forgave you... a long time ago...I still care but I don't love you no-more. Please don't cry! I never meant to hurt you...Cause you pain, and like you--I promise never to do it again. But unlike you...I just can't stay, this is my goodbye and there's nothing else to say.:)"

In order to truly enjoy the company of someone else, We must learn to enjoy our own company. Before, we can truly love anyone else, We must learn to truly love ourselves. Two halves in a relationship or friendship, does not make it whole: it takes two whole people to make a whole friendship or relationship. Stop, Looking for someone else to make you whole or even complete you, and look to God for He's the only one who can. Learn to be the kind of friend that, you would like to have. Sow good seeds like: Compassion, Understanding, Love-Without- Conditions, Trust, Respect, Kindness, Peace, Hope, Tenderness, Truth, Honesty, Forgiveness, Help-Just-Because, Joy, Long-suffering, Grace, Mercy, and Laughter: and watch as the seeds are watered with grace and with love. They, will produce after their own kind. Long-Story- Short,  Whatever, kind of seeds that you sow... Be they good or bad, those are the ones or kind that, You are going to reap; so why-not, sow good seeds and reap that-which is good. Yeah! You Reap What You Sow!!

Yeah! I cheated myself-I understand all to well what you mean... Miss Winehouse but I can't say that I'm no-good quite the opposed. I give them life, love, with all my strength . They took it all and charged me rent. I prayed, for them, gave heart- and-soul; they laugh at me and left me in the cold. I cheated myself in every way, it's a fools game -that I wanted to play. Thought that I could change you, somehow make you mine, you put me through hell... How I wish I could rewind. Yeah! I would change the story, rewrite every line. From the first day that I saw you, right up to this moment in time. I would not have given my number along with my self respect, I would have let you know... I'm not one to neglect. I would have left... Yeah! The first 'time that you cheated and not just stay, to have you causally repeated it. I would have run the first time... You put your hands on me, not just stay and have you beat me randomly. I would have left you... That night you and your friends came- into my room and had me over-and -over again. The things you did to me... The things you made me do-I cheated myself; I was a fool in love with you. Yeah! I would have even changed the night, the last night I had with you. This one for which I am not ashamed, for doing what I had to do. It was right after you beat me and tore off my brand new dress, eyes closed, nose broke, lip swollen, ribs cracked... I was a horrible mess. You didn't stop there though- oh- no that, was not enough. You violated me and you made it ruff. When, you were done and I lie there bleeding on the floor, I asked you why and you said... Because you are my *****.You started laughing.. and said "now get ya *** up off the floor". I got up and with all that I had, I started to fight like a woman gone MADD. They say that I stabbed you.. Can't remember when I got that knife... They gave me 32 years for taking your so called life. I cheated myself. Yeah! It was all me. Loving a fool has cost me.. My-free! Yeah! I cheated myself.

And so, I self medicate, To forget this so called life that I hate,
Just to escape for a moment in time, this life that's rightly mine.
In order to find some peace-of-mind...and get lost in time, to find myself;
What little is left, beyond the one behind the shelf.
I don't give a ****. What you say-- 'Cause you don't know my life that way,
Don't even shake or fake like a tree, nor pretend that you understand me.
Hell-yeah' I self medicate, helps me appreciate...this crazy life of mine,
The one you could not find, when you tried to beat me down.
Took my body made me frown, tried to choke-life out of me,
**** me {repeatedly} abused, misused, {served me up like hell}; now,
I'm bound because you fell.
Bound to the past, pain, and abuse
Bound to you, you poor excuse,
Bound too all those, you made me serve,
My father, my ****, you useless perv.
Yeah!!! I self medicate, helps me to love all that I hate,
Helps me to feel all I cant find,
Like hope, dreams, peace-of-mind,
Helps me recover all that you took,
Like pride, self esteem, love, and even joy;
You left me broken...like a funky little toy.
So, I self medicate, just to escape the pain,
Rise above the guilt and shame,
Rewrite my life and be whole again.
I don't give a ****!! What you think about me, I self medicate for just a moment-to be free
I self medicate, to be...The person that I was meant to be.

Thinking back, To when I was the light that brightened your way,
Thinking back, To when you hung-onto every word that I would say.
Thinking back, To the times you would run to me, Just because.
Thinking back, To how you stood with me on every 'cause,
Thinking back, On the love we use to share,
Thinking back, On the time when we use to care.
Thinking back, On the way you made me smile
Thinking back, On how you use to drive me wild.
Thinking back, On the way you use to touch my soul,
Thinking back to  a time, that I really thought, that you made me whole.
Thinking back, On how you use to make me feel,
Thinking back, On a life that now- doesn't seem real.
Thinking back, I'll do no-more...There's nothing left worth thinking back for.
Thinking back has made me free, 'Cause me to except what had to be,
Thinking back now I can move-on, Love again, Live again, Because I'm strong.
Thinking back we both played a part, but love was not enough to keep us from falling apart.
Thinking back, Yes! My last time, must move-on to a new rhythm; must find a new rhyme.
Thinking back my heart is clear and forever I'm sure that you'll be near,
Thinking back, we both are free and forever; friends we will always be.
Thinking Back

Empty in a crowed room, Lonely though I'm not alone. Running fast while standing still... This is sometimes the way that I feel. Up, When I should be down, Smiling though I really want to frown, Intoxicated after making love; Sad for-no-reason... just because: Wondering is this life real. This is sometimes the way that I feel. Wanting but not having a need, Striving but just can't succeed; Needing a touch... A hug from a friend, Standing still alone once again: Dead but yet I live. This is sometimes the way that I feel. Loving but getting nothing in return, Standing on ice... Yet! Deep is the burn. Reaching-out, though no-one's there, Giving to those who don't really care, Wondering are they for-real... This is sometimes the way that I feel. Happy when I should be sad, At peace... When the world's gone mad; Laughing... Needing to heal. This is sometimes the way that I feel. This is sometimes the way that I feel,  This is sometimes the way that I feel.

You get me off..... I'm so confused. I've never been here but I like being your muse.... make me cream....make me cry...take me there--you know why---you get me soooo high...so high in your deep--so sweet, so tight, so warm, so right.... I surrender all to you-- I be yours all night. I'm so confused.... when it's this good, I don't mind being used. Use-Me-Up, I be your muse.

There are certain things that...I adore: Like you and I naked on the bedroom floor or kitchen table spent.... yet, Yearning for more. There are certain things that I adore. Like, Kissing you deeply as you hold me tight.... my tongue lost inside you---- and everything in the earth seems right. You really get-me...... You feel me in a way--- I've never known---- it's like you have made-me.... your-own. There are certain things that, I adore.... Like you giving me your all and asking---- if, I want more; letting me know-that, you're down for whatever..... Lets explore. You get me high.... Take me deep..... Give-Me-Pleasure..... make me weep----every-time we make love, right before you put me to sleep. There are certain things that, I adore....Like the thought of having you for a lifetime and even more.You-and-I-Forever..... For-Sure-For-Sure.... A lifetime is not enough..... I''ll forever be wanting more. There are certain things that, I adore.... They--- let me know that.... I'm yours.

Remembering, When you walked inside my soul and set me free..... Remembering, How you laughed in my spirit and took my pain away; Remembering, How your touch went beyond my physical, Remembering, How you spoke life into me: and caused me to believe again. Remembering, How you danced inside my every emotion, Remembering, How you loved me......How you cared----- I'm just remembering----- How you loved me-----beyond yourself. If, I never love again...... that will be alright----- because I have known- Love---- True! I have known love true. Now, with tears in my eyes and a heart filled with joy..... I'm Remembering You! I'm Remembering-----

When you spoke
It was like jazz
Deep and pure
Sweet yet simple
Flowing from endless melody
Oh how you raptured me
In just one word...hello
You melted me
Ohh like honey butter
To you I flow
Speak again
My jazz melody

When we met
It was December
Do you remember the music we made
You were as smooth as the blues
An up beat tempo
On my sullen days
The wind blew us into another phase
You spoke the word goodbye
Slow jazz whispered through my ears
Calming down my river of tears
For you I flow
Come again
Help me grow

Hello...goodbye
Sweet whispers
In a jazz melody
You so deep
In me
I'm so true to you
But your goodbye
Makes my brown eyes blue
I'll be blues to you
Down beat slow melody
Strings like bass
Drumming the tears
Streaming down my face
I'll be blues for you
You be jazz to me
Why can't we make a melody?

Make a rhythm so soft
Only the beat knows were we fell off
How your voice spoke to mine
Once in perfect harmony
Our pitch was different this time
Never forget the music we made
For you I flow
It took you leaving me
Me loving you
To help us grow.

I got-you.... Through the storm and rain, heartache and pain, I got-you. Through, peace and war, loss of love-ones and more, I got-you. Through, ups-and-downs, and all of-life's crazy turn-arounds, I got-you. Through, sickness and health, poverty or wealth, I got-you. When you're happy or sad, When you're laughing or mad, I got-you. When you cry- because you're blue; over something that, someone has put you through. I got-you.... When you smile because you're free.... and you're walking in your liberty. I got-you.... Whatever comes our way, right-up to my dying day. I Got You!

Day 1-
When I woke up yesterday, I realized that it was today, and the vision
I had for my future had faded away; so I yelled to myself
All the things I couldn't say. 'Cause my I wasn't me, and my me walked away.
Myself stood alone in this large empty room, Wanting someone to hold but my- I was just too cold; so the me said to I: "Can I hold you?" And my I realized myself is fine, so I touched myself.
Me stood alone ashamed and in pain then I turned to me and kissed me again, and we stood me, myself and I.

Day 2-
Staring out the window, I find myself needing comfort, so I looked to myself; I mean who knows me better than me? My likes, dislikes, my joys, {you know the things that make me happy} and of course I know what brings me sorrow. {like the day you walked out the door, left me not only with a broken heart, but with eyes filled with tears}. I looked to myself for answers and comfort from the rain, for everything I needed...I found in myself again.

Be the moon that lights the sky...... Be the stars in your haters eye, Be what you were called to be..... Walk-In, Your destiny. Let your inner-beauty set the captives free...... Everybody's waiting on you---- to walk in your Liberty! Be

Sometimes I wonder why loving someone has to be  so hard, then I realize that; it's only as hard as we make it. Loving is the easy part, it's trust or trusting that's hard; especially when you've been hurt by trusting before. Sometime I wonder.

They took my brother in the middle of the night, said that he looked at a girl that was white.
They took my brother and beat him so, until his eyes popped out into the ground,
His flesh was open, bruised, battered, and torn; and blood ran freely in a space all around, but in all of this he wouldn't make a sound.
They took my brother an cut his ***** off and to degrade him, they stuck it in his mouth.
They took my brother and hung him to a tree, then they set him on fire...right in front of me.
They took my brother, he was so sweet, gentle, and kind; he was so beautiful to look upon and oh...what a brilliant mind.
They took my brother and no-one said a word, and because he loved us so...not a sound from him was heard.
They took my brother 'cause he stood for what was right, and said no to a girl...that was white.

They Took

Free as the wind in the spring time, gently kissing the face of mankind, Lazy as the sun in the winter; Easy-going and always the center- of- all-that- is: Sweet as honey in mint tea... that's all you-- to me.    Thoughts out loud                                                                                                                                                   Open like New York at Night, Wide as the sea, High as Mt. Fuji, and vast as eternity that's... freeing me; I yield willingly.                                                                                                                                                Thoughts out loud                                                                                                                                                   I breath you, You are my air, I feel you though you're not there, I smell your scent from miles away; I live on every word you say.                                                                                                                                 Thoughts out loud                                                                                                                                               Tall as the Empire State, Wide as Victoria Lake, Flowing like the Nile...on horse-back riding free. Gentle ray of sun, sweet as strawberry ice tea: Soft spoken and wild that's... Me and you my child.   Thoughts out loud.

OOOOOOOOO- U- Kissed me....Made me- high, now I'm shedding my skin for you boy! You, got me..... Me-Ole-My---I really wanna put-it-on-ya! You-Said..... You, knew the way..... gonna take me deeper---- I give you all my lace....and now I'm bound in leather---- OOOOOO-I- Like-It! Boy.... Come make it rain..... Taste-It..... Spank-Me..... Call-My-Name! OOOO-I-Like-It..... Do-It-Deeper..... Daddy-Again...... OOOOOO-I-Like-It...... I- Like-It....... OOOOO_ I-Like-It.

Speak to me in a language that, not many know--- Body-To-Body, Touch and let go..... Where we end-up only passion and the hidden freak--- will know . Kiss-Me, deep and work me slow.... Lets penetrate each other---- spirit-mind-heart-and soul! No-Need, to rush--- I'm down from- lets-go.... Lets move and flow.... into whatever-whatever from  head-to-toe. From-Front-To-Back... I got-that----sweet kisses in every crack-you-got-that! Speak, Soft and Tender.... I yield and surrender. Speak, Deep and Firm... I'm wet--- my body yearns. Lets make it rain and thunder too... as we move from ordinary into taboo---- I'm turning you on--- you're turning me out.... That's what it's all about. What, Is this forbidden language---- our bodies screams to speak.....it's not forbidden just hidden from the weak---those not willing to pay the cost... for ecstasy...... ForePlay ......The Language that our bodies crave. Speak, to me body-to-body.... All's Cool.... No- Taboos....In The Language of ForePlay -----If, You're good no-one-loose. ForePlay---

Lost my family, Lost all my friends
For my lover, For my lover
Lost my job, Lost my house
For my lover, For my lover
Lost my car , Lost  my truck
For my lover, For my lover,
Lost my clothes, Lost my watch
For my lover, For my lover
Lost my dog, Lost my cat
For my lover, For my lover
Lost my children, Lost my man
For my lover, For my lover
Four days in the rain
For my lover, For my lover
Went to jail and back again
For my lover, For my lover
Then she left me all alone, said she had to go back home
To her lover, to her lover

Come.... It's time--- Leave your clothes there--- drop-them and unwind. Lets go places... you've never gone before.... I'll do things that, will keep you *******-evermore. I want to taste-you from head-to-toe.... even down there--- I want to go. I like the taste of your sweet-and-lo-- 69... I'm down--- I'm a freak-- don't clown. We can do whatever you like.... I'm down for whatever and I'm good for all night. Come.... Trust-Me.... Your fantasy is safe with me. I'll just- keep it between us..... I'll just keep- it between us. Between- Us!

I'm up in more ways than one.. .and I'm ready wanna have some fun? I'm ready.... for a real good time, I wanna try to fine that spot... OOOO--- make the rain fall..... hot! Think-I'm-Nasty? I'll back-it-up! Drop-It, Make it stream-line..... enter me and find, the place you  wanna go--- sounds so nasty. Back- It-Up, I'm really tryna blow your mind.... I'll go down on you any time..... drink you up, just like wine; Do you think... I'm nasty?  No-No! Nasty's fine.... Especially when it's from behind!!! Really- Rough, but gentle too, squeezing tight, pushing threw-and-threw....Do, you think you're ready? Bodies ablaze, hands- unsteady.... Kiss-Me! TRY-Not to touch, Driving you crazy.... not in a rush...... Do-You-Think-You're-Ready? Think- I'm-Nastyy?!  I'm ready, Will-You be steady..... Steady long-and-hard? Steady, Even-and-Vast..... make-me ***; make it last-- will you?  I wanna taste you're breast, lead-me into the vastness of your garden... OOOOo! Tongue, teasing your ****.... with ice in my mouth I gently ****-on-it! I can taste the rain.... back-arched, strawberries--- the new cherry and there's no pain. Think- I'm-Nasty?!  Nasty- Nasty.... as can be. Fill-Me-Up, readily. Every, Inch into the mile....have me wetter than the Nile. Bend- It-Over, Make-It-Split.... You can even spit on it...... Bite-and-Lick it too, Splurge on my face; Do what you want.... I belong to you! Oh-Yes! Right-There, Spank-Me.... Pull-My-Hair! ***** all the way, Bring the camera..... press--- play! Don't fast-forward..... let me ride it to the end.... Play-It-Backwards..... Where-We- Begin..... Before, I knew you were...... NASTY!

Eyes wide shut, Legs shut open, Nose that can't taste, Mouth won't smell, Ears won't feel, Hands won't hear, Lips won't beat, Heart can't speak; Without-You.  Sun won't rain, Rain don't shine, Sky can't flow, River won't cover, Moon won't smile, Stars won't dance, Nature don't grow, Flowers won't change; Without-You. Sweet not honey, Hot not tea, breeze not cool, Sun not hot, Mind not think, Voice not speak, Body not breathe, Heart not beat; Without-You.Without-You, There's no-me.... Without-You... Life can't be, Without-You.... Songs don't have melody, Without-You.... Sun won't rise; Without-You. World stands still.... Heart can't speak, Live no-life, Empty over full, Soul happy-sad.... Love's mad-happy, Life hard soft---- Tears- Cry- Eyes...... Without-You. Water won't wet, Towels can't dry, Flow won't blood, Bleed won't flow, Clothes won't shelter, Shelter won't clothe, Bark won't cat, Dog won't meow; Without-You. Without-You..... Nothing in this world is right, Without-You-- My brightest day is night, Without-You.... Life has no-meaning, Without-You..... I'm merely breathing; Without-You.Rain won't fall, Without-You, Sun won't shine--- Without-You, I'm incomplete.... Without-You, Heart just won't beat..... Without-You, I die now....... Without-You. ..... Without-You!

Like a river I flow to you
Like a seed, in good ground I grow for you.
Like a candle, I burn for you;
With all that is within me, I yearn for you.
For your lips as smooth as butter, your kiss that's like none other,
For your touch that takes my breath away;
Your breast, your thighs, your ebony prize.
Like water, I'm weak for you,
Like a mountain, I'll peak for you,
Like sun to moon,
Like thunder to rain.
You complete me, you free me,
You live inside me, You are my expression;
For you I'll be possession.
Like a river, I flow

You're always...... Always--- on my mind. My day starts and ends with you. You're the light that brings me through..... even the darkest of night, as long as you're there I know that, everything will be alright. You're my healing when there's pain..... My shelter from the rain. You're the peace in the midst of my storm, you're the fire that keeps me warm. You're the beat within my chest.....and the silence where I find rest. You are the love that I bring and, every reason that  I sing. In-Short..... You're my everything..... and you're always on my mind. You're Always On My Mind.

Looking out my window on this cold and dark day, I find myself drifting and some how floating away. Mind over matter, matter over time, time over reason, and all without rhyme. Wanting to go forward but always falling back, wanting to prosper but head- over-heels in lack. Looking for a brighter day, hoping for some sun, no-beaches in view... No, not one. Looking out my window, speechlessly screaming out-I'm falling deeper into this.. Can't see my way out. Help me, in my mind... I don't wont to do this, no-one can hear, I'm yelling thru the mist. I'm so tired, I've done my best, I've given my all and I find no-rest. No, peace within these walls, these walls that are my skin; these walls that are so cold; keeping others out and trapping me in. I'm reaching out, reaching up, but falling in, into a maze that hates me from within. I can't seem to find myself, tired of hoping that someone else will find me too; so this is the logical thing to do. No-one, will miss me, no-one will care, I wonder if, anyone will even notice that, I'm no-longer here. I feel so cold so cold and weak, I'm falling now into a deep-deep sleep. Where will I wake? I just don't know-where do all the broken vessels go? The Question!

No special occasion...... It's just something that, I wanted you to know. Loving you has always been easy..... you make it that way; With your kindness, mindfulness, and in the way that, you treat-me---- always tuned-in to the depth of me. Staying with you has always been a pleasure for me..... Because you get me like none-other..... You are and have been --- My Sister-Brother, Father-Mother, Lover-and Closest Friend.....You are everything that, I hold dear----- and it seems like you've always been. My love for you is higher than The Empire State..... Deeper than Victoria Lake, it brings life to me like The Nile.... Simply you're the gift that, makes my Life worthwhile; to the moon-and-back again.... You will always be My Lover, My Life, and My Friend. No..... Special Occasion----- I just wanted you to know..... Some of the reasons, why I love you so! No Special Occasion.

It was easy to fall for you.... it was the way you walked inside my mind and undressed my soul....The way you spoke into my life and transformed my being; your **** was in the way you carried yourself....The way you cared for others....and in the the brilliance of your mind--- I find myself falling for you over-and-over....in-and-out-of-time. I saw your ****---- through the brilliance of your mind. Through The Brilliance Of Your Mind!

All I ever-wanted was.... to be loved-by someone who could really see-me.... The real me--- Beyond the mask that, I wear to save-me..... keep-me-safe. All I ever wanted was.... to be seen by someone---- who really cared and could see-me-for-me .....beyond- my-flesh, beyond my-veil of emotions, beyond my hurts-and-pains, beyond my faults-and-shame.... someone who could see the whole-of-me---- good-bad-and-ugly.....and love me anyway! All I ever wanted was.... Someone to be down for me..... Come-What-May.... Trust-Me-Exclusively and Allow-Me-To-Do-The-Same. All I ever wanted was.... A lover who was closer then my best-friend .....Who'd be a friend closer than a brother. That's all I've ever wanted...... Someone to love me...... for-me-----and allow me to love them in the same. All I ever wanted.....was something real, something true, something lasting, something-old-yet-new...... That's All I've Ever Wanted. All I Ever Wanted.

I remember.... it was a beautiful warm sunshiny day, the flowers were in bloom... It was early May. I saw you standing in a blue tight fitting dress and all I could think of... Was how much you had been blessed. Your skin as smooth as silk and the color of golden honey, your eyes dark as night... yet brighter than the sun and a body that; would make Venus blush. I remember... standing there, and watching you walk away.... The flowers were in bloom , it was early may... and I was in love! Though, I never got to say. I fell, head-over-heels, heart-over-mind, and since that day... I've been suspended in time. Remembering that day... It was in early may, the flowers were in bloom,  the sun kissed the moon, and I was in love... A month before June.

I See U, In my bed at night. I See U, In my dreams. I can see the side of U that, no-one else sees. I hear U, In her room and all the freaky things U do; And... I wonder if, She knows that, U do them to me too.                                                             ­                                                                 ­                                                 I Hear U, Coming down the hall. The thought of you I dread, and I can see the movie... play so vivid in my head. I can feel you... drinking me as you place that deep inside; releasing all your energy; and taking all my pride. I See U- Think... that U love me, I think U-Think; that I care. When again I find you sitting with your hand in my underwear.                                                       ­                                                                 ­                                         How in the Hell can you think -- I love you... When all you gave to me was pain? I See U, Dead... in your grave but I'm still living with the shame.

Later's.. Where I want to be with you, Doing all the freaky things we do; Got-Me, Up-Against the wall with your hands down in my draws; yeah! I'm creaming in my jeans.. you about to make me scream. Later's, Where I want to be with you. Doing all the wild things, we do... got hard chocolate in your mouth,  and you're ******* in-and-out; Later's, Where I want to be with you. Later's, Where I want to be with you... doing all the ***** things we do; got you down on your knees and you're blowing me with ease; Later's, Where I want to be with you... Doing all the  crazy things that, we do, Yeah! I'm running in a thong and you're justa egging-me-on! Now, I'm ******* on your breast...like rain you're all wet. Later's, Where I want to be with you.. Doing all the **** things we-do; Like when you're down on your  knees and I'm banging you to please; OOOO! Later's, Where I want to be with you. Doing those things we like to do...me loosing my tongue deep-inside you... front-to-back; nothing I don't do. Later's, Where I want to be with you... turn-off the lights; Now lets do what we do...OOOOOOOOOOOO! No-More, Later!

Passion-Speaks beyond reason, Reason-Speaks in-and-out of time, Time-Speaks.... In- Seasons, Seasons- Speaks.....through truth, Truth-Speaks for realness, Realness.... Longs for Love and Love-Yearns for a vessel that, will carry it wholeheartedly..... Without- Conditions..... Without-Judgment.....With-Deeds and In-Truth. Passion- Speaks to Truth.

Can you believe, what Jack said to Steve!
I'm weak for your kisses,
I yearn for your touch,
I melt in your presence
I'm open to your flame,
Receive me, Receive me
Do you believe, what Jack said to Steve!!
I'm water, for your thirst,
I'm shelter from the rain,
I'll be fire, to keep you warm,
Like your skin, I will cloth you,
Receive me, Receive me
Like a candle let me melt deep inside you,
Like a storm let me move within your secret place,
Like a gentle breeze let me taste your fruit of passion,
Like 69 lets unwind in an oral fashion,
Relieve me, Relieve me
Oh! Can you believe what Jack said to Steve!!!!

Never change your flavor to fit-in with someone else. Either, They except you for all of who you are, or they don't. Be true to you...... Unapologetically-You!

Why should I cry, when it was you that caused the pain,
Why should I believe, when you've lied to me over and over again?
Why should I pretend, that it won't happen again?
Why should I believe, that you love me or that your my friend?
Why do I continue to hide what you do?
{I mean the make-up-the dark shades-and the long sleeves too}.
One day I'll tell it , One day you'll see; One day I'll be strong enough to stand-up for me.
Didn't think that they would find out, Thought I hid it well.
Funny how, that from the grave...My story I did tell.
Told you, That I would fight back, said "That I would be strong enough for me".
Why did I have to die, In-order to be free?
Why??

Knowing your worth is priceless... knowing who you are makes you a force-- to be reckoned with, knowing who's you are empowers you and positions you for greatness. Let, No-One devalue you... Let, No-One ever make you feel less-than; give-- no-one the power to dictate who you are, or who you should be. You are a Queen born into purpose... The deep calls unto the deep. Only a true King can see, find, hear, feel, taste, or understand a true Queen... He sees beyond her flesh and into her spirit; He's able to feel her pain, hear her hearts-cry, and make love to her soul; without ever touching her. He brings her healing and protection with all that's within him... because he sees her worth and values her being. Iron sharpens iron.... Only a true Queen can find, hear, see,feel,and touch a real King in a way that, he's never known but has always dreamed of. Only a true Queen knows how to build a King. She encourages him, Lifts- Him-up, catches him when he falls---before he hits the ground. She feels him from miles away... He's locked inside of her; with her he feels safe. A true Queen is there at his side... She's his ride-or-die, She's his life, world, and pride. She never brings him shame.... She puts him first and gives joy to his name. The King is covering for his Queen ...For her, He'd freely give his life. A Queen encompasses her King. Shielding him from all harm and strife. You are Royal... Know your place. Born for greatness... for such a time as this. Live- With Purpose, Laugh-It confuses your enemies, and Love- Without- Conditions and Beyond- Words. To: My Kings... I celebrate you and all that you do... all that you are, and all that you will become. To: My Queens... I celebrate, appreciate, and applaud you; for all that you do, will do, all that you are, and all that you will become. Arise... My Kings and My Queens: and Be Blessed. Walk in the beauty, the power, the greatness that is you!

The fact.... that you don't have a clue, really isn't anything new. You being like everyone else... note to myself --and it was fair, yo! You're not rare. The same-ole-same it's all in the game, only thing... your game is lame. This is quick and this is short... Whatever, this is I must abort. This doesn't mean that I don't care but I'm looking for something... Someone that's rare; Loving, Kind, and Tender too: Understanding, Positive, and down for yours-tru..ly. Yeah! Down for me. Who, would always be... down for we. I guess, I've had more than enough of your negativity. Like a bird now... I fly cause I'm free, loving myself with no negativity.  Like the son I might stand along and like the sun my day is full blown. It's nothing new... You not having a  clue-- now watch you try and make this { all about youuuu}.!

I'm ready... For love and I want the real thing. Love.. If, You are listening come to me... answer me, make me believe again. ****** my mind, make love to my spirit, capture my heart, walk in my soul, and I will give you my body... my life, all that makes me whole; and I give my promise to be all to you. I'm ready... I want to be held by your spirit, made love to by the soul of you, kissed by your mind, shielded by your heart, and one with your body in every-way imaginable. I have fallen for love in the past; now I need love to fall for me...I'm ready for love.

Love you! Love you more...and that's the truth. Then, that's a whole lot of love. Want, to see me? Of-Course! I wanna see youuuuuuu!! Make room, I have always... Loved to look into your face; just trying not to get my hopes to high. I'm doing that... You-Know, that you light-up my life. You are a wonderful gift from God to me. Glad, that you're back! Back... back from where? Wherever, You were when you were trying to go through life without me. I never left, just stood--still. Well!  I'm glad that you're back in the forefront. You're me best friend and I never want to loose you. I love you. From, My-Heart- To-Yours. You've been a real good friend as well and I know that; it's a God-thing: because if, it wasn't.... Then we would not still be in love. To God... be the glory. You-Know that, He does all things well. Yes! He does. Talk to you later. Love you my friend... be blessed. I think that, you're in love with me! I am! I can't help it! It's mutual! Be Blessed.

If, I were your woman and you were my man.... I feel like I've heard this before...Oh-Yeah! It's from that. sad song ... where the man chooses his wife...over his *****. She was pleading her case... offering things--- he didn't deserve and he still went back to wiffy...leaving her standing out on the curb. Were we listening? Did, She listen to herself? Why! Would  you give your all to a man... Who belonged to someone else? I mean, We got caught-up...listening to her groove, it was soulful and ****... some of us--- even talked about ole-dude. Saying, stuff like-- he needs to stay with her... she loves him and treats him right! I guess that, We were blinded by the fact...He already had a wife. When you chose to settle for half a man or half anyone at all... What, you end-up-with is nothing but, a good reason for you to fall. Why! Give, all of yourself for half of someone else.... and not expect yourself to fall? Cause half of anyone....is really- nothing at all! If, I were your woman and you were my man! That was the sh-- back in the day... now it's just a side-chicks  anthem... for a game that, only fools play.He was such a part of her and he didn't even know-it....I believe he knew- just...didn't care enough: to show it. She was dreaming out-loud for another woman's man..Maybe, his wife could have helped her to understand: that she... was better without- him in her life.  Try, Knowing about the other woman and being his wife. { If, I Were Your Woman}