A chaos that we were
A storm that we went into
Felt like the world has ended right there and then
When you said the word farewell

Every prayers, every wish
Genuine as they came
Every smile, every tears
As real as they came

Perfect is far from what we were
Did we even know what we were?
If we were not to meet each other for another day
Would our heart had anything to say?

The world, now a different place
The scenery, now is just a blur
The colors, all black and white
The sound, is just muted background

When the world heard of us part
It just started crumbling apart
The stars we used to stare on the night sky
They just fall like passersby

Every hug, cold
Every memories, pain
Every smile, forgotten
Everything, lost

But then came the silence
As if its holding victim of patience
Questioning the future and its existence
God knows its not coincidence

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If our love was broken
If our love was pain
Why am I keep telling myself
That I would do it all over again?

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Let's climb every mountain
Let's dance under the rain
Lets kiss and embrace once again
Let's fall in love again

People celebrate today
A day of love, a day of joy
People profess and confess
A special time once every long year

I see people kiss
They snuggle and cuddle
They say ‘it’s a special day’
And say ‘i love you’

It makes me wonder
What about the other days
Do these souls wonder about each other
Do these souls dream of one another

The universe makes me feel so lucky
And today isn’t really that special to me
Because whenever I’m with you
Every day is a Valentine’s Day

There are things left unsaid
There are feelings left hanging
There are things I wish I knew
But there is nothing I would keep from you

To see you happy
Is what I seek in life
I just wish your smile
Would last an eternal lifetime

Now there might be a rainy day
Black skies, cold embrace
Chilly breath, frozen tears
And a void of where your existence used to be

I will live
Even if my heart stopped beating
I will die
When your heart start beating for someone else

The requiem of your love will stay forever
I will treasure it and make it my gold
I might still watch your pretty life from pictures afar
Or close my eyes and jump into the starless night instead

There she is
Sitting in the corner of her room
In the dark of the night
Staring into nothing

There he is
Broken as it sounds
In the dark of the night
His words empty

Two beautiful souls
Swimming in the void
Killing each other slowly
With love and affection

All he ever wants
To see his lover smile
All because of him
Not of the past

All she ever wants
To be happy as she ever be
But possible is not
Dragged by her past

They hang on to each other
Them against the whole universe
They are drowning, slowly
Anchored by their expectations

He was the most selfless being
She was the most carefree soul
Now they were no longer those
Only the cocoon of their former selves

Let me tell you a story
Of the worst tragedy
When two people who loves each other so much
Yet things will still not work out

Loving you is an art
I might do it differently now
But the essence of it
Will never ever change

I will still wait for you
for i don’t want anyone else
I will never stop being the one
who always wants more of you

I’m still building dreams about you
and if i keep building, maybe
just maybe
our hearts will collide once again.

I am a meteor
Not for you to enjoy
Because you are the atmosphere
And I would burn up for getting too close

As I pass by
I see you smile deep in your sleep
A smile that lights the canyon lines
And I wonder who you are dreaming of

As I pass by the second time
You are on your porch, glass of wine at hand
I had to hold back every desire
And not to race to the front of your door

As I pass by the last time
You are in someone's arms
I wonder if I have to dive down to earth
Burning up doesn't seem so bad now

I love everything about her

She is a good girl
She loves poems
She loves funny jokes
She loves reading
She loves stargazing
She loves cooking
She loves her family
She loves her friends
She loves dogs
and I love her

But she loves her boyfriend.

We were just there.
sitting side by side.
no words were thrown.
only the silence haunting us.

"Is this it?" I asked, breaking the silence.
"What?" you responded.
"The end of us. I thought we were more than this".

There was a long pause, so suffocating before you answered.

"We were never more"
You could not see me in the eyes.
"Our minds were always entangled together, but my heart told me that we were never that deep to call anything that we used to have.......ours"

"Don't you love me? Love....us?"

You finally put up your face, staring right into my soul.

"I loved us" you smiled, weakly

"That feeling was our escape from the world, it was a place where we can be us and love each other, but it was never meant to be our home"

I don't need to take
a sip of morning coffee
because the lingering taste of your lips
has been keeping me awake

A paradigm shift
In between time
And space aligned
A pitch, dark void

Wheeled by the stars
Powered by gravity
I felt myself
As a part of the abyss

The depths of our existence is intense
I once fell for your light
Now I linger in your dark
Painting your beauty with sorrow

The emptiness is addicting
To witness it being fulfilled
By every single thing
But your lost love

I was drunk from all the matters
High from all of your energy
There was no fear, no pain
Only the haunting memories of you, infinitely

Love is not a choice to begin with
People might say that you have control over it
But I don't
I never wanted to love her
But I did

She might not be the prettiest
But she smiles the brightest
She might not be athletic
But she is funny and tells great jokes

I still love to see
All the goofy faces that she made
She made sure that everyone knows how happy she was
With all the comedy and happiness in her life
Spread to the whole world

She is both a flower and art to me

Deep in her roots, she keeps all the lights
Enjoying the flowers does not mean you have to pick them up
You watch as they bloom
Grow and become beautiful
The process is what I cherished the most

Art does not have to look pretty
It only needs to have meaning
She gave meaning to my life
She gave me different perspective on how to live life
She made me breathe different kind of joy

To love her is never a choice
But to let her go is
I can't let the skies, the universe, and all the cosmos
Telling me when it is going to happen
When you put it into perspective
It is either let go and be free
Or cling to someone which you already know what the final answer might be

I understand that letting someone you love go is difficult
Because when you really love someone
You also gave her part of you
A stray of your life
And as you see her go away
You're not getting it back
The part of your life that you gave stay with her for the rest of her life
Even after you have moved on
Or forever fallen apart
It stays as a reminder
Of what could have been
Or should have been
And whatever it was that happened between the two

She does not need me to bring her flowers
She will stay and plant her own garden for her
Decorating her life, love, and soul
Creating a sanctuary
Of beauty and felicity

I have no business staying with you in the first place
But as the saying goes
Love is not a bandage to cover up the wounds
To love does not mean you have to have her in your arms
To love does not mean you have to be loved back
To love means to understand the unconditional nature
To love means that even though you are separated, nothing will ever changed





And to let you go never means that I will love you less

This is the kind of the night
where I can see the constellations bright
wishing to see the reflections of their light
directly from your beady eyes

Feeling the light breeze on my ear
pretending that it was you
whispering close to me
knotting the words 'I love you'

Not a single day goes by
without you in my imagination
the thoughts of your smile
resembling sunbeams in the summer

Know that we are looking at the same sky
just without your hand in mine
without your head on my chest
without you is just where I am

I close my eyes, for the million times
feigning that the distance is not real
fabricating the idea of just us
staring and kissing into the end of the night

You came into my world
as a stream of colours
paint my every mood
and brighten my days

but the walls that you put up
keeps changing in nature
leaving me hanging
in the world of black and white

Every person is a moon
with their own dark side
that never reflects the light
and hides their desires within

Just like when a candle is lit
a shadow is also cast
people are also like that
concealing their passion deep inside

But when you got to see both sides
you will finally realize
that a true human being
has all the gleam and flaws

On that beautiful night
We were on the open grass
Under the sky with a million stars
And the moon shining upon us

It was as if we were on a show
We were the main actors
With the whole world watching
The lunar beam gave us the spotlight

I kept my hand on your hip
Your hand on my shoulder
Our eyes met
We were barefoot, dancing

The way you moved
Your dress spun around
Your hair waved to the stars above
Your whole soul just screamed life

I still remember it all
Like it was yesterday
The way you smiled at me
The way your lips touched mine

I wish we still have it all
I wish I can get the time to move slower
Because I'm still trying to remind myself
That you're no longer mine

Have you ever seen that Avatar cartoon?
Where  people can bend elements?
They control fire, air, earth, and water.
And you know what?
I think you are one of them. Why?
Because everytime I look at you, I feel like the time stops.
I think you are secretly a timebender.

A wish of an old star
Its life reminiscence of the universe
The light no longer blinding
But dim and cold

It says to a young star
Bright and full of life
To never take the cosmos for granted
And to bring warmth to the galaxy

The old star whispers
That It is nothing
But past light to be released
As a supernova

As the young star looks upon
The last stardust of the dying star
It finally realises
That life has so much more than it seems

Come, quiet now
Feel it in the air
Listen to the whisper
Of the stars on the dark sky

Big stars, small stars, all bright
Shine as they do through the endless night
But the way you light up
Make the whole universe stop and stare

You find peace with the sunrays at day
But at night, when the darkness creeps in
Even the stars are jealous
Of the way you find comfort

A whole new galaxy is forming within you
Seems close, yet unreachable
You are way beyond a beautiful constellation
You are a stardust of the dazzling cosmos

Walking down the road
looking up to the sky
feeling the raindrops on my face
it warms me up somehow

The skies are dark
the streets are quiet
I'm grasping on my jacket
as I walk forward, faster

It comes at this moment
all the memories
all the pains
I feel sadness. Anger.

It is sitting there, waiting
waiting for the moment
as I remember my fears
it lurks as I cry, deep into the dawn

I gave it my best
I gave it all I had
I finally gave in
Into the abyss of the night

I think of myself
as a part of the universe
distant and small
cold, yet alive

I think of yourself
as the center of my universe
with me and every living
rotating around you

It used to be warm
It used to be bright
warm and bright
as sunrays in a spring morning

All that left in this hole
where my heart used to dwell
is a lingering feel
an eternal, empty feeling

You are a star, way beyond my galaxy
this is all I have become, all I have
a soulless heart
for a heartless lover

On that cold, dark night
I felt the breeze
Felt it on my cheeks
But its alright

On that cold, dark night
How did I get to stay here?
Somebody tell me please!
This world's confusing me.

With clouds as mean as you've ever seen
Ain't a bird understand your song
Then my heart whispered a thing to the brain
Am I selling my hope away?

Everywhere you look, everywhere you go
There's a heart, a hand to hold onto.
Everywhere you look, everywhere you go
There's a place, of Somebody who needs you

When you're lost out there and you're all alone,
A light is waiting to carry you home.
Everywhere you look.
Everywhere you look.

Weeping willow with the tears running down
why do you always weep and frown
is it because she left you one day?
is it because she could not stay?

on your branches she would swing
do you long for the happiness that she would bring?
she found shelter on your shade
we thought her laughter would never fade

Oh weeping willow stop your tears
I know something that might calm your fears
you think death as you do forever apart
but she will always be in your heart