I came. I saw. I conquered*

You came into my life
Like the flash of lightning
- fast, ephemeral

You saw me
Like I was just a stardust
- beautiful and ugly

You conquered
- my life, my heart
and it was lasting

I will never say NO
Instead, I'll tell you to wait my child.*


Today I pray that you'll give me the patience to wait
I may not know your plans for me, but in your will I trust
I believe in your perfect timing
I believe that everything happens for a reason
I believe and trust in You
Please cast all my doubts, help me believe and trust in myself too
I'll leave everything to You

Sure I saved myself from all the heartbreaks
Sure I saved myself from all the pains
Sure I saved myself from sleepless nights
Sure I saved myself from nonsense fights



I do not know if I'm really saving myself
Or just depriving myself of love

Happiness is best when shared
Love is best when shared*


Life is meant to be shared
Individual differences is what unites us
Each of us is a complement to another
And that is how life is supposed to be

Wrapped myself in a red velvet dress and a flower in my hair
Ready for the night with a guest
Lips twitching to a ghostly glare
Bit frighten, my hollow chest

As I opened the door,
Misery enters confidently
Bringing with him an emotional distress, I could not ignore
So I welcomed him, paradoxically

The second night, Misery came again
This time, bringing his friend, Lonely
I let them in again and didn't complain
No choice at all, I endured their company

Each night I would embrace Misery
And instead of dancing with my shadow
Now I tango with Lonely

Misery and Lonely, my visitors at night
Consistent like the moon, they are
in their company I find solace and delight
I could not escape, the light is too far

Pause
I paused for a while, but everything around me didn't stop
Pause*
I paused, but the time didn't even bother to stop

Thank God it's friday
Finally I'm going home
Place where I belong

Falling from the sky
like a rain, the ashes
from the forest- in flames
A fallen angel
trying to survive,
and breath through the fire
burning is her wings
burning is her lungs
she is bleeding blue
Didn't knew, angel's blood are blue
She realized, it was not a forest
instead, she's at the center of hell
it was a pandemonium
She definitely is not a Lucifer
But sure she was an angel
Slowly, she remembered,
Lucifer is her lover
Blinded by his promises,
She followed him
literally, in hell
She studied the place
wondering if she could dwell in it
in exchange of his lovers promising promises
She was giddy and excited
She's a different angel
Her lover then came
and called her the Angel of Death
She loved the new name
and decided to stay

Dancing with my own shadow
To the beat of my breaking heart
My silence is screaming to be heard
My soul wanting to be freed

I do not know to what should I be freed
I do not know to where should I be freed
I do not know what I seek
I do not know why I seek

Sure there is a hole,
But I do not know my goal
So how can I be whole?

I'm in the middle of chaos
Am I considered loss?
Or I really am a dross?

My body is losing my soul
And my soul is drifting from my body
My mind doesn't have a heart
And my heart doesn't have a mind

Yeah, my body, mind, heart and soul
Are always in contradiction
So I always end up in mess
Drifting into abyss of nothingness

Study while others are playing
Plan while others sleeping

Start while others are procrastinating
Decide while others are delaying

Listen while others are talking
Talk while others are babbling

Smile while others are frowning
Appreciate while others are complaining

Act while others are daydreaming
Believe while others are doubting

Rest while others are stopping
Persist while others are quitting

"If I lay here
if I just lay here,
would you lie with me and just forget the world?"*


I never knew that song before, until you sang it to me
It used to be our favorite song
And now, I could not listen to it without remembering you

As the lyrics flow to my ears
I was drowning in my own tears
Even if it brings so much hurt
I played the song again
to reminisce our memories
to remember our love

I pressed play again and again
to rewind our story
And it hurts so much
that our relationship has now become a story

It saddens me that to be with you again is to go back to our memories
It saddens me that to be with you again is to play the song again
It saddens me that this song can bring so much emotions and feelings, but never an *us

This thing is bothering me for quite long
I couldn't decide whether to go on
My mind is too tired to analyze
All the possible result of this in my life

It is just a matter of yes or no
But when I say yes
Endless what if's will bombard me
And when I say no
What about the possibilities?

I could not focus on the present
I think too much of the future
I worried too much of the unknown
And I couldn't stop myself

Maybe it is really not a matter of yes or no
Instead I should ask myself
If these decisions, will even matter in the future
And when I try to answer myself
There you go, I'll try to foresee the future again
And the cycle will continue, on and on

Hey Yats, are you there??

Yes*, he will always answer back..


That's where I got his nickname
He always STAY for me, so I called him YATS


Time passes by,
Growing up away from each other
The "always" turns into "sometimes"


But we managed to keep each other
And whenever we had a time to meet,
It always feels HOME


I still call him Yats,
He may not be physically present
but I know, he will always be there
He may not always stay, but I know
I just know, he's there..

Going out today
Summery air on my hair
Beating the hot sun

Like a candle,
She burns herself just to give light to others
Like a star,
Long dead, she brightens the dark sky


She cuts her wings,
to let others fly
She even takes a bullet,
to save someone's life


She is a keeper, selfless
She gives her hand to the unfortunate
without anything in exchange
She's willing to give her all


She gives her mind, heart and soul
But there is a part of her, she doesn't show
She is lost in her little universe
And every night she shivers


No one would know,
No one notices, the tears she holds
Yes, she is selfless
But no one dares, to look back at her

Departing from the night
the moon kissed the sun
whispered either good night or good morning
cold day's air is born
waking up the flowers
from the dim light of the dawn

Hello, said the rising sun
Eyes were drunk from the orange juice sky,
a lovely sight, serenity at its best
The birds started chirping, peace it brings to my heart
Smell of coffee and tea
Lingers in the morning air

A very calming effect of the first light
brings a genuine joy to my being
simple moments like this
are always worthy of appreciation
are a proof that there is more to life

"I was always ashamed to take. So I gave. It was not a virtue. It was a disguise"
~Anais Nin*


Some give
because they wanted to be recognize
and to be called kind

Some give
because they have a hidden agenda
and will use you in their propaganda

Some give
so that soon
they have something to take

A butterfly was first a cocoon, then an ugly caterpillar
Before it becomes a beautiful butterfly
Before it developed wings and fly

After the lightning and thunder and the rain
After the sky unveils its wrath
A rainbow will be seen, the sun will definitely shine

A lovely flower
Was first a small flower bud
Before it can showcase the colorful petals

See how things work?
See how time controls everything?

Don't hurry up things
For there is definitely
a time for everything

Grow your wings,
Wait for the rain to stop
Wait for your beauty to glow

Not too early, never too late
Just in the perfect time
You will shine

As I sat,
and watch the clock
tik tok, tik tok
a visitor knocks

Soon as I opened the door
Loneliness steps on the floor
I welcomed him just like before
For he's always there to watch for

Loneliness is consistent
Loneliness is loyal
Loneliness is a friend
Loneliness is always there

Here I sat in my office chair
at the laptop I stare
wailing in despair
counting the time to spare

Meanwhile, when my boss passes by
I act alive and high
put on a smile
and tell him I'm fine

Pretending to work
But in my seat I lurk

I’m in love with the moon
For it never leaves me when the night comes full
It gives light in the dark sky
Which makes me love even more the night

I’m in love with moon
For it shows up every night
When I’m all alone and wanted to plight
When I’m sad and there is no one beside

And I am wishing that you are the moon
So that you’ll never leave me when the night comes full
And you will give me light
Under the sky of the night

But you will never be the moon
For the moon is consistent every night
While you are away and not by my side

Pag mulat ng mga mata
Mukha mo ang nakita
Sandaling nagkatitigan
Natalo, inalis aking mga mata
Samantalang ika'y patuloy sa pagsulyap
Hanggang sa nakababa kana pala ng bus
Paglingon ko'y wala kana
Lumingon sa paligid, anino mo'y di makita


Ako'y nagsisi
Sana ako'y ngumiti
Nauna ang hiya
Tuloy ika'y nawala
Hindi ko alam
Kung bakit ganoon aking pakiramdam
Ng ika'y biglang nawala
Hindi ka man lang nakilala

Give her all of you
Love her for the last time then
Suddenly leave her

As the sky is turning black
I check my clock
It was almost midnight- twelve
Still in my office I dwell
Table with a pile of paper
Wish I could burn in hell
I wanted to go home
But I think nobody is home
We all work
Thinking its all worth
Overtime, overtime
Then I have no right
To complain about time

Celine Dion- Because You Loved Me

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me


I'm grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe I don't know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because I was loved by you

The scars may have fade
But I still bleed inside me
I still feel the ache

Pangako
Napako

Ngiti
Naging ngiwi

Luha
Tulala

Tayo
Naglaho


Wala
Wala ng tayo.

She cried and begged,
"Please, don't get over me yet"

But he didn't hear
And it breaks her

She cried and begged
"Please, don't get over me yet"

But he already moved on
And her life didn't go on

"Please, don't get over me yet"
It became her mantra
But it will never bring him back

For he found a new love
And she was left with a broken heart

In Hebrew, her name means devoted to God
She was consecrated,
An oath to God
But she never fulfilled her purpose, for she went astray
Endless and countless sins, undeniably a sinner
Living not according to the Almighty's will, but
Living according to her choice, so
Expect her to be, both good and bad


Imperfect she is, but it is what makes her human
Special, she may not be, but still out of the ordinary


Many times she was lost
Yet, still managed to be found


Not wanting to be astray, again she trusted the invisible hand
Afraid of what might she become, again she started to pray
Miserably she asked for His guidance,
E*nlightened, her faith restored, and now trying to serve her purpose

Anong silbi ng narito
'Di mo na kailangan


*What is the sense of me being here,
If you don't even need me at all?

Secret love, are you there?
Please take me away from here
Secret love, my escape
Will you take me far, far away?
Secret love, are you there,
Will you answer my prayer?

Your love is like the star
It twinkles in the dark
But all I can do is gaze
Until it's gone in the haze

So what if I use simple words?
So what if I use cliche scenarios?
So what if I do not rhyme?
So what if my metaphors are lame?
So what if my stories are incoherent?
So what if my thoughts are obscure?
So what if I prefer free verse than iambic pentameters?


I write to express,
not to impress
So please, mind your own style.

Picture perfect memories
Hanging on the wall
All burnt, all turned into ashes
We tried to run back to the fire
But there is nothing left to save

But baby, it isn't the fire that killed us
It is the lack of fire in our love that burnt us
The fire has gone, died
Frozen hearts, cold feelings
Can't we lit the fire again?