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Brenda Mukisa Sep 2017
so we didnt work out
maybe we didnt try hard enough
you with her inbetween us.
which you didnt convince me enough wasnt true.
continously promising that it was nothing
and me not believing you...

but tonight could be our last
maybe i'll never see you again
maybe thats a good thing
so i wont look for signs of you two.
so i know this is crazy
but let me caress your foot under this table
and you mine.

one last touch
one last entwinement....
one last moment.
so never doubt
I did love you.
Brenda Mukisa May 2021
He had a set resting face
Like he was so bored and wanted to sleep off
But when he smiled...
His eyes almost closed, with tiny lines on both sides.
And his mouth curved beautifully...
Showing a number of crooked teeth
But somehow it lit up the space he existed in...
In that moment, everything is forever beautiful.
Brenda Mukisa Oct 2017
I am afraid of falling
Always have been
It is the reason  I never put on heels for along  time.
I find the uncertainty overwhelming.
I dread physical falling.
Yet I know that the wounds cure.
One day the pain is overwhelming.
The next you have a scar that may look beautiful even.

Its just so scary.
But most of all, I fear emotional falling.

Some people are scary.
Its easy to open up your self to them.
Emotionally or physically.
Telling strangers things you don't even tell your self.
Just one grin and you are consumed.
You cannot move on.
You feel like there is something heavy weighing on your heart.
Your heart feels heavy for some reason.

Falling is beautiful,scary, confusing....
One day you are whole and happy.
Next day you miss some one you didn't know yesterday.
You look at them the first time and you just know.
That your heart is about to get in trouble.
Then they talk to you and seal the deal.
Suddenly you know you have fallen.

And you just cant stop yourself from falling.
Brenda Mukisa Mar 2018
You have the type of face
that gets famous one day.
makes a good father.
and a responsible man.

And that face,
smiles at me every morning lately.
Brenda Mukisa Apr 2018
I am looking for fast love
the kind that touches me and tingles spread
the kind that smiles and I can not not smile back
the kind that laughs loudly with me over funny stuff
or holds me tight on cold nights
or just because he can
the kind that gets matching tattoos and stays
the kind that kisses me with need and want
in between ice cream with cold lips
or on hot days when we think no one is watching
the kind that makes breakfast with me on weekends
in pajamas or just his shirt
we can watch movies all day with his hand over me
small or deep kisses anytime whenever
calls to say they miss you because they did not see you last night
eats out of the box and drinks wine from the bottle on lazy nights with me.
says they love me sincerely and I see it in their eyes
I do not know how long I have got here.
so a fast love is all I have time for
meet me, hear me, know me, understand me and love me quickly
a fast love is all I have got time for
loveme, lovemwa and love ME.
Brenda Mukisa Jun 2017
I used to look at you.
And feel everything in me scream.
They may say I'm empty.
I almost believe them.
but that quantity of love wouldn't pour from an empty vessel.

I don't regret you.
May be I should.
But why should I.
Because for love's sake.
You gave meaning to my heart.
Brenda Mukisa Jun 2018
I didn't do anything.
She cried.
I'm innocent.... she swears
I truly am.... believe me.
She repeats over and over.

He listens to her.
He looks at her
But doesn't believe her.
She feels him not believe her.
It's been going on for so long now.

Leave my house. She yells.
Find your self a husband of your own.
But he is my father..,.., it doesn't apply
You've chased me out for so long....

It gets better from here.
Wait for it.
Her sister says.
How do we go from here?
Is the ideal question....
How do we we find a happy place.
How do we find perfect?
Brenda Mukisa Mar 2022
are we going
better yet, are we coming

i keep looking
i keep searching

in this slow dance
in this beautiful mess

i have grown
but i feel blown

old yet young
small yet big

you consume me when you want
i let you when you come....

i beat my self up for this
yet you enjoy this..... maybe

you want me
you want others...

i want you
and i want others

one of us is fooling the other
is one of us loving the other....
Brenda Mukisa Aug 2017
In you oh God
I put my trust.
You have been sooo good to me.
I'd never know how to say thank you.
You have brought me so far.
Yet grateful is still an understatement.
Brenda Mukisa Jul 2021
Life they say... and life it seems... is the worst thing right around the corner...
Any minute someone would go into labor in the middle of a storm and have to get operated on on a kitchen table without anesthesia....
A woman would be knocked off into the river while saving a patient
Or have a bomb blow out that you just had your hand to...
Have a patient beat the crap out of you in a trauma room or watch your husband get shot then operate through a miscarriage....
Have your sister die in a plane crush or get picked to identify your husband after he was in an accident and someone was negligent enough not to make bar-holes.....

Yes.... but sometimes, it’s also like watching Christina **** it in cardio, or stare at Owen making love to Christina.... or Dereck, Dereck staring at Meredith.
Life is Like an episode of Greys anatomy...
Brenda Mukisa Jun 2017
A heart that understands.
A heart that is patient.
A heart that doesn't judge.
A heart that looks for reason....

They say we are not supposed to be perfect.
They never said we cant.

Maybe we settled for so less.
We forgot how to reach out for more.

To be a better person.
A better sister
A better daughter.
A better friend.
And one day, a better wife.

so when better can thrive, please grow in me.
Brenda Mukisa Jul 2017
I walked through these doors.
I just wanted to get away.
I just wanted to pass a unit at uni.
I just wanted to start afresh.

Its been three years.
I still walk through these doors.
I met good people here.
I had a lot of fun here.
I still have fun here.
I tell people about here.

3 years of growth.
3 years of loving you guys.
3 years of happiness and going places.
3 years of managing sport.
I'm glad I came
I,m glad I met you.
Now I know, home can be anywhere.
Brenda Mukisa Feb 2022
i am sorry.....
i feel terrible....

i believe you
that is the problem
but this part is easy too.

if tables turned
i would make the same choice
i would be sorry too
i would feel terrible too
and do it any way.....
Brenda Mukisa Jun 2017
I do not want to choose you
I thought you were okay.
Not handsome but okay to look at.
Your face or style didn't sweep me off my feet.
Your so plain I wonder how I would even like you.

I've always found fashion cautious men attractive.
I do not even understand your cloth test.
I don't see any shoe passion when I look at your feet.
Call me weird but I think its a thing in my head.

I look for a scent when I am next you.
Somehow that happens a lot lately.
And I cannot find it either.
That is a thing for me too.
The universe is screaming nooo.....
I am starting to agree.

I look at you, and your definitely not my kind of person.
I wonder what your doing in my head.
I wonder why its even complicated.

I do not want to choose you.
Somehow , slowly by slowly, my heart is.
Brenda Mukisa Jun 2020
My friend calls me and tells me that this time around we need to re apply for our jobs after quarantine.
I tell her *******.
You see, I am not joking. I mean it.
I got tired of people treating me the way the want.
Now I will get treated the way I want.

My work place sends me an addendum.
They want to cut salaries despite the fact that we've been working full time despite the pandemic.
I hear it is up to 50%
You see I am a teacher.
When a pandemic happens I still follow my timetable.
I show up and teach, and call or email those that aren't showing up.
And tell them to show up.....
So I say *******.
I cannot sign something I do not agree with.

This guy I used to date started texting me.
He says he hasn't been with anyone because of the pandemic.
He says I am his best option 'right now'
I say *******.
I turn off my data and go to bed.
You see I am no longer available for your entertainment.
I once 'dated' this American white male who told me I wasn't supposed to have an opinion....
I text people I like now..... that really really like me back

When my boss calls me.
She doesn't say hello or check if I am well.
She goes straight off to yelling and screaming.
I say *******.
I turn off my phone and move on with my life.
Because despite falling apart and feeling so lost most days in this pandemic.
I did show up and do my job
So when she learns to communicate, I will talk to her.

I applied for a job, no jobs where they told me..
the problem is my nationality.
Not my papers, experience or inability to perform...
In fact before I told them where I am from, they told I could make a good addition to the team.
Until I turned out African.
So I say ******* when your online course says it will open global opportunities for me.

Because the world is 'woke' now.
African Americans can chant 'Black lives matter'
Their voices are heard and the world chants with them in solidarity.
So this is me whispering
That my Black life matters too....
My voice, my thoughts and opinions matter too....
And hoping the world will hear me too one day
And stand with me in solidarity.....

I'm not angry, I am just fighting for my rights.
Brenda Mukisa Aug 2017
That life has many turns
That some people will never like you.
And you may never like some.
That some people can love you too much.
You can feel it.
That sometimes you cant explain why you love some people.
And why they love you always.
That sometimes love comes from those you least expected.
And so does hate.

I have learned..
That people leave.....
And sometimes they do not look back.
That anyone can break a heart.
Even when they do not want to.
That sometimes people make selfish choices.....
But it does not make them bad people.
That life is soo beautiful...
And so are people....
You just have to want to see it.....

I have learned.
That people may not stay always.
But it will never mean they do not miss you......
That as long as you believe ...
Life will find a way to be okay.
Brenda Mukisa Jun 2017
When i was little
I looked up to you.
Sometimes i wonder how you were.
How could one person be so filled with good.
I always said i wanted to be like you.
Not the sarcastic way.
The sincere way.

You taught me how to pray, how to fear God.
How to be a better human, to be nice.
To cook ,clean and make a healthy home.
How to live with people.
How to thrive.

All my life I never saw you angry or conniving.
I can say I've met a person so perfect.
You were so nice to me.
I worry i'm not living up to you.
How did you do it.
Being so perfect.

When the world said I was not good.
You didn't believe them, you had hope instead.
You believed in me too much
I decided to be that person you thought i was.
I loved you. I love you still.
Sometimes I think its forever.

They say people move on.
But how can I move on from you.
I try to be like you.
Sometimes I think I'm making progress.
Sometimes I think i'm failing.
You are proof that people can be good.
People can be perfect.

Years have gone by.
I still look for your face in a crowd.
I want to remember your voice.
I want to remember you forever.
I love you still...
But slowly by slowly....
I'm afraid I forget you.
In memory of  Anna Kasango.
Brenda Mukisa Aug 2017
How you always wished me well.
How you changed your pants when I said they were not cool.
or didn't match.
How we could share your food without me asking
How you warned me about eating all your cookies yet never stopped me.
How ironing my cloths never felt odd.
Instead of me ironing yours.
You didn't judge me at all.

I miss your smiling face.
You smiled with your eyes.
How you said you missed me every time you saw me.
How you came to my place first and passed by your door.
like you didn't know your place.
And lives at mine instead.
The face you made each morning when I stood at your door.

I miss us.
How cooking together was fun not work.
Laughing and smiling at everything and nothing...
May be you were right.
You said our only problem was that....
I have an iceberg for a heart.
And a very big head.......
Brenda Mukisa Jun 2017
One day you showed up.
I remember hugging you at the door that night.
I was so happy.
I always believed all my problems could go away.

I sat every weekend and waited for you.
Mama said I was crazy.
Mama always knew best.
I don't know if i should have listened.

On a cold veranda every weekend night.
Listening for any sound.
Watching every shadow.
Hoping you would show up.

I don't know if I still wait for you.
Years have gone by.
To the world, it may seem like i found you.
But deep down, I know I wait for you still.
Brenda Mukisa Aug 2020
Taylor seems... no, Taylor is  foreign.
Distant, unknown and even weird to call out yet to others, probably the most familiar.
In truth I didn’t know him. I never will. He never introduced himself or opened up or showed up because in truth he never wanted to. So he didn’t try.
I wrote a letter to Taylor because that was the way best way I’d accept my true terms with Philip.
Brenda Mukisa Sep 2017
I always wondered if different was just a saying
Or way of life.
There is that feeling you can habour
You do not hate your life or your surrounding
But always you ask your self
What if there was another place
Another version of reality
What if there is a place where all is different.
What if there is hope on the other end.

What if in that moment of death.
There is light.
And just like that.
You sit there every day knowing
That if you could
You could not mind crossing over
And death isn't such a scary thing after all.
Brenda Mukisa Oct 2017
I want to feel
feel so deeply
until I feel so full
I want to run
run so fast
until I cannot feel
as long as it makes me whole.
I just want to feel whole
I just want to scream life
I just want the emptiness
for once in my life
TO LEAVE ME ALONE.
Brenda Mukisa Mar 2018
Tell me about your self

The real you, not what you think will sit well with me
Tell me why you want a particular thing
Tell me why its so important to you to leave
or stay....

Tell me about you.

What you remember about your first day of school
Why you stayed there
What you think about good grades
Why you want/wanted that course
About you time in school
Your best and sad moments.

Tell me about you

Who your first love was/is
Why you broke up
What you think about love.
Who your best friend is and why.....

Tell me about you

What goes through your head
Which faces you make and why
About your home and growing up.
About the things that make you smile or cry
Your best movie and song
Tell me anything.


Tell me random things that come to your mind
Just .....let... me... in....
I crave deeper conversation with real people
Brenda Mukisa Aug 2017
It was the way you looked over at me.
The first time we met.
The way I was so willing to forget.
The way you found my number.
The way I didn't care you did.
The way you kept texting, calling even.
The way I didn't care.

I found ignoring mean.
I had to be good.
I had to be better.
So I gave this a shot.
The good in me screaming...

When you offered to help.
I didn't refuse.
I let you do your thing.
I believed you knew your thing.
When it ******* over.
You unveiled yourself.

Lets start over.
How do you think someone is beautiful.
How do you come from beautiful to badly behaved.
May be real words are spoken when mad.
Brenda Mukisa Mar 2019
we take baby steps
in the right direction sometimes
we like the boy, we crave the boy, we support the boy
we loooovvvveeee the boy

what do you do when you like a boy?
i think you tell him...
sometimes you tell him so you can know
if he likes you too
sometimes you tell him
so he can know
that you like him
not because you want him to like you
it could be a plus
but this boy you know

you know he likes someone else
you like him enough to be happy for him
with that person even
or someone else.
but whats the point of liking someone
and them never knowing.

so tell that  boy you like him
watch him practically run away from you
every time you try to talk to him
let him say yeah baby when he texts you
let him be afraid of you still liking him
text him and ask him if you are okay.......
the two of you.....

yes, you used to like him
but telling him you did set you free
weird right?
but it actually stopped you from dying inside
falling deeper each day.

and look at him knowing you dont like him
not any more.
to the love i had and lost.
Brenda Mukisa Aug 2020
Tomorrow the sun will rise again.
And so will you.....
Brenda Mukisa Jul 2017
I asked for tall, light skinned, handsome.
You are not that.
But you, God you....
You make me feel things.
You make me want to believe.
You make me choose you.

Goddddd.... I think I like you for real.
Brenda Mukisa Jun 2020
First, we wondered about staying in.
Truth is,
I’m only scared of the outside!
Brenda Mukisa Mar 2018
Sometimes it feels like
through remembering you,
I have let my self go.
Brenda Mukisa Nov 2019
Somewhere between can I go with you,
and are you okay? we met each other. It will
always be in every kiss after now.....
Or how you whispered in my ear the first time...
I like being with you too....btw.
or held me all night the first night.... it's there...
in every conversation we have.... in long kisses late
night or early morning in the back seat of Ubers..
its in every hello and every stare....
you said we shouldn't worry about stuff...
if the universe wills it, it will work out..
I hope the universe is listening....
because I am waiting for it.
Music inspiration: maybe we are lost stars, trying to light up the dark.
Brenda Mukisa Jul 2017
That's the thing about love
It doesn't warn you.
It doesn't prepare you.
One moment you love your life.
And the next moment this person is a part of it.
Filling spaces that seemed full before.
Taking all, and giving more.

You think you like a certain kind of handsome.
Then a different kind of human shows up.
Suddenly you smile at moments past.
And just like that, you've fallen.
Brenda Mukisa Sep 2017
she often wondered what he thought when he looked at her.
he did it a lot.
he just stood there and stared...
but now she understood.

because now she knew where his heart was.
maybe he wondered how to tell her.
maybe in his own way ,
he wanted to tell her...
if only he knew.
that she could be happy for him.
that she would celebrate his happiness.
maybe he would tell her....

and when she looked at him.
she now knew.
that she was happy for him.
that he had found love elsewhere.
and she hoped this time.....
he would be happy enough to commit.
Brenda Mukisa Feb 2018
For all the times you feel heart broken....
for all the times you feel sooo sick..
so much that you wish you would jump
in front of a speeding car and just end it.
or all the times loved ones have hurt you.
for all the times u've wished the ground to open and swallow you


You are not ungrateful
you are not selfish, may be you are
but why not.... you live for you...
if you died, you will have died for yourself...
people will cry and miss you...
but not forever
Every day seems like the continuation of a bad dream...
you cannot sleep forever....
you can not pretend the pain away...

They say death is the escape..
no more worries, feelings or pain...
doesn't that sound like a good thing?

It makes you realize that may be....just may be
death would not be a very bad thing.
Brenda Mukisa Mar 2018
Just because they say ....
that life moves on if you let it,
does not mean,
that its that simple.
Sometimes you are stuck in a moment...
A bad moment.
Practically forever,
And life ain't moving to any where.
Brenda Mukisa Mar 2018
you...
your scent, your smile
the way you look dressed up.

I miss parts of you.............
that were never mine
to begin with.
because I once met a great person, someone is person.... and failed to get over him.
Met
Brenda Mukisa Mar 2018
Met
I met you.
you walked in, perfect sense of style and classy phone
your big beard didn't make sense to others but did to me
it seemed to make you so male and perfect and I liked that.
I didn't see you as perfect, I just saw you as mine possible.
the kind of attraction didn't make sense to me either
I cannot point out what I loved most about you.
I just loved you with a love so gentle, perfect and innocent.
I think I'm over you until I remember you and sometimes it feels like I will always be gripped.

I met him.
He walked through the corridor.
with his hat on, full jumper, jeans and African print back pack.
he looked perfect in his shorts...had your sense of style.
but most importantly, he had your beard.
then he removed his sweater and showed his tattoos.
he smoked like a chimney and drunk enough not to get high.
I always hated the smell of cigarettes until I met him
maybe it was the way the smoke mixed up with his cologne.
giving him his unique scent that I hold onto on a t shirt in my closet.
I couldn't wash it in case I lost that scent, so I just kept it.
one meeting, many hugs, one kiss one night....
and he was gone too.... forever

I met you through another
its what I tell my self because I cannot seem to forget you both
the guys with the beard.
you made me look at beards different.
he added tattoos and cigarettes to the list.....

I miss you both.
Brenda Mukisa Aug 2021
I want to say that you can arrive….. I want to believe that you can.
When I decided to leave, I did not even know to where.
I always believed that I would find somewhere far a way.
Where the plants and trees are often green.
And the lake or water really is somewhat a walk away.
And that every day I am glad to be here.
But most importantly that I am elsewhere.
That people get to learn my name.
To know about me. To wonder about what I am like.
I did not go far away, just away.
But there is green every where and the river is beautiful.
I get new lovely kids who say teacher instead of miss.
And the people, well atleast most of them, are kind and nice.
The only blue eyes here are off tiktok…..
The closest thing I have to a best friend here lets me sit on her yoga mat.
She sits on the floor and this is important because it is the only seat in the house.
And brunch is a whole experience because it accompanies a walk in the quiet town.
No one grabs phones or bags here so you can actually walk
the water in the shower is always warm to hot and dinner is a family affair
Laughing and talking around the table and maybe, just maybe….
I can be more happy than not.
Brenda Mukisa Aug 2017
Most of the times,
I felt him love me.....
I saw it in his eyes too.
And some how....
That scared me and warmed my heart.
In strange ways.
Brenda Mukisa Jun 2017
I see her walk to the door.
She just wants to catch some air.
But he is walking out of another door.
Definitely they must meet.
He reaches out to hug her.
Of course she leans in.
And they walk away together.

I cannot wait for her to get back.
I cannot wait to see her face.
She walks in and I don't have to ask.
She can not stop smiling.
I am so happy for her.
I look at her across the room.
And she is the happiest  girl in the world.

My best friend is in love.
Brenda Mukisa Aug 2017
When your the only dark skinned person in your house.
Its hard for others to see that its okay.
That its beautiful as well.
Its weird how people attach beauty to color.
Light skinned this, lighter skin that.
They make it the must be.

Not that it isn't beautiful.
But we have got to look at darker different.
Dark can be beautiful.
Darker even more beautiful.
I've seen beauty in all colors.
Like in all shapes.

You walk down the street over the weekend.
You fall in love with Africa.
All you will see is beautiful women.
Different heights, different shapes...
Handsome men...they come in all sizes and shades.
Its like a painting.
The kind you could look at forever.
And never tire from.

When I was a child.
I always said I wanted to get away.
But mum always said that one day I'll fall in love with here.
Now I know,now I've felt the pride.
And happiness that comes with here.

I look into the mirror each day.
And feel proud and happy.
Growing up my mother said thank-you.
With a smile.
Every time they said I looked like her.
Now I see why in the mirror.
I'd be proud if my daughter looked like me.
Me and my black skin.
My beautiful black skin.
Brenda Mukisa Mar 2018
I wonder what you do when you hear my name
Do you pretend it is a new name,
And go on with what you are doing
Do you think
Oh, I used to know her
She cared too much for what I thought
She could have done anything for me
she loved me

When you hear my name,
read an article I wrote
Listen to a song I hummed often
see a tweet I retweeted or commented on.
Do you miss me?
Do you wonder about me?
Do you wish you had loved me?
Is it just a reminder of how much you never cared
Or how you'd never love me?

When you hear my name
Do you even know or remember me
Brenda Mukisa Mar 2018
I never loved you

You held my hand, called me baby
almost made me feel and do things
but I never loved you

I never said I loved you too
despite you saying it over and over
you gave me a home, presents.... you.
it didn't make me love you.

But you were mean, didn't fear God, or trust me
cared less for what I wanted or preferred.
so I couldn't love you.

Yet, I feel mean, for not loving you.
Brenda Mukisa Nov 2018
what comes to your mind every time you think about tomorrow
is it some distant place you want to see
or some place you don't care about because apart of you knows what tomorrow will be like*.
sad
empty
reminder of loving him over and over knowing he cant love you back
another day
another sad reminder.

you do not want to love him
you have tried for so long to move on from the night mare
its killing you on the inside
but you are stuck

this is not a poem
this is a reminder
of how many times I have failed to not love
when all I want to do is stop loving

this is a sad note
from an empty soul with too much misplaced love
a note from someone who should stop but for some reason continues
a deadly cause that is eating my happiness
that is draining me slowly

I just want to stop
Please help me stop.
messed.
Brenda Mukisa Nov 2017
That is the thing about me....

I DO NOT give up
I DO NOT stop
I DO NOT let go

I just keep going till the end.

so if it is not the end....
then, I am not done yet.
Brenda Mukisa Nov 2017
we are born in times
where every one tells you
that you should come out and stand tall
be whole on your own
find ways to be happy on your own
do things your self
find ways to deal with things on your own.

then when you decide that is right
you start finding ways to be whole
you find ways to be complete on your own
you start building walls
understanding your price and value
realizing how foolish you were to depend all this while

then one day love comes
the perfect kind of love
that if given the chance could consume you
make you feel whole and complete
but your only looking to prove a point
that you can thrive on your own
that you do not need someone to make you feel right
you keep pushing them away
trying as hard as you can to see if they can stay
and be that strong partner just like you are
at this point you despise weak
you hate dependent, you expect something you do not even understand
from someone who cannot comprehend what you seek.

you want to be what the world thinks and would call okay
you forget that there are no words for okay
okay is only a feeling.
it may be never be put in words.
and that is the problem, the need to explain it in words.
some say its when you cannot sleep at night
because finally reality is better than your dreams
others say that its when the word love makes sense to you
i say..... there are .......no words.
Brenda Mukisa Mar 2020
This is a short story about me.
I've been to tons of dates.
Some good, some plain, others bad.
Most importantly I have gone to each
Hoping it will be my last stranger date
That the next time I return
We are a couple of old lovers
Meeting again and falling in love
For the 100th time from the first time I saw you
And you me
But I still look at you across  a room
And there is no one I would rather be with
I choose you too much
And you..... you look at with recognition
And that is all I get....
A familiar face, eyes, voice....
I stopped wondering if people could love me
Maybe I focus more on the love I can give
One day its going to return
In  a thousand-fold
Until then, I look at the next handsome guy
That smiles at me...and smile with my heart
Who knows, it could be you....
over and over!
Brenda Mukisa Sep 2021
first day.
Day one… minute one
Two people walk into the cafeteria
I see her, I wonder about her in passing
Day….
I stopped keeping track.
What was the first friendly thing we said to each other?
Do you know?
Do you remember?
I do not…. It’s like one minute you were just there…
A random guy walking with a girl…
A girl I wanted to know.
But there is now…
tennis.
Some days I text you all day
We can do that all day…
We talk a lot.
We laugh a lot too
Your eyes are so brown…
It’s strange, it’s all I see
But you can listen to poetry I like
Or finish my chocolate.
Or just exist together.
Find me one day…. Around the world.
This can’t be it.
What would it be like…..
Brenda Mukisa Dec 2018
I don't know how.
God! I didn't even try
But somewhere along the way,
I fell out of love with you.
12. December. 2018.
11.58am
Brenda Mukisa Mar 2019
How many parts do you think make up our bodies?
It cant be one whole piece
I think there are different small pieces
These pieces put together to form one whole.
I terrible whole in my case.
Is it even terrible..... I wonder.

All my life I have given parts of me
Random parts
You see I don't think I have anything sensible to share.
Even parts I didn't know I had, shredded already.
I feel like the universe just decided to cut chunks off me
And share them
Against my will
Every time I stood there, watching.
Sometimes I even felt grateful.
I thought every time..... could be the lucky time

Its just hope

I still hope
I feel like I still have small parts left
Those that haven't been shattered yet.
My not yet shared parts.
I've shared them sometimes in my head
I still do
I still feel stupid after I share them
I don't want to feel this way anymore.

I am a girl.
Who wants to share her self so much
so bad..... they say you never know
That one day you finally get it right.
I wait for that day
I share myself at the moment.... all the time
My parts..... different parts.

......my parts......
what is left of my pieces?
but that's all I have, and I want to share
.....I hope you accept them.
one day, you find love...... and become whole.
Brenda Mukisa Feb 2018
When I am richer, find me.
We shall see the Eiffel tower and Louvre.
We shall know for our selves how comfortable…
A Ritz bed is….
We shall dine fancy and dress up for it.
Or wear pajamas and order in and watch old series we love.
You will have that rolex and boots….
They say Christian Louboutin's are comfy
Lets try and confirm or deny that.
Breakfast in Paris and diner in Montreal.

Find me when I am richer.

There are different types of ice cream.
Lets try them all till we decide there’s better than choclate or vanilla….. or not.
Lets figure out our best wine….or cake type and flavour…
After having access ot a variety.
Prada or Micheal Kors…. Lets figure out which bag we love more.
Do you get sick on the plane?
Let us find out.
Will you love the snow or not?
You will obviously hate summer but love the less clothing.

Just find me when im richer.

Lets see China, Korea, German and New York.
And many other countries and cities.
Lets mingle hard and understand different cultures
Lets take selfies in all places or just pictures.
Lets be happy…..

I'll find you when I am richer.
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