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Philomena Sep 14
i took a walk today in the garden and saw a wounded bird trying to fly, her wings were broken as she gasped for air, with every raise she lost a feather but i could tell she knew no better, her eyes searched the sky waiting to be found, chirping for what sounded like eternity
I wish I wasn't dull,
Without flavor.
I wish I had more hunger to live, to persue the call in my soul.
I wish I had more to give,
More dept to the way i love others,
A selfless mindset,
A less broken heart.
I wish I wasn't this messed up.
I wish...
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Chloe Oct 2020
There are days when being alive feels so good.
For a while it was what I looked forward to.
Every time I had a bad day, a bad week, a bad month, I would tell myself that one day I’m going to wake up and love life again.
I’m afraid it’s been a long time since I’ve felt that way.
Living for other people is exhausting.
Why would I stay alive to let other people love me
When I can’t even love myself?
No need to be concerned.
Jamie Sep 2020
i'm drifting
into treacherous waters,
again

i still can't swim

except this time
i can't find the energy
to come up to the
surface

there is no one around,
it's a ghost town,
and my eyes are sore and heavy

it seemed so much
easier yesterday
what happened to all that
childish wonder?

where did all the magic go?

i don't think
i want to float any longer
i think i might try and find
the bottom

wish me luck,
wherever you are
...
Jamie Aug 2020
I've noticed a pattern with you.

You seem to care for me,
but hate buying me the
medication I need

You roll your eyes
or shout at me for
finishing them
like they are candy,
addicting

Maybe pick a side
Please, it's getting really confusing

Two nights ago

You asked me to take
every two days
to 'get me used to it'

I told you that I
might need them
You disagreed

If they were cancer meds,
you wouldn't be encouraging
or rather
forcing me to do this

So I've decided to stop swallowing
so that you won't ever need to buy
me anything
Bee Jul 2020
A fleeting glance as they pass each other on the street

At that moment, it began to rain

As the sky cried for the star crossed lovers

And for some reason, tears ***** their eyes too, like deep down they knew that they missed a lifetime in a single gaze
Jamie Jul 2020
I weep silently
As I grip the recyclable material
Apologising profusely

I am sorry

I know you
Do not wish
To spend more money

I am sorry

I really try
Another episode surfacing
I just can't, without a doctor

I am sorry

You try and
Find excuses to
Revoke the dosage

I am sorry

I really am, sorry that is
I didn't ask to be this way
I didn't hand-pick you
I really am sorry
Jamie Jul 2020
I shiver and shake
Goosebumps
all over my
skin
My breathing
is laboured
I don't want to be here.

My fingernails
drag across
my arms
The skin
leaking
I don't want to be here.

I promised to
stick it out
but I knew
not of the
things I know now
I don't want to be here.

The lights are
too bright
the voices are
too loud
the air
too thick
I don't want to be here.

I told you
I warned you
If He doesn't do it
then I will
I don't want to be here.

And that is my final promise to you,
one that I intend to keep.
Jamie Jun 2020
" "
You take everything

You squeeze every bit of joy out of my life.

Every drop of sunshine belongs to you, not me.

You won't even let me get my **** together.

You just keep taking and taking.

You never stop.

You never give, only claim.

I hate you
I hate you
I hate you

But you are a part of me, clinging to my very being.

So I guess I'll have to accept you, either way, I still lose.
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