He makes me feel afraid
and protected at the same time.

He makes me feel belittled
and challenges my intellectual mind.

He is my old flame,
but I'd like him to be my new thang.

wait, what?

I'm drunk in love,
and not sure what I'm saying!

Informal name* : superficial libra dame

attaracted to all persons beautiful

Rare of your kind,
forever is your time.
Fine as red wine,
you live in my mind.

The light of your eyes
makes my soul shine.
Honey love, lemon drop
could you please be mine?

I love you
no, I'm lying
I want you
you see I'm crying!

Them: So you're a lover, a fighter, a rebel, a matyr, an activist, and a poetess. May we ask who inspired you?

Me: Tupac.

Them: Tupac who?

Me: The greatest **** I ever knew.

Today I saw my love &
cupid paralyzed my face
with a arrow in my neck from high above.

now I sit here smiling.
now I'm stuck.

but,
this moment is everything;
this feeling is perfect enough.

I know magic, wanna see?

undress, come closer to me.

Tiny gap

inbetween my teeth;

Two lovers

waiting to meet.

Freckles dance
      across her face

  Like a southern gal in a
           juke joint place

The forehead
Is from a protective lover, who will secure you until you're dead

The cheek
Is from a sensual lover, one that is meek

The lips
Is from one who lacks control, a ***** one on the go

The hand
Is from one who wants nothing more than for you to understand

The feet
Is from one who worships the ground you walk on; your filth they'll eat

Then there are people like me
Who will kiss every inch of a lovers body that my greedy eyes can see

I desire innocently to be a fly on your wall

without inspiration
I AM DEAD.

without admiration
I AM LONELY.

without art
I AM NUMB.

without love
I AM NOTHING.

with poetry
I AM EVERYTHING!

Beauty intimidates me.

I was afraid to speak,

but I professed my love for you

with a little peek.

If poetry was a man

Id admit, im in love!

I always compromise when I’m lonely

In the beds of strangers,

hopeful that someone can love me.

Many see I'm broken beautifully.

Some think I’m art; crafted delicately.

Others say; dangerous, sad, and extreme!

but they'll willingly be that drug I so desperately need.

thinking in the past

only wastes time

energy and thought

lectures; my friends preach about.

For those moments of us are gone

But, tell me you do it too

that I won't feel so alone.

so I can continue to gloat on.

in misery of a kidnapped heart

bound at your home.

they told her to live a little
and she did.

a lil ****
a lil squeeze

pop a pill
cop a  feel

for some liquor
boys could freak her

a lil ***
a lil head
***/AIDS
now she dead.

they told her to live a little
so she did.*

she didn't know better
she was just a kid.

If I have a kid,

I'd prefer a boy.

Periods and childbirth

is not a joy.

When it was a matter of need

nobody noticed me

eyes did not see

a childhood of misery.


Now adult, I seek to be free

possibily engage in immoral activity

afterall debauchery created me

now I'm sure they're all watching

when I don't want them to be.

got addiction and crazy from ma side of kin

pa didn't offer much

except a bad temper and bad skin

daddy was a lot of woman typa man

mama was fast
a one night stand

drugs; they had in common
crack was in demand

heard he was crazy, so she ran

I fell from hell

wasn't given no hand

I got up anyway
*and tall I stand

She waited for love her entire life

and then one day she died

never becoming a man's wife.

daughters need hugs
Or they’ll grow up
To love thugs!

And life has become a dangerous place.

she looks in the mirror
in pitch darkness
no light upon her face.

And life has become a disguisting place.

American sin we chase
no unity, no purity, no love,
filth from every race.

And life has become a desperate place.

Death will forever be man's case
born into sin was our crime
the punishment is much more severe this time.

A dozen black roses
Eleven ex lovers
Ten tears
Nine lost years
Eight personal fears
Seven deadly sins
I've commited six.

If only I had one wish!

Five secrets I swore to never tell
I’ve repented four of them
Too afraid to go to hell
Three is for the trinity
Always fighting two sides of me
atlas, one lonely heart

God should have warned me
life would be hell from the very start.

Wasn't  always great.

Won't  always be great.

But for now, I'm  great.

So bask in my glory, before its too late.

When eye feel
Eye drown in emotions
Then eye learned to swim
Now eye reside in that ocean
Floating through life
Eye swell up with water
Making my breathing
Just a little bit harder

To hate is to feel strong
but to be weak

to love is to be strong
but to feel weak

I looked in the mirror
afraid to sneak a peek

expected a coward
but behold there stood a lion!

He made me feel my flaws
did not exist.

flattering kisses
my lips could not resist.

tickled me pink
I wore his compliments like tattoo ink.

and it's not that I suffer from low self esteem
It's just I always wanted to feel something

Truth is: I've never felt special.
Not to anyone, besides handsome Jesus and the ugly devil.

She was afraid when her eyes led astray
but was filled with joy of happiness and gay
she had this feeling that he'd make her okay.

I loved you right away.
awoke to mornings,
you were the sun to my day.

I loved you right away
lost, I'd think of you and feel at home
you were my way.

I loved you right away
the reason my heart hurts
is because I always expected you to stay.

Now tears of sadness
cuddles her frail body
the side of her bed, where he used to lay.

My mind tells me I'm fine,                            
my memory gets worse with time.

My body tells me I'm fine                           
my health gets worse with time.

My soul is tired but I'm young                     
I guess I'm fine.

I will one day die,                                            
only to realize I was never fine.

I was never okay,                                            
It was all a lie.

I look at my graduation picture and your smile looks fake.

I've waited twenty three years for this date.

I know you love me, but why do I see hate?

My whole life all I asked for was sincerity.

The moment came, and you acted like you weren't happy.

I mean ****, you didn't even smile for me!

you were welcoming,
yet rejection clouded my action.

you were kind,
still fear was on my mind.

you wore a smile,
time never stayed a long while.

you left,
and I never formally introduced myself.

you were light shining so beautifully,
I watched from afar so pitifully.

Now you're gone,
and a friend in you I wished I'd known.

love decieve me not
not me be decieved
I close my eyes
and feel the passion
but i do not see
i waited, wished
to look upon beauty
but atlas I saw lust
it fooled me
I cried, it kissed my tears
and told me to hush
I swore not to tell this story
but I lied and you blushed

Many are called
few are chosen
death is open
life is closing
sin is winning
souls are losing
therefore, it's God
that I'm choosing!

Never
get
so
caught
up
in
life
that
you
forget
to
live.

writer's block
is far worse
than a **** block

creativity
is a caged bird
in a small box

words are a ******
but my legs
are tightly locked

thoughts come close
trying to reach
the G spot

but I gets no love
like a *****
in a ***** sock!

I gave you a reason to love me
but I'm a indian giver
so I took it back.

I stole your heart
leaving you near death
panic attack.

Sharks are feared.
Whales are respected.
the water forever flows
the others do not know
or care where the little one goes.

Alone.
Too far gone,
is a little fish
swimming to a distant place
she can call home.

Big world.
Little me.
2 be the little fish in the great big sea
is the deepest darkest blue
called misery.

for you
this is buisness.

for you
I am just a job.

for you
I am just a stranger.

for me
this is personal.

for me
this is pleasure.

for me
you are a friend.

thank you for human contact
I wish your touch would never end.

It's not you,

it's me.

No, really it's my daddy,

whom I'll never see.

But seek anyways.

Long and painful, are my days.

Thanks for putting up,

with my little girl ways.

I must go now,

find love's destiny

in hopes I'll reach he

the ***** donor,

who wasn't man enough

to stick around for me.

Addicts aim their entire life

for the highest high

only to never reach it

until they one day die.

Words cannot express how deeply I love you.

Thinking too hard, I began to cry.

Enough tears to float a boat.

Overwhelmed with emotion, I began to choke.

Clear ink and wet paper, super soaked.

So, that sweet poem was never wrote.

As time crept by

I      s  l  o w l y

Began to die

I looked at you
and fell out of love.
but then you smiled;
and changed my mind.

There are women.
And there are girls.

Then there are ladies in between
Who feel the wrath of a *** crazy world; a place so mean.

Usually not the one to lose confidence,
We stood on our feet.

Our eyes met,
I had an urge to take my seat.

I immediately felt
Shorter and less attractive.

Standing next to you,
Amazingly beautiful Amazon Woman.

Yesterday,
In church
I prayed.

Because even here
I am not safe.
Even here
lust is in my way.
Protect me father,
with you, I am saved.

Lord forgive me,
for my impure thoughts
on your holy day.

I
will
never
stop
crawling
my
way
out
of
HELL