Yvette Mushimiiyimana: Poems

Oct 2014 · 217

A geuine poem

Yvette Mushimiiyimana Oct 2014

A geuine poem

Mean what you say
For meaningless sayings
are mean.

Oct 2014 · 5.3k

Destiny

Yvette Mushimiiyimana Oct 2014

Destiny

I'm not sure.
I'm unclear.
But I can tell you what I feel.
I feel a passionate cloud stuck in in my chest.
So vague, so foggy, the mist.
Constantly I breathe more in,
as it suffocates me.
Though I know something clear is being built.
Something I fear is being built.
And when I breathe it out.
I will be sure.

This poem is about my future. My powerful future.

#passion #future #hope #destiny #clear #vague #foggy

Oct 2014 · 181

Sweet and simple, like you.

Yvette Mushimiiyimana Oct 2014

Sweet and simple, like you.

I'm not sure what our future is.
A lot can change in a day.
But you make me smile.
I don't have to be here in silence with you.
I finished my work some time ago.
But I might like you anyways.
So I'll stay.

Sep 2014 · 586

Like

Yvette Mushimiiyimana Sep 2014

Like

I dont like my liking of you.
I hope you like me too.
That way the liking will be two.
Then I'll like the likings we like.

Sep 2014 · 244

Hole whole

Yvette Mushimiiyimana Sep 2014

Hole whole

Please please don't interrupt only if you stay
I can't afford making space in my heart
Only to leave it vacant, that's not okay.
Now I must reconstruct, or fill it up
to erase an empty hole.
Oh, the wind makes it tough,
and screams back,
not enough in the soul.
The worst part is that I had no control.
You built this space in my heart
You left, and I have nothing to hold.
Maybe come back and make my hole whole?

Jul 2014 · 420

My song

Yvette Mushimiiyimana Jul 2014

My song

I
listend to
this song while
i was still. It moved
me though. i was still and
moving at once. The song went
into my throat and stopped me from
breathing. My heart beat faster to get the
oxygen to my head, i was going to faint. Its
funny because i couldn't breathe, yet somehow
the song gave me oxygen. i felt like i was
going to faint when it played.
However, if it never played,
I wouldn't live.
I cant live
without
the
oxygen the
melody gives me.
It's out of control, the
song makes it all a contradiction.
It's in my soul, the song makes it all right.
Maybe this is what love is like? I hope
that someone, someday, will be
my song.

I wrote this in my journal as part of my beach series. I was listening to a song called better man by Paolo Nutini and another song called big eyes by Matt Corby and Bree. I decided to write about how amazing songs like these make me feel. Also I lowercased the "i" to show how little I feel because of the overpowering emotion.

#love #music #joy

Jul 2014 · 22.3k

Touch

Yvette Mushimiiyimana Jul 2014

Touch

Touch me
I need to know I'm alive
Touch me
For the reminder that I'm loved
Touch me
with a hug of support
Touch me
for no reason
Touch me
I'll feel the most in my heart
Touch me
with your
words
hands
love
needs
gifts
nothing
all.

#love #touch #understanding #contact

Jul 2014 · 615

Dear Heavenly Father

Yvette Mushimiiyimana Jul 2014

Dear Heavenly Father

Dear Heavenly Father,
I can't always see or feel you
but I know you're here.
Dear Heavenly Father,
I dont always get my desires granted
but the results are always blessings overflowed.
Dear Heavenly Father,
I'm not sure how close I am to you
but you're always close to me.
Dear Heavenly Father,
I talk to you like my best friend
but I respect you like my Father.
Dear Heavenly Father,
I'm not sure if I'm doing it right
but sometimes I know I'm doing it wrong.
Dear Heavenly Father,
You give me bountiful
but I limit myself.
Dear Heavenly Father,
Thank you for all that you give me
I will use all and not be wasteful.
Dear Heavenly Father,
You love me
but I need to love you more.
Dear Heavenly Father,
Could you give me a sign sometimes
but maybe I can't handle it, I don't know.
Dear Heavenly Father,
Thanks for listening to my petty issues
but humble me so I don't become petty too.
Dear Heavenly Father,
I don't know how to say it
but you can read my heart so I'm not worried.

#love #prayer #god #religion

Jul 2014 · 864

Strive

Yvette Mushimiiyimana Jul 2014

Strive

I used to wish
but then I decided that
I'd rather be.
I will be.
I am.
I no longer wish.
I know I can

Jul 2014 · 232

Take me as I am, or not at all.

Yvette Mushimiiyimana Jul 2014

Take me as I am, or not at all.

Jungle fever, I am
with all these flavors
it makes a marvelous blend
Come on in
I love all kinds
They turned away with a grin
not a good sign.
They said they've never been in the jungle
so they'll just stay out here.
That night no one came to the jungle
so it rained with tears.
Although the storm brought the jungle water
and the jungle flourished
No worries, my jungle is stronger

Jul 2014 · 505

What do you mean?

Yvette Mushimiiyimana Jul 2014

What do you mean?

How are you?
You're my favorite!
That's cool.
I'm sorry.
I'm fine.
Elaborate please?
Because these sound like lies to me.

#lies #genuine #phrases

Jul 2014 · 2.4k

I am not a cactus

Yvette Mushimiiyimana Jul 2014

I am not a cactus

Im not a cactus.
I am a rose.
I have layers of petals.
I am not as discrete.
I am soft
I won't hurt you with needles.
Treat me like the rose I am
I need water
I can't thrive like a cactus can.
Tend to me, love me
and I will be beautiful.
Care for me, hug me
fill my red soul.

#metaphor #flower

Jul 2014 · 575

You make me feel.

Yvette Mushimiiyimana Jul 2014

You make me feel.

You made me feel at peace
by stopping time
by locking away all the worries
simply we would float.
You made me feel nervous
by walking in
by walking out
by saying nothing
by saying everything.
You made me feel excited
with all the promises
with your spontaneity.
You made me feel angry
through the broken promises
the short comings
the lack
the ambiguity.
You made me feel love
by pounding my heart
through passionate touches
with a better me
to an uncontrollable inexplicable something.
You made me feel sad
when you didn't come back
when you did come back
when you were unsure of we
or maybe I was wrong about we.
Physically I could breathe.
Emotionally I was breathless.
But that's okay
because you made me feel alive.

#love #alive #you #emotion #feel

Jul 2014 · 355

Every now and then it comes again

Yvette Mushimiiyimana Jul 2014

Every now and then it comes again

I told myself,
tomorrow I won't feel this way.
Tomorrow came
I felt the same.
Floundered with thoughts
excitement
longing
fear
love
which brought me pain.
My heart ached,
but I insisted it to stop.
It wouldn't listen.
Until it got shot.
But still after the injury
it has a relapse.
But why?
My mind asked.

Jul 2014 · 180

Think of me?

Yvette Mushimiiyimana Jul 2014

Think of me?

When I think of you
I just hope my thoughts send out waves
or a familiar smell.
If only I could tell
that you're thinking of me too.

Jun 2014 · 234

Nothing

Yvette Mushimiiyimana Jun 2014

Nothing

Ask me what I fear and
I'll say I fear nothing.
Then one may think of how pretensions I am,
but that's not it.
I fear nothing.
In a sense of lacking connection.
No bad, no nice.
An empty life.
I have a fear, I fear nothing.

Jun 2014 · 800

Domino effect

Yvette Mushimiiyimana Jun 2014

Domino effect

Love brings
Happiness
Happiness brings
Riches
Riches bring
Success.
Love, the domino effect.

May 2014 · 782

Friends till the end?

Yvette Mushimiiyimana May 2014

Friends till the end?

They have made me feel special
And this matters so much.
Yourself is not enough.
With the love from them
it makes me dependent.
For I am not me
without them in it.
I am independent and unique
Because of the dependence I did not seek.
A bit confusing.
Well they simply constructed the pieces of myself.
I didn't know I needed help.
They did this,
Through, uncontrollable laughter
echoing in my heart days after.
To deep talks that walk into my soul
widening the mystery or understanding
of myself as a whole.
From challenging moments of being opposed
but making me more open minded, and less closed.
Also, the simple gratitude they would say
which reminded me that I'm okay.
I think about them, many times.
I fear that I'll lose some of you,
and people like them, I will not find.
I only wish the best for my friends,
my angels I thank God he has sent.

#friends #highschool #end #hope #forever #thankyou #graduation

May 2014 · 429

What is time?

Yvette Mushimiiyimana May 2014

What is time?

Time is the hours, minutes, and seconds
that constantly change and only move forward.
Time is a period shared among people
filled with moments of sorrow
filled with moments of freedom
filled with moments of joy
filled with moments we wish to be in
again.
In sorrow, time can have an immense weight,
that we carry,
up a hill.
Time can ****.
In joy, time is a feather,
it flies away,
goes unnoticed,
quick and gone,
all done.
In most moments time seems to
give the rough and take the sweet.
But there are times
when time is not existent.
All is still,
I breathe in
and appreciate all that is right and wrong
I breathe out
and then, time goes on.

#life #time #memories #slow #moments #quick

May 2014 · 270

Optional no

Yvette Mushimiiyimana May 2014

Optional no

I asked myself, how can love hurt this much?
It's like we throw ourselves with our eyes closed.
Except we don't actually throw ourselves, because we have no control.
That's it, love orders us, we don't handle it.
We don't have a choice.
Love may carry us to the heights that take our breath away.
Love may push us to the depths of my heart not saved.

#love #hurts

May 2014 · 378

Paradox

Yvette Mushimiiyimana May 2014

Paradox

I hate you
because I like you.

It's my heart,
and you own it.

Without you I feel fine,
but when I see you I'll want you.

You're doing nothing,
and causing chaos in my life.

Beautiful
Morbid
Chaos.

#love #chaos

May 2014 · 575

Permanent Unplanned

Yvette Mushimiiyimana May 2014

Permanent Unplanned

I'm painting my life,
but there are no erasers.

I'll probably swim in the ocean,
to capture a paradoxical life
of a tranquil difficult emotion.

Though, there's no blue,
what am I going to do.

#life #future #blue #water #journey #ocean #back #plan #without #with

May 2014 · 2.5k

Coffee shop wonders

Yvette Mushimiiyimana May 2014

Coffee shop wonders

I wish I could study with you.
Sure, it would be silent.
And oddly productive.
We wouldn't talk.
Might exchange glances.
But I'd be with you.

#love #coffee #you #me #wonder

Apr 2014 · 4.8k

Lead on

Yvette Mushimiiyimana Apr 2014

Lead on

Hello princess,
You're beautiful,
Kind,
****,
Funny,
You make me smile,
I'm going to hug you close and deep,
Stare into your soul,
Hold your hand.
But I don't want you,
Remember, we're just friends.
There I was falling in love, then love didn't catch me.

#love #falling #her #him #friendzone

Apr 2014 · 1.3k

10W

Yvette Mushimiiyimana Apr 2014

10W

The
tone
of
his
voice
was
poetry
to
my
heart

#10w

Apr 2014 · 489

No words.

Yvette Mushimiiyimana Apr 2014

No words.

I.
can't.
talk.
When I'm with you
I.
feel.
so.
much.
When I'm with you.
With our eyes,
lets substitute what we say and just gaze.
It translates better that way.

#feelings #words #silence #gaze

Apr 2014 · 1.2k

Sam Smith Concert

Yvette Mushimiiyimana Apr 2014

Sam Smith Concert

Concerts
They overwhelm me with
a love for life I tend to forget.
Then I leave, wanting more,
motivated to live, yet depressed,
because I feel like I didn't get the rest.
Oh how the music, the tone, words, instruments
all of it.
Describe emotions so perfectly
for words can't capture it certainly.

Apr 2014 · 433

What if

Yvette Mushimiiyimana Apr 2014

What if

What if I'm the one who loves more
I give and give
He takes and takes
He says thanks
I forever wait.
What if he loves me more
and I can't help it,
unsatisfied,
unfair, his heart I tear.
What if our love for each other is to abstract
immeasurable,
inexplainable with words
only felt.

#love #satisfaction #measure

Apr 2014 · 315

Sometimes the bad clouds the good.

Yvette Mushimiiyimana Apr 2014

Sometimes the bad clouds the good.

Today was okay,
I mean I got an A.
My tickets are confirmed.
My friends said they love me.
A guy said I was hot.
Some strangers said I look like Lupita.
I laughed with some people.
I got all my homework done.
But he called me a *****.
Today wasn't okay.

#sad #happy #laugh #loved #school #mad #today #hated

Apr 2014 · 2.1k

A foreshadow

Yvette Mushimiiyimana Apr 2014

A foreshadow

He looked fine. Fine with a y. Fyyyyne
However another guy had the best style, he could mismatch and make it fit.
Then again no man had abs like him, it was a canvas I longed to....
I will never forget the other guys eyes, his hazel eyes spoke to me.
How couldn't I mention the manly stance, broad shoulders, large hands man.
But honestly, I never saw beauty till I met blank.
Blank is kind, the kind that gives and expects nothing, for he
simply wants to see joy in me.
Blank is confident in himself, in a way that needs to prove nothing because he humble by nature
Blank is rational yet irrational in a way that strives and hopes.
Blank is funny, uplifting, ****.
Blank teaches me about myself, he makes me better.
I've never seen one as beautiful internally, which it illuminates externally.
Hopefully I meet blank.
_, I love you.

#love #happy #blank #men #foreshadow

Apr 2014 · 1.6k

Fragmented thoughts of Imperfection

Yvette Mushimiiyimana Apr 2014

Fragmented thoughts of Imperfection

I ****** up.....once again.
no, 6x8 doesn't equal 46, it's 48.
I know, well is an adverb, and I said I'm doing good.
Oh, he's there. I'll just flip my hair. **** I don't have hair.
I've known myself for 17 years, and I just spelt my last name wrong. awk
It's quiet, and I don't even know what that burp sneeze cough sound that just came out of my mouth was. So I will hum for now.
I'm singing passionately and loud because this is my song, that I apparently don't know the lyrics to. Why me.
and then finally, I couldnt explain how I felt.
but in all that was ****** up,
he understood me.

#perfect #know #understand #imperfect

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