"stashing" poems
What stories could journals tell?
What we forget
is that they are not just repositories of words
but also of thoughts,
feelings,
emotions
They are places in and of themselves
Saving these emotions,
stashing them away
so they can be discovered
at a later time.
But the true beauty of these journals
lies within discovery itself
A droplet of water will fall
further
down a curved surface
taking a pale tan color
like its surroundings
It will fall off the surface
Onto the fibers of the page below
Leaving a darkened splotch
More droplets will follow
More tears will follow
As twenty years from now
A thirty-five year old woman rediscovers
the girl she once was.
Aug 12, 2014
Aug 12, 2014 at 11:28 PM UTC
DEAR PENPAL PEOPLE, mind block not really posting a lot these days;-|
keeping now foot on gas
paining away drowns on piles
stashing upon jokes on types
watching with characters on hope
leaving before fall on love
starring because stars on align
dancing to listen on piano notes
writing for heart on no rhyme
------ravenfeels
Jun 13, 2021
Jun 13, 2021 at 11:06 AM UTC
The fleeing clouds have cleansed the tawny earthen meadows
Migrating sun doth steal away waning light of summer’s glee
High atop fir boughs bow in wind whispered homage
To the sapience the coloured leaves hath gleaned
The sweet scent of auburn brindled pinecone clusters
Ooze of glistening pitchy resinous fruit
Sticky figured squirrels chatter while they gather,
Stashing a survival cache of acorns and spinner seeds,
For another moment in sleepy winter tide dreams
A swirling eddy of spiraling leaves whirl beneath the tall timber
Fluttering gracefully with a gravity only falling leaves embolden
Enchanting like the evanescent timbre poignant piano notes decay
Writhing silent as summer Jasmine’s fragrant final bloom
Dandelion wishes soaring higher to kiss the fleeting winged skies
Lazily adrift up and over Cascade Mountain Crest
Fuzzy treetop flyers ascending far beyond darting dragonflies below
The sliver of golden harvest moon’s blossom aglow ,…
While wishing upon a shooting star's paling gleams
Serendipity sown about whimsically in the blustery wind
For to sow the will of untamed heart’s desires
A festive troop of Chickadees clinging like tiny acrobats
Foraging on ripened ginger hued fir-cone seeds
Wings to the sky wave goodbye to the deciduous cadence
Softly wafting with a pungent Lavender potion scented breeze
There is a secret place where memories go to hide deeply alive
Amongst the wild wood and impending leafless trees,
The only place on earth I've ever understood a sense of belonging
Where Autumn coloured leaves whisper in the gentle breeze ,…
“I would do it all over again”
Come September ,..when the leaves come falling down
© ... September 15th, 2016
Sep 28, 2017
Sep 28, 2017 at 10:47 AM UTC
Counting
Saving
Stashing.
How many will work?
Or! Maybe I can
disassemble
my Pencil Sharpener.
Or better yet,
Knit a long,
Skinny,
Scarf.
Where to hang it though?
Perhaps I could take a
Too Hot
Bath,
And sit till it's cold.
Maybe...
Weigh myself,
Until I'm satisfied
That'd do it too.
Aug 22, 2019
Aug 22, 2019 at 12:10 AM UTC
I only wish to be by your side
I wish for it every single night,
but you didn’t bring me along for the ride,
infact you didn’t take notice until I was out of sight.
Bury me alive,
don’t leave me at the door.
I’ve been stretching this drive
down to the corner store.
I’ve been chain smoking,
and breathing the cold air skies,
I’ll tell you that I’m joking,
and if you cover my ears, I’ll cover your eyes.
I’ve been trying to catch the ocean,
but ended up drowning in her eyes.
I’m stashing away every emotion,
and she accuses my sentiment for lies.
I want to go on a joyride,
I want to drive away but not to hide.
I want to go on a joyride,
but I’m feeling alone and you’re not by my side.
So I’ll turn up the music,
and ignore my pride.
Travelling the dark street
of that old quiet ghost town,
the ferret was very discreet,
but warned of us of the bear and to slow down.
Losing track of time and missing our exit,
with conversations holding a life of their own.
I’ll remind you so you won’t forget it,
now I’ll drive that highway completely alone.
Bury me alive,
oh wait, you made the shallow grave.
I’ve been stretching this drive,
it’s pitch black but I remind you to be brave.
I’ve been listening to our favourite song,
the lyrics I easily memorize.
Eliza Dushku’s turn was wrong,
but if you be my ears, I’ll be your eyes.
I know your measurements; head to toes,
and you’re perfect just the way you are.
You know I love how you look in my clothes
when you sit beside me in my dark car.
And all the streetlights went out
as we silently took a joyride,
it’s not unusual for me but I have my doubt,
that it wasn’t amplified by her by my side.
May 15, 2019
May 15, 2019 at 4:01 AM UTC
It had been interrupting us all night
That electricity between us that we tried to reach by sitting closer, letting our eyes whisper and our thighs caress longing words to each other, making sure we were always together
Our laughter mixed and our hands clasped in our knees
I swear, that night we could have caught fire
And all those feelings we had craved so greedily finally threatened to explode upon us right where we stood,
drunk and inches away from each other, packed on a trash can, trying to reach the sky from the roof
and I knew that if I just looked up,
we would fall into each other and never come back up
So I didn't
I didn't allow us to scream all that we had felt during the night
Instead, I stared down, hiding from your gaze full of dreams, tucking it all far away in my heart,
stashing it so my boyfriend would never find it
Nov 21, 2019
Nov 21, 2019 at 6:27 AM UTC
"Escribe con los pies, poeta de la calle"
"Write with your feet, poet of the street"
days of no inspiration,
nights of emptiness irritation,
labor strife strives to divide,
the desire, the greedy needy,
to unburden, touch lips to tablet,
unsatisfied, muse departed
for foreign lads in foreign lands,
where dark eyed ladies sing
put the load right right on me
where once I saw poetry,
now I see lessons of less,
trees blowing whipped me frenzied,
saw cappuccino foaming,
revisited, now, see but tired dancers,
de-auditioned, sent home to wonder,
poets with paper cuts but no bleeding,
so eager so desirous of conceiving, thinking,
will I ever......................................again
once, every step a poem,
every sidewalk crack,
a smack down of nuance,
eye recorded,
mind disordered,
run home, to dance
each vision into words,
gloria, glorious just to walk
my city streets
once upon a time,
a traffic light rainbow,
stopped n' go, was a word design,
demarcated visions of spun sugar,
bodegas sold me
magic beans by the pound,
masterminded into cups of delight,
treasury's bounty overflowed,
now, dregs drain, sink stained,
as are my writing utensils,
my ink stained, us-less, fingers
come visit me, unknown stranger,
let us exchange fluidity, barbs,
a contest of kissing, eye lashing
wit ands shared vision stashing,
and together, once more,
write with our feet,
while holding hands,
becoming once more
poets of the street.
Only, come quickly,
Jul 2, 2013
Jul 2, 2013 at 5:31 PM UTC
Over the years I've had a few tries
But it's not been a great success
Enthusiastic but lacking technique
Finishing up a bit of a mess
Now Brendon's out there, plying his trade
He's only twenty three
Done it at college, passed his grades
So he can do it properly
Earning the money, stashing away
To buy a place of his own
Sure he'll get there, for as they say
Where there's a will there will be a way
His girl is local, she does people's hair
He says in her head there's nothing but air
Calls her the missus, she's only eighteen
Like an old married couple to some they seem
She rides with him in his scruffy old van
She'd prefer a comfortable car
She wants to leave home as soon as she can
So likes to see him work hard
As the day ticks away we mardle
He knows an old flame of mine
I say yes, I know her quite well
But not seen her now for some time...
The grand design moves forward
We've had a laugh and a chat
All paid up, thanks for your help
In a month or so he'll be back
Aug 30, 2012
Aug 30, 2012 at 11:27 AM UTC
the most magical experience in life,
is being gifted
an unexpected epiphany.
epiphanies exist in many,
non-discriminatory
shapes an sizes.
and it just so happens that
this particular one
came to me in a time of
new awakening.
spring has sprung...
and so has my heart,
into your lap, that is.
just over a week ago,
I acquired a thick new layer of skin.
a soft, yet durable,
and pleasantly portable
safe space.
it has become my new happy place.
I now, cannot imagine
myself without
this undisclosed,
name-brand jacket.
and to me,
this is, a not-so peculiar notion.
because honestly
nothing has resonated with me more,
than this jacket of denim.
I feel like the blue guy
in that classic pop song
from the early 2000's.
my clothes are blue,
my hair is [cobalt] blue...
where is my **** corvette though?
I swear,
I need my own **** tv show.
however, I think there is something
that needs to be said,
beyond thank you.
I love this jacket
more than
the distance between
the earth and the moon
I have never felt so coddled
by an article of clothing,
than I do
right now.
in this instance,
I have recreated
my own new sense of style:
adorable queer alters reality
via jean jacket
and a black floral romper.
you can tell that I'm a "90's kid"
by the way I sport denim on denim
like it went out of style yesterday.
lovin' it like you got your arms around me.
oh darlin you did not
have to hand me your heart.
here, let me earn it.
let me work for your love.
I am gracious for YOU,
my beautiful gorgeous human being.
for it is you
who makes my heart swell.
my genderless Romeo,
my Sunday morning sweetheart.
push me up against the tree
in your front yard.
I want the whole neighborhood
to know
that my soul found solace in YOURS
and I want to shout if from
a ******* mountain.
making love with you
cleanses my mind.
leaving only room for
the notion of us riding off
into the sunset together
after spending an entire day
consuming the rays
like an all-you-can eat buffet.
and stashing them away,
like a chubby squirrel
during winter solstice.
this whole experience
has almost felt religious.
I pray this is something
I wouldn't part with, easily.
I want you to take me.
you've unlocked my aorta artery,
and I want to
make sure
that you are aware
that you are welcome,
to make this space
your home.
Mar 21, 2016
Mar 21, 2016 at 5:21 AM UTC
Some robots sip
Coca Cola and
Send each other text messages
The fog of shadowalking on the daily
Hangs a bit heavy but the
Diamond filter for stimulation makes
Life shine, though it's a hard one
Memories have become marauders
Stashing treasure in a hidden sand they won't know
I celebrate you
Secretly
Or escape from you;
I watch the cloud of the runaway noise pain
Clotting into grim ghosts
They do not listen to the gouhways
Why do they fear life
As much as death
When they split the faces
Of an endless coin(?)
In the dark pocket jingling away
Metallic music to somewhere
Sep 27, 2012
Sep 27, 2012 at 5:18 PM UTC
There was something special about this space
Like the walls spoke a language
The eves telling little secrets of comfort
Making this empty space feel more like home
Than that cramped apartment
Backyard wonderland like a child
I felt like butterflies and fairies could
Jump and flitter between leaves
Or goblins hobbling
To dance magic dance
The winking of mismatched eyes
Charming me out to play
Or possibly it was the dusty smell of closets
The socks stealing gnomes
Creeping around plain sight
Stashing keys and pony tails
Something made my weirdness welcome
My childish heart
Bloomed brilliantly
As if this space had waited
Stuck on some barrier between reality
To take me back
And make this old soul
New
Jan 22, 2014
Jan 22, 2014 at 8:34 PM UTC
All this pain everyday
It’s driving me insane
People come and go but their problems remain
Nothing changes
Just the looks of new faces
Friends disappear
But they're easily replaced
So much stress
Building up in my mind
Breaking down on daily basis
I’m always crying
I ain't lying
This **** is driving me crazy
The lies are really starting to phase me
And lately
I’m trying to change and get by
But my heart is always broken
I’m living a lie
No one understands until they step into my shoes
I’m fighting a battle with nothing to lose
I’m slowly dying
Gonna break apart
All the pain building up is gonna shatter my heart
I can’t go on
I’m not gonna make it
I used to think I’m small
But now I just can’t take it
Cause everyday troubles cause long-term struggles
And love?
All it does is make the pain double
I’m tired of pretending
Cause I realized
That right from the start
My life was built on lies
Nobody cares
No one was ever there
always kicked when I’m down
People just stop and stare
I can’t even breathe
I’m talking
I won’t win to love
My hearts always broken
Nobody cares
No one was ever there
Always kicked when I’m down
People just stop and stare
The one thing that I learned to live with is hate
But the only thing I want to do is escape
It ain't easy
And hard to believe me
I’m almost invisible
Nobody sees me
So I don’t see why I bother holding on
I always think of giving up
There’s no point of stashing on
Every day I ask the same questions
In the end
Cause after a long night this **** starts again
I’m trying to adjust to these drastic changes
Crying for help
Just asking to be saved
And in reality we all stand alone
We’re all just lost without a place called “home”
I’m tired of being muted every time I speak
I’m tired of having nightmares every time I sleep
I just wanna get away to a place
Cause every day and every night I wish of better days
But it don’t matter cause no one gives a ****
So you might as well save your breath
And just quit
Nobody cares
No one was ever there
always kicked when I’m down
People just stop and stare
I can’t even breathe
I’m talking
I won’t win to love
My hearts always broken
Nobody cares
No one was ever there
always kicked when I’m down
People just stop and stare
The one thing that I learned to live with is hate
But all I really want to do is
Escape
Nov 19, 2013
Nov 19, 2013 at 10:40 AM UTC
crushing dabs
like Brits with ****
ragging on the braggarts
for being ********
mastering fascism
like I’m in a classroom
learning to bridegroom
and lower the boom
eating shrooms
faster than a pig truffling
feathers ruffling
feet shuffling
feeling the scruff again
as I rub my chin
and I begin mashing the rascals
and stashing the raffle wins
like at Bingo hassling
the troll doll queen
bout to bring this to a ring
and sing to all ya’ll songs
of wax and things…..
Mar 23, 2016
Mar 23, 2016 at 7:27 PM UTC
Easy will I give blood to thee
My love of anger simmering.
Tough mutts and breezy gates shut up while I'm walking up the paved path to heaven.
My shadows carve depictions of their home across it's border, until the time that obliteration comes preceding daylight.
Presently, the senses tell stories of alleyways, bending, screaming, dark, and hollow niches where cells holding cretins feeding on easy cons, closely eyeing the greasy pawns that wobble across rotting paper, voodoo art a secret guarded closely hidden in the hole a beating heart long ago vacated. Robbing rich snobbish ****** their childrens life of ignorance concerning newfound addictions.
You know the type.
You know that I know you too, and how you prefer to shape the ghastly forms these predators take, turn them into your thralls discarded soon after rehearsing the parts of your play, writtin precisely to incite your own addiction to probability gamble gaming intuition. trashing skits naturally reactive to exhibited patterns laughing mad at the victms thrashing quiver, stashing films of the accidents in your pack to gift the sadistic mastiffs attack and ravage and tear and
Sadness.
The fictitious movies play out onto the skyscape of this mind we share, and attempt to accept the last thing you truly fear.
Nov 6, 2020
Nov 6, 2020 at 10:40 AM UTC
What’s in a man?
This engine of a heart,
Works in machine like rhythm,
Monochrome innards,
Stashing my colors far too deep,
Someday I wish to see them,
Let their tones creep into place,
What’s in a man?
The longing for someone,
Silence worn as an outfit,
Attempts at concrete and structure,
At times we will shift,
Loosing sight of the times,
Apologies there after,
What’s in a man?
A title I am still trying to fit into.
Jan 15, 2015
Jan 15, 2015 at 10:59 PM UTC
This is the light of the mind
Mystery Behind a ****** veil
The beauty of the moon
Where her face walks in its own right
Breathe in the enormity of the clouds
Gliding like pure cotton,
The gray sky becomes one with the soul
The bride is waiting for words to come calling
The stillness of thin air
Unlocked images beyond the breakwater
Remembering the unsolved labyrinth
As the cliff whistle to the stool pigeons
Bringing good news to the earthen womb,
Fighting the courage of shutting up
Forcing myself to unload my senses
Unselfish thoughts of a blue grievance
Between the sun and the clouds,
The outrage of the pierce Violet,
A cold glass of water glances at a beautiful pearl
Stashing the glamour of an oceanic mirage
A love affair chasing you through twilight
An enormous trill for the unknown
Driving you closer to a hole beneath
A disturbance of mirrors
Finally straight from the heart
I felt a silent outcry
Waiting for a shatterproof soul
Against the natural odor of true love
Rony Joseph all rights reserved 2010
Jul 26, 2010
Jul 26, 2010 at 4:38 PM UTC
*Stashing them everywhere
I store such coins to pay away the could've beens
To keep my bones and alabaster skin covered until the rainy day need not appear
At which time I can and will, take you by the hand
And show you either the former Winding Way, or create anew
By pulling coins out of the thin air, like a magic man
For this is how I make my way into the world of words*
Jun 21, 2017
Jun 21, 2017 at 11:28 AM UTC
It's moving so fast
now it's nearly gone
That wildfire sun
waking me up at dawn
Gathering all the memories
stashing them away
To hold them close & warm
on that pending wintry day
Aug 17, 2015
Aug 17, 2015 at 12:12 PM UTC
When I was smooth polished stone
When I was unbreakable, indefatigable
I wasted the wealth of my youth
Spilling gold coins from my open purse into the street, stashing emerald bills in gutter cracks and the window sills of strangers, enemies, and friends
I never saved a dime
And it is time which has grown a face, laughing in fine lines traced by tragedies, one two three
In coffee black mornings and the long stretch between when the air is thick with hands grasping at the next order, the next order, the next order...
What am I to do with my empty hands
They say the devils work is idle.
Jan 28, 2015
Jan 28, 2015 at 6:42 PM UTC
You know what I love about taking a road trip to LA?
Looking out of the window
Watching as the miles and miles of hills overlap one another
Seeing the neat rows
Hundreds of them
Each field a new shape
Each a new fruit
I love rolling down the window
The breeze whipping my hair around
Too lazy and too care free to tie it up
Letting that earthy smell fill up the car
Realizing I need a new playlist
Stashing my favorite candy in the back, yumm
But what I love the most about it all?
Knowing that after those 6 hours have stretched 5 hours too long...
(you always said I had the patience
of a 5 year old)
I can at least comfortably have a spot on your bed
Jun 25, 2013
Jun 25, 2013 at 9:42 PM UTC
why is it that in capitalism i get to say:
i can buy anything i want, given i earn enough
money to actually buy it...
but i wouldn't share a napkin hour
of fork and knife fencing to eat a meal
with the majority of people?
i can buy whatever i want,
but i wouldn't spend a second
with we are the 99% of people?
i can see the sea of desperation
20 miles away... it looks like a giant
buffoon torpedo of farts,
god almighty, the sulphuric stench is
truly almighty, can chop down a cow dead in
its tracks within a non-statistical timing methods...
that quick.
but i do get to say the line:
i get enough dough to buy enough blah,
and end up not wanting the sort of company
where the blah translates into bling...
most of the people i know
i wouldn't eat a **** with: so... BIG UP *****
RRRRESPECT: 2Pac sheer a kebab -
what?! white boy gotta rhapsody.
n'ah, i'd never eat food with you,
i'd rat-out with you at the dumpster -
when M & S was forgetting Oxford Ox-famine
and just stashing the profit for
the filthy mouths of garbage grub.
Sep 3, 2016
Sep 3, 2016 at 6:41 PM UTC
Gin soaked parchment paper, robbed of words
wrung red from split fingernails guiding,
sliding back and fro
to the irrhythm of distended lobes misfiring
a useless tome, of uninteresting characters
and the sun that burns them crisp, their lips tiring
cigarettes in the candy dish
the southerners, wrenching wrists about their red clay alleys,
the tinted beer glass stashing tobacco juice
their words playing loose with the sanctimony of animals, raccoon paws
and muskodine snaps and the rusting 1953 Crosley metal lawn chair
rocking away the synapse.
Jul 28, 2016
Jul 28, 2016 at 3:38 PM UTC
"Do you do drugs?” is a rhetorical question to me. I snorted a line to connect the answer to my eyes, so, the drip could tell my throat to dilate their minds and swallow the idea that everyone is ******* blind. And maybe they are, **** i sure as hell don’t feel around with a walking stick. But i do tap my glasses against hard surfaces, keeping a sharp grasp on the shards of glass i’ve been smashing’ in hopes the reflection will stop masking the reason i keep overreacting and stashing pills in my abdomen. They will understand when i vanish completely why it’s called fasting. My religion isn’t of the church, but of the body and the mind. That's constantly runs off the time i spend draining out the plugged up emotions and sunken down guts I’ve puked up because i fear of dying unknown. i haven’t lived out my 20′s, **** I guess i’m a clone for devoting time towards the public, who see me as another subject who’s cocky as **** and hates themselves whenever alone. Even my parents surpass the overlapping content filled with clues hidden in the context, I guess my words aren’t imperative enough for a toxic thrown. I’m hazardous waste, overdose prone.
Jan 29, 2016
Jan 29, 2016 at 12:55 PM UTC