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i’ve given up on days that begin in late afternoon, skipped breakfast and lunch, days that fade slowly and end with ****** cut-out holes in eyelids because the second i close them and it all goes black, every moment with you comes back played on fast-forward, the memories moving so quickly that both our faces are blurred and it feels like everything i’ve ever felt for you is overflowing the tub, filling the washroom with suds that take forever to melt i’ve given up on those days. i’ve traded them for ones that begin with sunrises instead of sunsets, days that are spent falling forward instead of trying to chase the past, and i don’t look back and see something broken, or something that was better off left unopened i look back and see our bodies so close together that you can’t tell where yours begins and mine ends, i see my heart that grew twenty-three times its size, i see you and me wrapped up in something that i didn’t know existed outside of blurry 35 mm and overdue and falling-apart library books that sit on the nightstands of middle-aged women who are bored with their lives and i’m just so happy i got to love you at all. but i’ve folded up all the days spent with you and taped them in the messy pages of my journal and now i’m running into the sun, running away from every lie that’s trying to wedge its way in between my ribs, running in the opposite direction of words like "regret" and any feeling that insists that none of it was worth it because all of it was worth it. every moment we were together pumps through my veins, and it will always be there; it will be there when we’ve both graduated, when you move out west, when you kiss your family goodnight, when you sit in your backyard with tears in your eyes because you’ve lived a life you are proud of it will be there when i finally make it to new york city, when i kiss someone who isn’t you, when i find the answers you inspired me to search for, when i sit on my rooftop with tears on my cheeks because i’ve lived a life fuller than i could’ve ever imagined and you and i will live these lives apart, we’ll move on and forget what it felt like to wake up beside one another; we’ll find what we’re looking for elsewhere and we’ll understand why this all had to happen the way that it did but what we had will always exist somewhere, in rotting apples and old mail and unplayed mix CDs, in mosaics that line the city streets, in sirens and red and white flashing lights that shine through your window while you are asleep you and i were magic, we always will be.
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Apr 21, 2015
Apr 21, 2015 at 11:25 PM UTC
atoms
i’ve given up on days that begin in late afternoon, skipped breakfast and lunch, days that fade slowly and end with ****** cut-out holes in eyelids because the second i close them and it all goes black, every moment with you comes back played on fast-forward, the memories moving so quickly that both our faces are blurred and it feels like everything i’ve ever felt for you is overflowing the tub, filling the washroom with suds that take forever to melt i’ve given up on those days. i’ve traded them for ones that begin with sunrises instead of sunsets, days that are spent falling forward instead of trying to chase the past, and i don’t look back and see something broken, or something that was better off left unopened i look back and see our bodies so close together that you can’t tell where yours begins and mine ends, i see my heart that grew twenty-three times its size, i see you and me wrapped up in something that i didn’t know existed outside of blurry 35 mm and overdue and falling-apart library books that sit on the nightstands of middle-aged women who are bored with their lives and i’m just so happy i got to love you at all. but i’ve folded up all the days spent with you and taped them in the messy pages of my journal and now i’m running into the sun, running away from every lie that’s trying to wedge its way in between my ribs, running in the opposite direction of words like "regret" and any feeling that insists that none of it was worth it because all of it was worth it. every moment we were together pumps through my veins, and it will always be there; it will be there when we’ve both graduated, when you move out west, when you kiss your family goodnight, when you sit in your backyard with tears in your eyes because you’ve lived a life you are proud of it will be there when i finally make it to new york city, when i kiss someone who isn’t you, when i find the answers you inspired me to search for, when i sit on my rooftop with tears on my cheeks because i’ve lived a life fuller than i could’ve ever imagined and you and i will live these lives apart, we’ll move on and forget what it felt like to wake up beside one another; we’ll find what we’re looking for elsewhere and we’ll understand why this all had to happen the way that it did but what we had will always exist somewhere, in rotting apples and old mail and unplayed mix CDs, in mosaics that line the city streets, in sirens and red and white flashing lights that shine through your window while you are asleep you and i were magic, we always will be.
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for Tascha deep in the pond of unhappy, swimming, drowning the next contemporaneous depression thought quickly swallowed, desperation in quick glances everywhere, dawn is no consolation but just another daily drawing tighter of twine cutting disillusionment dear god, commences every thought, delayed answers have yet to arrive, **** the deity's non-responsivness, dare not say out loud lest, deserved fates be worse, be realized, didn't know? how can that be? disguiser par excellent, I am the original deceiver But I never think about death or dying, for that would be defeat finale, a statute to, a status of none, a destiny some wick spark, still insists can be deferred differed always, diffidently, but grasping yet at the double entendre that is my dark vision of a future already past May 2015
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May 30, 2015
May 30, 2015 at 4:45 PM UTC
All Sad Words Start with D
I have bruises like amethyst But the truth is I’m the catalyst When I see colours of bismuth I know you mean business Bruises like amethyst But you say you’re a pacifist An analyst an activist But you held my mind so it contorts, distorts And aborts so it can’t resonate or fabricate Or rationalise a world inside That doesn't exist and insists That I can’t be kissed and won’t be missed I've got a black heart like tourmaline But I'm the alkaline to your acid time Trust me I am fine, I'm a pale blue Crystalline Structural perfection Don’t need your affection or your ways Of objections did my bra strap give you an Erection? You could say I'm a feminist But I'm more of a scientist Busting body myths like biologist You say ‘but **** are ****** organs’ Listen you morons, all ******* are a erogenous zone Regardless of gender , boys nips literally have no purpose Except when they get nervous for getting a little lip service Trust me I'm fine, I'm a pale white crystalline Structural perfection I don’t need your objection Not a gem stone for your collar bone I don’t give a **** about Your muscle tone, I'm a cyclone all alone I could spend a 1,000 years on my own.
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Aug 23, 2014
Aug 23, 2014 at 7:08 PM UTC
The female scientist ****** crystal rap.
Kiss your lips And inhale laughter, Oh god, the way Your mouth curls, Eyes become Gentle slits, And the bending Of your brow Insists on Intimacy, Every ounce Of my soul Says, "Yes, Please."
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Nov 7, 2014
Nov 7, 2014 at 11:53 AM UTC
Seduced Soul
Nostalgia is a ***** liar that insists things were better than they seemed.
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Apr 20, 2019
Apr 20, 2019 at 5:53 PM UTC
Nostalgia
the niggly nasty narcissist who keeps you off the road insists- to stay in all your thoughts he sits and strips your magical mind to bits with all his games and all his grifts a punch a preach consider the junk he's ********* sift, mist or haze send him away cause your wisdom yo its better than this, so think - the ways to rip this spit im a free man now peel the author away from this blow your mind ! just to see the way that i can outline this and keep myself a verse afar from all your ****
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Nov 29, 2011
Nov 29, 2011 at 12:56 PM UTC
Narcissist
From the BBC today, Excerpt Why does Taylor Swift write so many one-note melodies? "It's easy to get distracted by her celebrity, but Taylor Swift is a once-in-a-generation songwriter. From the very beginning, she's displayed a knack for melody and storytelling that most artists never master. Take, for example, her first US number one, OUR SONG Written for a high school talent show, it's a fairly typical tale of teenage romance until the final lines: "I grabbed a pen / And an old napkin / And I wrote down our song." That's smart, self-assured songwriting for someone who wasn't old enough to vote. Notably, the lyrics insert the musician directly into the narrative - something she developed into a tried and tested trope. But Our Song also establishes another of Taylor's trademarks: The one-note melody. Excerpt Repetitive melodies that centre around a single note are part of that appeal. They emphasise her relatability by mimicking the cadence of speech. "They emphasise her relatability by mimicking the cadence of speech." "They emphasise her relatability by mimicking the cadence of speech." "They emphasise her relatability by mimicking the cadence of speech." Rebuttal Rhyme sells because the people you are selling too can remember your lyrics. They can relate to your song but if they cannot sing it themselves putting themselves in the 'first-person perspective narrative' they cannot feel as-if they have BECOME the artist and are living that moment as they remember it. Taylor Swift sings about teenage love and angst something EVERYONE ON EARTH understands. ALL POETRY BEGAN AS RHYME IN SONG. Cadences are singing statements that confer a discipline and unity. Song acts as a catharsis. The artist shares their pain in a way that is universally understood. If you want to sell a rock, literally a pebble, you will not sell it if it doesn't look like a rock. If it doesn't do what rocks do. If it is not what people remember a rock to be like. Nor will it sell if it is just like every other rock they have ever seen. It cannot convey an emotion unless it elicits emotion. One cannot even begin to feel emotional if one cannot remember easily the past and that includes lyrics one has heard that evoked said emotional state. It is horrifying to see HOW BADLY EVERYONE INSISTS that rhyme be obliterated in exchange for an intellectual or individual perspective NOT SHARED BY THE MAJORITY OF PEOPLE. If you want to sell and make money you better start thinking about the 99% of people who are not geniuses. If your sole goal in life is to attract a genius to give you a great job because of how, "smart," they perceive you to be then fine. You are not an artist. You are an employee. "Rhyme sells because the people you are selling too can remember your lyrics." "Rhyme sells because the people you are selling too can remember your lyrics." "Rhyme sells because the people you are selling too can remember your lyrics." Thrice Times Great. ⁻ᴴᵉʳᵐᵉˢ                                            BECOME                               EVERYONE ON EARTH                ALL POETRY BEGAN AS RHYME IN SONG                       HOW BADLY EVERYONE INSISTS             NOT SHARED BY THE MAJORITY OF PEOPLE                                          HOW BAD                                       artist? or employee?
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Feb 15, 2018
Feb 15, 2018 at 10:29 AM UTC
Article: Taylor Swift and why rhyme sells,
From the BBC today, Excerpt Why does Taylor Swift write so many one-note melodies? "It's easy to get distracted by her celebrity, but Taylor Swift is a once-in-a-generation songwriter. From the very beginning, she's displayed a knack for melody and storytelling that most artists never master. Take, for example, her first US number one, OUR SONG Written for a high school talent show, it's a fairly typical tale of teenage romance until the final lines: "I grabbed a pen / And an old napkin / And I wrote down our song." That's smart, self-assured songwriting for someone who wasn't old enough to vote. Notably, the lyrics insert the musician directly into the narrative - something she developed into a tried and tested trope. But Our Song also establishes another of Taylor's trademarks: The one-note melody. Excerpt Repetitive melodies that centre around a single note are part of that appeal. They emphasise her relatability by mimicking the cadence of speech. "They emphasise her relatability by mimicking the cadence of speech." "They emphasise her relatability by mimicking the cadence of speech." "They emphasise her relatability by mimicking the cadence of speech." Rebuttal Rhyme sells because the people you are selling too can remember your lyrics. They can relate to your song but if they cannot sing it themselves putting themselves in the 'first-person perspective narrative' they cannot feel as-if they have BECOME the artist and are living that moment as they remember it. Taylor Swift sings about teenage love and angst something EVERYONE ON EARTH understands. ALL POETRY BEGAN AS RHYME IN SONG. Cadences are singing statements that confer a discipline and unity. Song acts as a catharsis. The artist shares their pain in a way that is universally understood. If you want to sell a rock, literally a pebble, you will not sell it if it doesn't look like a rock. If it doesn't do what rocks do. If it is not what people remember a rock to be like. Nor will it sell if it is just like every other rock they have ever seen. It cannot convey an emotion unless it elicits emotion. One cannot even begin to feel emotional if one cannot remember easily the past and that includes lyrics one has heard that evoked said emotional state. It is horrifying to see HOW BADLY EVERYONE INSISTS that rhyme be obliterated in exchange for an intellectual or individual perspective NOT SHARED BY THE MAJORITY OF PEOPLE. If you want to sell and make money you better start thinking about the 99% of people who are not geniuses. If your sole goal in life is to attract a genius to give you a great job because of how, "smart," they perceive you to be then fine. You are not an artist. You are an employee. "Rhyme sells because the people you are selling too can remember your lyrics." "Rhyme sells because the people you are selling too can remember your lyrics." "Rhyme sells because the people you are selling too can remember your lyrics." Thrice Times Great. ⁻ᴴᵉʳᵐᵉˢ                                            BECOME                               EVERYONE ON EARTH                ALL POETRY BEGAN AS RHYME IN SONG                       HOW BADLY EVERYONE INSISTS             NOT SHARED BY THE MAJORITY OF PEOPLE                                          HOW BAD                                       artist? or employee?
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My scars don't look like Anyone else's- They're more careful, Organized, precise and Exact. Not light, but Never deep enough Never deep enough Never deep enough Never deep enough. People always ask why I do such pretty patterns: Because this is the only thing in life That I can really control Control Control, And I find it so beautiful- Though, not so much tragic. My scars are not chaotic like a Car-wreck, They are consistent like a Coma- Proof that I was awake The whole time I was sleeping, And I could feel everything Even though I could tell no one. No one. That this Unconscious obsessive compulsion Demands order **Order Order,** it Insists by instinct, An intricate simplicity. Still, I will 'ever envy Those stitched gashes, once Gushing Gushing Gushing with surrender and Serenity... Each raised and rough coarse collagen fiber To form a white flag Forever etched in flesh; To tell the world They, were a slave to freedom- I am only a slave To myself.
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Dec 9, 2014
Dec 9, 2014 at 2:52 AM UTC
OCD
Some things exist behind curtains of experience.   Those whose tongues have tasted the holy fire know the touch of something divine. Those who have laid eyes on their sleeping bodies, and walked away to places unknown, can grasp the idea of an inbetween. Those who have groped in the darkness for something to believe in again, who have longingly looked over the cliff edge, know that true despair does exist. As for me, I know that true fear can come in the form of footsteps behind you on the empty street. The person at the bar who insists on hollow compliments and free drinks. Friends who scoff at your anger for men who yell out their passenger side windows about the treasures beneath your clothes. True fear can come in the middle of the afternoon, as you face off against the four floor staircase to your apartment, when your steps are echoed by the man in 2b who has a wife, son, and a taste for resistance. Don't tell me I'm overreacting, when the single most terrifying thing I can do is walk alone under the street lamps. Don't tell me I'm too uptight just because I've learned that flattery can come with a horrifying price tag. Don't tell me I'm wrong just because you don't understand. Look me in the eye when you have waited until a security guard can walk you to your car.  When you have held your breath in a shared elevator.  When you have lowered your eyes to the men who yell obscenities at you, because standing up for yourself could prove deadly.   Look me in the eye when you have held back the curtain of experience, and walked in the shoes of someone who lives every moment knowing this could be the day someone decides to steal from me what is only mine to give. Then look me in the eye when you tell someone of your wound, and they reprimand you for daring to walk this world as a woman.
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Aug 29, 2014
Aug 29, 2014 at 9:26 PM UTC
To Walk As A Woman
Some things exist behind curtains of experience.   Those whose tongues have tasted the holy fire know the touch of something divine. Those who have laid eyes on their sleeping bodies, and walked away to places unknown, can grasp the idea of an inbetween. Those who have groped in the darkness for something to believe in again, who have longingly looked over the cliff edge, know that true despair does exist. As for me, I know that true fear can come in the form of footsteps behind you on the empty street. The person at the bar who insists on hollow compliments and free drinks. Friends who scoff at your anger for men who yell out their passenger side windows about the treasures beneath your clothes. True fear can come in the middle of the afternoon, as you face off against the four floor staircase to your apartment, when your steps are echoed by the man in 2b who has a wife, son, and a taste for resistance. Don't tell me I'm overreacting, when the single most terrifying thing I can do is walk alone under the street lamps. Don't tell me I'm too uptight just because I've learned that flattery can come with a horrifying price tag. Don't tell me I'm wrong just because you don't understand. Look me in the eye when you have waited until a security guard can walk you to your car.  When you have held your breath in a shared elevator.  When you have lowered your eyes to the men who yell obscenities at you, because standing up for yourself could prove deadly.   Look me in the eye when you have held back the curtain of experience, and walked in the shoes of someone who lives every moment knowing this could be the day someone decides to steal from me what is only mine to give. Then look me in the eye when you tell someone of your wound, and they reprimand you for daring to walk this world as a woman.
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I write my pretty poetry and I beg to know of thee what you see and what you want to be what makes you flee and what makes you free how often do you plea do you like a bee or am I irritating thee with my random personality I'm sorry but that's my gravity I don't need you I have my sanity I call it sanity and you call it insanity like I asked you who to be I'd rather follow my fae It seems to me you lack the imaginary and that I cling to the extraordinary I mean who likes ordinary I pick extraordinary   One more time Extraordinary My mind is endless I act kind of senseless Oh I see breakfast here comes my fist if you insist I can't resist Am I dismissed I know there is something I've missed the crazy insists I can't resist The malevolence in your intelligence I don't know where I thence hence I make no sense This baby is crazy But the God our lord made me To be whoever I want to be if you dream it you can achieve it Believe it and you will see
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Nov 19, 2018
Nov 19, 2018 at 4:07 PM UTC
Rhyming for fun 1
There was nothing I was ever so ashamed of that I dumped it in a river to drown, but one time my best friend accidentally tossed my pink fishing pole into the bayou when a spider dangled from the line. We were eight, everything was wishy-washy because she called herself a mulatto like it were an insult and my older friends kept mentioning that my mom walked herself to a liquor store very late at night twelve-packs bruising her German-colored shoulder. I did not tell them my father had hidden away her car keys. Girls teased me and I still wanted to kiss their cheeks at goodbyes, The Little Mermaid featured at our sleepovers saying, “kiss the girl,” so I did but we stopped talking when I bought my training bra, it proved what was in my skirt, my lips could not touch them again. You cannot kiss a girl if you are a girl, even if Disney movies say it is okay because Mickie Mouse has no ***** to be ashamed of though a wife of the opposite *** I learned important things until I turned ten and Hurricane Katrina unraveled the bayou into my house and I existed in four different classrooms in my fourth grade year where nobody had enough time to learn my name, much less the way it is spelled. Now, in therapy, the certified insists that I am a girl who kisses other girls because my mother only put her lips on a bottle. But maybe I wear striped dresses just because mold grew that shape in my home on Camellia Street, mud decorated the fallen refrigerator so it looked like a cow some punk tipped over. I just wish the sidewalk I use to rollerblade on hadn’t flooded.
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May 16, 2013
May 16, 2013 at 6:50 PM UTC
the little mermaid
There was nothing I was ever so ashamed of that I dumped it in a river to drown, but one time my best friend accidentally tossed my pink fishing pole into the bayou when a spider dangled from the line. We were eight, everything was wishy-washy because she called herself a mulatto like it were an insult and my older friends kept mentioning that my mom walked herself to a liquor store very late at night twelve-packs bruising her German-colored shoulder. I did not tell them my father had hidden away her car keys. Girls teased me and I still wanted to kiss their cheeks at goodbyes, The Little Mermaid featured at our sleepovers saying, “kiss the girl,” so I did but we stopped talking when I bought my training bra, it proved what was in my skirt, my lips could not touch them again. You cannot kiss a girl if you are a girl, even if Disney movies say it is okay because Mickie Mouse has no ***** to be ashamed of though a wife of the opposite *** I learned important things until I turned ten and Hurricane Katrina unraveled the bayou into my house and I existed in four different classrooms in my fourth grade year where nobody had enough time to learn my name, much less the way it is spelled. Now, in therapy, the certified insists that I am a girl who kisses other girls because my mother only put her lips on a bottle. But maybe I wear striped dresses just because mold grew that shape in my home on Camellia Street, mud decorated the fallen refrigerator so it looked like a cow some punk tipped over. I just wish the sidewalk I use to rollerblade on hadn’t flooded.
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we're on a break, meaning we catharsis **** often in public places, often with an edge of violence, much like the session in the family restroom, here at Big Daddy's Bar-B-Que (travesty, travesty). still waiting for Em to to finish "tidying up." and the brisket is salty. or it's the leftovers from her forehead. she should have cut her fingernails. thinking of a way to hide the blood trails running wild on the back of my t-shirt. catharsis, she says. it's healthy, she says. Elvis croons over the arcane stereo system and a white-haired woman with gelatinous arms taps her fingers on the tabletop along to "Teddy Bear." the waitress keeps a hawk's eye on my half-empty/half-full glass of water. and I'm afraid to take a drink. here comes Em. she's an athlete. and we're on a break, meaning we don't see each other's parents. don't nod and listen. and don't say things like, "oh yeah, your sister Sarah. how's she?" hallelujah, hallelujah. Em played point guard in high school. her last official sporting endeavor. but twenty minutes ago she told me to look up a complicated position via iKamastutra on my phone because she's an athlete, and I'd be "amazed at what this machine [her body] can do." but I hate when she says **** like that. catering to an I'm-almost-certain-peg of my fantasy. harder, harder and before I finish, she insists on swallowing and it makes me uncomfortable but we're on break, and to argue would be a crucifixion to this "vacation." I think about Elvis. and wonder if any woman is still alive that swallowed his *** and when it's down to just one, does that mean anything? "well that was fun," Em says. her mascara wasted. the brisket is salty. I take a generous drink of water. I hear the sound of breaking glass. the waitress has busted a bottle of ketchup in her rush to refill my 2/3rds empty cup. "mazel tov," I say.
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Jan 31, 2013
Jan 31, 2013 at 7:57 PM UTC
#nsfw
we're on a break, meaning we catharsis **** often in public places, often with an edge of violence, much like the session in the family restroom, here at Big Daddy's Bar-B-Que (travesty, travesty). still waiting for Em to to finish "tidying up." and the brisket is salty. or it's the leftovers from her forehead. she should have cut her fingernails. thinking of a way to hide the blood trails running wild on the back of my t-shirt. catharsis, she says. it's healthy, she says. Elvis croons over the arcane stereo system and a white-haired woman with gelatinous arms taps her fingers on the tabletop along to "Teddy Bear." the waitress keeps a hawk's eye on my half-empty/half-full glass of water. and I'm afraid to take a drink. here comes Em. she's an athlete. and we're on a break, meaning we don't see each other's parents. don't nod and listen. and don't say things like, "oh yeah, your sister Sarah. how's she?" hallelujah, hallelujah. Em played point guard in high school. her last official sporting endeavor. but twenty minutes ago she told me to look up a complicated position via iKamastutra on my phone because she's an athlete, and I'd be "amazed at what this machine [her body] can do." but I hate when she says **** like that. catering to an I'm-almost-certain-peg of my fantasy. harder, harder and before I finish, she insists on swallowing and it makes me uncomfortable but we're on break, and to argue would be a crucifixion to this "vacation." I think about Elvis. and wonder if any woman is still alive that swallowed his *** and when it's down to just one, does that mean anything? "well that was fun," Em says. her mascara wasted. the brisket is salty. I take a generous drink of water. I hear the sound of breaking glass. the waitress has busted a bottle of ketchup in her rush to refill my 2/3rds empty cup. "mazel tov," I say.
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*“...Your words were found and I ate them. They became a joy to my heart. In my mouth— a sweet delight, but in my belly—bitter...”                                                  --Jeremiah* ...But that night by dim background of next-room light I could not see your face just feel your hush of shadow words on spine of shudders Seems we dropped this bomb that would not stop exploding! ...And I was sure? that it was right? because...because....! Their eyes were slanted! So they could not see— the “Good Guys” VANISH— WIDE-EYED—! in its TOO-MUCH-LIGHT Still your voice insists in pause and fissioned hiss that I MUST KNOW in tender half-life TRUTH too pure too deadly white I swallow lethal glowing dose HOW CAN YOU SPEAK SUCH WORDS SO CLOSE! EXPOSED! “...in mouth sweet—in belly bitter…” Stories? and the Grandma Song rendered tender—lull of voice Soul’s cabinet cleared of venial sin Last of all—the tucking in..... They say you first get sick.... Seems we dropped this bomb that would not stop exploding! And I am invisibly ill—with truth approaching critical mass Will angry rads incise their ways? Will leaden swords of angels drive them back? In this night— my bedtime stories fainted at your whispers...whispers...WHISPERS— fusing an oblong fear that I MUST NOT DROP! but I cannot hold! Fetal-folded frail and freezing under covers— just barely peeking “Jesus hanging on the cross…Tell me-- was it I?” Jesus hanging in the cross TELL ME! IT’S NOT TRUE! "Tell me, mother Were you God talking? I could not see your face by the next room’s light..."
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May 9, 2017
May 9, 2017 at 11:40 AM UTC
Whispers at Bedside
*“...Your words were found and I ate them. They became a joy to my heart. In my mouth— a sweet delight, but in my belly—bitter...”                                                  --Jeremiah* ...But that night by dim background of next-room light I could not see your face just feel your hush of shadow words on spine of shudders Seems we dropped this bomb that would not stop exploding! ...And I was sure? that it was right? because...because....! Their eyes were slanted! So they could not see— the “Good Guys” VANISH— WIDE-EYED—! in its TOO-MUCH-LIGHT Still your voice insists in pause and fissioned hiss that I MUST KNOW in tender half-life TRUTH too pure too deadly white I swallow lethal glowing dose HOW CAN YOU SPEAK SUCH WORDS SO CLOSE! EXPOSED! “...in mouth sweet—in belly bitter…” Stories? and the Grandma Song rendered tender—lull of voice Soul’s cabinet cleared of venial sin Last of all—the tucking in..... They say you first get sick.... Seems we dropped this bomb that would not stop exploding! And I am invisibly ill—with truth approaching critical mass Will angry rads incise their ways? Will leaden swords of angels drive them back? In this night— my bedtime stories fainted at your whispers...whispers...WHISPERS— fusing an oblong fear that I MUST NOT DROP! but I cannot hold! Fetal-folded frail and freezing under covers— just barely peeking “Jesus hanging on the cross…Tell me-- was it I?” Jesus hanging in the cross TELL ME! IT’S NOT TRUE! "Tell me, mother Were you God talking? I could not see your face by the next room’s light..."
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today is ****** monday there's one knocking on my front door he is scribbled and bleeding from his forearms, he carries a pigeon on a leash and gets high on hotrod drivers' eyes. i'll give him two pints of hillbilly sugar and a book of voodoo pictures, but he insists upon my daughter and at least 3 lines of coke. instead i hand him a corn on the cob and the number of the girl scout troop up the road, he asks me for one more moose head and although i'm almost out, the sun is still yellow so i pour him a double brandy because today is ****** monday there's one driving naked down a one way street
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Jan 9, 2012
Jan 9, 2012 at 12:37 AM UTC
****** monday
for him: he greets me goodnight and goodmorning everyday. he doesn't forget telling me to eat properly. he helps me to figure out what to wear. he doesn't let me wear revealing clothes even when it's really hot outside. he insists on walking me back to my house even though it's afternoon and there are many people outside. he always texts back. he met almost everyone i know in my life. he loves me. he told me that one day when he bought me ice cream. he knew my favorite ice cream flavor. he loves me. but i never wanted him. for you: it's different. you might not always text back because i know you're busy. you might not talk to me when you're online but i understand. you might get jealous a little bit for what he's doing for me but i know you wanted to do that for me too, you're just a miles away. but i'm sure for what i'm feeling. you might not talk to me for one day and i could still wait for you until you do. i'd do that. because my feelings for you are far more different than i have ever felt in my entire life.
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Mar 29, 2015
Mar 29, 2015 at 10:49 AM UTC
feelings
Her Masterpiece Is Her Story Her paintbrush is a razor, Her canvas, her wrists, "I deserve the pain." She shrugs and insists. One day the brush will push down, And it will cut so deep, That this girl will fall into an eternal sleep. She doesn't remember how she started What brought her interest to this, How do you discover, that cutting is your form of bliss? No one would have guessed that she does it. No one would have considered this one. This girl is forever fighting a battle, that she thinks the demons have won. Her artwork is all over her, Her beauty is on her thighs, and if you look in her old trash, you'll find her letters of goodbye. Her masterpiece is quite disturbing, Her masterpiece is a little gory, Her artwork is her escape. Let me tell you her story. She compares herself to every person, She is compared to each girl. She thinks she's hideous, And there's this boy that is her world. She was bullied and picked on, She was teased from head to toe, Hard to believe that her best friend, was her one and only foe. Then later she disliked every little thing, Her body, face and even her mind, Soon she saw she was a failure, and it was just in due time... That this girl couldn't take it anymore She'd decided she was done living this, So one day she went home and decided to end it. Everyday for multiple days, This girl would try to drown, Hard to believe this girl at school, never ever wore a frown. Sometimes she'd just fall asleep crying, Praying that she'd be enough, Because she didn't want to leave her family. She knew about their sweet love. This girl found hope in small things eventually, She soon would see this beautiful light, and find a REAL best friend, that helped her put up a fight. Her masterpiece soon was leaving, Her artwork was almost faded, and it gave her a sick feeling, the feeling of being jaded. She found a boy that actually loved her, And showed her love exists, And this boy too had a masterpiece, placed close to his wrists. He related to her and she related to him. She kissed his artwork and said he's not alone, When she cut herself it hurt him, Her masterpiece now wasn't just her own. Her masterpiece effected others, Her artwork wasn't just for herself, She now had people, who saw her cries for help. And then her family found out, So then they saw the art too, to them they were just scars, To her they were the truth. She's trying to be okay now, She thinks she might survive, Even though they didn't think to take away the knives.
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Dec 4, 2015
Dec 4, 2015 at 10:24 AM UTC
Her Masterpiece Is Her Story
Her Masterpiece Is Her Story Her paintbrush is a razor, Her canvas, her wrists, "I deserve the pain." She shrugs and insists. One day the brush will push down, And it will cut so deep, That this girl will fall into an eternal sleep. She doesn't remember how she started What brought her interest to this, How do you discover, that cutting is your form of bliss? No one would have guessed that she does it. No one would have considered this one. This girl is forever fighting a battle, that she thinks the demons have won. Her artwork is all over her, Her beauty is on her thighs, and if you look in her old trash, you'll find her letters of goodbye. Her masterpiece is quite disturbing, Her masterpiece is a little gory, Her artwork is her escape. Let me tell you her story. She compares herself to every person, She is compared to each girl. She thinks she's hideous, And there's this boy that is her world. She was bullied and picked on, She was teased from head to toe, Hard to believe that her best friend, was her one and only foe. Then later she disliked every little thing, Her body, face and even her mind, Soon she saw she was a failure, and it was just in due time... That this girl couldn't take it anymore She'd decided she was done living this, So one day she went home and decided to end it. Everyday for multiple days, This girl would try to drown, Hard to believe this girl at school, never ever wore a frown. Sometimes she'd just fall asleep crying, Praying that she'd be enough, Because she didn't want to leave her family. She knew about their sweet love. This girl found hope in small things eventually, She soon would see this beautiful light, and find a REAL best friend, that helped her put up a fight. Her masterpiece soon was leaving, Her artwork was almost faded, and it gave her a sick feeling, the feeling of being jaded. She found a boy that actually loved her, And showed her love exists, And this boy too had a masterpiece, placed close to his wrists. He related to her and she related to him. She kissed his artwork and said he's not alone, When she cut herself it hurt him, Her masterpiece now wasn't just her own. Her masterpiece effected others, Her artwork wasn't just for herself, She now had people, who saw her cries for help. And then her family found out, So then they saw the art too, to them they were just scars, To her they were the truth. She's trying to be okay now, She thinks she might survive, Even though they didn't think to take away the knives.
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"I'm fine," she says with a halfhearted grin. "I'm fine," she says again, waving away a helpful hand. "I'm fine," she says to herself, several minutes later. "I'm fine," she whispers, wiping her face. She's not fine. "I'm fine," she says moments after the cry leaves her lips. "I'm fine," she says to herself, sinking to the floor. "I'm fine," she tells herself, shaking in a ball. "I'm fine," she repeats, picking up the razorblade. She's not fine. "I'm fine," she says to her concerned family. "I'm fine," she insists as those who love her worry. "I'm fine," she says to anyone who listens. "I'm fine," she lies as she slices her wrists. She's not fine. "I'm fine," she cries, sobbing on the bathroom floor. "I'm fine," she wails, but only in a whisper. "I'm fine," she mutters, watching the blood leave her wrist. "I'm fine," she practices, stepping from the room. She's not fine. "I'm fine," she assures the world outside.
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Jun 5, 2015
Jun 5, 2015 at 8:34 PM UTC
I'm Fine
It's not OCD I'm just anal-rententive. There are two coffee urns in my office kitchenette. Each urn has a spot to place your mug beneath the spigot. Each of these spots has a circular insert of gridded plastic to mark the mug-placement area and allow spilled coffee to flow through so this spot doesn't become just a puddle of coffee soaking the bottom of everyone's mugs. Each of these inserts has three indentations: one on each side at nine and three o'clock small, arcing parabolas like reversed parentheses there to allow someone to get their fingers into the coffee mug spot and under the insert to remove it and, presumably clean it and then another indentation more like a groove or a notch much smaller, thinner, and deeper at the top that fits perfectly with a matching small plastic protuberance jutting from the coffee mug spot where the insert goes. In an almost ****** fashion this protuberance fits into this last indentation this notch this groove to secure the insert in place. For some reason I've never known perhaps laziness perhaps inattentiveness more likely simple couldn't-care-less-ness this insert never seems to be placed into the mug spot properly. It is always placed sideways rotated a quarter-turn so that the larger indentations on the side meant as finger holes are placed top-to-bottom noon and six the small plastic protuberance at the top being swallowed whole by the too-large indentation and its mate the groove meant to hold the plastic piece so tightly is left alone to one side empty and useless. This has always bothered me. Bothered me more than I would like to admit. It's such a simple little thing to get right it would take almost no effort at all and yet, day-after-day someone I don't know who whoever is in charge of these things insists on doing it wrong. And I cannot abide it. So, day-after-day when I go to get my morning coffee I fix it I twist the insert ninety-degrees and secure it in the correct position. Lately I have noticed something. Sometimes when I go to get my coffee one of the inserts will already be fixed. Someone else has seen what I have seen and felt the same had the same response took the same corrective action. This feels like winning something. I don't know what but it definitely smells like Victory. And Conspiracy. And it makes me happy. Happier than I'd like to admit.
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Feb 6, 2013
Feb 6, 2013 at 10:32 AM UTC
It's Not OCD
It's not OCD I'm just anal-rententive. There are two coffee urns in my office kitchenette. Each urn has a spot to place your mug beneath the spigot. Each of these spots has a circular insert of gridded plastic to mark the mug-placement area and allow spilled coffee to flow through so this spot doesn't become just a puddle of coffee soaking the bottom of everyone's mugs. Each of these inserts has three indentations: one on each side at nine and three o'clock small, arcing parabolas like reversed parentheses there to allow someone to get their fingers into the coffee mug spot and under the insert to remove it and, presumably clean it and then another indentation more like a groove or a notch much smaller, thinner, and deeper at the top that fits perfectly with a matching small plastic protuberance jutting from the coffee mug spot where the insert goes. In an almost ****** fashion this protuberance fits into this last indentation this notch this groove to secure the insert in place. For some reason I've never known perhaps laziness perhaps inattentiveness more likely simple couldn't-care-less-ness this insert never seems to be placed into the mug spot properly. It is always placed sideways rotated a quarter-turn so that the larger indentations on the side meant as finger holes are placed top-to-bottom noon and six the small plastic protuberance at the top being swallowed whole by the too-large indentation and its mate the groove meant to hold the plastic piece so tightly is left alone to one side empty and useless. This has always bothered me. Bothered me more than I would like to admit. It's such a simple little thing to get right it would take almost no effort at all and yet, day-after-day someone I don't know who whoever is in charge of these things insists on doing it wrong. And I cannot abide it. So, day-after-day when I go to get my morning coffee I fix it I twist the insert ninety-degrees and secure it in the correct position. Lately I have noticed something. Sometimes when I go to get my coffee one of the inserts will already be fixed. Someone else has seen what I have seen and felt the same had the same response took the same corrective action. This feels like winning something. I don't know what but it definitely smells like Victory. And Conspiracy. And it makes me happy. Happier than I'd like to admit.
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lovers are burning.] balsamic ****** gallops from shame into the overwild wetness of labial volcanoes, caramelized in musk. by love's labor. laid bare, their bodies origami inhibition...[ lovers are burning. ] and surrender is victorious ! Eros is speechless. maidens howl into cumulus goose-down, chewing carnal haikus with swayed backs.... hips wide and wanton. masculine wands plow oyster beds, unmade. they joust pearls... and [ lovers are burning ] .... a damp conflagration; tongue stoked and windswept, conspires. monotony is slain ! puritan harps are plucked and thrummed ! lewd harmonies anoint the perfect pitch and a chorus moans. the ghost of sylvia plath, straddles Apollo; and he earns his wreath surging besotted. [ lovers are burning ] and laurels forgotten. lotharios charge the seldom road; the starfish door to Saturn's parlor. pumping unbridled, that glistening, cloven moon. her riding crop insists ! his urgency must do. satyrs sup salaciously and summon staves to dip in brine. they grin and grind their sutras, stripping karma gears with silk scarves. ankles to a post, well spread... cushions crush. flowers press... stamen fed. nymphs clutch their serpent stones to drain what nectar slips the slit. they ***** and throat. they peck and pinch their quivers; knock their arrows to the purpose, half spent. [ lovers are burning ] eyes ablaze. nostrils fetch randy fumes of consent. mouths seek. a pouty swamp with Spanish moss.... finds a matador and a bull, a china shop. lovers are burning the rough sketch of a lost god and their angels are voyeurs with unclean thoughts for gospels.
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Aug 20, 2013
Aug 20, 2013 at 3:14 PM UTC
[ Lovers Are Burning ]
lovers are burning.] balsamic ****** gallops from shame into the overwild wetness of labial volcanoes, caramelized in musk. by love's labor. laid bare, their bodies origami inhibition...[ lovers are burning. ] and surrender is victorious ! Eros is speechless. maidens howl into cumulus goose-down, chewing carnal haikus with swayed backs.... hips wide and wanton. masculine wands plow oyster beds, unmade. they joust pearls... and [ lovers are burning ] .... a damp conflagration; tongue stoked and windswept, conspires. monotony is slain ! puritan harps are plucked and thrummed ! lewd harmonies anoint the perfect pitch and a chorus moans. the ghost of sylvia plath, straddles Apollo; and he earns his wreath surging besotted. [ lovers are burning ] and laurels forgotten. lotharios charge the seldom road; the starfish door to Saturn's parlor. pumping unbridled, that glistening, cloven moon. her riding crop insists ! his urgency must do. satyrs sup salaciously and summon staves to dip in brine. they grin and grind their sutras, stripping karma gears with silk scarves. ankles to a post, well spread... cushions crush. flowers press... stamen fed. nymphs clutch their serpent stones to drain what nectar slips the slit. they ***** and throat. they peck and pinch their quivers; knock their arrows to the purpose, half spent. [ lovers are burning ] eyes ablaze. nostrils fetch randy fumes of consent. mouths seek. a pouty swamp with Spanish moss.... finds a matador and a bull, a china shop. lovers are burning the rough sketch of a lost god and their angels are voyeurs with unclean thoughts for gospels.
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Yeah, dad, I love Math class cos something is always adding up there like just the other day the teacher’s plants at the window started growing square roots The teacher reckons that’s cos “the windows are squares, if you notice” - but I reckon it’s cos we’ve mostly got squares in class And the teacher when she thinks someone has done something good, she says: “Oh, you are an angle!” and when she’s cross she goes: “I’ve told you n times” or “I’ve told you n+ 4 times” Yeah, we learn lots of stuff in Math class like next week we going to learn about Algeria; but I’m not sure if my Math teacher is OK in the head though cos one day she tells us 3+2 = 5 and another day she insists 4+1= 5 (is that what you mean when you say mum can never make up her mind?) And she tells me not to use my tables and she scolds me then when I do my division on the floor But I’ll say one thing about her though - she’s so passionate about Math my teacher is she carries around a picture in her wallet of a big plus sign with a guy nailed to it
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Jan 23, 2014
Jan 23, 2014 at 1:35 AM UTC
happenings in the Math classroom
Recently, in the "New York Times," An op-ed essay has hit the press, Thus causing the president To send out vicious tweets in distress. Claiming to be a senior White House Official, the writer wants to let The people know that even though Trump is unhinged, not to fret. Because Trump is ill-informed, Impulsive, and given to constant lying, He can't be trusted to handle the job, Which to many is terrifying. He's impetuous, adversarial, Reckless, petty, and quick to revile. Any good has happened DESPITE And not BECAUSE of his leadership style. The writer insists that our knowing One special thing will lessen the gloom: Even though Trump is a mess, Luckily, there are "adults in the room." Thwarting the president's misguided Impulses is the task Of these "adults," each of whom Has to hide behind a mask. To publish the piece anonymously Some people feel is wrong. But, hey, it only confirms something That we have known all along. -by Bob B (9-6-18)
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Sep 6, 2018
Sep 6, 2018 at 1:26 PM UTC
Confirming the Obvious
She comes to class and goes “There’s bees in my Head” Then pulls out Another mug Of coffee Which happens To be the cause Another comes Face on the verge of tears “He did it again!” We all know who “He” is Then proceeds to Accept hugs While giving An in depth narration Another comes in “I’m, just, dying” She proceeds to get More hugs While another friend Calls her “hot” And she insists she’s not The fourth comes in She’s been sacrificing Her free time To attend this class And her sad tired smile Says it all She gets hugs too And here I am In the middle Suffocated ... Am I emotionally immature? Am I too much of a cynic? Is it me, or is it them? Am I just different? Or too self conscious? ... Why do they have so many problems? ... Then class starts And I turn to our model, A plastic skeleton dubbed -Bony Bonez And lose myself In the charcoal
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Oct 3, 2018
Oct 3, 2018 at 8:34 PM UTC
Art Class can be Suffocating
Heartstone is a reflection in music on a ‘lost’ poem. The poem described in its two short verses a summer’s day, a landscape, a fossil found and placed in the palm of a child’s hand. The poem inspired a seven-movement work for wind, brass and percussion with solo piano. Here is its poetic programme note. Chert The piano draws an arc of rhythm rising then falling. Above two choirs of wind and brass exclaim, fanfare, mark out shorter, determined gestures of sound. The procession, almost a march, becomes a dance. Alone Two choirs of wind and brass become four couples whose music weaves from complexity a simplicity: Chromatic to Pentatonic twelve becoming five. Prase Four stopped horns, five extended tonalities. Together they wander a maze of Pentatonic paths; alone, and in pairs, as a quartet they discover within a measured harmonic rhythm. Tension: resolution . . . and surrounding their every move the piano insists an obligato, a continuum of phrases, absorbing into itself the warp and weft of horn tone. Sard Oscillating in perpetual motion the full ensemble occupies a frame of time and space. Flutes, reeds, double-reeds brass, piano, percussion mirror-fold on mirror-fold layer upon layer overlapping. Yarns of threaded sound. Tuff Without a break the mirrored oscillations patter pentatonics on tuned percussion of marimba and vibraphone whilst a batterie of drums lays down shards of beaten rhythm against this onward folding of tonality change. In the background a choir of winds flutes and single reeds waymark this recursive journey gathering together cadential moments and the necessary pause for breath. Marl Relentlessly, the motion is sustained, piano-driven, a syncopated continuo, rhythm-sectioned amidst layers of percussion. Adding edge, a choir of brass and double reeds amplify the piano’s jagged rhythms providing impetus for phrases to become longer and longer, ratching up the tension, ever-denying closure until the batterie delivers a conclusive flourish. Paramoudra Pulse-figures of winds. Motific cells of brass. Both negotiate a stream of fractal-shaped tonality expanding: contracting. A blossom of fanfares folding into pulsating layers of tuned percussion, flutes and reeds. A dance-like episode absorbs a chorale. Four horns in close harmony against the continuing dance. A duet of differences flows into a cascade of chords in closed and open forms. The piano supports brass-flourishing figures before a final stillness. Heartstone In gentle reflection the solitary piano – a figure in a landscape of collapsed harmonic forms - presents in slow procession the essence of previous music.
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Jan 27, 2013
Jan 27, 2013 at 12:41 PM UTC
Heartstone
Heartstone is a reflection in music on a ‘lost’ poem. The poem described in its two short verses a summer’s day, a landscape, a fossil found and placed in the palm of a child’s hand. The poem inspired a seven-movement work for wind, brass and percussion with solo piano. Here is its poetic programme note. Chert The piano draws an arc of rhythm rising then falling. Above two choirs of wind and brass exclaim, fanfare, mark out shorter, determined gestures of sound. The procession, almost a march, becomes a dance. Alone Two choirs of wind and brass become four couples whose music weaves from complexity a simplicity: Chromatic to Pentatonic twelve becoming five. Prase Four stopped horns, five extended tonalities. Together they wander a maze of Pentatonic paths; alone, and in pairs, as a quartet they discover within a measured harmonic rhythm. Tension: resolution . . . and surrounding their every move the piano insists an obligato, a continuum of phrases, absorbing into itself the warp and weft of horn tone. Sard Oscillating in perpetual motion the full ensemble occupies a frame of time and space. Flutes, reeds, double-reeds brass, piano, percussion mirror-fold on mirror-fold layer upon layer overlapping. Yarns of threaded sound. Tuff Without a break the mirrored oscillations patter pentatonics on tuned percussion of marimba and vibraphone whilst a batterie of drums lays down shards of beaten rhythm against this onward folding of tonality change. In the background a choir of winds flutes and single reeds waymark this recursive journey gathering together cadential moments and the necessary pause for breath. Marl Relentlessly, the motion is sustained, piano-driven, a syncopated continuo, rhythm-sectioned amidst layers of percussion. Adding edge, a choir of brass and double reeds amplify the piano’s jagged rhythms providing impetus for phrases to become longer and longer, ratching up the tension, ever-denying closure until the batterie delivers a conclusive flourish. Paramoudra Pulse-figures of winds. Motific cells of brass. Both negotiate a stream of fractal-shaped tonality expanding: contracting. A blossom of fanfares folding into pulsating layers of tuned percussion, flutes and reeds. A dance-like episode absorbs a chorale. Four horns in close harmony against the continuing dance. A duet of differences flows into a cascade of chords in closed and open forms. The piano supports brass-flourishing figures before a final stillness. Heartstone In gentle reflection the solitary piano – a figure in a landscape of collapsed harmonic forms - presents in slow procession the essence of previous music.
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The oldest one has set the bar - Brown eyes, brown hair, natural tan, Teeth that look just the way teeth should with no aid from metal or NASA-patented plastics. Kappa Alpha Theta, college homecoming queen, Following in the footsteps of our parents, To someday hand out bottles of pills with her God-given smile and white coat to match. I know she's not perfect, but I like to pretend. Then there's me. Then the next youngest, Long brown hair, massive brown eyes, pale skin with the occasional freckle. Her awkward phase - back brace, teeth brace, allergies, inhaler, tall and gangly - paid off in the best way. She wears her high heels to high school and looks straight off the runway. She wears her pointe shoes and unfolds like a plant growing in fast-motion. She sits at the table and draws and eats nothing but carbs and still looks made of sticks. She wants to be a cartoonist, people tell her to be a model, a ballerina, Our mother insists she's far too brilliant. Then the baby. Thin blonde hair, blue-grey eyes with a ring on the outside, grey skin when she's tired. As Dad says: the printer ran out of ink. She's beautiful like the rest, of course, but she's not finished yet, still learning that her peers are generally wrong. She frets and worries, but she listens to the music I tell her to, and her expensive pockets have less and less rhinestones. I tell her not to hug me so much when I come home, But it's fine. I'm proud of her. Someday she'll stop screaming at our mother and realize what she has to look forward to.
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Nov 10, 2012
Nov 10, 2012 at 1:39 PM UTC
i have more sisters than you do
The oldest one has set the bar - Brown eyes, brown hair, natural tan, Teeth that look just the way teeth should with no aid from metal or NASA-patented plastics. Kappa Alpha Theta, college homecoming queen, Following in the footsteps of our parents, To someday hand out bottles of pills with her God-given smile and white coat to match. I know she's not perfect, but I like to pretend. Then there's me. Then the next youngest, Long brown hair, massive brown eyes, pale skin with the occasional freckle. Her awkward phase - back brace, teeth brace, allergies, inhaler, tall and gangly - paid off in the best way. She wears her high heels to high school and looks straight off the runway. She wears her pointe shoes and unfolds like a plant growing in fast-motion. She sits at the table and draws and eats nothing but carbs and still looks made of sticks. She wants to be a cartoonist, people tell her to be a model, a ballerina, Our mother insists she's far too brilliant. Then the baby. Thin blonde hair, blue-grey eyes with a ring on the outside, grey skin when she's tired. As Dad says: the printer ran out of ink. She's beautiful like the rest, of course, but she's not finished yet, still learning that her peers are generally wrong. She frets and worries, but she listens to the music I tell her to, and her expensive pockets have less and less rhinestones. I tell her not to hug me so much when I come home, But it's fine. I'm proud of her. Someday she'll stop screaming at our mother and realize what she has to look forward to.
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my mother insists she was never a witch but she gave me a bag of amethyst, sunstones, citrine
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Sep 14, 2014
Sep 14, 2014 at 9:43 AM UTC
traditions passed on