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"backhanded" poems
And now my coffees cold Your backhanded compliments are getting old We got in a fight tonight you stormed out you kicked over my bike
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Jun 22, 2014
Jun 22, 2014 at 8:34 PM UTC
Anything but the bike
I love the way you laugh. It sounds like a dog throwing up. I want to run my hands through your hair. I bet it's as soft as a chinchilla's fur. I love your height. How it makes you look like you're the genetic product of Nick Jonas and a giraffe. I love your eyes. You're so full of **** that even your eyes are brown.
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Jan 26, 2015
Jan 26, 2015 at 2:00 PM UTC
Backhanded Pickup Lines
Excuses, excuses - they'll come in a flood, When you realize your actions have pushed me away. Imagine! That I once considered you blood! But I've had quite enough of the games that you play. The switch came in stages, a gradual thing, I first didn't notice; it wasn't too clear. My perspective grew sharper with distance between, Felt your backhanded words as they pin-pricked my ears. You thought I wouldn't notice, would let it slip by, Never gave me much credit, and that was your fault. Wrapped your insults in jokes, like arsenic on rye, And you thought all this time that you wouldn't be caught. I don't know where you get it - this self-righteous act, It's not as endearing as you think it to be. You might take what you want, and then leave it at that, But I'm telling you now: you'll get no more from me. I don't know what has prompted you picking this fight. They're pathetic, yet hurtful, these things that you say. And I don't know where you think you've gotten the right To take it out on me when you don't get your way. For years, it's been happening - don't know how I missed All the ways you controlled me; I answered to you. Always did what you wanted, I'm realizing this; The extent of the selfishness you put me through. But it changed not too long ago, didn't it, dear? Oh yes, I grew a spine, and things started to change. And, oh, you didn't like what you started to hear. My defying your wants nearly made you deranged. People grow and they change; it's especially true For me ever since I was finally free. So how sad to discover it's not true for you, You're the same as you were, and as you'll always be. That's the person you are, who you've been since we met And it never caused issues until days of late. The things that you've said are things you will regret, Because I have no room for your envy-fueled hate. You've become quite the mean one - I'm sorry, it's true. You're no longer the person to whom I could turn. It's a shame (it's a **** shame), but yes, we are through. And it will not be me who is nursing the burn. Maybe one day you'll change, and we might reunite. I'm not getting my hopes up - there's danger in that. Until then, I hope you learn to treat people right, Because no one desires to stand by a brat. Maybe I am the first to address how you are, But I won't be the last, and this, I can assure. Your poignant self-righteousness won't get you far, And I'm sorry - for your case, there isn't a cure. So remember me now; you'll remember me then, When you lose all those who used to stand at your side. You'll remember the disrespect you showed your friend, For alas, she won't be there, holding you as you cry.
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Feb 4, 2013
Feb 4, 2013 at 9:41 PM UTC
Disrespect
Excuses, excuses - they'll come in a flood, When you realize your actions have pushed me away. Imagine! That I once considered you blood! But I've had quite enough of the games that you play. The switch came in stages, a gradual thing, I first didn't notice; it wasn't too clear. My perspective grew sharper with distance between, Felt your backhanded words as they pin-pricked my ears. You thought I wouldn't notice, would let it slip by, Never gave me much credit, and that was your fault. Wrapped your insults in jokes, like arsenic on rye, And you thought all this time that you wouldn't be caught. I don't know where you get it - this self-righteous act, It's not as endearing as you think it to be. You might take what you want, and then leave it at that, But I'm telling you now: you'll get no more from me. I don't know what has prompted you picking this fight. They're pathetic, yet hurtful, these things that you say. And I don't know where you think you've gotten the right To take it out on me when you don't get your way. For years, it's been happening - don't know how I missed All the ways you controlled me; I answered to you. Always did what you wanted, I'm realizing this; The extent of the selfishness you put me through. But it changed not too long ago, didn't it, dear? Oh yes, I grew a spine, and things started to change. And, oh, you didn't like what you started to hear. My defying your wants nearly made you deranged. People grow and they change; it's especially true For me ever since I was finally free. So how sad to discover it's not true for you, You're the same as you were, and as you'll always be. That's the person you are, who you've been since we met And it never caused issues until days of late. The things that you've said are things you will regret, Because I have no room for your envy-fueled hate. You've become quite the mean one - I'm sorry, it's true. You're no longer the person to whom I could turn. It's a shame (it's a **** shame), but yes, we are through. And it will not be me who is nursing the burn. Maybe one day you'll change, and we might reunite. I'm not getting my hopes up - there's danger in that. Until then, I hope you learn to treat people right, Because no one desires to stand by a brat. Maybe I am the first to address how you are, But I won't be the last, and this, I can assure. Your poignant self-righteousness won't get you far, And I'm sorry - for your case, there isn't a cure. So remember me now; you'll remember me then, When you lose all those who used to stand at your side. You'll remember the disrespect you showed your friend, For alas, she won't be there, holding you as you cry.
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Are you sound of mind? Addicted to dandelions like the ocean is to ice. Wait outside the blood bank, learn how to write dialogue and make saccharin spines. My journal is a tangle of spines, keep an open mind help me box up my ****** dialogue. I’ve always been a fan of dandelions etching paths along the river bank, streams within the winter ice. Buckets of camphor ice relax the notches in spines as we wait in line at the food bank. Thoughts of jawbones on my mind, the taste of dandelions and organized pre-scripted dialogue. Backhanded blue dialogue, counting the vanilla crystals of ice blowing the smell of cinnamon into floating dandelions. My hands handle happiness spines with the peace of mind of money in the piggy bank. Let's rob a bank shooting quiet malleable dialogue through an altered state of mind. Your ribs are two sheets of ice ivy wrapping around our intertwined spines crumbly blowing breaths of dandelions. Second hand dandelions build up in the river bank muddy trenches around spines whisper outspoken blue green dialogue. Three pounds of dry ice, warm water vapour at the back of my mind Store buy your dandelions, bear in mind that the West Bank is covered in ice and that spines speak their own muted dialogue.
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Dec 9, 2014
Dec 9, 2014 at 1:08 AM UTC
Sestina 4 - Edit my health
Behind the eight ball she sits. Resigned. From her pimp's leash, she's lead. Deadweight, she feels his ways and ills, like cattle, that's branded. Best she hustles, or be backhanded. Once molded, she learns to light up Big Daddy's cigar and bring him his pie loaded. More cabbage to fill his gold baggage. Sometimes he spares a small leaf for her. Though times she short, his fist takes sport. And every night she plays for the band of her john's, singing their song, while a thousand ****** of light inches along all wrong. The nameless, faceless and most relentless getting their fill. A flower in her wails loves not fear. However, Big Daddy's eyes are always near. She knows better than to run past the pasture gates onto verdant fields, free as a bird, without a home, money or vocation and ever so fearful of Big Daddy's gun. A flower in her wails loves not fears. As she remembers those first tears. A Big Daddy's indoctrination. It started off on social media, a whim a fantasy went wrong. Three nights her body violated, Big Daddy's cavalry, descending on her picnic, wax and whips, a thousand ****** of might, and the scream of the night. Coldcocked. Say hello to the new girl on the block. A flower in her wails loves not fears. Her youth robbed as the days morph into years. Like a blur. The guise, the lure, the drugs, the fear. The trap. Eighteen young became twenty-four old. A lost puppy to her folks back home. And every lost night she struts her Prada dress a little higher Big Daddy has a buyer. Logan Robertson 7/27/2018
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Jul 27, 2018
Jul 27, 2018 at 6:32 AM UTC
Big Daddy Has a Buyer
Behind the eight ball she sits. Resigned. From her pimp's leash, she's lead. Deadweight, she feels his ways and ills, like cattle, that's branded. Best she hustles, or be backhanded. Once molded, she learns to light up Big Daddy's cigar and bring him his pie loaded. More cabbage to fill his gold baggage. Sometimes he spares a small leaf for her. Though times she short, his fist takes sport. And every night she plays for the band of her john's, singing their song, while a thousand ****** of light inches along all wrong. The nameless, faceless and most relentless getting their fill. A flower in her wails loves not fear. However, Big Daddy's eyes are always near. She knows better than to run past the pasture gates onto verdant fields, free as a bird, without a home, money or vocation and ever so fearful of Big Daddy's gun. A flower in her wails loves not fears. As she remembers those first tears. A Big Daddy's indoctrination. It started off on social media, a whim a fantasy went wrong. Three nights her body violated, Big Daddy's cavalry, descending on her picnic, wax and whips, a thousand ****** of might, and the scream of the night. Coldcocked. Say hello to the new girl on the block. A flower in her wails loves not fears. Her youth robbed as the days morph into years. Like a blur. The guise, the lure, the drugs, the fear. The trap. Eighteen young became twenty-four old. A lost puppy to her folks back home. And every lost night she struts her Prada dress a little higher Big Daddy has a buyer. Logan Robertson 7/27/2018
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There will always be dark of night, It is a common human plight. Often it's hard to move throughout the black, But what you'll find if you keep moving, A kindling of light, Never leave behind a dream. *I miss you I miss you too* Life will knock you down, It seems to be the only thing it really knows, But in the face of doubt, Move about, You will come to find, It's hard to keep inside the night. *May I still hold her when the sun dips well bellow the sea Tell me lord, may I still praise her if there is dark?* In times of doubt you must stay strong, Far away from backhanded thoughts, Never let love waver, Reinforce it with iron arms, Be calm with the winds of night, Condemn this mortal spite. *Never doubt that I am here, I will hold you safe from the tendrils of fear.* But once it's found, You fear losing this light, The piece of love you found, Within the blinded world of now, Don't be worried For if you worry it is destined to leave. I love you, I love you too.*
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Mar 20, 2025
Mar 20, 2025 at 8:44 AM UTC
Goodnight
I don’t know you well enough or I’d read you this poem. I don’t know you well enough, though your quite handsome. I don’t know you well enough for you to care about my interests, I don’t know you well enough — we haven’t reached that level yet. I don’t know you well enough, but if I did I wouldn’t want to. I don’t know you well enough, please keep playing elusive. I like your life, but I don’t know you well enough to like your instagrams — it could seem stalker-ish. We’ve talked about dinner, but I don’t know when or if we’ll actually go. I don’t know you well enough. I don’t know you well enough, but text you regardless, you invite me backhanded to your friends' plans. I don’t know you well enough, to hold your glance, you buy me a beer, my hands fold between my legs. I don’t know you well enough, but I know when your drunk. Your friends leave and I give you a ride home. I don’t know you well enough, but you invite me in, your cat treats me like a familiar friend. I don’t you well enough, but I know when we share spit, it just lubricates comments on our horniness. I don’t know you well enough, but I know your apartment — your couch is too squishy and your bed is too close. I don’t know you well enough. I ask if *** will ruin this, but don't know what this is. I don’t know you well enough, but I sleep in your bed. Your rolling-over motion was disappointing, but not unexpected. I STILL don’t know you well enough, but I know three unanswered texts means your not interested in telling me. Or perhaps, I don’t know you well enough. I don’t know you well enough, but I’m getting to know me and I know that naiive isn’t who I want to be.
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Jan 18, 2015
Jan 18, 2015 at 1:00 AM UTC
I don’t know you well enough.
I don’t know you well enough or I’d read you this poem. I don’t know you well enough, though your quite handsome. I don’t know you well enough for you to care about my interests, I don’t know you well enough — we haven’t reached that level yet. I don’t know you well enough, but if I did I wouldn’t want to. I don’t know you well enough, please keep playing elusive. I like your life, but I don’t know you well enough to like your instagrams — it could seem stalker-ish. We’ve talked about dinner, but I don’t know when or if we’ll actually go. I don’t know you well enough. I don’t know you well enough, but text you regardless, you invite me backhanded to your friends' plans. I don’t know you well enough, to hold your glance, you buy me a beer, my hands fold between my legs. I don’t know you well enough, but I know when your drunk. Your friends leave and I give you a ride home. I don’t know you well enough, but you invite me in, your cat treats me like a familiar friend. I don’t you well enough, but I know when we share spit, it just lubricates comments on our horniness. I don’t know you well enough, but I know your apartment — your couch is too squishy and your bed is too close. I don’t know you well enough. I ask if *** will ruin this, but don't know what this is. I don’t know you well enough, but I sleep in your bed. Your rolling-over motion was disappointing, but not unexpected. I STILL don’t know you well enough, but I know three unanswered texts means your not interested in telling me. Or perhaps, I don’t know you well enough. I don’t know you well enough, but I’m getting to know me and I know that naiive isn’t who I want to be.
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My skin color Doesn't make me free You can't assume because Someone looks white They are treated equally Being white doesn't Make me privileged I worked hard to get To where I am I am not as "white" as I look I am Hispanic Which means that Behind the scenes my Family is not as Well put together As we may look My parents are divorced We're not poor but They're struggling to Get their kids a college education I am a female I didn't always have the Rights I do now For many years My kind couldn't vote For many years Women were forced Into a gender role Being a female Doesn't mean I'm weak I am not straight But also not a lesbian Until this year I didn't have the luxury of Getting married to Who I wanted where I wanted People still don't understand They think I'm confused I can pray it away You know what Not even your Backhanded religion Can save me I am not even Safe in my own mind There is a Constant war My depression and anxiety Is eating away at me You look at me You see white My people We have Always had to fight
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Nov 18, 2015
Nov 18, 2015 at 11:46 PM UTC
Freedom
Foster, what family? Lower class, dream of  vacation ******** what trickles down, affecting a life situation White to Blue Collar; a rebuild or invasion? Millions inside the boxes of convention Justified superficial, backhanded salutations Refute Love, proposed as mankind’s invention Pulled by a string of instant gratification Finding freedom’s temporary If ever, long term locations Constricted, system of classifications The socially admissible connections, Not to mention gangs of corrections Flowing through the previous, my own generation For the infinite hours One after the other Trade integrity for the illusion of power Not all those with a gun should be considered a coward Face the souls sold on Wall Street, Remember those from Twin Towers Ground zero, abandoned. Now bare, desolate The idea of terrorism denied, while some wrestle it Rationales dislocate, post hairline fracture Frontal lobe imposter, posing in rapture As if talent, love, or hate could ever be captured Held at gun point, then forgotten years after My children will one day look to me for the answer What’s society, this twisted maze we live in? I will gaze in their eyes with the same exact question And don’t ever allow me again not to mention Real criminals can’t learn from minute or life-long detentions Some incapable of that level of retention As our battered soldiers forever sleep at attention Politically correct, tongues in consistent hesitation Kiss police *** only to go to the station Before the thought of who signed the citation Treated as if it were a felony violation Our basic rights according to our nation Arizona & Co for minority elimination Die fighting the statute of poverty’s limitations vi.i.xi
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Aug 3, 2012
Aug 3, 2012 at 6:22 AM UTC
Statute Of Limitations
Foster, what family? Lower class, dream of  vacation ******** what trickles down, affecting a life situation White to Blue Collar; a rebuild or invasion? Millions inside the boxes of convention Justified superficial, backhanded salutations Refute Love, proposed as mankind’s invention Pulled by a string of instant gratification Finding freedom’s temporary If ever, long term locations Constricted, system of classifications The socially admissible connections, Not to mention gangs of corrections Flowing through the previous, my own generation For the infinite hours One after the other Trade integrity for the illusion of power Not all those with a gun should be considered a coward Face the souls sold on Wall Street, Remember those from Twin Towers Ground zero, abandoned. Now bare, desolate The idea of terrorism denied, while some wrestle it Rationales dislocate, post hairline fracture Frontal lobe imposter, posing in rapture As if talent, love, or hate could ever be captured Held at gun point, then forgotten years after My children will one day look to me for the answer What’s society, this twisted maze we live in? I will gaze in their eyes with the same exact question And don’t ever allow me again not to mention Real criminals can’t learn from minute or life-long detentions Some incapable of that level of retention As our battered soldiers forever sleep at attention Politically correct, tongues in consistent hesitation Kiss police *** only to go to the station Before the thought of who signed the citation Treated as if it were a felony violation Our basic rights according to our nation Arizona & Co for minority elimination Die fighting the statute of poverty’s limitations vi.i.xi
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First off, a very backhanded congratulations to you, madam Next, how dare you speak of that which you say you have never known? You knew it with me and I knew you did but **** me It never occurred to me that you thought it was as common as you make it. Love? Lies. Love lies. Love lies dead in the pool of blood next to the gun you used to **** it. The blood is mine and I hope that you drink it all Why wouldn't you? You already took everything else of mine with you. So cliché, isn't it? The way I'm acting must come off as melodramatic... But the most cliché thing of all nowadays is Saying, "I love you"... ... because you, like many other people, don't mean it. The only love I've ever seen you give was to yourself. It's called vanity, honey. Now, cheer up. He's calling you joyfully "Knowing" that you are "his" Smile so that he hears it, But don't clean up:  he can't see your make up running.
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Jan 25, 2012
Jan 25, 2012 at 11:40 PM UTC
Hypocrisy
I miss how we were the only ones alike. We were the only two of that caliber, and you knew it. Electricity flew between your lips and mine. We were beautiful. I miss how our voices pierced the heavy silence around us, and tangled up with one another. I miss how we preformed for no more than one another. I miss how your melodies kissed my face as they glided about our space. I miss our shared breath.   I miss my voice moving in perfect time with yours; curving up to meet your highs, and dipping down to brush against your lows. I miss the way you would look at me when I took control and owned the song-- with that sly, crooked grin. The accidental physical touch The longing when our time ran out The lingering of your voice, and that crystal gaze burning into my core The teasing and the backhanded compliments Never too sure of what's work and what's play But I'm sure of this: There is a certain intimacy that comes with throwing your heart and soul into the void, and hoping it doesn't fall flat. There's an even deeper intimacy that follows when you meet another voice, and you move and reach and swell and growl and throw everything you have into that one note. Because without passion, we are dead. Breathe into me.
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Aug 1, 2014
Aug 1, 2014 at 5:55 PM UTC
Breathe into me
Soccer is the sport Which my heart belongs to Kicking a ball into a goal Under a sky so blue Yesterday a game Was played quite nicely Until the end When we became less feisty A kickoff to start The beginning of the game Not many spectators As it's not of fame Trying to get the ball Like a good player should I get backhanded in the face Hard Knocked to the ground as I should The refs call no fouls As they favor the other team It made me so mad Since my lip had begun to bleed Further into the game The ball comes towards me Nails me in the stomach Making me want to scream The halftime whistle blows We get off the field To go over the game plan And take a time to chill Getting back on the field Determined to tie the game We get the kickoff The ball our claim So ways into the game Another player crashes into me I fall to the ground in pain Because I twisted my knee I'm taken off the field Another player goes in my place But it didn't really matter The game was over with grace It wasn't our best game But we've certainly had worse Next time we'll score And hopefully, no one will get hurt
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Mar 1, 2018
Mar 1, 2018 at 1:30 PM UTC
Bad Game
For as long as I can remember, I've heard the whispers. The silent 'but's, the sidelong sighs, and the backhanded compliments that go in smooth and rip out ragged. I believe everyone has undeniable self-truths. One of my truths is that I am fat. It took me twenty years to come to the conclusion that this truth was not something to be ashamed or afraid of. Unfortunately, my mother doesn't agree. It's not wholly her fault; she was raised to be ashamed of her body and the bodies of women in general. We were taught that tolerance equals love but not necessarily acceptance. My body was something to tolerate. I loved my body in the way I loved my pesky little brother, mostly because I was told I must. My mother's body language whispered to my pre-teen insecurities, "You're beautiful...but", or "I'm not saying you have to lose weight...but", or "You're perfect the way God made you, I just wish that...". She taught me to be ashamed and afraid of the way my body was developing, "I wish you hadn't filled out so fast, that you wouldn't wear that shirt because it brings attention to the fact that you have the chest of a twenty something at thirteen." "That skirt shows too much skin and that shirt was cut too low, don't wear a tank top because the boys will think of you as **** first and intelligent second." There's nothing wrong with being the fat smart girl, although I have noticed that it's never 'smart fat girl' because being fat is evidently more important than intelligence. Being fat isn't bad. Being smart is a super good thing. The problem arises when the fat smart girl is taught that she must whisper. When you don't tell that girl that being beautiful has nothing to do with what others think of you and that she is absolutely allowed to have an opinion of her own, she won't find her voice until she can't hear yours anymore. I have whispered all my life. I don't wear brightly colored nail polish so that you won't notice that my hands stutter. I whisper with my body language. I whispered "no" when he went too far. I whispered when I wanted to scream. And I wondered why no one ever heard me.
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Aug 29, 2013
Aug 29, 2013 at 11:16 AM UTC
Whisper
For as long as I can remember, I've heard the whispers. The silent 'but's, the sidelong sighs, and the backhanded compliments that go in smooth and rip out ragged. I believe everyone has undeniable self-truths. One of my truths is that I am fat. It took me twenty years to come to the conclusion that this truth was not something to be ashamed or afraid of. Unfortunately, my mother doesn't agree. It's not wholly her fault; she was raised to be ashamed of her body and the bodies of women in general. We were taught that tolerance equals love but not necessarily acceptance. My body was something to tolerate. I loved my body in the way I loved my pesky little brother, mostly because I was told I must. My mother's body language whispered to my pre-teen insecurities, "You're beautiful...but", or "I'm not saying you have to lose weight...but", or "You're perfect the way God made you, I just wish that...". She taught me to be ashamed and afraid of the way my body was developing, "I wish you hadn't filled out so fast, that you wouldn't wear that shirt because it brings attention to the fact that you have the chest of a twenty something at thirteen." "That skirt shows too much skin and that shirt was cut too low, don't wear a tank top because the boys will think of you as **** first and intelligent second." There's nothing wrong with being the fat smart girl, although I have noticed that it's never 'smart fat girl' because being fat is evidently more important than intelligence. Being fat isn't bad. Being smart is a super good thing. The problem arises when the fat smart girl is taught that she must whisper. When you don't tell that girl that being beautiful has nothing to do with what others think of you and that she is absolutely allowed to have an opinion of her own, she won't find her voice until she can't hear yours anymore. I have whispered all my life. I don't wear brightly colored nail polish so that you won't notice that my hands stutter. I whisper with my body language. I whispered "no" when he went too far. I whispered when I wanted to scream. And I wondered why no one ever heard me.
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Your cruel words are cursory Mean less than null to me Don’t need a PhD Learnt more in nursery Sweet song of ‘helping me’ No more than sophistry Pick out the forgery Lies with no artistry Flowing in, eyeless grin Sugary medicine Gaslighting, infighting Snarl under strobe-lighting Saccharine blathering Indolent flattering Backhanded compliments Heard without inner sense I reject totally Self-slighting sorcery Callous affrontery Bankrupting bursary I have observed more Preserved more Have learned more Deserve more Have value Don't argue Can trust me I must be Enough being just, me So hear me, my dear me, coz now we agree I am worthy
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Nov 3, 2024
Nov 3, 2024 at 5:01 AM UTC
To my inner critic
My how my muse desires you.Deeper you are is it your insanity. Is it mine. Intoxicating. Born Ouside dimensions you emit a constant hum or is it me the antenna born to your freakuency. Every answer is a question. My inquisition. Raw as a flicking lash..subtle as a midnight whisp. Irish eyes awash with irony. You swiftly pull my pathos a querry in constant posture. You are a devine girl/woman Neither young nor old ...a vessel,a wonderous curiosity. Hannah you are what ?. An ovation of thunder? A Dickensonian verse ? An ancient curse ? A raven ? POE ? Bitter...Sweet enigma. A sand siren self aware You have my full attention every sultry deed. God I feel the tide draw ill. Against my will. The mirage persists even to the touch.jagged rocks a starboard aching need a larboard. Simply Hannah. But sad to say, I have seen you before sitting on beached and rotting vessel ashore arms oustretched your sisters have sung that Sweet beguiling song to me before.I have surrenderd and run my boat ashore At times turned the rudder and put my back to the breezes Your song. Your smile.a reincarnation An ill wind sweet stench of forbidden. Solitary lilac standing tall beneath a waning moon..sweet A portrait. Succubus. Cloaked in plain sight you are open as the sphinx. Too young to be this ancient too wise to be this.Hannah. Brash as brass knuckles backhanded on bruised cheek. Soft as overspun cotton candy. Add water and stir girl All around the world girl Proof positive that god has a wicked Sense of humour. Beautifull Hannah.
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Mar 26, 2014
Mar 26, 2014 at 3:55 AM UTC
Simply Hannah
My how my muse desires you.Deeper you are is it your insanity. Is it mine. Intoxicating. Born Ouside dimensions you emit a constant hum or is it me the antenna born to your freakuency. Every answer is a question. My inquisition. Raw as a flicking lash..subtle as a midnight whisp. Irish eyes awash with irony. You swiftly pull my pathos a querry in constant posture. You are a devine girl/woman Neither young nor old ...a vessel,a wonderous curiosity. Hannah you are what ?. An ovation of thunder? A Dickensonian verse ? An ancient curse ? A raven ? POE ? Bitter...Sweet enigma. A sand siren self aware You have my full attention every sultry deed. God I feel the tide draw ill. Against my will. The mirage persists even to the touch.jagged rocks a starboard aching need a larboard. Simply Hannah. But sad to say, I have seen you before sitting on beached and rotting vessel ashore arms oustretched your sisters have sung that Sweet beguiling song to me before.I have surrenderd and run my boat ashore At times turned the rudder and put my back to the breezes Your song. Your smile.a reincarnation An ill wind sweet stench of forbidden. Solitary lilac standing tall beneath a waning moon..sweet A portrait. Succubus. Cloaked in plain sight you are open as the sphinx. Too young to be this ancient too wise to be this.Hannah. Brash as brass knuckles backhanded on bruised cheek. Soft as overspun cotton candy. Add water and stir girl All around the world girl Proof positive that god has a wicked Sense of humour. Beautifull Hannah.
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She tells warm lies through lips cool as frost, while her eyes cast frigid glares. Her backhanded barbs, sharp as steel, strike like ice crystals in your heart. Infidelity coats upon her like a sheen of ice. Beauty and slippery deceit, rolled into one. And yet, you stand, as a man made of snow, not truly seeing, not speaking out. You slowly die, waiting for her to thaw. A snowball in Hades stands a better chance, than you, to win her heart. For within her veins runs soiled slush and her soul is an Arctic wind.
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Feb 10, 2011
Feb 10, 2011 at 6:24 PM UTC
Cold As Ice
About 4 years into the friendship, or whatever it had by that stage become, during a chat on our Internet **** preferences over badly-filtered Americanos in the UCD student cafe, I said to her " I think I enjoyed our friendship more when we used to get coffee and just laugh for twenty minutes. " And after a half second of unusual silence from her, those pools of ever-renewing blue eyes of hers almost incisions into my consciousness, I added" That was pretty unique." And then I laughed unbound, and she almost shrugged and definitely smirked as if to say "this is where I am now, it took some time for me to realise but it's where I've always been." Unapologetic, as only she could seem to be. And it was, like any tryst, fling or abandoned half-romance is, utterly unique. Half on the way to becoming something we were going to hang on to and definitely regret and half-stopped, sulking out of a puddle, dead damp weight created by the differences we made ourselves for the other to behold and dismantle. The immediate was meant for us, first the attraction, then the disgust, then the despair, then the cursing off, then round to the intrigue all over again. She remained the great question mark of my undergraduate years. Heartaches after her were equally demeaning, but far more easily explained. You know you've found someone irreplaceable when they tell things you really shouldn't know, things shoved up in boxes for years, things too unformed to be really caught sounding out, in the moments after your first kiss. And every clever undergraduate will tell you how negative all connotations of "irreplaceable" are. And yet these are the backhanded good graces, the immeasurable gifts that memory serves I wear this like a wound I can find wry mirth at the very sight of, I have learned all this from her without her ever intending These memories are indented in a music box with an imitation sacred heart all mine distempered by the candid lines of a girl who never wanted religion, divulged somewhere in our seat of learning.
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Oct 16, 2016
Oct 16, 2016 at 7:32 PM UTC
She Was Eve When We Were Awkward
About 4 years into the friendship, or whatever it had by that stage become, during a chat on our Internet **** preferences over badly-filtered Americanos in the UCD student cafe, I said to her " I think I enjoyed our friendship more when we used to get coffee and just laugh for twenty minutes. " And after a half second of unusual silence from her, those pools of ever-renewing blue eyes of hers almost incisions into my consciousness, I added" That was pretty unique." And then I laughed unbound, and she almost shrugged and definitely smirked as if to say "this is where I am now, it took some time for me to realise but it's where I've always been." Unapologetic, as only she could seem to be. And it was, like any tryst, fling or abandoned half-romance is, utterly unique. Half on the way to becoming something we were going to hang on to and definitely regret and half-stopped, sulking out of a puddle, dead damp weight created by the differences we made ourselves for the other to behold and dismantle. The immediate was meant for us, first the attraction, then the disgust, then the despair, then the cursing off, then round to the intrigue all over again. She remained the great question mark of my undergraduate years. Heartaches after her were equally demeaning, but far more easily explained. You know you've found someone irreplaceable when they tell things you really shouldn't know, things shoved up in boxes for years, things too unformed to be really caught sounding out, in the moments after your first kiss. And every clever undergraduate will tell you how negative all connotations of "irreplaceable" are. And yet these are the backhanded good graces, the immeasurable gifts that memory serves I wear this like a wound I can find wry mirth at the very sight of, I have learned all this from her without her ever intending These memories are indented in a music box with an imitation sacred heart all mine distempered by the candid lines of a girl who never wanted religion, divulged somewhere in our seat of learning.
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yes, i look like my mother. but i feel the need to remind you with a swift chair to the face (i think that'll get the point across, don't you?) that i look very much like my father. i don't give a single **** what your last name is that you're my mom's cousin you can shove that snotty backhanded comment up your *** mitchell. i have no relation to that name despite my blood despite my nose that looks so much like your side you are not one side of a family you are one side of a war
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Apr 24, 2013
Apr 24, 2013 at 11:12 PM UTC
the one relative i forgot to delete.
grown too big for my britches, I run my fat, fat mouth until I look like a fool--a happy one. flirting up a storm with his friends, antagonizing my brother, my friend, until she yells, and he kicks my *** I went for a hug, and he kicked my *** (!) physically pinning me, I can't move I rolled him over once, at least I got that, and he later apologized for be a **** I mean, he's got three inches fifty pounds of muscle, and actual fighting training on me How long could I really last? I am a woman, I am weaker. Kate told me that in Nepal, the men backhand the women and children, very easily, and she was backhanded for not remembering how to say her name in Nepallian. That must feel awful, to have a feeling of power handed over to big fists because of strength, not money. I watch the trees, I break a beer bottle on accident I flash the cars over the bridge, I wasn't even that drunk, I am just sad--very tired of feeling nothing. It's just sibling rivalry, and we'll both get over it. my family makes a tall crowd; my mother is 5'10", the shortest we were raised to party, hard, and we entertain, flamboyantly we were raised to clean it up, efficiently, to take responsibility I might be a fool, but at least I'm going to be happy later. That's not guaranteed though, I am sure of that, certainly He might be too jaded to be as successful as he could be. That's not guaranteed though, I am sure of that, certainly.
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May 26, 2013
May 26, 2013 at 2:51 PM UTC
low place like home
I once loved a girl from Japan She told me the two words of her name mean “Aimed for Balance” She taught me how to write my name in Katakana letters. She taught me how to read past sarcasm And backhanded comments. I taught her how to read American literature And how to say “Roller Skates”. She taught me how to learn with my emotions, And I taught her how to learn with her body. I would tell her, “I love you”. She would laugh, and with those brown eyes of hers, Look into my own and say , “Are you drunk?” Her hands, pale and smooth like paper, Would often find themselves entwined in my own, long and strong, Like a summer’s warmth embracing a bright day. She was my moon, and She always called me her “Shining Sun” But I had to let her go. She cried tears that fell like snow, But I could only feel a rising heat Behind my cheeks. I tried to tell her, “You are too good of a lover And I am too poor of a man To give you my soul.” She told me, with her wintery voice, “I want to stay with you! I need your voice, your hair, Your hands, your eyes!” She needed my summer But I would be leaving for a faraway place. I needed her winter, But her cool smile has frozen into bitterness And will grant me no respite. Now, without her dark, soothing hair against my chest, I find myself Aimed for Balance.
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Jul 2, 2011
Jul 2, 2011 at 12:54 PM UTC
Aimed for Balance
Some blades sting as they slice through skin; laced with backhanded compliments, a withering glance, and the steady hand of an executioner, they aim to demolish, stick by stick of explosive hatred. Some blades have poisoned tips, dipped in a brew so wicked that it lurks from vein to vein and blacks you out, strikes you from existence by hijacking your senses and drowning them with intense, heady emotions like loneliness, and fear, and fiery anger. Some blades are disguised as a handshake, one that grips and cracks your bones into splinters, shards of what once was dignity and pride. A grip that convinces you to admit that you are nothing, that you are less than, that you are inferior. And then there is the blade, tipped like a pen, upon which I ****** myself. This blade, unlike the others, is choice and stupidity and release. It is a forfeit, a crushing defeat that the writers succumb to. It is this blade, ink pouring from our pumping aortas to our gnarled, stained fingertips that dance across a page, that charm our own minds with the drowsy lullabies and delusions of omnipotence so that we can spill the deepest, blackest pits of our shriveled peach hearts and spit them out into the universe. A million voices collide and create the void where we all end, where we all begin, and forge the path of self-destruction it takes to fish out a handful of temperate words, biblical verses, even historic epics to release ourselves of our woes and of every singular thought. Some blades are caused by the average, the ones who would not ****** a dagger through their chest, not even for the truth. But our blade, the wicked fiend, sweeps through every bone and ligament until she reaps what is due; the words you're reading, my thoughts scattered out for you.
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Feb 3, 2014
Feb 3, 2014 at 9:45 PM UTC
sacrificial
Some blades sting as they slice through skin; laced with backhanded compliments, a withering glance, and the steady hand of an executioner, they aim to demolish, stick by stick of explosive hatred. Some blades have poisoned tips, dipped in a brew so wicked that it lurks from vein to vein and blacks you out, strikes you from existence by hijacking your senses and drowning them with intense, heady emotions like loneliness, and fear, and fiery anger. Some blades are disguised as a handshake, one that grips and cracks your bones into splinters, shards of what once was dignity and pride. A grip that convinces you to admit that you are nothing, that you are less than, that you are inferior. And then there is the blade, tipped like a pen, upon which I ****** myself. This blade, unlike the others, is choice and stupidity and release. It is a forfeit, a crushing defeat that the writers succumb to. It is this blade, ink pouring from our pumping aortas to our gnarled, stained fingertips that dance across a page, that charm our own minds with the drowsy lullabies and delusions of omnipotence so that we can spill the deepest, blackest pits of our shriveled peach hearts and spit them out into the universe. A million voices collide and create the void where we all end, where we all begin, and forge the path of self-destruction it takes to fish out a handful of temperate words, biblical verses, even historic epics to release ourselves of our woes and of every singular thought. Some blades are caused by the average, the ones who would not ****** a dagger through their chest, not even for the truth. But our blade, the wicked fiend, sweeps through every bone and ligament until she reaps what is due; the words you're reading, my thoughts scattered out for you.
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Holidays spent on countless charades, Predicting all of your plays And gauging all of your games. You're driving me insane! I'd much rather fry cheese on the moon- Than see your face... Anytime soon. Oh how pointless life can be When every reverie Is infected by your dull surprise. Condescensing looks descend Into words written in books, Like backhanded comments Striking my face blue. With you I'll never find paradise. Now it's time to turn you off, Beckon you with a drunken scoff And eject you from my life. Happiness is but a loved child Lurking within the minds Of the abused set free To let their hearts run wild.
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Dec 14, 2018
Dec 14, 2018 at 4:31 PM UTC
Mother
If luck knocks on your louvered door you will have a chance to fight your enemy. You will stand up like a crackerjack prize and pay no mind to the man that broke your backbone. Into the windowless courtroom you will trek. People lined up on hand carved benches, staring with unaroused expressions, waiting warily for their names to be called. You feel your breath halfheartedly fill your emaciated lungs with foul and cumbersome air as you survey the miserable scene and avoid locking eyes with the man that was disguised as your one true love. You wear a band of rubber which you snap on your wrist at the first sign of weakness so you stay focused on the gavel’s exclamation. He tells your long-lost spouse from another life with another wife that this is not Watergate and “I don’t recall” will not suffice in his civil courtroom. His honor dishonors his woven white robe when he yells in your direction with agape red mouth and judgmental judicial tone. When the courage strikes your hand-stitched smile will widen with words and you will command an audience of perjurers who will point forceful fingers at their prior partners that used to be ****** lovers and now sit dead pan wantonly waiting to bleat themselves dry. Slam the gavel while the corn cracks in the microwave bag until all the edges have been popped out and fairness has been forced through the funnel like liquid butter with a diet coke to wash it down. You walk away, down the dark labyrinth of hallowed halls snapping your gum and tip-tapping your heels as you flee from the referee who does not understand your half eaten heart with the wiggly worm within its wind-up walls. He will pronounce your fate with a backhanded expletive and a muffled “adjourned.”
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Feb 25, 2018
Feb 25, 2018 at 3:10 PM UTC
Crack the Gavel
If luck knocks on your louvered door you will have a chance to fight your enemy. You will stand up like a crackerjack prize and pay no mind to the man that broke your backbone. Into the windowless courtroom you will trek. People lined up on hand carved benches, staring with unaroused expressions, waiting warily for their names to be called. You feel your breath halfheartedly fill your emaciated lungs with foul and cumbersome air as you survey the miserable scene and avoid locking eyes with the man that was disguised as your one true love. You wear a band of rubber which you snap on your wrist at the first sign of weakness so you stay focused on the gavel’s exclamation. He tells your long-lost spouse from another life with another wife that this is not Watergate and “I don’t recall” will not suffice in his civil courtroom. His honor dishonors his woven white robe when he yells in your direction with agape red mouth and judgmental judicial tone. When the courage strikes your hand-stitched smile will widen with words and you will command an audience of perjurers who will point forceful fingers at their prior partners that used to be ****** lovers and now sit dead pan wantonly waiting to bleat themselves dry. Slam the gavel while the corn cracks in the microwave bag until all the edges have been popped out and fairness has been forced through the funnel like liquid butter with a diet coke to wash it down. You walk away, down the dark labyrinth of hallowed halls snapping your gum and tip-tapping your heels as you flee from the referee who does not understand your half eaten heart with the wiggly worm within its wind-up walls. He will pronounce your fate with a backhanded expletive and a muffled “adjourned.”
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