There was no reason why I had to be born
There was no question of if I wanted it at all
And every time I think about the people I would leave behind
I just can't help but be sure that they'd have a better life

And what a pretty noose...
Just hanging in my eyes
And what a good excuse
To leave this world behind...

I sit and watch the sun set red on mountains
While the snowblind takes my eyes
And maybe if I'm lucky then the entire mountainside
Will bury my mind inside
And when I think about the people that need me to be alive
Sometimes I just wonder if they understand that I'm not alright

... and what a pretty noose
Just hanging in my dreams
And what a great excuse
To tell the world that I'm not what I seem

And what a great escape
From all the things that keep my in my cage
And what a great distaste
That I've developed for myself, and I'm sorry.

When i was young i regarded you as the man my parents told me not to be and i loved that.

I smoked with you, laughed with you.
You were my childhood eyeroll
Turned into adult head shake
And into fatherhood, an understanding
Of how stupidly corny your repeated jokes were.

This is review.
Nobody laughed the way you do.

It is you
It has always been you
Can you turn it around now
Right the **** now?
Or will you burn?

Everything that you have done
Lead to this moment again
And again and again and again and again
So are you ready to give up all the things that have ruined you?
Are you ready to throw away the one thing that shields you from truth?


Once again i hate myself
Once again i ****** it all up
Once again i made the mistake
The same one i always have made

Maybe I'm not ready to live
Maybe i should give up and start up again
Maybe something else is next
But i already made my bed

So pretend to be happy now
Do it more than you've done before
Pray that happiness will come
And perhaps the kids will be better for it

Just pretend
Pretend to be happy
And maybe one day you will
Actually be happy
Fake it until you make it again.

Someone **** me please.
Someone end this pain.
Someone **** my brain.
And let me try another aim.

I finally beg my father
To bury me so far below
To absolve the earth once again
Let my body be the growth

And when the demons rise
And when the flood begins
And when the turning tides
Bleed those still with sin
The horses will spit acid
And blood and fire and death
And the willpower to continue
Will be met with unstoppable ends.

Just remember my will after.
The humans will inherit lands
The ones who can't be slaves
Will ritualistically lose their hands

The epiphany that we all sought
Will be buried within the sand
Time will march with the evil army
And they will curse our lands

The end will be televised
While earth will be consumed
By the fire that has been prophesied
Since we were introduced.

Let the burning begin and the end commence
The heavens had their chance to build a defense
Hollow husks of hell will run like lambs of gods to be slaughtered
Souls will be consumed upon your unborn unknown daughter
And when the end seems like it will never be in sight
Everyone will be consumed tonight
And the only one to survive will be you
To discover an entire hell anew.

All that i did was for the hate i feel for humanity
An incalculable number isn't even close to my malicious desire
I'll keep the entirety of your ambitions in this insanity
And you'll know the impossibility of speech when you're caught in the fires.

Hell is now.
And it's all your fault.

It's clear
After all this time
That talking to you
Is

Rivers rising to the middle distance
Skylines sunken in sea-salted prisons
An endless ocean, the bottomless blue
Venomous, choking, a sacrifice for you

I've buried my head, but never to hide
I've broken my fingers just to provide
I've taken a throne, but lost all my pride
And here I sit empty, my love cast aside

The sky has broken in an instant
Memory serves to torture, insistent
A constant reminder of poor decisions
No number of wraps will sate this incision

Now let the blackness swallow it all
A shining beacon on the other side
Now see your actions be your downfall
You are the cause for the surmounting tide

I've buried my head, but never to hide
I've broken my fingers just to provide
I've taken a throne, but lost all my pride
And here I sit empty, my love cast aside

Historically speaking, I am evil.
I used, I hated, I hurt, I cheated.
I lied, I drank, I wanted to die
But history is history.

I can't sit still while my world crumbles.
I can't stop trying to facilitate health.
You would that I made no mistakes
You would that I crucified myself.

My foundation is frozen in purgatory now
But humanity insists that I'll make it somehow
And when your record is littered with lies
The truth will always be clouded with doubt

I don't want to give up, but I want to give in
To the conceptual bliss of not having to be
I don't want to die, but I want the pain to end
I wonder what world waits for spirits set free.

Sometimes I wish that I never chose fatherhood
So I didn't have anyone to hurt, left behind
But I have to believe that this life will get better
Even when suicide strangles my mind.