you sat me at the table and screamed up in my face... and you made me feel guilty for all of your mistakes. it was 11:39, and i just wanted to be alone... but you insisted i sit down and i wish that i had known, it'd end up like last time, my eyes puffy and light red... i should have just ignored you and just had gone to bed. you were losing to me at first but you knew a working trick... so you asked about my dad, and you threw that in the mix. the tears were flowing heavy now and you kept pushing in... what a stepdad you are doing this, is this just discipline? i tried to speak my side but you just never let me talk... so i yell at you to say my part but you just brushed me off. i thought you'd try to listen, but you chose to be abusive... because you told me im a kid and that my problems are always stupid. talking to you is hard enough cause you don't know your place... and you think cause im a teenager, you'll always win debates. the thing you don't understand is that i have feelings too... you treat me like an animal that lives inside a zoo. and sometimes i have to get away, so i just go on walks... and wait for the apology from that hurtful late night "talk"
Following me Chilling my bones Sending ripples through my muscles Fear slowly injected into my veins
Running Shouting But none show None are there Only you
Panting Looking back Only to see you are lost In a forest so dark and unknown Stealing the light Not even doing so much As to put up a fight
Feather falls Bird unseen Cries into the void Echos returning Haunting
Fragile soul Yet ever so bold Stronger as it grows old Scrape away the mold To reveal the marvel within
But this mold Cracked and chipped Will it ever break of its prison? Will it ever glimpse a future Beyond this childhood?
Laughter Cries Wailing from the depths of the heart Only one of two emerges Taking the child in Arguments burst Continue For years...
Finally Break Separate Blame It overwhelms
Temporary stability Then the world quakes Your life shakes Then all is quiet Only for a little while
Yelling, shouting, Whilst I am hiding Trying so hard to escape it But you're too caught up In your terror and rage That you don't think of me Hiding in the dark Waiting for the sweet Yet haunting Sound of silence...