Please, baby, don't close the door.
I promise I can love you better than before.
Crying on my knees, please let me back in
Im dying to see your smile again.
Can't eat, can't sleep, can't breath without you.
Can't get myself to stop thinking about you.
No matter where I go and no matter what I do,
my mind always runs back to you, you, you.
For the record, my heart is sore,
broken and scattered across the floor.
I know just what to say, but not how to begin.
I'm dying for you to love me again.
All I want is our Molly nights,
and falling in love in the dim black lights.
My head in your lap, staring into your eyes.
Lost in you, I'm hypnotized.
Please, baby, don't close the door.
I promise I can love you better than before.

I miss

Who I was
Before you

Before us

Before I grew
Into this
Emotionless emotional
Being
Human they say

I wan none of this
A black heart
A soul
That screams!

From within
I writhe and thrash
But I cannot

I need a light
A door or window
To crash threw

Someone open up
Let me in
I want to burn again

Not die
This black husk
Of what is left

Set me on fire
Let me burn

I want to go back
To us
To myself

But you,
Gone now
Seen me with others and
Well moved on

I'll wonder threw people
Trying to replace
You
Me
Us

Am I crazy?
Am I sane?
I've lost track of time.
It's only been a year,
And my life is different
Than it was before.

I've been on the floor,
I've been in the sky.
I've been in between.
It's only been a year,
And I feel like I'm worse
Than I was before.

The Calm(before the Storm)

"It's not often these days that I get to relax,
see the Sandman I'm usually draggin an axe,
with my ex's new fella's head stuck on the spike,
cause it was cut the ******* like I was wielding a pike.
but today I'm very level,no need for medication,
turn the interwebs off,no need for *******.

Just me and my clan(the Irish version not the stupid one),
everyone is rollin one smokin one or lightin one,
flip the top off a bottle and contemplate a rattle,
with the lady of the hour all's fair in love and battle.

And this is nice....I like it when people don't flinch,
hear the singin of a Finch as I pinch another inch,
off the the J Jay handed me,a gentleman,a scholar,
lean to me left to pass it on to Mal another,
of the scientific,dapper rapper witty individuals,
that make up the collective that I'm part of,see our principles,
are the one thing that brought us all together,
completely different birds yet all of one feather-

as we feather the nest I smooth the hairs on me chest
and...relax...
cause its the eye of the storm,
time to take stock,huddle up and keep warm,
maybe huddles turn to cuddles as the music moves your feelings,
cause its a warm fuzzy feeling,underneath the same ceiling,
with me mates and me lover,I think I'll have another beer...

Of course I'll have another,
cause we're...safe now,for the moment at least,
from the big bad wolf hulk,the Sandman sleeps,
and while the cats away I can kick up my heels
enjoy the solitude that Skitz rarely feels,
cause the forecast's bleak,those clouds look like thunderstorms,
but just for five minutes I'm relaxed ahhhh...,its the calm before the storm."

Before the closure
And after doubts, after collecting shattered thoughts
Before exposure
And knowing if that's what you sought

Last chance to dwell deep in illusions
To dream of perfect world ahead
Not to decide, nor reach conclusions
And get the ego fully fed

Keep, save the tension
For few more moments, bittersweet
Longing affection
Unknown desires raising up the heat

Sky is the limit
Tomorrow offers hope, tomorrow may destroy
So for one day, one hour, minute
Intoxicate, seek, hide, fear and enjoy

Where would I rather be, you ask?
Nowhere I know is better than home.
Nowhere I know is home,
as long as home is someone I know.

Do I deserve better?
Do I really deserve better than not sleeping
because I am talking to myself?
Do I deserve sanity?
Do I deserve the insanity that comes
with leading a life without you?
What was it like before you?

On a long scale that life and the universe make together --
I divide the time between before you and after you.
Or should I say since you?

Maybe I love you because I'm afraid to be alone.
Maybe I love you to be alone.

A moment in time will come when everything will fall in it’s place, everything getting worked out.
Something was thought of,
upon which something was planned.
Keeping in mind to achieve the same,
a moment in time passed by when desire made it's way into the mindset.

Unpredictable are the ways of life in a life that at times seems to be strange,
but it’s life,
since life continues on it’s own like before.

Life continues with a combination of what was thought and planned against all that is going on in the mind
Accept the truth and fact of life, definitely life will then become easy
As simple as it seems to be what seems to be simple is not that simple
Never has it been so simple to accept the fact that a mistake has happened in life.

In one way or the other,
in whatever possible way,
always there are ways to avoid mistakes in life and in order to do so also presence of mind is needed.

Subconscious mind needs to be aware of the fact that something similar has happened before
Be prepared for the fact that a mistake on similar grounds has happened before
Once the subconscious mind indicates that something is going to go wrong,
probably then it’s time to take the next step slowly, but surely.

An intuition of mind can come into effect only when properly guided and supported by experience from prior
When the right moment of time is striked upon,
time now is to take the next step,
perhaps previous experience proves to be useful in deciding how to move ahead.

Efforts get their due value and importance when experience guides and supports the efforts that have been made from time to time
It’s important to know all that is going on in the outside world and also all that is being going on inside the mind of an individual.

Along with practice comes experience and along with experience comes the ability to foresee the future
At this junction it’s important to decide and keep in mind that every step taken from now onwards towards the future is taken in the right direction with utmost care

Possibly all the mistakes that might happen from now onwards are new ones,
once decided,  
then this will definitely enrich the experience to built a future according to what was thought and planned before.
Till this moment in time comes it’s time to make sure that efforts are been made to get the desired results.

Think of the things that happened before
Think of the past in the present like it used to be before
Think of the past in the present moment of time.

Important is the present in the present moment of time,
since it holds everything along with it, if not all.
Past, present and future,
definitely the present moment in time has got the key for everything.

Definitely it's the present moment in time that holds the decisive power to decide the rest of my life.

Important is the present in the present moment of time,
in each and every way, very much important.

Think of the things that happened before
Think of the past in the present like it used to be before.

Events and incidences
Episodes, incidents and occurences
Moments, memories and mishaps
The past has got everything, the past has got all.

The past used to be somewhat like this,
then the next moment it comes to mind the past used to be something like this, then again something like that and so on and so forth.

Definitely the present will shape the future,
while the past will decide in one way or other,
in some definite way,
the best possible thing for the present in the present moment of time.

Think of the things that happened before
Think of the past in the present as it happened before

Definitely it takes time for things to take the right shape,
never did it mean you lose hope, stop putting your efforts.
Not at all, never did it mean something like this.

Life goes on,
life continues,
however,
it's time that never stops.

So always better to pause for a moment or two
Better wait for a while,
then proceed ahead with a positive attitude and a definite will to do something good,
if not better.

Definitely a moment in time will come when everything will fall in it's right place,
till that point in time don't give up,
don't give away with all that you have got in your mind and all that you are doing.

Think of the things that happened before
Think of the past in the present as it happened before
Definitely a way will come out in the present that will shape the future, which remains imminent.