The direction you have looked at
all your life.
Looking for the lost.
Searching for the reasons.
Waiting for your life.
Look opposite that direction.
You will find a kind heart.
It won’t be what you want or need.
But it will be enough
to live your life.
Enough to make you
never want to look back.

By Arcassin Burnham


Country roads seemed more cleaner than the first time,
Looking back , how could we have lost so much of this time,
Mashing reality's guilt..
cloudy days with matching stilts..

Worth,
i know i'm worthless,
countless times i had to pick myself up from the times
you've promised me and let me down,
And I'm just like please , why did you leave,
you said you'd come back,
Again..
And this hatred lingers for as long as you live,
it'll never lack,
My friend..
There's nothing you could possibly say to gain my love,
you messed up,
this time..
I hope you know where you went wrong in the situation,
and get stuck,
in time..

You were a mistake in disguise picking at my soul,
thinking back , to the things you used to do and the things you told,
fake relations that we build,
if only time would just stay still,

Worth,
i know i'm worthless,
countless times i had to pick myself up from the times
you've promised me and let me down,
The kissing , hugging , touching , telling me you love me
was a lie miss backwoods..
And I'm just like please , why did you leave,
you said you'd come back,
Again..
And this hatred lingers for as long as you live,
it'll never lack,
My friend..
There's nothing you could possibly say to gain my love,
you messed up,
this time..
I hope you know where you went wrong in the situation,
and get stuck,
in time.

There's many things I'd change--looking back.
I wish I'd been nicer in high school.
I wish I'd tried harder to be myself.
I wish I wasn't always trying to fit in.
I wish I'd tried harder with the first
woman I loved.
I wish I'd given my family more of my time.
I wish I'd been more careful with my feelings.
I wish I'd understood how quickly money can
Be frivolously spent.
I wish I'd been a better friend
And a calmer person.

Looking back on it all;
I don't think I have regrets.
It all led me to where I am today.
But there are some things I wish I didn't say.

You came in to my life unexpectedly,
You had that look that intimedated all, all except me,

That bad boy aesthetic,
That mysterious vibes.
Which makes me more drawn to you.
And your presence..
Somehow inviting,
Somehow kind.

You kept glancing and so did i.
Both too shy and both scared to approach each other on the spot.
Both trying to steal small moments.
Small moments to keep,
Small moments to treasure.

Try to approach and speak but to no avail.
But you, you are really something else.
And that's a good thing, a very good thing.

For a very long time i've been wishing for someone like you and now it came true. You were that miracle and unexpected blessing.

Someone who's like the perfect missing piece in the puzzle of my life, you're that guy that every girl wishes they had. A guy who's tall, handsome and very caring and everything that describes the perfect person that i thought only existed in the books. A guy who's loving and is like the reflection of myself but in every way better. A guy that will sweep me off my feet and would still keep me grounded.

You appreciate every single detail about me and it amazes me how even until this day someone is still amused by me. Me, a girl so simple, average to say the least. It still amazes me on how someone still sees the beauty that radiates in me even though i am a flower thats losing its beauty and grace by the tiresome duties of life.

You're the embodiment of perfection.
So difficult to describe but so easy to see what i mean. Because when people look at you, they would understand the perfection that i mean.

You're everything i want and need.
You're more than just a pretty face.
You're more than just somebody who makes me feel like im home.
You're the guy who brought back life in to my life.
You're the guy that made me believe again in this thing.
You're the guy that i was praying for to have, even if prayer does or does not work.

You're that miracle i was waiting for.
You're you. And well, i won't say it yet. Not yet :)) but thank you.

If I gave you a minute,

a second, a week.

An hour, a month.

And if you loose it,

there is no way to get it back.

So use it wisely.