Irony is when
drowsy eyes and pacing heart
tries to coax a mind,
who have thoughts of its own.

With this harmony
they all win
just to create chaos in  me

When u caressed and said
that you have fallen for me,It was already late.

When you unknowingly picked flowers for me,
It was already late.

When you let your guards down and thoughtlessly
smiled back to my smile, it was already late.

When you asked my name and our eyes stared into eachother,
It was already late.

When you first heard of me and I, you
You were already too late.

I was born without language so I am still figuring out
How to say without shouting out loud or without tears
No I haven't acquired that skill of using my words appropriately
I still hesitate


                         To
                                Say
                                        I  am my main concern. I think of myself more then anyone else. I am selfish so I need my time for myself.

I was always in search of answers

           But
  
                     Now I am in search for the question.

Finally in this grey time I understood the value of
                                     'What, why'

Did u feel it too?
Can u see it in me?
This feelings I keep feeling
This constant feeling of temporary
Is it not obvious ?
That I can't settle in one topic
As I have firm believe that it is temporary
It won't matter in a few seconds from now.

Can't u see why
I am unable to make decisions
Or give opinion
As it keeps changing
My thoughts and idea keeps fleeting
Too fast for me to keep track of it
Can't u see it too that it is temporary?

I may not be suffering but I get this feeling that I might be in need
of stat dose of your compassion,
Your understanding and little bit of
love with trust and patients.

finally I can  be functional
Fully myself and then maybe I can do the same for you!

I like to Lose myself in a crowd,
          there I always find
    a company of many like me
We stare at each other and wonder
               of things that
            was and might be
  but what is will be concern of
       yesterday and tomorrow.
  Today we live without worrying
about judgement and consequences.

In the crowd I usually find
                                         a mind alike...