People should think of their eyes as their own personal universe. The color doesn't matter so much, the way it twinkles and sparkles on its own does. Every universe is different, you must just let yourself explore far enough.

I found pieces of myself within you and I think that's why I was so fond of you.

Your mind is like an ocean
that I want to spend all my time
exploring

Your mind is like the sun
I think of your thoughts in the same way
I think of rays
They spread
from you to me

Your mind is like a tree in the autumn
Thoughts scattered all over your brain
the same way leaves are scattered
around my front yard

Your mind is like that puzzle I can't seem to solve
and I think I might like that
The fun in you is that there's always
something new to understand

Your mind is like that new album I have on replay
because no matter what I do
I always seem to replay pieces of you
in my mind
over and over again

The liquor that trickles down my throat makes me realize that you never truly were mine but somehow, I was yours.

You always wanted me to
write a poem for you
You'd be surprised to find out
that thoughts of you are
in the form
of only the most intricate forms of
poetry
I align your flaws and quirks into
the finest haikus
Five syllables about how your smile brightens up
a rainy day
Seven syllables about how that freckle on your cheek
makes me weak
Five syllables about how I never liked brown eyes
until you came along

I once heard
that the way you love someone can actually
change their life
so how come my love didn't even leave a
dent
nor a single scratch
was it not enough
or were you just greedy
and not content with being loved by
just me

Have you ever met someone and realize that their hand fits perfectly within yours and their body intertwined with yours gives you the kind of feeling they write cheesy poems about?

Let's take a moment
And toast to the inevitable kind of men
The ones we hate to cross
But somehow do anyways
The **** boys
With their egoistic personalities
And no good intentions
They make the world go around
By making us realize
How much better we deserve
So thank you
For being a **** boy
And showing me
Everything I don't want in a guy

To you
I was an object of
pure lust
I was never enough
to be worth your
affection

To you
It was about the
lace on my bra
and the size
of my *******

To you
I was like your *** toy
and you wanted to spend all your time
playing with me

To you
It was about my thighs
and focusing on what was
between them

To you
I was expected to be a woman of seduction
and spend all my time pleasing you

To you
It was about my long legs
and what it'd take for you
to be able to run your hands
up and down them

To you
It was never about anything more than
the ****** attraction
It didn't matter what I did
or how hard I tried
You would never love me

-Knowing that no matter the day, the sun will always rise and it will always set and each time, it will be even beautiful than the time before
-There are always new books to read and new music to listen to
-A cup of coffee on a cold winter day
-Freshly dried blankets and sheets
-The butterflies that come with a first date
-Loving and being loved back
-Knowing that no matter where you are in the world, you and the people you love are looking at the same moon
-Music that gives you chills
-Lines in books that are so good that you have to read them twice
-The fact that you're young and the world is IN fact, yours

Can't say I didn't
see this
coming
but I also can't say that
fact makes it
hurt any
less

Did you call me pretty
Because you actually mean it
Or because you'd like to
Get me in your bed
At some point
This hook up culture
Is something I refuse to be
A part of
I want a guy
Who wants to get to know me
And find out my worst fears
Not one who only cares
About getting in my pants
Don't call me pretty
If all you want is
One thing
I see through you
And what it is you're trying to do
I'm more than what my body
Says I am
And instead of focusing on
My appearance
Why don't you take a moment
To get in my mind

I find comfort
in knowing that
no matter how much I'm
hurting
or how many tears I've cried
that the stars in the sky
will always shine
the moon will let the sun
radiate throughout my days
and the sun will let the moon
glimmer at night
No pain can last forever
when that kind of beauty
surrounds us

Be kind to yourself and love yourself. You're growing and you're healing. You can never become the person you're supposed to be if you never let yourself catch a break.

It's always the same
"How are you?"
But are the answers actually honest
Probably not
Ask the questions that matter
the ones that hurt
the ones that strike a feeling in the soul
"How did that scar get there?"
"Have you ever felt your life slip before your eyes?"
"Is a rock bottom a place you've been to?"
"Have you experienced love? What is it like?"
"Do you hurt or get hurt?"
"Is receiving or giving love more significant to you?"
"What does your past look like?"
"What moment were you most terrified at?"
"Do you know what it's like to have a broken heart?"
We're not here to beat
around the bush
Let's get in each other's minds
figure out why we hurt
where we've been
and what we had to go through to get here

Our song came on today and I didn't feel daggers going through my chest. What a change. I realized that there's no reason for me to putting as this emotion into you when I'm receiving nothing back. There's someone out there for me, someone who isn't you.

-It's okay not to be okay. You don't have to be happy every single day of the week.
-A boy doesn't complete you. You complete you.
-You're not judged by the love you receive, but the love you're so quick to give.
-Life isn't supposed to go smoothly and that's the fun part of it.
-You're only 19. There's a whole world out there for you discover. No one is THAT important.
-Appreciate those that are different than you because they show you a slice of the world you never knew existed.
-Love the ones who make it difficult for you to love them. Most of the time, they're the ones who need to be loved the most.
-Never doubt the power of yourself and what you can do. You were born to change this world and impact peoples' lives.
-You are beautiful and you are important. Never second guess that for a second.
-You deserve all of the world and more. You shouldn't let anyone ever tell you different.
-There's so much to discover and so many people to meet. There's no reason to settle.
-Write. Write like your life depends on it. Experiences are best when they're documented and out in the open for others to read.
-Love yourself. That's the most important part.
-Let go of toxic relationships and people. It's simply not worth the trouble.
-Live in the present. You can't change the past and the future will happen when it happens.
-Be your own best friend, not your own enemy.
-You're not perfect, but here's a secret... no one is.

When you love
I want you to love
hard
I don't want you to hold back
but I also want the person you love to realize
how delicate you are
and how it feels to be loved by someone like you
Don't love someone who holds your fingers so lightly
that they can slip away at any moment
Don't love someone who doesn't take the time to understand
your worst fears and how they got there
You're like a flower and if your petals are being plucked
before you even have the chance to heal and grow
then the love isn't worth it
Your love is worth
all the stars in the sky
all of the sun's light
and all of the moons orbits
I hope you love someone who loves you softly
and pulls your hair behind your ear when you least expect it
I hope you love someone who loves your bruises
and takes the time to figure out how they got there
I hope you love someone who has kisses that are tender
as the winter's first snow fall
but most of all I hope you love someone
who makes you feel like you found
the other half of your soul

Don't fall for me
Don't fall in love with me
When you love me
you also love my
mishaps
flaws
mistakes
demons
I will over-analyze you
and every word you say
and every move you make
You'll see that I'm a mess
and majority of the time
I don't know what the hell is
going on
I'm a clutz and trip over my own
two feet
I'm needy and I'll often ask you if you seriously do
love me
My emotions are so big and wide that I have enough to go
around for everyone who doesn't give a ****
but if you decide to fall in love with me
regardless of all this
I'll write you poems so sweet
that they'll sound like melodies
I'll love you like the sun loves the moon
I'll care for you in a way that is so gentle and delicate
I will always be there
I'll be your rock
I'll love all the things you swear you hate about yourself
I'll make constellations out of your freckles
and a new galaxy will be found in your eyes
I'll find beauty in your flaws
and you'll wonder why you never loved yourself
in the way that
I love you

Do you love me
or do you love that fact that you know I'm always
there
I'm thinking it's the latter of the two
and man that really hurts

Yesterday was ******* all of
us
We almost lost you
and hell I don't know what I would've done if we
did
I realized how precious life really is
you were almost gone
in the blink of an eye
just
like
that

They always say
that the drunk words
are sober thoughts
and I guess for me and you
that is true
We say things to each other whilst
drunk
that we would never say if we were
sober
and why is it that
Is it my fault or is it yours
maybe it's both of our faults
and our fear of feeling something
that is actually real
something that's so much bigger than both of
us

If only we could take the pain
of the ones we love
and somehow put that weight
on our own shoulders

You can't fix people
nor can you be the medicine
they need
You can't fight their demons for them
nor take their sadness
and make it into something beautiful
The pain that comes with this realization can be compared to
a dagger going through your
heart
It's heavy on the mind
but even heavier on the
heart
and you can't let yourself bear that kind of weight
alone

They say people who are up in the middle night are lonely, sad, or thinking of someone. I guess for me it's a combination of the three, but how can you miss something that was never truly yours to miss in the first place?

You told me you liked me because I was something new
But then suddenly I wasn't enough for you
I hope the thought of me leaves a bad taste in your mouth
Memories shared with you are a
Blur
I'd rather forget
and not remember
I am enough
I was always enough
And to hell with you for refusing to see it

I like to think of the best kind of love being one that makes you feel like your favorite song does. You know the exact feeling I'm talking about... When your favorite song comes on, nothing else matters and the world stops just to feel what that song makes you feel for just that moment. When the person you love walks in the room, it's all eyes on them and you feel everything in the room stop except for that eye contact.

Someday someone will awaken your
Soul
And the sun will shine brighter
The stars will seem to dazzle more
Your world will no longer consist of
dark blues and grays
All you'll see is the brightest of purples and reds
It'll almost feel as if the world is on a whole new axis
Your whole world is twisted upside down
All because someone decided to pick up on what no one else did about
You
Love is one of the many wonders of the world
And the best thing about it is you never see the same love
Twice

You found me in the dark
When I was purple and blue
But somehow it was enough for you
I was like the moon
And you were like the sunshine
Radiating your light upon my darkness
I never knew what it was like
To be chosen
To be discovered
To be picked
You saw me when everyone else refused to

The fear
It crippled me
What would become of this home
After you were gone
You were always there
And then one day just like that
You weren't
I didn't want it to be
True
I wanted you back
There was so much I left
Unsaid
And what I did get to say
Just wasn't
Enough
You didn't get to know how much I loved
You
******

It hurt when you left
Not because of you
Walking away
But because when you left
You took a part of me
With
You

I once thought I was beautiful just because you touched me but it didn't take me long to realize I had been beautiful all this time. I was just too busy picking at the things that I thought made me not good enough for this world.

I like to think of me and you as
Two separate seasons
We can never be as one
Only slightly brush each other
One of us is ending
While the other is beginning

I wanted to be more
More than the way my eyebrows arch
More than the size of my *******
More than the length of my legs
More than what size jeans I wear
More than the color of my eyes
More than my body shape
I am more
I'm the music I listen to
And the songs that make me feel something
New
I'm my favorite books
And the lines I highlight just so I never forget
Them
I'm the times I've been hurt
But even more so I'm the times I picked myself back
Up
I'm my favorite movies
And the scenes that made me feel I was a character
Too
I'm not just the beauty you see
It's much deeper than that
I'm the love I give
But I never let myself be defined by the love I don't
Receive
Because the defintion of me isn't the people who refuse to love me

I was never good at making people stay so maybe that's why you left just like everyone else. I guess I can't blame you, if I could walk away, I would too.

I told you what my favorite song was
And I can't really decide whether I regret it
Or not
You had never heard it before
You listened to it
And fell in love with it
But I really wish you fell in love
With me
Now every time it comes on the radio
I think of you
But I don't hate it
No I dont
That's the part that I hate the most
It was my favorite song
And now it's all about you

I was warned of the monsters
Under my bed
But I was never warned
Of the ones who could smile at you
And make you completely weak
The ones who say all the right things
At the right times
The ones who have curls in their hair that seem to have been perfectly sculpted by the
Gods
The ones who have eyes that are deep mysterious and hallow
Like the ocean
The ones who somehow can read you like
A book
The ones who tear you apart but build you up
At the same **** time
I was never warned of
You
The biggest monster of them all
You're not under my bed
Instead youre in my head
You're the monster that I'll never
Conquer

I'm never quite sure who it is that I
Love
Do I love you
Or do I love the thought of you
A question that will constantly
Linger
In my mind

Thoughts at night are centered around you and how I wish you adored me in the same way I adore you.

Never let yourself find home in a
person
People are not
permanent
and they don't have to
stay
They can walk away at any
moment
Find home in
places
silence
the sun and the moon
music
yourself
but god
whatever you do don't find home in a
person
because what'll you do when they're
gone
and your home's gone
too

Come back to my room
and let you undress me
What happened to
dates and small talk
Now its all
undress me undress me
None of us got a clue why our
generation
seems to lack the skill of
commitment
but somehow hooks up
like its not a
problem

I had faith in you
I really did
I thought it'd be different
this time around
I'd thought maybe you'd
grown up
and got your life
together
I should've known that I would be wrong about
that one
Youi'd always be the same boy
the same boy that
left
and hurt me
and broke me down

All I ever wanted was for you to
love me
I blamed myself
and wondered why the hell I wasn't
enough
I now realize that it was never
my fault
You were just so incapable of loving anyone other than
yourself

The cancer
it filled you and made a home
and I wanted nothing more than for someone or something
to save you
It hurt seeing you get
more and more skinnier
You weren't you anymore
you were a skeleton
and at the age of twelve
I really didn't understand death
or the pain that comes with a loss
The should'ves would'ves and could'ves still
haunt my mind
but the worst part is that you don't know when
that day comes
when you're supposed to get in that last goodbye
I don't have a good enough memory to remember
the last moment I shared with you
but I'm sorry for not sharing enough
You weren't perfect
you yelled and sometimes got too angry
but just know that you're forgiven for your wrongs
I loved you at twelve, I love you now at nineteen
and sometimes I can still feel how empty it can be
without you
even after all this time
but I embrace the pain
because you're at least deserving of
that

Life is nothing but a string of
intertwined moments
once something happens
they're all set off
do you ever get to thinking about the "what ifs" of life?
everything would all be so different
if you hadn't met the person that changed everything
the one that showed you that the world
isn't
entirely cold
what would life be like if you did give up on yourself
that night
you decided to give in to the voices in your head
believe them
you wouldn't be standing tall like you are right now
the thing is we're eighteen years old
and this moment is ours
we've experienced so much life
but then again there's so much life
ahead  of us
so many things to experience
rivers to step through
and intertwined moments
waiting for us to mess with
their formation

Falling in love is a lot
like the vicious storms
we fear so much
You hear about what happens
how it feels
and you try to prepare yourself
but you're never quite ready
for what's to come
it comes slowly
little by little you see it unravel
and then before you know it
it devours you whole
You swear you see it coming
but the truth is you never really do
and that's the terrifying part
It's everything you've wanted to feel in life
but would never dare to mention
You feel alive
so alive like you're on the top of a mountain
You feel scared out of your mind
so scared like you're facing your worst fears
You feel brand new
so new like someone took your soul and wiped it clean
You just want to shout
and tell the world
about this new feeling
bursting out of your chest

To feel
for everything and everyone
is a curse
but also somehow
a blessing in disguise
I somehow am connected
to the entire world
simply through emotion
There are people in this world who don't seem to
care
enough
but then there's me
that cares enough for myself
and every single person that does
not
care
Some may call me
naive
overwhelming
or foolish
but I just can't walk through
life
stepping on feet
I have to be the one that lends
a hand
Wiser decisions have been made
putting others before myself is not one I'm proud of
I deserve  to show myself
more compassion
I just can't help what I see in others
that I don't see in
myself
something that's worth it
It's part of having a mind
that ultimately cares too much about everyone else
but not enough about itself