Inspiration
Motivation
Dedication
Annihilation of Exam Papers
I have got result on my mind
Fear lurks
I wish I've never wasted so much time
They say what's done is done
I am Not done
Those results
Won't
Don't
And will never define me
I am not just  a candidate
I refuse to subscribe to that common belief
My inspirations
Motivations
will not be confined to walls of the class room or exam hall
My thirst for knowledge will not be tamed by text books
Don't get me wrong education you are key
And I am aware some are denied of thee
I am taking you seriously

Have I been prepared to defeat more than an exam paper?
We will see
When the Real test begins
This time the answers will not be given to me
My test paper will not be identical to another
This time the results will be tailored to fit me
Fear no longer lurks
But excitement
Of my prospects
The sights I will see
The people I will meet
The goals I will achieve
I will succeed in all I do  
Whether it is an exam or the many tests of life
I will not succeed only because a result sheet says so
I will be resolute
When shaken by life
I will be stirred to develop not retreat
Thank God for
My education
Inspiration
Motivation
Dedication

11 alone
12 alone
13 alone
I am not alone yet I feel alone
Well felt alone
18
The feeling still lingers but does not consume
18
I am not alone do not feel alone

I look at myself and all I see is grey
I try so hard to pray it away
I know it's cliche
But I can't stand my own face

It's sad eyes
They see through my lies
My oversized thighs
My failure to revise
I despite this disguise

I look at myself and all I see is disappointment
Try harder I mumbled in exhaustion
What a collision
My own derision

One day, soon, I will look at myself and all I will see is joy
My reflection, I will enjoy not want to destroy
I will not be coy
As the sun dawns
All will be gone I vowed

I look at myself today and all I see is hope
For I am proud
I want to scream it loud in crowd
I am proud of me and you
And with that statement I feel so new.

Very much like the idea of energy never been made nor lost
This love isn't disappearing
It's converting
Into something more stable and manegable and malleable and sustainable

I love the way your smile just sits there
Comfortably
Beneath the mischief in your eyes.
You have that look
like you know what you've got going on
but without the arrogance to match.

We talk about life
Yours, mine
It makes me wish we had an "ours"

I wish I could shake this feeling of betrayal
this hatred of my feelings as they bloom
I promised to never love another...

though I find myself wondering how your hair smells
how your sighs sound
how your silhouette would fill the dark with light..

how foolish to fall in love through words
but the more the words fall
the more I find myself falling with them
helpless against the flow
my rudder trashed
my course set
by your compass
pulling me to my true North
as I fight to hold on to my ghosts.

They tell you to smile all the time
But then wonder why the hell you're smiling all the time, saying it makes you look suspicious

They tell you to tilt your head and you'll see things a little bit different
But then wonder what the hell is wrong with your neck

They tell you to speak your mind
But then wonder why the hell you're not shutting up

They tell you it's okay to be different
But then wonder why the hell a guy's wearing make up

They tell you to follow your dreams
But then wonder why the hell you're always sleeping

They tell you to stand up for what you believe in
But then wonder why the hell you refuse to sit down

They tell you all these goddammed double standards
But then wonder why the hell you don't listen

you used to be my light.
I wear sunglasses now.