hello there
empty darkness
pale yellow peaks
soft fabric slightly torn
edges moving in the wind

little boy enters scene
runs outside and pets his dog
sunshine brightly glowing
smile upon my face
oh what a lovely dream

fingers hesitating on keys
music begging to be heard
notes jumping upon bars
pretty digits blur
scheduled noise plays

slight hum in my head
lonely dog barks into sky
insects mumbling to each other
a whoosh from cars fly
dark concrete road

Too many ways to go
Too many signs to one place
Many trying to trick me
Many forcing me to take a turn
Positive the right one is missing
Positive but I do not know
I just want to get to my destination
But the right sign won't show

I am strong I say
I don't need you today
Love, too overrated
"I'm free," I stated

Relationships, a bore
Constant arguing, a war
Planning future around them
Then breaking up 8 p.m.

It seems pretty stupid
Worshipping this guy Cupid
Everything is now "GOALS!"
Love yourself first, poor souls

Though I hate to admit
I'm maybe afraid to commit
A slight soft touch I do miss
But not ever craving a kiss

Wanting comfort or hugs
Their absence presented drugs
I am perfectly fine, it's okay
Because I don't need anyone today.

I don't need anyone
Not one person worth
sacrificing my happiness for

yeah I like you, sort of
I honestly like myself more.

kisses are nice
but yours aren't that great
I just want to have fun
have some bubbles

but mine are at your place
not sure how to tell you
for us to sip separate

this isn't about you
this is about me
went a year focusing on him

now it's my time
I've changed so much

thanks to me, not you

The familiar, the comfort, no change
So vain, much pain, feels strange
uncomfortable, disturbing

Swimming along the river
running with wind at our backs
a one eighty turn, finally ******

easy was once a dream, a goal
though lessens the worth, dead soul
mind empty with chaos

frustration and hell
feeling so underwhelmed
why must I crave this?

Smells, and visuals
euphoric and thrills
Z's float above me

trickles throughout my body
eyes chameleon
dilated cherries

Impatient and silly
Just two things for now
There's so much more really
And I'm sleepy anyhow

But you're handsome
You're sweet
Oh very handsome, I repeat

You're a thinker
A debater
Always arguing
A master- uh hater

Oh I can go on forever
But droopy are my eyes
Goodnight
I will speak to you at sunrise

Oh how I wish for my poems to be read
How I wish for them to be adored
"Just be patient", they said.
I don't want to be ignored

It's getting out of line
Inexperienced and no worth
Help wanted said the sign
Wanting this depth be unearthed

I'm done with writing ****

Licking paper as if I’ve never done
Taking a walk beneath the calming sun
This stroll to make time pass by
Until we feel the begin of sibylline high

Snickering and trees is all we can do
The bench moved, did you see that too?
No wind, yet dirt is skipping along
This new universe is forever where I belong

Twinkles and jumbles of words catch my eye
Bright colors and auras, so much stimuli
Warning, don't dare look at your reflection
Little paper, so useful for the amazing introspection.

High                
      how ar              
                   e  yo              
                           u?              
I'm fine
  
How
          high
                  ar
                      e you?

I am keeping my options open.

Should I act on it or...

Maybe even hide the thoughts

My shelves are too crowded already.

Stacks and stacks of feelings

Though I'm keeping my options open

They hide behind one another

It's more a want than a need

But the want is too great

Should I keep my options open?

Or slam the gate

I don't want to live anymore.
Everyone is going through the motions
Worrying about their future.
Their thoughts all the same
Must get money, must get love.
Then you die.
Why not skip all the *******
Get to death sooner.
Why eat healthy to suffer longer.
Everyone wants to live
When death is everyones result.
Why not focus on how you'll die
instead how you want to live.
Car accident? Drugs?
Society has all these standards
Constricting each of us.
There's a lot more in this universe
Than all the nonsense people fight about.
Looking younger doesn't stop you from dying.
Amount of happiness doesn't either.
Fake bodies, fake truths
Death is inevitable and the true real.

A nice curve upon these lips
upside down then often flips

sinking deep with no one near
words buzz my head about fear

cryptic thoughts with simple minds
describes humans of three kinds

hum of nature's life outside
pink mush in my skull, just dyed

no pain skating though my form
feeling wooden, where's the swarm

thinking found answers, I'm lost
rare's high-priced but at what cost

I'm so frustrated at myself
you have no clue what you're doing

No creativity, no soul, no truth
Just going through the motions

I thought guys were the problem
no the problem is myself

I was so happy but what happened
I feel hurt, broken, annoyed

My future is so cloudy.
My present is so manipulated

Ignoring my problems through music
Where's the crafty girl I know

I'm frustrated and angry
Bruises on my head

I'm acing my classes but I'm so fake.
I'm faster but not stronger.

Where is the girl I know

I'm yours. Forever.

You just don't know it yet.

I hurt you being selfish
Realized my mistake
Please, my love for you isn't fake.

Crave is perfect to describe how I feel
Your skin, your touch, your laugh, so good it's unreal

The release of chemicals trickle me
I'm addicted.
This drug isn't illegal
Should be
Withdrawal is hell.