There is no truth
All I said were lies
At least to you
Whatever explainations I give
You interpreted them as excuses
I am a liar
To you.

It's painful but I love it.
It's wrong but I'll still do it.
Because your love isn't easy to gain.
Because my heart has adjusted to pain.

Reaching out to you
Was my biggest mistake.
But again,
Who wont be deceived by such face,
Innocent pair of eyes that shows sadness,
Who knows it was a look of lust?
Am I a fool ?
Or were you originally good at lying?
Well my bad maybe,
Shouldn't have reach out to you
In the first place.

I miss mum
I miss dad
I am sixteen
I'm missing myself
Being their baby again.

I hate my oldest brother,
He's nothing but a poison in my life.

My dad got the coldest shoulder ever,
He was never really on my side.

My step mother got the tightest sour face in the world,
5 years went by yet she still is a bad decision to me.

They say cut off toxic people out of your life,
But how do I cut mine ?
The toxics mostly my flesh and blood.

Colourful is what you see,
Black and white is what I know,
My life is.

No news from you
and I am lost
In axiety
But don't know what to do,

No news from you
Breath getting short
Can't stop thinking about you
But don't know what to do,

No news from you
I think I'm dying
No news from you,

No news from you.

This heartbreak i'm feeling,
Not eligible for someone like me,
He definitely deserve her,
Someone that is better than me .

There were times,
We were too afraid to try anything new in life,
Everything lies right before us,
But too scared to take the chance.

Yet when we've lost ones,
We mourn over those times,
And be mad at ourselves for letting go such opportunity.

Oh all in vain ,,
All in vain .

Once upon a time
World was not in peace
Wars happened everywhere
Women and kids were all sad
Husbands and dads
Joined the wars and dead

There was one kid
He saw what he saw
His dad was killed
They slit his throat and laughed
That violance somehow
Embedded something in his heart

Years passed
He is a grown man now
World is still the same
Wars still everywhere
He survived somehow
He is still alive now

As a grown man
He wanted to serve his country
A dangerous but safe ground
Where his dad was killed
Where a lonely kid grew up

He worked ******* skills
And joined so many wars
He danced in each war
With his beautiful partner,
His sword

Whenever he saw violence
He was terrific then
But now he's not
To **** enemies is a must
To protect the ground he lives in is a must

There is nothing he terrific of
He saw the worst possibility of violence
His dad was killed! They slit his throat!
He is a cold hearted worrior

"Don't beg for life when you **** people,
Don't beg for sympathy when you have none"
Those ices embedded in his heart
Made him a merciless man
They killed his parents with no doubt
The same way will he do

He is the cold hearted worrior
He lives with his sword
He is living in wars.

Why is everybody leaving?
Please stay,
Please..

May Allah grant them what they deserved.
He knows best.

Oh sad sky please stop crying.

On this rainy sunday night,
I am thinking about you,
My tears fall,
Down my cheeks.

It's a rainy sunday night,
And I am trapped here in my room,
Looking at the dark crying sky,
I am missing you ♥

Science said there's 4 basic needs of human

Food
Shelter
Oxygen
Water

Science is wrong

I need you.

I always pretend as if things don't really matter to me
But silently, secretly,
I prayed for your happiness when you're sad
I prayed for your success when you've failed
I prayed that all of your problems to be solved
I prayed for you, because I care about you.

She knows she's beautiful,
We know she's not lying,
I hate her guts oh god
How she brags bout her beautiful face
Without even trying,
Put a garbage bin on her head
Still looking like a queen
She's really beautiful
No one dares denying.

I cut my hair short
Now I am light-headed .

The sarcastic smile
The sarcastic laugh
The sarcastic word

They are the scariest things that ever happened
They can almost say anything
Yet they can't say everything
They are just sick
Mentally.

Love is a poison

Because of love some commit suicide
Because of love some do fight
Because of love some families drawn apart

Is it love's fault?
No, it is these some people learned love not right enough.

Love is a poison?
Some love is a poison.

"Clap! Clap! Clap!"
The curtain pulled up.
They danced, gracefully
To the song, rhythmly
With eyes locked to each other
They smile, beautifully
And dance and dance and dance
"Tap! Tap! Tap!"
The shoes hit the floor
Hold hands,
And dance and dance and dance,
face the audiences,
And smile and smile and smile,
Bow for few seconds,
"Clap! Clap! Clap!"*
The curtains rolled down.

Sweats scattered all around,
But anxious now no where to be found,
Because on that faces of the audiences,
All smiles and excites, No, no big frowns.

There was moment,
I am in deep thought of you,
That I no longer care what around me,
Though you were next to me.

There was moment,
I wanted to be loved by you,
Though you've told me that you do,
The lowest and flatest confession I've ever heard

And
     last
          of
             so
                many
                    more,

There was moment,
I can see me in your eyes,
But not there, in your heart.

My hate is on them
Cuz they're hella rich

Oh lord oh

Imma *******
Ungrateful *****.

Just like yesterday,
I am missing you again.
Just like yesterday,
I am longing for your presence.
Just like yesterday,
I am waiting for you.
Just like yesterday,
I believe you'll be here.
Because today,
Will eventually comes to an end.
And tomorrow,
I'll make sure yesterday was the last day,
Then I'll let you go.

When you break up with me
Should I be thinking you're setting me free
Just to be optimistic
So there won't be regret
And no heart break.

If you can't smile for me,
Cry then.
If you can't laugh for me,
Curse then.

Because I love seeing you in lost
When you love seeing me in pain
I love seeing you acting up
And everyone nods along believing your lies
Its not a good thing but,
Atleast I know then
There's people who are fool than I am.

Staring at his number,
I am missing the bad guy.

Those poems about she  I've been writing all this time,
Are they really about she ?
Or were they actually about me ?
I am confused by myself sometimes,
Am I living as me,
Or am I living as she,
Who am I?
And who is she?

Wish I were old enough
So that people won't judge
Cause I've fallen so hard
In love with you
If I were old enough
So then people won't judge
When I say I love you

They say that our age gap too big
And that I'm still is a kid
But I tell you what, I can never feel it
Cause you act way so childish

You make me laugh
You give me love
You teach me life
If only they knew
how much you meant to me

Wish I were old enough
So that people won't judge
Cause I've fallen so hard
In love with you
If I were old enough
So then people won't judge
When I say I love you

You're leaving
There's so many thing I wanna tell you
All this time I've been so **** scared
Never brave enough to confront you
To tell you, I like you

There's nothing between us
But this heavy heart keep praying that this is just a lie
It silently begging "please don't go"
Knowing that you wouldn't be here tomorrow
I hope today would comes to no end

Today
For the first time
I pray to god
For the blessing of
One guy that not related to me
No, not at all

God, please
One day
Let me meet him again
And make me brave
To let him know
That I love him.

She looks so beautiful
You haven't seen her face when she yawns
She acts so good
You haven't seen how she acts when she's mad
She is one nice friend
You haven't heard what she talked behind your back.

You don't know her.

What a great sword.
Lies hidden between your words.