Zephyr, won't you come
Cast me upon the shoreline?
My head grows heavy.

I was beautiful once.

No lines creased my face,
No grey streaked my hair;
My eyes were bright,
My voice was loud.

I used to dance;
To sing
And command every ear to listen.

Yes, I was beautiful,
But every fire has to burn away.

voices


They speak to me
When I am alone;
They tell me about you.
Now that I know you, they know you too,
And they will never let you stay.

They hate you.

They flaunt your flaws,
Force my eyes open
And make me see.
They leave me exposed
To the heat of your words
And the coldest of your ways.
They make me hate you.


voices


I squeeze my eyes shut
And they slither through my mind,
Coiling around my senses.

They hate me

Rustling in the darkest corners,
I hear them.
They whisper in my ear,
Feeding my fears,
And they make me hate me.


i try to shake them off
try to keep myself awake
i can't let them hiss at me
make me despise everything


But they persist.
They want me to fail,
And so I want to fail.
They want me to fall,
And now I'm falling.


i turn up the sounds
to try and drown them out
but i can't stop them!
...they hate me
and now i hate myself too


voices


in the darkness i tie knots
and i tie them tight
i loops loops and i loops them right*


And the voices have won.

Not everyone is born to be happy.
I know this because there are people
Whose lives are torn apart
Day after day, by demons
That live to taste their tears.

Not everyone is born to be beautiful.
I know this because of the futile hours
I spend trying to overcome my poor eyesight
And make myself look pretty
In the bathroom mirror.

Not everyone is born to be loved.
I know this because of the lonely hearts
That call out in the night,
Beating and breaking as they wander
Until their bodies give out.

You
With the underdog smile
And the quirky attitude
I took a shining to you

You've been beaten
You've been bruised
And I took a shining to you
We were two underdogs
A team

But you
You can't reciprocate
You can't see past your affliction
You dig until the ground falls from beneath you
And I can't fill in the holes
Not fast enough

No matter what I do
It doesn't mean a thing to you
And you don't see the way it eats at me
You can't see that I'm defeated
Because you're far too busy
Digging your holes
Gotta have all eyes on you

Because everything is you
You want them all to know your name
You want to be their sun
And you beg
And you lie
And you cheat
Dig your holes
Bury your knives

You bury your knives in me
And I've had enough

I'm done

You are slowly melting
You were melting before we met
You had already chased heavens
And danced through galaxies

You are slowly melting
I want to travel the skies with you
But you're fading away from me
And I don't know how to make it stop

I would have pried open the eyes
Of the blind and unenlightened
So that they might gaze at your light

I would have opened the ears
To the lullabies of the slow evening
Asking you only to listen

I would have let my heart burst
Full of youth and enthusiasm
So I could paint your face on the world

I would have taken your hand
Had his not covered mine

There's a cold in me that can't be warmed.
Rugged up, I stand against the storm
And wait for you.

I'm always waiting.

There are moments when I cling to you
Like a cotton shirt clings in a downpour
I hold fast to those infinite moments
And try to make the feeling stick

But we cut the cord, you and I
There are whole years between us now
I don't know why my mind still calls to you
When I know you won't come back

I think I must be mourning the cusp
Those days we teetered on the edge
Claustrophobic, coming clean
And begging the future to come meet us

Only two faces spell out fear to me
And I have to cast yours out
I can't keep waiting for the fallout
Of a bomb that never woke

Our infinity was only smoke

Pounding is my chest
Is the heart that you awoke
Fires of muted lust

If you feed the flame
The blaze will rise and conquer
The sane part of me

But where have you gone?
I'm waiting for your arms now
Hopelessly in love

One night in Heaven
Can't surmount your tried deceit
You don't want me now

Away from the calm
Memory of deserted beach
I am still alone

Slowly, slowly they change
From alive to barely living.

A short puff of wind
And they break away from their siblings.
They descend.
They dance as though freedom is worth it.

If only I could warn them
That things will change.

But I can't bring myself to speak,
To utter such obscenities.
There's no one else.
There's only you.

Shiver as the winds change.
My breath is white before my face.
You'd lend me your coat if you could.

You kiss me gently,
Urgently,
And beg.
I shan't say a word.

I still have your gift heart.
It beats softly beside mine,
Keeping me warm as winter approaches.

Honestly, I can't tell you
That it's not enough.
Love could never be so cruel.

Autumn leaves litter the ground
And soften our footfalls.
It's only a matter of time.

I am but a child
In this broken, faithless age;
Let me find my wings.

I am just a girl
In this world of written law;
Teach me how to sing.

Let me see my face
Reflected in your bright eyes;
Who am I to be?

People like doors
And people are like doors.

People like to be open
To new people and
New experiences.

People like to be closed
So they can keep themselves
Free of unruly things like
Feelings and protect themselves
From getting hurt.

People like to open doors
To new opportunities and
Things that will make them feel secure
Or jettison them into success.

People like to close doors
Behind them so that you can't follow
When they decide that you're not good enough
And walk away from you.