The leftover of wonders in my heart
remain silent for long
somewhat tranquilizes the ignorance
of pain, of death and of betrayals
but one day it'd turned out to be
something really indifferent;
a supernova of little drops of water
under the power of subliminal soul
explosion of glittery violet's and blue's
bringing you into the 5th dimension
of drastically beautiful disaster.
the leftover of wonders in my heart
remained silent for too long

The night sky above...
Unreached by doves
a majestic sight
of incomparable light
twinkling dusts
of shimmering galactic blast
I wonder why
That this precious night sky
was so sadly underrated
even noticed, but rarely appreciated
I wished you give a minute
to take your eyes a treat
and you'll see that same night sky
I look at when all I've got is to cry
That is my eternal canvas
where hopes and dreams and lies was
scattered in nowhere of fair distances;
couldn't even remember the pieces.
my metaphor of life,
an infinite projection of blithe
so tonight, by chance, again
I'll watch my night sky then
hoping you did too
because my methapor of night sky is you

This is a piece of crap
I'm writing random words my pen can't stop
Then I came to think of you
Haha! is there something new?
That I'm thinking of a person
Who's not thinking of me, not in any season
I entitled this "you"
So I'll get notified and it'll say, "someone liked you"
And so at least through this poem, you'll like me too
But how sure I am that you'll probably do?
Well, three points for being witty, I think that's enough for you to

I'd never tell you
But I can play guitar
The rhythm it makes
Harmonizes with the beat
Of my pounding heart
Whenever I witness
Divine goodness
I wanna sing
Sing louder the lyrics
Of unending grace
Favored upon me
Along this unending race
Every strum and every pluck
I know this is not luck
I am blessed
Even my fingertips aches
Though it brings me wounds
I will not care
For this melody,
Is the proof of symphony
That there is gain
After the pain
And for that I will play again
With all the love
My guitar strings

You are frowning so often
Did life hit you hard again?
Litter of tears,
A cry that no one hears

I saw you tried
For the thousandth time, I know you're tired
Of turning everything worse into better
However, all you received was hatred and anger

No. I will not say
That it is okay
I know that wasn't the word you need
You just wanted someone who really care indeed

What a day of frustration it was
An eccentric masterpiece on stained canvas
And tho I like rains,
Seems like heaven poured me so much pains

I tried to be chill when
Regrets tried to haunt me again
1, 2 or 3 years ago
Dead end. I couldn't go

Still remember lines of disappointments
In their tired, disgusted faces
As I put my head down,
I knew I won "Ms. Miserable" crown

"It'll be fine. If not, just know it will"
An everyday lie of my mastered field
And if gets harder, more pressure pressing over me
I will repeat a cycle of negative positivity

Because if not,
What will I got?
I have to be strong
I will be strong

Planet Diversity..
Land of billions of unique beauty
You and me,
Our features vary

Here in Collide city
Explosions are pretty
Colors of vivid personalities
Fits with everyone's qualities

Don't be afraid to be you
You're a wonderful hue!
That completed the universe gorgeous view
Altogether, we can make something new

I loved.
I trusted.
I gave.
I helped.
I forgave.
I smiled.
I encouraged.
I did my best.
-
I appreciate things.
I've been positive.
-
But why
The more I tried,
The more I failed
-
The more I soar,
The harder I fell
And no one catches me
but the cold ground
-
And so it was
When I loved, I've been hurt
When I trusted, I got betrayed
When I helped, no one help me back
When I forgave, I received the same mistake
When I smiled, tears follow me
When I encourage somebody, everybody discourage me
when I did my best, I got the worst

Most of the time
words will not rhyme
The stars will refuse to shine
And there's no such straight line

Things will not always happen
The way it supposed to be


But I'll still do things I want to happen to me
Because I'm hoping that by any single little chance it could be

I don't confuse reality and fantasy
But I believe in happy endings.

I witnessed the foreshadowing of my once bright sky,
How living memories started to die
Fathom my happy life instantly turn into lie
Give me a second and I fool everyone a treacherous smile

It began with...                I don't know actually
Maybe when people turned their backs from me
While their constantly saying that they'll never leave
They aren't even aware that in every day they did

Then, my fragmented soul, I promised, I'll be tougher
Like a stonecold in the midst of sober
Because in this universe, I am a one of a kind hue
That can't even blend with the beautiful colors of you

So today, I'll be climbing Mt. Forlorn
And dive in the deepest sea of thorns
So honey, listen to me, have sense of alertness
Even your own shadow will leave you in darkness

It Is You


You stand tall, handsome and confident today
A sweet smile on your face lasts along the way
You walk straight and take a step closer and closer to her
I've figured it out, because with her belongs your heart

Every smiles you shared together,
Is a treasure you kept in your heart forever
Thinking that this girl is the one you will marry
and you'll be sharing home and a life so merry

Everything look so perfect, right?
You always make sure that she's more than happy and alright
Because her happiness is your happiness
and to be loved by her love is your greatest success

She looks so stunning in that floral dress
Matched with the morning sunrise fresh,
You wonder how she can easily takes your breathe
You will hold her hand and your day was complete

It is going so romantic in the midst of sunset
with the both of you, savoring every moment
the birds will sang beautiful love songs in chorus
Lost in each other's bright brown eyes but still in focus

When everything looks perfect, there comes a disaster
The calm sunset clouds turned into a gray monster
What is this turn of events? she will run away
Away from her superhero, from you she went astray

They said, love moves in mysterious way
But then it is more mysterious why love has to break
Your heart that once full of love screams her name
While you left there with stains of tears hoping that she'll came

How many days and nights will passed
Why are you still looking behind what is past
The sunrise and sunsets you treasured are gone
But your heart still beats for the girl you used to call "the one"

It is very different and strange this morning
That you woke up today without her "good morning!"
And you are now become a stranger,
trying to know your identity without her

You realized that you don't have a broken heart or probably just miss her kisses
You realized that you have a broken self shattered into million pieces
But then you did your best to pretend and convince yourself
When the totality of you still screams her name and you pretend to be deaf

How many months and seasons will passed
Why are you still looking behind what is past
You've unconsciously search for the answer
But it just end up thinking that you will always love her

The truth you will never knew is right in front of you
Because if there's one who love more, it is you
Because if there's one who gave it all, it is you
Because if there's one who sacrificed the most, it is you

The one who loves more is the one who has the most pain
The one who gave it all is the one that nothing gains
The one who sacrifice the most is the one who left in blue
And that one is no other than you