If I were to die
Later, tomorrow, or now
Would anyone care?
Will my death affect the world?

I know it will
Though I may be hated at home

I know
There is someone out there
Who's willing to hear me out

I can't give up yet
Because I'd rather be miserable
Than, make the person who loves me miserable
I can still live another day

I love you
I love you
With all of my heart
and soul

I'm a very stupid person
Yet you stay with me
You show me your love
In the most simplest of ways

You are my world
You are my life
You grant me peace
In this crazy world

And if I could wish
for one thing
A selfish request
That only you can grant

If I fell into a deep sleep
And when I wake up

I'd love your kind embrace
With the words
"Welcome home."

I hate you, my love.
I hate how I will always be misunderstood
I hate how much I struggled
After trying so hard

If dying was my saving grace
Will my angel take me away?
Or will the devil pull me down to the ground?
I hate you

But I could never do
Hate is not my saving grace
It is what will doom me when my life is taken away
And for you my dear,

It will not be your pleasure.

Have you ever felt trapped?
It doesn't need to be literal
That dark suffocating feeling
Like you're being dragged down

You struggle everyday
You cry every night
And it feels like
People are pulling you down even more

Will you give me a chance?
Will you listen to a stranger's advice?
I may not love you
but I know you're amazing

Eventually you'll understand
Giving up now,
Is a waste of time
So, live another day, please?

Should we continue playing?
The game of life
Where the challenge is to survive another day
Until you reach the goal

The goal,
Having a satisfied you

Hear my simple words
Hear my loving kindness
All starting to fade from my mind
As it easily started to slip from my hands

Do you love me?
Will you assure me this much?
Because I do love you.
It is you

You.
You that I wish that hate but never could
Oh my love,
Your hate it kills me

Love like a child
Love like an innocent flower
With my simple words
Will you listen?

Cliche compliments that I want to say
but I won't
because you won't believe me
Why should I waste my breath?

Like an old friend
I won't betray you so easily
I can't promise forever
So, I'll promise you today

I'll love you more than yesterday

I am not an actress worthy of the screen,
I am but a normal human.
And I know,
I too am mortal

My pain, and sadness you refuse to understand
So, I pretend.
I smile, laugh and it kills me
You who fail to understand me

They tell me to try
And I do,
yet every time when all is going well
You look at me with eyes of disgust

Shame me if you must
Shame me if you will
But know one thing
I will eventually move on

You will not be my chains
I refuse you to be what holds me down
I will cast you away from me
My dear depression

Can you hear me?
My slow beating heart
Cowering in the corner
Beat. Beat. Beat.
Slowly and gently like that
Take time and heal yourself
Tomorrow is another day.

If love is what surrounds us
Be it true or false
Be a good liar
Lest I find out
And take my life

Do you hear it?
My heart softly beating beside you.
Your gentle demeanor as you start to rest.
It is my time to say goodbye.
These words I could never say.
Because it is time for me to lay you to rest.

If I smile will you see it?
If I compliment you will you understand it?
If I look down on you will you notice it?

If my love fades away
Will you ignore it?

Will you please listen to me?
Will you please stop me?
My love

If my love were to die tonight
Will you forgive me?

If drugs elate these feelings temporarily
Then I'd see why people go crazy for it
I thought I was strong
I thought I had control
I too am tired

"You will find rest..."
The scriptures said

But I want to sleep
An eternal sleep

But I want to live
And so, I continue

A memory you choose not to write
A memory that you yearn to forget

A fragment that everyone posses
A fragment that's different in everyone

If I pray to God
Will I forget?

This stabbing pain.
This unending sorrow

Will it be the end?

How long must I run
How long will I cry
These tears that barely feel mine

My aching heart that continues to beat
Will you finally stop?
With this knife of mine
I will say goodbye

Isn't this feature amazing?
I said ever beaming.

Hurry,
Figure out the clues.

Time is ticking
As the blood is dripping

It's almost midnight
Goodbye, Cinderella.

If love came in a box
Is it real?
If love was right in front of you
Please say goodbye.

"Stop." My thoughts reprimanded me.
"You will break even more."
"Broken you will become."
"So, please don't do it."
But I will go through with it.