Not feeling
No emotions
I'm overdosing
Drinking potions
Brain exploding
I'm imploding

*I'm letting go
Of you

Your body is an addiction

You cause oceans
Cause explosions
Cause emotions
Bring love potions
Know the motions

Fight the feeling
Keep me reeling
Got me stealing
Just dope dealing
I'm not healing

Your body is an addiction

A distraction from the pain
A distraction from the rain
A change of scenery
A nice strong blaze of greenery

Your soul is beautiful
Your heart is bottomless
Your face is youthful
Your chest is heartless

A reminder I'm insane
A reminder I'm in pain
Impossible to impress
You're just an ache in my chest

I want you to drink with me
Sit back, talk and think with me

I want you to drink with me
Lay back, smoke some things with me

I want you to drink with me
Open your mind, come laugh with me

I want you to drink with me
Hold me close, rap and maybe sing to me

I want you to drink with me
Hold my hand and imagine things with me

I want you to drink with me
Stare at the clouds and the stars with me

*I just want you to Drink With Me

Go ahead shout, scream some more
My chest is aching, heart is sore
As I cry, bow out, and sit on the floor
You don't feel, get angry, slam the door
I'd say we're together at the core
But it's clear to me, can't you see
*Love doesn't live here anymore

She doesn't want to hide behind
That screen of lies.
She doesn't want to have to this time.

She doesn't want to change your mind;
You're gone, she's fine.
She doesn't want to go back this time.

And, no, She doesn't want to hold your hand
You're cold, *******.
She doesn't want to say this again.

She doesn't want to accept she's ******
Will she if she can?
She doesn't want to lose it over a man.

She's got pride
It's hard to hide
But you're wise
Know her disguise
Changed her mind
Called her "mine"
Now she'll cry
Because of lies
But you're blind
You don't mind

But, no, She doesn't want to hide behind
That screen of lies.
She doesn't want to have to this time.

And She doesn't want to hold your hand.
You're cold, *******.

*She doesn't want to go back this time.

She'd walk but
She stumbles

She'd sing but
She mumbles

Her whole life
Just crumbles
*And she lets it die

Home is a special word
Reserved for special places
But I look around here
And all I see are deadened faces

I think it's obvious
I'm lost
I'm hopeless

I think it's clear
I'm "open"
I'm insincere

I think it's ridiculous
I'm broken
You're an incubus

I think it's serious
I was wise
Now I'm delirious

I know it's stupid
I'm used up
Like my excuses

Tell me what I want to hear
Don't worry dear, don't be sincere
Don't fret, don't fear, I won't tear
Your memory in my mind, I'll clear

You were my only, my number one
But I fear some damage can't be undone
We were only a game, which you won
I just have to accept that it's been done

I thought you were different, even grand
But you were a pilgrim, my heart was land
Parades of flavor, yet all is left tasting bland
Worse became worst when you dropped my hand

I might have been a queen, but you were an ace
All the memories you gave will be hard to replace
Everything fell apart at far too fast a pace
I didn't realize that I was someone you could erase

Since when did honesty take a back seat
To selfishness, guess you didn't need me to be complete
Making you happy always seemed an impossible feat
It's clear now that, without me, you can still breathe

I still can't believe that you'd want to leave
Used to cause smiles, but now you've forced me to grieve
The lost parts of myself I fear I'll never retrieve
*Why was I whom you chose to deceive?

Nothing hurts me like your words do
So I get mad and I hurt you

Then you blame me
Say I'm crazy
Wanna leave me
But you need me
Though your angry

But I used to love you
And, ****, I still do
And that's true

And I'm not lying
Got nothing to be denying
But I bet we'll still be fighting
Till I'm alone and I'm crying

But I used to love you
And, ****, I still do
And that's true

I can't imagine my life with anyone but you
I ******* love you
And that's true

I go through the motions

Swimming through oceans

Of tears and despair

*And I can't find the strength to care

Till death do us part
Even if I tear you apart
Or burn up your heart

In sickness and in health
Neither pain nor wealth
Will save you from my hell

So say it.
"I do."

For us it wasn't chemistry
It was personality
It was our mentality
How we view what we see

We worked like a melody
A sweet silent symphony
Words no one else could see
Broken in prosperity

Thriving on the rarity
Of words said not genuinely
And smoking the same mary
But getting high differently

Living life in mystery
But all in security
Without a single worry
Maybe you were made for me

In rolls the cigarette smoke
Breathe it in, exhale and I choke
Take it all down, thought before I spoke
Like Marilyn, I took a pill and I broke
Stifle a sigh, In it comes so out with the hope
They say it's a problem, but the issues not dope
Issues the papers, the rules are the joke
Words on a page, they let rage dictate
Everthing they do, free will it ain't
Rules, regulations, speak out get court dates
But this is America, land of the free
I guess we're all free, unless it comes to you and me
Home of the brave, but the monkeys have no keys
Fight for us, then place your sheets in the streets
U.S.A leave it to us to ruin the glory
Superpower, lost power, no power
Happy hour turns into 5 hours
Of choking, smoking, joking
Regretting it in the morning
Songs about ***, drugs, and love
Just say no! To all of the above
You'll bleed when they leave
Cuz to them it's just "me, me, me"

You walked out.
Not me.
So don't pout.

You want me back?
Too bad, Jack.

You did this ****.
Now, live with it.

I get such a rush
Everytime I feel your touch

You should probably know
You look dumb as ****
With that foreign blonde on your arm
It's awkward, it shows
But you parade her around
Like she's your ******* lucky charm

I remember when I was there
Don't you?
I remember when you really cared
Don't you?
I remember when you were real
Don't you?
I remember the way I made you feel
Don't you?

You probably forgot all about that
Didn't you?
Forgot everything we ever been through
Didn't you?
Moved on from your old life, got a new one
Didn't you?
You saw her and thought she was prettier
Didn't you?
You wanted her more than you wanted me
Didn't you?

But when she lets you down
And when she leaves to go home
When she finds someone better
And when she moves the **** on
Who the hell are you gonna love?
Probably some little ****** ****
That's all you could pull now anyways

And honestly, way deep deep down
I miss you, I want you, I need you around
But, reality check baby,
I  hate you and dream of your death on the daily
You make me ******* sick
So I'm done, now I'm through with this ****

puke
Every time I think of you
I *****

puke
Every time I look at you
I *****

puke
If you only knew
How much I hate you
For every ******* thing
You put me through

You
Make
Me
*******
Sick
To
My
Stomach

I
Hate
Your
*******
Guts
You
Stupid
****
I
Hope
You
Die

puke
Every time I think of you
I *****

puke
Don't get me wrong
I'm not bitter, I'm mad
It's not because I want you back
It's not because I love you
Every time I think of you, I wanna YAK

PUKE*

You don't know how sick you make me.
Every time I think of you
I puke.

I thought we were Bonnie & Clyde
It was you & I
Nah, on the inside you were
*Jekyll & Hyde

We'll either mend each other
Or we'll each tear the other apart

We'll either make it through this
Or we'll get lost in the recklessness

We'll either fall in love
Or it's love we'll get sick of

Either way it goes
**There's no other way to know

It's strange, I know.
But I'm still waiting for the day
When you'll come back,
Hold me,
And never let me go..

In a world void of loving arms
Hollow when it comes to affection
She'd fallen too often for false charms
And was resentful of any connection
A safe haven to her, but to others, harm

With a slit of her frail wrists
A bottle of gin, four shots in
She considers the suicide olympics
In this life, she'll never win
All she wants is to end this

"You can't have your cake and eat it too."
But all she ever wanted was a friend
Pain was all they ever put her through
No one ever considered lending a hand
She had never met anyone who had been true

They come alone with kind eyes
They make promises and call her beautiful
It all renews her faith in guys
Then the brokenness they cause is plentiful
And her anger reaches new heights

So now she's here, all alone
Slumming it with the worst of them
The high she feels is her home
At least this way, her life won't end
*She's better off on her own

To think I ******* begged for you..
To think I ******* fell for you..
To think I still ******* care for you!


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****** ME