You're a ******* I wish you'd go away and just quit
I'm so over you That's right, boy, I'm through with you I don't want another ******* thing to do with you
You're a little ***** Stop talking, go somewhere and sit
I'm not okay with you After all this **** you put me through Stick around here and I might just lose my cool
You're a lying twit I wanna run away, I wanna split
I'm not coming back to you ***** all the trust I had in you You broke all the promises that I thought were true
You're a ******* I wish you'd go away and just quit You're a little ***** Stop talking, go somewhere and sit You're a lying twit I wanna run away, I wanna split
Sometimes I think of you And my chest gets all tight And my heart feels heavy And my mouth gets dry And I get the worst headache And I miss you more than anything
But then he texts me... And suddenly I don't even Remember your name.
For all the "I love you's" I ever ******* told you!
For all the kisses I ever ******* got from you!
For all the "Together forever's" I ever ******* expected from you!
For all the trust I ever ******* had in you!
For all the time I ever ******* wasted on you!
For all the tears I ever ******* shed over you!
For all the nights I ever ******* stayed up for you!
For all the times I ever ******* cared about you!
For all the "I'm sorry's" I ever ******* told you!
For all the secrets I ever ******* shared with you!
For all the love I ever ******* had for you!
*******!!
Ah, and the anger sets in once again. It's like, no matter how much I like another guy, no matter how much I try to rationalize it, I just can't find it in myself to forgive him. I still can't even understand what happened.
It doesn't feel like I'm living any more. Days are just obstacles that I have to get through. I don't even like sleeping any more. I'm afraid that I'll see him in my dreams. I no longer eat. I don't even feel hungry. I eat a couple bites of school lunch and none of breakfast. I'm not eating at home. I've already lost a lot of weight. The pain doesn't feel emotional any more, my emotions are dormant. The pain is physical now. It feels like I'm walking through syrup constantly. When I lay down I cry even if I'm not thinking of him. And right now the only thing I feel is confusion.
*But Today I'm so much stronger. I'm not crying No regrets This pain Is fading from my chest I'm not dull No longer bland I'm on my own I don't need a man Goodbye
I always thought that we'd be stronger than this. That we'd be able to make it through anything.
We always said we could handle these storms. That we'd love each other through anything.
And suddenly, when the storm begins, You're ready to leave, and let us end.
Just like that, with absolutely no warning, You told me "I just don't wanna be in a relationship right now."
Do you even know how broken I became When you said that that day?
After a year and six months It's no longer me that you want? But I loved you so much it hurts.. Never mistreated you once. I poured my heart out to you Let down my guard, swear to God.. I'll blow my brains in your lap. Lay here and die in your arms.. Drop to my knees and I'm pleading I'm trying to stop you from leaving.. You won't even listen, so **** it.
You said you wanted to be friends You asked me not to block you out
"I still want you. I still love you. We'll get back together soon."
Well, sir, I'm not your safety net. If you leave, I won't be here when you finally want me.
Even if we make it through this I'll never feel the same
I used to be so comfortable Now all that was in vain
Because now I know I can't let my imperfections show
If I'm not perfectly perfect You'll think I'm not worth it
It's tearing me apart I gave you all of my heart
I've never given so much Just to be left in the dust
I love everything about you So much that I'd rather hate you
I could never be your friend That's why I don't want this to end
Have you ever been so heartbroken That you literally feel the pain in your chest? That your heart actually aches? That you feel like throwing up all the time? That being alive just seems wrong? Welp. That's where I am right now..
And the saddest part is He doesn't really seem to care
That when I'm angry at you Really, truly ****** at you You always manage to do something Something so sweet that I can't stay mad at you No matter how hard I try
I was beating my head on the wall Hoping to end it all I put the shotgun to my chin Ready for my life to end I pulled the trigger but it wouldn't budge Not granting death's soft touch I heard a scream, a howling Then the creatures came for me I tried to run, to get away Suddenly all went to grey A large, tall man with eyes of fire Gave me a hug, offered a lighter I lifted the cigarette in my hand Lit it up then thanked the man He smiled wide then said "It's alright You're only dreaming for tonight." At that moment the flames engulfed me But I couldn't find the strength to scream They all surrounded me, laughing Telling me this is all my life would be Thankfully, I sat up in my bed I gasped, "God, I wish I was dead."
Now floating up and down I spin, colliding into sound Like whales beneath me diving down I'm sinking to the bottom of my Everything that freaks me out The lighthouse beam has just run out I'm cold as cold as cold can be be
I want to swim away but don't know how Sometimes it feels just like I'm falling in the ocean Let the waves up take me down Let the hurricane set in motion... yeah Let the rain of what I feel right now...come down Let the rain come down
Where is the coastguard I keep looking each direction For a spotlight, give me something I need something for protection Maybe floating junk will do just fine the jets have sunk, I'm left behind I'm treading for my life believe me How can I keep up this breathing
Not knowing how to think I scream aloud, begin to sink My legs and arms are broken down With envy for the solid ground I'm reaching for the life within me How can one man stop his ending I thought of just your face Relaxed, and floated into space