I wish
People gave
Two *****
One ****
A ****

I know
If I was dead
You wouldn't miss me
Two bits

And if you cared,
You're out of luck

Your heart can't hold me
I'm like water
**Through sand

Ye are not alone
Hear me, If ye will,
For I too have become one of the last of my kind
And my world falls apart
Just as thine own
And though we chase not the same Tower,
They are but one

Yes, Charyou Tree, come reap
I too have given up everything for my Tower
And if they knew,
They would demand I renounce my precious tower
But ka like the wind
Carries me forward
And I believe you understand
Why I know
I will draw
My last breath
On the path of the beam

Leave me alone,
Even though you say you love me,
"Together forever," yeah right, even in the heat of things I knew this was coming

Meddle with my heart again, I promise you're slowly killing me
Every person who looks at me sees a half, thanks to you

Give it up baby, before I change my mind 'cause I don't wanna love you anymore
O**h it makes me sick thinking of what's gone on between us

Why should I tell you my secrets
Why should I impart you with dreams
                    You don't give a ****
                      Unless I throw a fit
And even then
You never remember.

I feel
A bit
Narcissistic
Right now
But I'll go on
Anyways
I'm so over
Thinking of Polar
And playing these stupid games
It's too bad for him
But he needs to see
I'm living a life
And I need to be free

If I lay here
                                   If I just Lay Here
Would you lie with me
                                                            And

**Just forget The World

Oh look!
Upon that rock,
  A dream does lie
   I stood in shock
    as it dashed into flight
     I watched it's silhouette
      On the setting sun
       Not long now
        'Till night will come
         Catch it
          Run
           It's not too late
            Dear child,
             You haven't a moment to wait!
              Said the sea,
               And the sand,
                And the whispering breeze
                 So I raced down the beach
                   And I chased down my dreams
                    And now I couldn't be happier

I wish that I knew you
Better than I do
For your words like to catch me
Through and through

I read what you write
Late into the night
Until my numb feet
Put up a fight

Thanks for the shivers
Thanks for the dreams
Thanks for the poems
That induce mental screams

I'd like to say more
But I'm out of rhymes
Just please remember
Your heart has touched mine

Mu chocolate milk has been removed
My parents are so hard to fool!
They saw my mostly chocolate milk
The bottom caked in choco-silt
And now my happy wants to wilt
Goodbye my tasty chocolate milk!

Chocolate milk how can you be
So creamy, sweet, and chocolatey
I see you in my dinner glass
The perfect way to make time pass
Oh man I love you chocolate milk
You're finer than... the finest silk?

So after Polar Opposite
I mourned (still am)
And crushed
(Still am)
And had a fling with another guy
(Learned my lesson)

I lost a few friends
And met some new people
And Polar Opposite gave up chasing me
(Don't get me wrong almost all the poem on here
Are about him)

And realized I have a problem
(I got lots of those actually {That was a joke, you're supposed to laugh})

Should I keep my secret of who I am?
So that no one will hate me
Or fear me
Or judge me
So I can be safe?

Or let it all be open
And give up my alluring mystery
And my "friends"
And doom every relationship I ever have

I am so tempted to tell you
Dear reader
Because I will never have to face you in person
And I always feel loved
In your comforting ranks.

Why do I walk through life
Longing to embrace people
Yet always have no one
No one to hold me

The wind
The breeze
The tall tall trees
I need to put my mind at ease
I see you in my memories
                                                                  I watch you move
                                                                       I see you breathe
**If only I could touch your skin
And be with you once again
Before I start to wither away
And my belief starts to decay
My core sets itself aflame
And nothing but a soul remains

The soggy smell
Is in the air
The clouds
Are cut by sun
All the trees
Are vivid green
And worms
Are on the run

Life is like a spider's web
Piece by piece
Thread by thread
We work so hard to get it right
It's pieces pure
It's tendrils tight
You've taught me how to see my web
Through different eyes of different sizes
And recognise it's clever guises for what they really are

Rainy rainy wet
Splashing through the mud
Feeling bold
My feet are cold
A muddy fate is set

Did you know
That I'd like a chance
Because scary as it sounds
I already love you
Did you know that?

I am captured
So are you
If we give in our secret's through
I have to choose

Help myself and ditch the stress
Yet betraying you can't be the best

Or hold my silence
Never speak
Trust in you, for you're not weak
We'll keep our secret safe inside
We'll be alone
Hardly alive
Living in a faraway land
Knowing our unspoken plan
And if our bond is strong and true
The secret's kept with me and you

They never told me
How much this hurts
They never told me
Love is blind
Completely blind
I never saw our differences
I never saw his faults
Or my mistakes
I never even cared
They never warned me that I might
Lose myself
And that we would become one single person
I could never focus on anything else
80% of the day
All I wanted was him
I saw perfection
Where there was just an ordinary
Who was blind just like me

No one told me when we broke up I WOULD DIE INSIDE
Or that I would struggle to get up EVERY DAY
No one warned me about the mood swings
Or how I wouldn't know myself anymore
No one told me that to get him back
I would have to sacrifice EVERYTHING I believe in
BUT I CAN'T DO THAT
No one said I would have to watch him in school
Every day without me

Until he moved.
I can see again now
But all I want to see
Are the backs of my eyelids
Or the flecks of blue in his eyes
IT'S BEEN 7 MONTHS
He gave up chasing me
And I gave up living
I thought I was a strong one
Yet I've been dying inside
For 7 months.

It's been so long
Since I've seen you
I've started feeling
Rather blue
But I saw you
Walking by
And my heart began
To race and fly
This is fear!
I thought inside
How queer for me to be afraid
To speak up after all these days
Of memories that start to fade
I wonder if you feel the same,
I guess we're going to share the pain.

That awful moment
When you see
The one you love
Or find his picture
And you Remember
How you gave him up
And how you never wanted to
And how he's really gone this time
But worst of all
You remember how
You broke his heart
Every day
And now you too
Are broken.

Lust
Can never
Replace love
Because every word
I write
Is love
And lust
Is just
The period**.

Empty eyes on empty days
Walking in the pouring rain
Life is heavy
Moving steady
Trudging forward when we're ready
Walking through this ever lasting fog

I ascend
Towards the top
adding to this bitter drop

My skin is smudged
With dirt and dust
But this abuse is not unjust

The branches twist
Love to assist
The girl who lives inside the mist

First is gallant
Next is weak
Always knowing what she seeks

-Who am I?-
-You'll never know-
A changing pain that never shows

Skin is hot
Eyes will chill
A murderous tree not meant to ****

It's here for weeping
Broken dreams
Embracing those
Who sit unseen

Out of time
And running out of breath

How I love your company
Love sitting here, just you, just me
In holding me you set me free
And in your arms I'm only me

I grow inside you
Love the dark
My teeth are sharper
than a shark's.

I'm cold as death
I make you run
(For me that's fun)

You're waiting for me
All the time
I'm hidden in your
children's rhymes.

Ashes ashes you have the plague
Humpty dumpty Rome starts to fade

I'm always here
I'm always near

**So try as you may
To keep me at bay
But I'm here to stay

I write your words
On my arms
In times of need

I had been watching you
Imagining your kiss

You asked to use your hands on me
I thought it would be bliss

It had been six months since I'd felt love
Whatever this is is far from love

Your palms like black holes, steal my purity away

On mu way home your poison spreads

Is it weird that I put up my shield around you?
That I hide what's inside?
And protect my fragile heart?

My heart is full of cyanide
My soul is made to run and hide

                                                           My soul is made of arsenic
                                                          
                                                           His presence really makes me sick
My body takes him like it takes crack
I'm done with him and that's the fact
                                                                                   You say I'm like your     Anti-freeze
But so much of you, and I can't breathe.

Roses are red,
Violets are blue,
I copied your exam,
*And I failed too.

Roses are red,
This much is true,
Violets are violet,
NOT FREAKING BLUE!

Legos, Legos on the ground.
Legos, Legos all around.
Stab my feet.
Got me beat.
Legos, Legos all around.

Dread is like a worm
Eating you inside
Rages like a fighting storm
There's nowhere left to hide.*

Dread is like a poison
Running through your veins
Always inescapable
It slips inside your brain*

YOU NEVER SEE IT COMING
IT'S ALWAYS AT YOUR SIDE
WAITING FOR THE DARK TO COME
TO TEAR UP YOUR INSIDES

Violets are blue
Roses are red
How many tears over you can I shed

Daisies are yellow
Cherry blossoms so pink
When you walk by me
I swear that I shrink

Silverleaf shines
with a sparkling sheen
*I sit in the garden
I hold in my scream
I need to get rid
Of the pressure inside
But I bottle it up
And I sit here and hide.

Seething, seething underneath
Makes it feel so hard to breathe
My eyes are hollow
Cheeks are wet
With memories of my regret
Internal storm
Rain outside
Pummeling my strung out mind

What is the world
When you look
With no eyes?

All I want
Is love and light
  I want arms to hide in
   and lips to kiss mine