They covered the yellow brick road.

Please stay.
I promise I will get better
You don't know
How long I've fought these demons
And what they've done to me.
But when you're here
My demons seem
A little quieter
A little calmer.
And for a little while
I feel like I might actually
Get through this.
So please stay.

Not even a long walk in the rain
Could  wash away the disgusting feeling
Your touch left behind.

The night is clear
but not a single star shines
I wish you were mine.

They say absence makes the heart grow fonder
I don't think that is true,
Unless this is a sign that
You don't feel the same way I do.

And when your demons
Are stealing the air
From your lungs
I will put my mouth
To yours and breathe
Life into you

Their love was so simple
But it was killed
By their over thinking

I hang on your every word
Your every breath
Every syllable
And hope that one day
You'll do the same to me

Abandoned by one family,
Losing another,
Hellopoetry
Is the only family I have left.

I long for the days of in between.
The days where I don’t feel like I’m drowning
Or dying of thirst.

The curtains close
And leave me in suffocating darkness.
My senses shut down
As I scramble for some semblance of safety.
Only once the curtains have lifted
And the light shines through
Am I able to see the extent
Of the chaos and destruction that I’ve created
It’s like a dissociated nightmare
And a lucid front row seat
To the brutal and ugly aftermath

All I ask
Is when I die
Sing to me
A lullaby.
Something soft
And something sweet
Just please
Be discreet.
For it will be
My last goodbye
The final moment
Of you and I.
So all I ask
Is when I die
Sing to me
A lullaby.

Please don't fear my storms,
For they are needed in order to grow
The flowers.

I won't tell you to not be sad
Because someone out there has it worse,
Because often times, there's nothing worse
Than being stuck in your own mind.

I have flaws, many of them.
I have issues, many of them.
I have insecurities, tons of them.
But despite my flaws and imperfections
I will love you with everything I have.
I will love you at 2 am, and 3 pm.
I will love you like the world is ending.
I will do everything I can.
And one day, while your sitting there
Alone in your big house,
I hope you think
"I should've fought for her, cause ****,
It would have been worth it in the end"

Standing late at night,
Your arms wrapped tight around me
It all stopped falling

The Earth's tears cover the trees
in the forbidden courtyard
where everything
even time
stands still

The harshest words will always be
The ones left
Unspoken

They say scared keeps you
Alive.
Maybe that's why I feel so alive
When I'm with you

I think that often times
The most beautiful people
Are the ones who see beauty in
Everything but themselves.

And my list of people who have left
Is ever growing.
I never thought I would have to add
Your name onto it
So soon.

How stupid of me.
To think that something good
Could stay and be mine.
How stupid of me
To think that I deserve to be loved,
How stupid of me to fall so hard
So fast.
Cause almost everything that falls
Breaks

And then I start to think
Maybe I was made to be
Unlovable.

I let you in.
You are free to go
But please
Don't break anything
On your way out.

I used to spend my nights
Talking to you.
Now I spend them alone
Listening to sad music
Reading sad poetry.
Blood dripping down my hands,
Thinking about all the things
I would give to be in
Your arms.

I wonder how many of us
Would cure our loneliness
And depression,
Heavy nights of silent tears,
If it meant we would never write
A truly heartfelt poem again.

Mirror mirror on the wall
How much longer must I fall?
When will the night fade to day
When will the sadness go away?
When will my house feel like home again
When will all the secrets end?
When will I find someone to love me
When will this life stop being lonely?
I don't know how much more I can take.
My mind's a levee that's starting to break.

Caught in between not wanting to give up on us
Because everyday could be our last
And
Caught in between wanting to give up
For the exact same reason.

You stand at the top of the diving board
we all ask you to come down
but I've found that you can't save someone
who is convinced that they should drown.

My world is falling apart at the seams.
I thought that I had you,
But I guess I stand



Alone.

I loved you with my entire heart
my entire soul
my entire existence.
Every broken part of me
belonged to you.

One of my friends asked me why I got up so early.
I just told him I didn't know,
When really,
It's so that I don't stay up late,
And miss you.

No.
Oh my god.
No.
Just breathe.
You'll be fine.
You're not alone.
I promise
You are not alone.
I can't do it
Without you.
Please.
I need you.
Don't let go.
I love you
So



Much.

I wish I could hold you in my arms
Late at night
And whisper I love you,
The moon and stars the only witnesses

I wish I knew how to
Tell you how I feel.
Whether it be
In person
Or through writing.
But instead when I'm around you
My thoughts get jumbled.
I become incapable of forming
Coherent sentences.
Maybe the best way for me to tell you
Is to not tell you at all,
But to show you
What you do to me.

I didn't realize
How long I had walked
Through life numb,
Until you came along, and
Suddenly,
I felt
Everything

You say you will break my heart
But I don't care if it breaks
As long as it's broken by you.

The loneliness
Is swallowing me
Whole

Falling in love with you
Was as easy and natural
as falling asleep.
If only it were just as easy
To wake up

I think our lucky number is
17.
Age 17,
17 pictures,
17 kisses,
On the 17th of
July.

I hate myself for what I've done.
I promise I will get better.
I promise I will try harder.
I promise I will BE better.
Or just say the words
And I will let you go
Forever.

I was too stupid
I let myself soar too high
And I let you in
Only to say goodbye

Take my hand and close your eyes
Together we will learn to fly

No one ever stays
Silly me,
Thinking you would
Be an exception

And as I tumble through the pages
Of my favorite books,
I fantasize of a better place;
Of a life that isn’t mine;
One where I am courageous
And strong
And unbreakable.
I fantasize of a place
Where I am the heroine
Instead of the villain
In my own story.
I fantasize of this place
And pray for that world to swallow me whole

My ink starts to bleed
as I sit here with
tears rolling off of
my cheeks.
My words telling stories
of heartache and pain.
Maybe as it bleeds and
washes away,
it will take the pain with it.
If only...

Late last night
I learned that
Even a broken heart
Can break once more.

I’ve collected many things in my life
But my favorite
Are the memories and stories
I share with you

One by one
the list gets longer.
Promises of friendship
turn into nothing more than tourism.
The word "goodbye"
has built a permanent home
On the tip of my tongue.
But despite the familiarity,
It still leaves me with a bitter taste in my mouth.
Will it always be like this?

The other day you knocked me down
with your harsh words etched in stone
as I let the rocks cut into me
My thoughts screamed
you're alone
you're alone
you're alone.