We are but so young
We could chase down the world
Yet the past that haunts us
Weighs down on our shoulders
We cry and we scream
Nobody hearing a thing
Stuck in the abyss
Of what could’ve been
Cause I was a fool
And shouldn’t have let you go
They say our first love
Always hurts the worse
The scars you left me
I can’t wash away
I lost you once
Then twice and again
Living our own lives
But if you ask
I’m not ready to lose you again
I never will be
Because we’re still too young
You’re supposed to chase the world
Not lay around waiting
For your world to end
I’ll never be ready
Come next year or one after
To never be with you
Ever again

When you’re breaking
You have this look in your eye
Of betrayal
Knowing life brought your hopes up
Just to drive you to the ground
And your heart broke into a thousand more pieces.

When you’re breaking
I can see it in your smile
That strong mask you go back to
When you can’t deal with
The weight of the world
on your shoulders.

When you’re breaking
Your mind goes back to default
Telling you you’re alone
And that you have to be alone
Because that’s how you were raised

When you’re breaking
I’m breaking too
I tell you you don’t have to
Go through it alone
I’d walk with you through hell

When you’re breaking
You don’t see how much people care
How much love is there for you
If you only opened your heart
And let me put your pieces back together

She'll dance like there's no tomorrow
She'll sing like there's no today
One smile from her
You'll watch your past fade away
Cause she doesn't need to be loved
Her spirit was independent from the start
But she does need to be supported
Someone to break down the walls around her heart
Some days she'll be the ray of sunshine
You always need on a cloudy day
Other days she'll be the storm itself
She'll scream or lock herself away
When she does that remember to check on her
For she burns so bright she might burn out
But don't push her until she finds her peace again
Or she might throw paint at you and shout
She's a treasure chest full of secrets
You'll unlock more of her every day
The hardest thing is to gain her trust
You have to show her you're going to stay
Love her like you're her anchor
She goes through a storm everyday you see
Inspire her like you're her wings
All she wanted in life was to feel free
Most of all when the sun sets
And she tells you she's ready to sleep
Don't believe her for a second
That's when her demons come out from the deep
You see, she guards her heart
Like she guards her soul
She can't express love
Even if it makes her whole
Hold her close
And hold her steady
One step at a time
Until she's ready
She's been broken too many times
I write this cause I'm aware
I'm one of the ones who built her up
Just to take away her flare

I still dwell on the way
Your eyes lit up for Christmas
Your hate for cold
Yet your love for the Holiday snow
Still etched in my fine memories

Funny how the two of us
Both had broken families
Yet you made sure to light up your home
To make Santa real for the little ones
Your rooms filled with fake snow
Gifts, lights, and love

However broken the tragic edges
Of your Christmas past
You still made it come alive
In the present
Giving and giving
Until you were left with nothing

Until your Christmas spirit
Finally faded, cracked, and broke

Remember building snowmen
And skiing down hills
Mornings full of hot cocoa
Room of laughter and cheers

Oh angel of mine
Come spread your wings again
To give away some holiday cheer
That this Christmas lacks
Oh sweet princess of snow
Melt the ice around your heart
Spread the love
And watch the magic grow

Dark haired girl
Eyes like her soul on fire--
Have I met you before?..
No, you say
Yet I have
Someone like you is unforgettable

You cut your hair short
Changed up your voice
Your fancy dresses turned to jeans....
But that fire in your voice
That passion in your soul
Burns brighter than anything
I've ever seen

I've known you before
And not just from my dreams
Wreaked havoc in my life
Yet mended it through and through
Changed my looks
Made me into a man

Yet when I asked
You shook your head
And claimed
You didn't know me....
And that was the first time you ever looked me in the eyes
*And knowingly unknowingly hurt me

Oh calamity
Were you always this big of a tragedy
Selfishly running blindly down life
Wanting to hurt yourself
But hurting everyone around you instead

Oh sore eyes
Do you betray me now
I see my one love running again
Away from her problems,
The only way she knows how,
And away from *me

**** fake relationships
And these stupid shallow flings.
I miss having something real.
I miss having you.

Your voice still locked
In the echoes of my broken
Guitar strings.

Your name still locked
Echoing in the back
Of my head.

My siblings
Still ask why you
Left

And I'm still stuck
Asking the same

I wrote these songs for you,
The ones you won't hear..
The ones that torture me endlessly
When I pick up my guitar
And try to sing..
You made my most peaceful pastime
A pain, sweetheart..
For your voice
Still echoes in the distance
Of my fading chords
My heartbreak trembling within

I have not slept
For a year my love
My eyes sore
From the thoughts of you...
And I fear if I close them
For a simple minute
I'll lose the memory
That I have of you...
Those black curls tumbling down
The side of your perfect face
That laugh echoing
A beautiful melody
Through those soft lips
How could my heart resist
A temptation quite like this?
And so I'll be cursed
Never to sleep
Forevermore drowning
In the thoughts of you.
The only question
I'll ever ask at my death bed
Would be if you ever truly loved me too?