She's an angel among all the stars
She's a healer of all one's scars
She's the usual customer in bars
She has wicked, poisonous claws
She's the winner, of all draws
She's the breaker of all laws

My future was sewn in the womb
I spent the former chasing my tomb
Wondering and wishing to be a groom
Here I am now, but was it too soon
To think back to that afternoon
Where I stumbled and found truth
Whilst still in my youth
Intoxicated thinking it'll soothe
The pain I made myself loathe;
No, I've aged and I've grown
I should know, that I should own
These mistakes that I've crowned,
And the hatred that I've vowed
To these thoughts of an entire crowd
So here I am, back where I clowned
My own love and heartbreak
To one stupid little mistake
Which led to my rebate
So here I am, still stupid and young

The poet:
Write about the sun
during the dark
then writes of the moon
in the afternoon
Writes on a blank page
'till that page's full

The poet:
Reads over his(her) words
as if they're chords
then sit in sorrow
and wonder
if he'll(she'll) write better tomorrow

I remember her, with a smile
and a sore heart, in that while
I remember the first day
I saw you in that way
I remember our first touch
as I'll remember her such
I remember our first kiss
as it is my final wish

She broke my heart,
but I remember the start
Her heart was ever sore
with yet an untold lore
I remember her so sweet
as I do our final greet
She's a broken young lady
a great heart, that's shading

Don't bring me a single flower
or even dare to cry in the shower
My life was lived to the most
as I will end with a silent toast

You forced me back into my shadow
You forced my pain onto my sorrow
Where were you as I grew up
There you are as I've grown up

Shade my colours, and cut my feathers
Tear my light, and break my heart
Break my mind
For I know you won't handle a minute
Inside my mind
Only seconds can break you
More than years have
Done ruthlessly to me

Draggéd into this hole
That temporarily makes
All the empty whole
Celebrating without cakes
Alone in drunken sorrow
Who's tears may I borrow?

Someday far away
Before I'm old and grey
I'll be alright again
For seeing you means less pain

The winter air, everywhere
Our hands, intertwined
The world around us, quiet
Our eyes, gazing
The people, watching
Young love, careless

Then I remember,
it's a memory

I know you still share feelings                    (a)
Though, with different meanings              (a)
for I remember:                                             (c)

Your heart gazed into my ego                      (d)
Your crystalline eyes                                    (e)
with pristine seas                                          (f)
Melted my heart, like that of ice                 (g)
Your lips, rewrote my affection                  (h)

Things might be different                           (i)
Though I might now be an insurgent       (i)
for if I re-render:                                          (c)

Your lips, told me to go                              (d)
on the most obscure days                           (e)
in a world of dying trees                            (f)
with no breath, like lab mice                     (g)
I tied a noose, with my rejection               (h)

Your liver thinks you're too thirsty
Your mind runs off drugs
You'll be dead before thirty
Or killed off by thugs

You escape this reality
to where, what does it give you
You've only escaped your mortality
for your death is long overdue

You were humble, you were frightening
Now you stumble, and stopped with fighting
Where's the real you gone?
for this one's almost done!

You'll be dead before thirty
"Though will you live to thirty?"

You struggle with your pain
Yet still helped me anyways
To reach more to gain
Even if no one stays

A sonnet dedicated to you
With a new happiness born
Yet you're filled with blue
As your wiery heart's worn

I know your soul's torn,
But I'm here to repair
Your rose, not only a thorn
To live with no despair

I know how you've been shoved
I know soon you'll be loved

What would be my fixation
It never worked, feeling sensation
It only filled me with frustration
leaving me with temptation

Breaking my concentration
Simply by losing my validation

Innocent souls, meant to strive
Dark demons, allowed to live

Casualties that had it all
That should've kept it all

Words escaping
This ravaged reaping

I never say it,
I really can't show ,
Though I always mean it,
But welcome to now

I do love you,
From every wrinkle,
And oh yes I do,
To every crinkle

You're a great mother,
Even without your hair,
You shaped me a brother,
So proud, to even share

If I do manage to send,
Know this poem doesn't end

Was it your alluring eyes
Or your mellow lips
Your crisp mellifluous voice
Or your ever sweet embrace
Your addictive love
Bound with
Your comforting embrace
Or being caressed
By your short arms
That left me, hiraeth,
but it got me
And it grabbed me good
Till this very day
I'd wish for a "hey"
Though
Not the priveledge for me
For a priveledge only for he

'tis a word that hath been diceived for plesure or satisfaction

'tis a word that doth not be uséd in the ways we believéd

'tis our own perception and perspective instead of the horrid truth

Pain is the only feeling we can use to seperate love from hate when it's all that's real

If I could choose
I'd go back and love you all over again
Though did destiny not tear us apart?
Did fate seek us to meet again?
Did cupid
Intend on pulling his arrow
Stuck in our hearts?

I don't feel the words I speak
I don't feel my heart beat
The smile in my story
Is gone like my body

I've been scarred too much
With this thing 'love's touch

You did this to me
This time I tried my best
To save the rest
Yet it would not be

The book of life
The pages now have text
To close my book is next
Though my story'd be silent
For this end will be violent

The torn pages
Were the worst stages
I'd wish no eye
To see the reasons why

I leave to the moon tonight
Maybe there I'd shine bright
This is the end of my fight
Close your eyes darling, goodnight

Yet

I dreamed a sweet dream last night
and for a moment all was right
We were together again
and we kissed in the rain
Your hands were stroking my back
As I was kissing your neck
We were perfectly cut out
in a vision soon to be about
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I dreamed a bitter dream last night
We were together again
With all love and pain
Kissing in the rain
Eyes blinked, you out of sight
Eyes open, empty arms in bed
I wish we'd be together instead

Did I pass the test oh sweet sorrow
Should I close my eyes till morrow
To see if I need a heart to borrow
I'll search for a path to follow
Within your heart that's so hollow
Oh sweet life, what do I owe
To see your beautiful face tomorrow

The angels wept
with no single conspiracy
The demons crept
with woeful jealousy

White lies
Made of broken cries
Mournful eyes
Morphing to despise

Looking at the world with a broken lens
As another innocent ends

I used to be adored
Now I am abhorred

Though I wish it were a marriage

My state of mind
has grown very unkind
If only time could rewind
I'd have picked the right side

You tried to help,
But I kept on breaking you
Over
And over

It was like being impaled
or torn into two
My heart instantly mailed
by the words of you

I reject it
I need it not
It just gives me problems
The pain I'd rather not go through

Tickle me with your sweet touch
Deceivingly irresistible

Torture me with your words
Until it breaks me
Feed me your poison
Until it kills me

Hold me tight with your alluring arms
Until you strangle me
With your
Atrocity

Kiss me with your beautiful lips
With my closed eyes
I will silently enjoy
Until you swallow me
With my addiction
To killing myself with you

Poison me
Strangle me
Swallow me
I'm more broken
Than I'll ever be

Nightmares are beautiful
a daily damaged dream
with no single clock
yet feeling time ending

I want to help you
I may not involve
Though I wish I could help
Though I wish I didn't even meet you
I have a lost for all words
Holding my hand over my heart
Hearing it slowly beat your name
Till it doesn't

How am I?
I went from alright
to bad
I went from bad
to worse

See the sad thing of it all
I'm unsure if right now
Is going from worse to good
Or Going from worse to worst

It's unclear to me how things can get worse
It's unclear if it'll ever become better again
Shouldn't have dragged you
Into the mess that's my life

Colours are shaded differently
Lives can change instantly

Cigarettes and alcohol couldn't hold you back
You wanted to break my mind
I allowed you by being kind
You knew that eventually I'd crack

Diablo... they used to call me
It's not who I wanted to be
It wasn't a choice
I was chosen

I wish I could go back to that day
To whom would it favor?
Only those I hurt
Only those, I...

I wish it were me instead of you
It was a war in there and I got out
I never should have
The war out here's a lot more difficult

Those white lines seem so sweet
Those red eyes seem to fix it all
What helped most, the amnesia?
White lines, I need ya
White lines, I got ya
Solemn Sold Soul Said Satan
Solitary solitude, shed shears
Temporary takeoff, tense tears

One of the happiest days, was when I first saw you

The saddest?
Well that would be the day I had to say goodbye, but didnt't
It would be the day
I destroyed it all again

Yesterday's tears
are tomorrow's fears
Today's pain
is tomorrow's gain
Yesterday's sad
is today's bad
and tomorrow's mad

Pain ends the same, in madness

Those I have loved the most, I've hurt even more
Those I've pushed away, I've been afraid to care for
I had not seen the end of life, but I've felt it
I have seen my victory of the war within, but I've tasted defeat

I've drank away my sorrows, but I've already drowned in them by then
I fear nothing, not because of being brave
'tis for I have already lost what I feared to

Of doing even a little effort
for too much gives no result
Is it time to resort
to measures worse than assault

I preach of loving yourself
yet I despise myself
One cannot explain oneself;
How much of an urge to **** this self

I never thought of it that way
What would be the last time we'll kiss
I guess I never knew true pain before
What would be the last time I could hold you
I knew she'll be my Ex-Girlfriend in the future
But I thought it would be when we're married
She's with another man now
And I'm alone and fading

It was a normal day
That went this way:

We, two besties forever
Made rules, to be broken never
Actually promises to last ever
So they'd be covered in leather

I broke the first promise
Followed me trying
To recreate her solace
And cheer her crying

She broke every promise, first
My thoughts lead me to think
She developed a thirst
Only fed by ink

All I could do
Was to stand
And stare at
What used to
Be my galaxy
Become dust
And crumble
Into nothing

I dreamt of reaching the mountains so far away and
I dreamt of reaching the clouds so high up
I grieved a loss those times

Today the mountains are near
Tomorrow the clouds are clear
And the pain that felt like yesterday, was months away

I dreamed to use the talent of both my hands
You beat the idea down
Lying to my face
Breaking my biggest dream

I dreamed to use the talent of my hands and feet
You beat the idea right back down
Lying to yourself
Breaking my final dream

You'd ask me if I'm depressed. I'd tell you no
Why can I be depressed when I have what I wanted

You'd ask me if I'm suicidal. I'd tell you no
When you fail in something too many times
You give up

You'd ask me if I'm happy. So used to lying. I'd tell you no
How can you be unhappy, when your smile is filled with love. Eyes with sadness, but your heart's not there and your emotions thinned?

I grew a stone in place of a heart
Just to give it away again
Regret I do not, for I've nothing to lose and everything to gain

She's being characterized
instead of sympathized
By her first actions
and by all fractions

By your first embrace
To your final refrase
I will let you sustain
What in my heart remain

Remember, my heart slowly grows
Where as yours just fondly flows
As the rose is the winter flower
I will love you by every hour
Great times or bad
You'll be my favourite sour
I might be just another young lad
That came into your life,
Though I'll make you my wife

From when you first wept
To your final step
I'll hold your hand, all the way
As I'll do it every day

Then she stopped
She broke me

Ha'e you e'er let someone truly in?
Opened up to them
told 'em everything tha' was bothering you
Told them th' stories of your past

Having that luxury of opening up
Hath been the sweetest gamble when won,
but the most bitter loss in life
is when you realise there is no trust left to give,
for you've lost everyone
you ever
trusted