I dreamt of you
In black and white
But
Your voice
Was in color
I do not know
What words you said
But I heard
Shades of adore

I watched you swim
Under the blue raspberry
Pink vanilla
Sugar spun sky
The nostalgia of your innocence
Made me realize
My life could not be any sweeter
Than this
Then you proved me wrong
With your gazed upward view
And whispered
Daddy
I want to be just like you

Hanging out
In your blind spot
Hoping
You'll accidentally
Notice me

I saw a cloud
One lonely whispy cloud
In the very blue sky
The edge was on fire...it was blushed
Peach
I looked again...
I saw a cloud
On fire...for just a moment
The sun had kissed the cloud
Goodbye for the day
On the right edge of it lips
On the edge of its smile
The clouds smile
Then
I looked away
And pretended not to notice

Made for you
You didn't use it

Can't get it back
Gone forever

Always there...
Is it waiting for itself?

If you find out
Let me know

I need more...

I may be simple words
But if you
Write me some music
And let me translate them
With my voice
Then I will show you
They are simply
Not just
Words
Anymore

Even
In my dreams
I try
To make you
Safe
Comfortable
Loved
Holding you
Carefully
In my
Small hand

Your voice
Deep soft tone
Is a comfort
Puts me to rest
The man voice
I never had
As a child
To read to me
Or even miss
Now I have my own
Who knew how badly
I needed this gift

Common
sense
challenge
Ok GO!

The vibe of you makes me melt
But not so I can sleep
Puddle of emotions
Cannot be explained
You let me inhale
A trace of that vibe
And it's all I need

The moon was brilliant
Last night
And yet...
I caught you
Staring
At me

I love that you
Treat me like a
Library book
Checking me out
All the time

Drawn by the sadness of time
Minutes of repeated striations
Hours of wounded sketching
Days draining color
Outstare me...I dare you
Survey my damage
Morphing into
A dueling masterpiece

It went
So deep
Time released
Embrace
It lasted for days
Leaving an imprint
On my being

Do you ever wish the
Pleasant visionaries
Of your daydreams
Were aware
They lived in your
Imagery?

Are you someones moment in time?

Or their

Eternity?

Going forward
Every day
Seeing in frequencies
And
Hearing in color
Reminds me
Sometimes
It's ok to get there
In reverse

I listen to your song everyday
Somedays the lyrics are lush
Some they are few
But your music always
Touches

I
Want to be
That one that
Can be
Poured into
A wound
That needs
Healing...

I looked over
Saw her take your hand
Reminding me of a time
That never existed
And yet
I wanted so badly
To go there

Something about the light of day
Going away
Everyday
Makes me yearn for
Something more
Puzzled what it could be
Those minutes maybe?
Already missing the warmth
Your smile gives
Filling a heavenly void
I just saw you yesterday
But now you aren't here
Why do you break my
Fragile heart
Every day?
Please dont go
Away
I wish for once
You would turn around
And see my sadness

I knew you loved me
When you curled up inside me
And took my pain away

I can see the
Unfinished man
In pencil
That drawing that's missing
something  
The outline of you
The curves of you forming
But still not whole
Still seeing who you might be
What moves you make
I can even see where
You have been erased
Mistakes have been drawn over
Paper is worn a little
Even torn
But
I'll be patient
I'll wait
For you to fill in
Get your lines straight
For you to be complete

And
Drawn in ink

Watching you wait
Tanned from the sun
Your glistening glow
On your week grown dark shadow
In your hot white shirt
Almost too hot to touch
Sitting on a Santorini wall
Your piercing dark features
Looking for me
Waiting for me
While I watch you

Standing on a porch
Living in your dream
Quiet still shadows
Shimmers on the water
Born of imagination
West view open water
Distant lake shoreline
Thunderstorms
Distant on the horizon
Flashes of lightning
So far off
No thunder
The stillness
The water like glass...
Homesick for the mystery
The unknown
I didn't long for anything else
In those moments

You preferred the sunrise
But saw only gloom
Seeing your best friends
Smile
Tucked away in your memory
Took over
And
Lit up the room

Pink jelly beans
Kinda don't like your taste
Not sure what flavor
You're supposed to be
Maybe generic Barbie?
Please
Don't take this personal
Still very cute
Someone loves you
But
Apparently
I don't enjoy the taste of
Mystery

You stared at me
Longing
But didn't say anything
You were too far away
In your mind
So you wrote it down
And handed it to me...
I never saw words look
So deep before

Thank you
For pushing my stuffing
Back in place
When I have one of
Those days

I would do it myself
But I can’t reach

It means more
Coming from you anyway

We will find our needle
And thread someday

Love,
Your grumpy 
Brown eyed bear

Accidental events

Being
Unconsciously drawn
To a peril
You can control

Engendering loss

Unresolved grief

Is data
Not
Created equally

Seeing the soft red silk
White green yellow hues
The arrangement
It touched my heart
I nearly cried
I never saw anything this beautiful
And spoke so elegantly
Except you

Not everything
Heals...
But
It
Tries

I think I see you everywhere
But I can't find you
It hurts when I'm not near you
When you are gone
When Im gone
I feel something
This void I need filled
Where are you?
No matter when or where
The one place
I know you are
My safest location...
Pulling at my heartstrings

Diving deep into
The photograph
I see who you are
Touching the surface
With fingertips
Unable to feel
The warmth of your skin
Tracing your face
Touching your chin
Fully submerged in
The pool of your
Stare
I feel who you are
Deep in my heart

I crawled into your day dream
Where the soft cool blankets lay
Safely
Fell asleep
And
That
Is
Where
I want
To stay

I listened
To the dessert you made
I tasted
The lyrics you sang
Your eyes got jealous
So I felt
Everything you
Touched with them

Accentuated my concealment
By concealing what I should of Accentuated
I covered up
What I should of been bold to reveal
But I couldn't...

Simply
Out of fear

Burying yourself so deep
Now
Everyone can see

Needs...

Desires...

You.

Pretend naps make
Imaginary dreams
Singing no lyrics
Dancing with me
Twirls I can't feel
My mouth is watering
The thirst is real
....
I need a real nap
So I can dream of you

That's how many days
We've been one
Its hard to remember
When we were two
When did two equal one?
9855 days ago ...
or so

Seeing her turn around
Watching him
Walk into the room
Both adorned
Made his way to her
Leaned over the row of chairs
Her upper body pulled towards him
An embrace
His left hand
On her long dark hair
Disheveled upon where
Her neck meets her face
And then a sweet kiss
On her bloomed cheek
Meant just for her

Everything in my mind stopped...
This meant so many things to them
Hello my love
How are you? My best friend
My future
All the meanings of love
But
I've seen this before
Havent I?
Ever so openly
Simply done
When a older one kisses a baby
A mate kisses you goodnight
Kissing someone you've missed
This simple expression

But this
So secretly beautiful
In full view
Kindness and respect
For each other

In my mind
I looked around
And asked myself
Was I the only one
Who saw it the way I did?

The dark clouds
In my window
The bright sun
Blanketing across
Those dark clouds
In my window
Knowing what was coming
Excitedly
Like a child
I ran outside
To capture a rainbow
Instead I saw
Your smile...
Captured
I was

I dreamt of you again
This time in color
Colors never seen before
The shades of you
Didn't speak
But the
Color from your lips kiss
Was Adore
Please...
Tell me more

I was never jealous of you
I was jealous of the people
Who were blessed
To be near you

A beautifully crafted design
The one thing I was drawn to most
Was a flaw
An imperfection
It stood out to me
As uniquely different
Not to everyone
Only to me
That's what I loved most
That's the one I wanted
That's how I knew
It belonged
Only
To me

I sometimes feel
My small words
Are just breadcrumbs here
(Compared to yours)
But then I remembered
My breadcrumbs keep
Your meatloaf together

Living from the longing
In your heart
Is something learned
It takes practice
It's sweet
It's innocent

Can I do it?
I don't know.
My longing
Is to know this
Feeling

Romantic illusion
Carnival of curiosity
Deadly illusion

Everything on my body
That I have two of
Don't match perfectly
So why do my socks need to


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