"nonono" poems
Sitting in a restaurant in cottage country.
with my parents, my friend,my sister and her two friends.
I'm eating these miniature boneless chicken wings
I feel a pain in my chest,
I take a sip of my ice tea through a straw
And sit there holding my chest and closing my eyes
--
In my head is a jack hammer just pounding
My whole body feels pinned down
but also moving like the jack hammer
--
Laying on the ground I see my father leaning over top of me
I am on my back
He is pinning me down
My vision blacking out and head still pounding
"Call 911, she's having a seizure"
The only thing I can manage to say is "no"
"no. No! no! NO! No? NO... no no nonono...."
And the only thing I could think of was 'I don'y want to be a seizure person'
Epileptic is what i meant to say, but the word didn't come to me.
Tears are rushing down my face, terrified.
I can only hope this is a one time thing.
As I am helped up by my mom and escorted to the bathroom
I see all these faces looking at me
Faces of sympathy
That is the worst feeling ever.
Being stared as you are leaving the room after a seizure
Feb 23, 2014
Feb 23, 2014 at 6:18 PM UTC
Hermano mio, yo se que te sientes cansado y estas confundido,
Se a levantado el enemigo para averte herido.
Yo se que aveces as pensado darte por vencido,
Pues se que facil no hacido
(Coro)
Pues yo comprendo que lo que estas pasando hoy,
Tambien lo he pasado yo, que se me acaban las fuerzas.
Pero te digo, hermano esfuerzate al llegar, se que no es facil caminar,
Pero Dios es tu fortaleza.
Oyeme hermano mio, No te rindas en la batalla
Oye ministro pelea, aunque tu sientas que satan se levanta.
Yo se que no es facil ver como los tuyos te dan la espalda.
Pero no te detengas, No te rindas en la batalla.
(nonono)
(/Coro)
Hermana mia (escucha)
Yo se que muchos an marcado con heridas tu vida.
Te as sentido muy sola, la victoria conquista.
Pues Se que aveces as pensado terminar con tu vida,
Pero Dios es tu alternativa.
(Coro)
No te reindas en la batalla, aunque sientas la tormenta...
Oyeme hermano mio, No te rindas en la batalla
Oye ministro, evangelista pelea, aunque tu sientas que satan & el gigante contra ti se levanta.
Yo se que no es facil ver como los tuyos te dan la espalda.(nono)
Pero no, Pero no te detengas, No te rindas en la batalla.
Pelea(4x)No te rindas en la batalla.
Pelea(4x)No te rindas en la batalla.
Pelea(4x)No te rindas en la batalla.
Pelea(4x)
Y No te rindas en la batalla.(aaa)
(No te rindas en la batalla.)
Pelea(7x)
(No te rindas en la batalla.)
Aunque se levante satanas contra ti mi hermano.
(No te rindas en la batalla.)
No Te Rindas Pelea. (4x)
Oyelo Evangelista oyelo Pastor oyelo Ministro!
No te rindas en la batalla!
Aunque quiera satanas derrotar tu familia
No te rindas en la batalla.
Pelea No te rindas en la batalla
Nov 9, 2015
Nov 9, 2015 at 1:37 AM UTC
nononononononononononononono IF nononononononononononononononono
nonononononononono I’D nonononononononononononononononononononono
nononononononononononononono KNOWN nononononononononononononono
nononononononononononononononononononono IF nononononononononono
nononononononononononononono I’D nononononononononononononononono
nonononononono THOUGHT nononononononononononononononononononono
nononononononononononononono BUT nonononononononononononononono
nonononononononononononononononono THE nonononononononononononono
nononononononononononononono WORD nononononononononononononono
nonononono SHOULD nononononononononononononononononononononono
nononononononononononononono HAVE nonononononononononononononono
nonononononononononononononononononono BEEN nononononononononono
nononononononononononononono ENOUGH nonononononononononononono
nonono WHERE nonononononononononononononononononononononononono
nononononononononononononono DID nonononononononononononononono
nonononononononononononononononononononononononono I nononononono
nononononononononononononono GO? nonononononononononononononono
nononononononononono EVERY nononononononononononononononononono
nononononononononononononono TIME? nononononononononononononono
nononononononononononononononononononononononononononono THERE
nononononononononononononono IS nononononononononononononononono
nononono NEVER nononononononononononononononononononononononono
nononononononononononononono A nonononononononononononononononon
nonononononononononononononononononono SCENARIO nononononononono
nononononononononononononono WHERE nononononononononononononono
nononononononononono THIS nonononononononononononononononononono
nononononononononononononono WOULD nononononononononononononono
nonononononononononononononononononono BE nonononononononononono
nononononononononononononono OKAY. nononononononononononononono
nono I nonononononononononononononononononononononononononononono
nononononononononononononono DIDN’T nononononononononononononono
nononononononononononononononononononononono ASK nonononononono
nononononononononononononono FOR nonononononononononononononono
nonononononono IT nonononononononononononononononononononononono
nononononononononononononono THE nonononononononononononononono
nonononononononononononononononononono CLOTHES nononononononono
nononononononononononononono AREN’T nononononononononononononono
nonononono AN nonononononononono nononononononononononononononono
nononononononononononononono INVITATION nononononononononononono
nononononononononononononono nonononononononono POWER. nononono
nononononononononononononono DOES nononononononononononononono
no IT nonononononononononononononononononononononononononononono
nononononononononononononono FEEL nonononononononononononononono
nonononononononononononononononononononono GOOD? nonononononono
nononononononononononononono ALL nonononononononononononononono
nononononono THAT nonononononononononononononononononononononono
nononononononononononononono POWER? nonononononononononononono
nonononononononononononononononononononononononono GUILT nonono
nononononononononononononono FOR nonononononononononononononono
nononon ME onononononononononononononononononononononononononono
nononononononononononononono BLAME nononononononononononononono
nononononononononononononono nonononononono FAULT nonononononono
nononononononononononononono WHOSE nononononononononononononono
nonononononono FAULT? nonononononononononononononononononononono
nononononononononononononono MUST nononononononononononononono
nononononononononononononononononononono BE nononononononononono
nononononononononononononono MINE. nononononononononononononono
nononononononononononononono THIS nonononononononononononononono
nonononono WILL nononononononononononononononononononononononono
nononononononononononononono NOW nonononononononononononononono
nononononononononononononononononononononononononono BE nononono
nononononononononononononono A nononononononononononononononono
no PART nononononononononononononononononononononononononononono
nononononononononononononono OF nononononononononononononononono
nononononononononononononononononononononono ME. nonononononono
nononononononononononononono FOREVER. nonononononononononononono
nononononononononono THE nonononononononononononononononononono
nononononononononononononono GHOST nononononononononononononono
nononononononononononononononononononononononononono THAT nonono
nononononononononononononono BREATHES nononononononononononono
nonononono THE nononononononononononononononononononononononono
nononononononononononononono SURGEON nonononononononononononono
nononononononononononononononononononononono THAT nonononononono
nononononononononononononono FORCES nononononononononononononono
nononononononono THE nononononononononononononononononononononono
nononononononononononononono ****** nononononononononononononono
nononononononononononononononononononono PULP nonononononononono
nononononononononononononono OF nononononononononononononononono
SHAME nononononononononononononononononononononononononononono
nononononononononononononono INTO nonononononononononononononono
nononononononononononononononononononononononononononononono ME
nononononononononononononono OVER nonononononononononononononono
nononononononononononononono AND nonononononononononononononono
nononononononononononononono OVER nonononononononononononononono
nononononononononononononono AND nonononononononononononnononono
nononononononononononononono OVER nonononononononononononononono
nononononononononononononono AND. Nonononononononononononononono
nononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononono
nononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononono
nononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononono
nononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononono
nononononononononononononono FOREVER. nonononononononononononono
Mar 26, 2013
Mar 26, 2013 at 8:25 PM UTC
Breathe.
Freeze.
Don't move.
Don't talk.
****
Do not move.
Stop breathing.
Stare.
Calm down.
Breathe.
No.
Nonono.
Too much.
It hurts.
Oh, **** it hurts.
They've noticed.
Freeze.
Stop staring.
Make them think you're okay.
Leave me alone.
Shut up.
Shut up shut up **** too loud.
Way too loud.
Don't talk.
Do not get up.
Run.
Runrunrunrun.
No.
Hurts.
Dig your nails into your arms.
Pick a scab.
Now another one.
Blood.
Yes.
Good.
Now hide.
Curl up in a ball and hide.
Don't move.
No.
Nonono.
Can't get away.
Make it stop.
Can't.
Please.
Pleasepleaseplease go away.
Help me.
Breathe.
Freeze.
Don't move.
Don't talk.
Jan 6, 2014
Jan 6, 2014 at 3:08 PM UTC
Twas the night before Christmas
And all through the house
Not a creature was stirring
Not even a computer mouse
All of the people and pets
Were nestled in bed
Waiting for a fat man
In a flying -reindeer sled
Just as I ventured
To slip off to sleep
A noise -- maybe a clatter
Was heard from the street
I ran to get me a view
Opening the window
I put my head through
Down on the corner
Across from the jail
A fat drunken bearded man
Was singing off key
Merry Christmas to all you boys
I hope ya all make it out without fail
The kettle had just enough money
To make my own flippin bail
I was annoyed so I yelled down
Go home you soppin santa --you stinkin clown
GO HOME-
So the real Santa might actually appear
F*** off you a** hole he yelled back
As he popped open a beer
I am the real santa you **** head
Then he sorta suggested
My reindeer flew off when I was arrested
Mrs. Clause is so cold
Them elves is lucky they don't get molested
But if you're worried ya won't get your gift
Then get your dumba** down here
And give me a lift
Hastily dressing I wondered
If anyone else might have heard
But the way they were snoring
Obviously they heard not a word
Grabbing a jacket I picked up my keys
Went out to take this crazy drunk home
So that he won't freeze
When I finally found him
It way back behind the dumpster
Where he was tossing his cookies
Being eyeballs by two coppers
Who looked like a pair of rookies
"COME ON " I pleaded " lets get you home"
He peered at his wristwatch"sh** he exclaimed
I'm supposed to be delivering gifts in Maine
He clumped into my new Volvo --stinking of *****
"A Volvo" he sneered why couldn't you drive a Ford ..comet
Then he mumbled some words below his stale breath
And my car floated up in the air -- scaring me to death
He yelled out commands as my car shot forward
"Rides pretty nice" he muttttered" but not as nice as a Ford"
"On Volvo .. On Volvo .. On ..oh heck .. Just hook a left
No nonono I mean right
Then he yelled out the window
MERRY(buuurp) CHRISTMAS TO ALL AND TO ALL A GOOD EFFEN
NIGHT. ** ** Cough cough Hoooo!!
Dec 27, 2015
Dec 27, 2015 at 7:36 AM UTC
my stomach's twisting and i'm shaking
what do i say? god what if they think i don't want to talk what if they think i don't like them i need to say something
no nonono that was terrible why did i say that they probably think i'm so desperate for attention i have to bring up pointless ****
i want to be noticed
no no i don't i want to go home
should i send it did i word this right? what if they think i'm weird like it's such a sudden thing
i'm perfect i love myself
wait no what if people think i'm self absorbed i can't say that i'm trash
no that's not right either
they should talk more about themselves i'm talking too much about myself
**** **** fu ck
no that came out wrong
"hahahaaaaa i can't talk today i'm mixing up my words,,,,,,"
i can't breathe there's people everywhere they're crowd ign around me im suffoxuating hle p
Feb 19, 2015
Feb 19, 2015 at 9:36 PM UTC
I do not know how to cope
I've never felt uglier than in this moment
never ever ever want to feel this again
im picking at scabs
and the blood is giving me colour
making me vibrant
im not crazy nonono
this song makes me twist and turn
I must be hearing it in my sleep
I wake up s-s-s-shivering
I kick away warmth and leave it on the floor
ssshh shhh it's ok it's ok
lots of worse things have happened
just go to sleep
it's alright
just don't let them win
do not
do not let them win
w i n
im spilling tears down my shirt
im feeling stringy and bloated
im feeling worn down
I do not know how to cope
Jun 26, 2014
Jun 26, 2014 at 7:01 PM UTC
Stop it.
Just stop it.
Stop it with your philosophy.
Your answers
your higher meanings.
Just stop it.
All you talk about is Socrates
you praise his ideology.
Place him on a pedestal of greatness
a shining example of a life lived right.
Where was that ideology
when he hung from the gallows.
What good are one's thoughts
when one's neck fails to connect with itself?
What say you?
Plato is no better.
nonono he is not
the man tasked with carrying on his mentors ideals.
This genius
this beacon of hope.
Spent over 10 pages of his book
explaining why older men should not have *** with younger boys
as if he was trying to convince himself.
Not the reader.
Just stop with it all.
I am not struggling to find myself
I am struggling to find rent money.
My problems are not in my head.
They are in my bank account.
You pine over a greater purpose
like it's some piece of salvation.
You talk of the high pleasures.
You tell me that I have more to gain from sitting and watching an opera
than from ******* a *****
I don't want to discuss semantics
but I'll talk logistics.
I'll take the latter
not because I love ******
but because I hate the opera.
Pleasure cannot be defined or quantified
My pleasure is solely to see tomorrow.
Something I'm not too confident in right now.
Philosophy is the activity of the man with free time.
But time is not free.
It is expensive and costly.
Those with time don't understand.
Those without it understand it too well.
Love is not my end goal.
A family is not my dream.
A house on a hill would be nice.
But only because of the house.
Not the hill.
So spare me.
Please.
When you tell me about the wonders of the world.
Realize all I have seen lately are alleyways.
Don't tell me about different cuisines.
When I can only afford the dollar menu.
Don't tell me I can be anything I want
when I can't seem to be able to be anything I need.
Life is not limitless.
The soul is not infinite.
Everything has an expiration date.
I just hope mine isn't tomorrow.
May 4, 2015
May 4, 2015 at 1:12 AM UTC
Beyond bread and wine
ineffable.
one year later, I step into this in awe of
fullness,
right?
The quest mark
symbol of the snake facing west or east
¿
standing on the point that sets the plain
so much meaning, so little time.
that's mortality, not life.
quest marked.
a point made
whose horizon meets mine
vanishing point of no return
death may be that idea.
beyond that
now
which lie will you allow?
which lie called lie is illegal? Be lief being
thy will being done by you
on earth whether
or not.
Will you let the liears lie? Lying ears?
was re a son in this mad man's stutter static
tune to tomorrow nonono live for today nonono
die, or don't --do or die
some old guy just looked you in the eye
winked. "zero beat, and wait for the signal."
[a cameo by Radioman of Judging Angels and
Unmazing Grace game fame, after the silence]
Jan 18, 2019
Jan 18, 2019 at 8:05 PM UTC
Down and down I go this aisle with cart Oh hi man how are you? I’m fine that’s ‘ight and you I’m good thx yeah for me there someth? Oh yeah this here and this one pink envelope? well that’s from you know oh yes that’s one well fine okay have a good day yeah bye and off I go again for me? Yeah this I do not like him I try to keep him off my sight and mind but smile nice shirt oh yeah? just ironed well bye-bye pretentious ***** and phony also this is **** I should of said that next time sure for sure ensure the screech is pleasant to lubricate forgot après this finished howdy-rowdy for me smth no pardon c’est fine go by there’s really nothing poor old creep for him man’ years he here and not one sheet that’s triste but oh again this cramp should aim for loo ma’am après vous those thighs in nylon wiggle-waggle just like Bloom I am that day today but winter tho’ though onward batches envelopes and stamps hiya my mate how miles per day come forth that’s heyyy that is the one I yeahyeahyeah dumbf nonono he’s just like I like you like me obnoxious clown to grab and off this floor should be enough to from this height his gray to smash to mash this one is fine to smash to mash oh yuck this almost got me shhhhh
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Feb 8, 2020
Feb 8, 2020 at 3:04 PM UTC
digging fingernails in my skin to feel
warmth of blood,passionate and red
the music is loud but my heartbeat is low
ringing sounds in my head, party noises
i'm desperate for a muffled one instead
i travel with a mind lift
lift down in the room the horror dreams prepare you for
at level zero where breathing is a difficult skill
air doesn't exist and minds collapse
i feel the lack, i hear the choking the static, i smell the blood and the illness
clenching my eyes they turn backwards inside my skull
seeing the names of those who destroyed the home i built
always smiling politely they welcome me
as a guest in my own place
''hello there predator
is this basement warm enough for you
are these chains secure enough for you? ''
shaking vigorously no nonono
death is upon me
cursed cursed cursed for eternity
listening to laughter,talking to thoughts imagined
in this basement never to be found
Feb 4, 2019
Feb 4, 2019 at 11:42 AM UTC
This love doesn't make sense anymore.
Everyone seems to be in love this days,that got me thinking!!do you rely know what love.
Just because someone filled your heart with a ray of hope doesn't mean your in love...nonono,it shouldn't even mean that!you don't show gratitude by being in love.
Somebody better shade some light..coz I relly think everyone is losing it
Apr 15, 2014
Apr 15, 2014 at 3:50 PM UTC
happy
sad
crazy
depressed
in love
i feel
everything
at once
this rush
is what
i love
and
hate
Nov 22, 2013
Nov 22, 2013 at 8:40 PM UTC
you don’t realize how much it hurts you when he
touches you for a moment and then begs for more
you say “no I don’t want to” and he pushes
(more) (more)
---says you are annoying and dramatic--
but you love him (so)
you grasp for straws you
gasp when he smiles and yet
your love is rotting and it is
filling your bones. All of the no no
I don’t want to” turns into
come back why are you leaving and then
you are clawing for air on the ground
calling your mom trying to tell her
how much you hurt without telling her why
because it might split her open
And that is the last thing you want to do.
Dec 4, 2017
Dec 4, 2017 at 10:22 PM UTC
Oculus
No.
please look at me,
Nonono. No.
Please”
Never, never, never ever. Nevermore. Edgar Poe’s crow. No.
she looked away.
look at me!”
tore her gaze away
Don't look her in the eye.
She was blind and stupid and alive.
Feb 8, 2016
Feb 8, 2016 at 7:33 AM UTC
Stop it.
Just stop it.
Stop it with your philosophy.
Your answers
your higher meanings.
Just stop it.
All you talk about is Socrates
you praise his ideology.
Place him on a pedestal of greatness
a shining example of a life lived right.
Where was that ideology
when he hung from the gallows.
What good are one's thoughts
when one's neck fails to connect with itself?
What say you?
Plato is no better.
nonono he is not
the man tasked with carrying on his mentors ideals.
This genius
this beacon of hope.
Spent over 10 pages of his book
explaining why older men should not have *** with younger boys
as if he was trying to convince himself.
Not the reader.
Just stop with it all.
I am not struggling to find myself
I am struggling to find rent money.
My problems are not in my head.
They are in my bank account.
You pine over a greater purpose
like it's some piece of salvation.
You talk of the high pleasures.
You tell me that I have more to gain from sitting and watching an opera
than from ******* a *****
I don't want to discuss semantics
but I'll talk logistics.
I'll take the latter
not because I love ******* ******
but because I ******* hate the opera.
Pleasure cannot be defined or quantified
My pleasure is solely to see tomorrow.
Something I'm not too confident in right now.
Philosophy is the activity of the man with free time.
But time is not free.
It is expensive and costly.
Those with time don't understand.
Those without it understand it too well.
Love is not my end goal.
A family is not my dream.
A house on a hill would be nice.
But only because of the house.
Not the hill.
So spare me.
Please.
When you tell me about the wonders of the world.
Realize all I have seen lately are alleyways.
Don't tell me about different cuisines.
When I can only afford the dollar menu.
Don't tell me I can be anything I want
when I can't seem to be able to be anything I need.
Life is not limitless.
The soul is not infinite.
Everything has an expiration date.
I just hope mine isn't tomorrow.
Jun 6, 2016
Jun 6, 2016 at 10:51 PM UTC
Keith W Fletcher Dec 2015
Twas the flight before christmas
Twas the night before Christmas
And all through the house
Not a creature was stirring
Not even a computer mouse
All of the people and pets
Were nestled in bed
Waiting for a fat man
In a flying -reindeer sled
Just as I ventured
To slip off to sleep
A noise -- maybe a clatter
Was heard from the street
I ran to get me a view
Opening the window
I put my head through
Down on the corner
Across from the jail
A fat drunken bearded man
Was singing off key
Merry Christmas to all you boys
I hope ya all make it out without fail
The kettle had just enough money
To make my own flippin bail
I was annoyed so I yelled down
Go home you soppin santa --you stinkin clown
GO HOME-
So the real Santa might actually appear
F* off you a hole he yelled back
As he popped open a beer
I am the real santa you * head
Then he sorta suggested
My reindeer flew off when I was arrested
Mrs. Clause is so cold
Them elves is lucky they don't get molested
But if you're worried ya won't get your gift
Then get your dumba down here
And give me a lift
Hastily dressing I wondered
If anyone else might have heard
But the way they were snoring
Obviously they heard not a word
Grabbing a jacket I picked up my keys
Went out to take this crazy drunk home
So that he won't freeze
When I finally found him
It way back behind the dumpster
Where he was tossing his cookies
Being eyeballs by two coppers
Who looked like a pair of rookies
"COME ON " I pleaded " lets get you home"
He peered at his wristwatch"sh* he exclaimed
I'm supposed to be delivering gifts in Maine
He clumped into my new Volvo --stinking of *****
"A Volvo" he sneered why couldn't you drive a Ford ..comet
Then he mumbled some words below his stale breath
And my car floated up in the air -- scaring me to death
He yelled out commands as my car shot forward
"Rides pretty nice" he muttttered" but not as nice as a Ford"
"On Volvo .. On Volvo .. On ..oh heck .. Just hook a left
No nonono I mean right
Then he yelled out the window
MERRY(buuurp) CHRISTMAS TO ALL AND TO ALL A GOOD EFFEN
NIGHT. HO ** Cough cough Hoooo!!
Dec 24, 2019
Dec 24, 2019 at 11:10 PM UTC
I have. Been
living like a madman sinking
deeper and deeper into myself
Is not...is not ..is not...
...where I want to be
No No ...nonono
But it's where ...its where
..its where I find myself
No body seems to care about ....
....the things I care about now.
No body seems to really even
wanna wanna wanna even check it out.
So ...I.... am ...on .. a...
.... On ...A ...train to the next station. Looking for my own correction
So i do hope I do hope I do hope
That when I get there
there will be
A big ...A big selection
cause, I'm tired ...oh so tired
Of the same ol same ol same ol things that I've been doing.
And I got to be somewhere
Somewhere where there's...
... Something else brewing....before
Before I leave here, if I don't
If i don't make some kind of
Some kind of sense to myself
Well .. Then I might as
Might as well stay right here...
Inside myself ..inside myself
Because Im not going to find
Not gonna find the answers...
Anywhere!
If I don't find ...
The questions in here !
Mar 17, 2018
Mar 17, 2018 at 5:17 AM UTC