"fml" poems
I smile when my profile picture gets 50 likes
but would it mean more
if I liked my face without the assurance of others?
Maybe not,
I'm a millennial, after all.
1994, born and raised
a "90's kid."
I tweeted that...it got 12 favorites.
Too bad I can't favorite my internal thoughts
in order to validate them without sharing them.
I sent that as an iMessage
to my friend who responded
"#deep."
I'm posting this poem on the internet
so that people I don't know can read it.
Maybe they'll even leave a comment.
I say what I feel,
via text message,
followed by an emoji and a hashtag
as a sort of millennial footnote,
minus the APA style.
I'll use LOL style
or FML style
or the style of ironically using texting lingo
to prove that I'm not #basic.
I, Lex the Millennial,
wrote this poem on my iPhone 6.
Jan 4, 2015
Jan 4, 2015 at 9:02 PM UTC
Beside the window sits chirping
Chirping
Chirping
Birds! I'm trying to write. DBQ... FRQ..... Fml...
Starting-
passing by the sun hides behind the top of the sky
Noon- I'm trapped
Black
white
Colorless ideas and sights
"Opinions" used to persuade the guard to mark down you did all right in your studies
Adolescents- slaves to your presence
Obey the clock
Tick
Tock
Tick
Tock
Tick
"talk" speak your mind as long as I agree
God forbid,
My mind wanders
Far away lands,
Flowers unsold
People oh so bold
Love un-withhold
Stories untold
Take hold!
Wake up!
Absorb this!
My soul is invalid...as I am a slave to sick, adolescent oppression
Education is just memorization.
.
Mar 28, 2014
Mar 28, 2014 at 1:34 AM UTC
I have so much to do
yet so little time
not a penny to spend
but there's so much I need to buy
not a dollar in my pocket
and my gas light's on
I need more money
but I work, a minimum wage job
I'm behind in my online class
and can't seem to get it done
I told my mom I've submitted more assignments
when I've only half-completed some
I just failed government
a course I'm required to pass
I might not get to graduate
when all I want to do, is leave high school in the past
I just want to be happy
but lately, even breathing is hard
I need a drink and joint
and I'm still too young for the bar
the stress is like cancer
slowly taking my life away
these days, I don't even sleep
because the anxiety keeps me awake
Dec 20, 2019
Dec 20, 2019 at 6:57 PM UTC
You follow me around like a little puppy dog.
Don't understand the concept of space
laugh like me, talk like me
wear all my clothes, wanna STEAL my family right from under me.
when you invite yourself over i wanna shot myself in the head
you're annoying as **** and im over this ********
**** my life no way to get rid of you obviously
So you know what just fml
Nov 7, 2014
Nov 7, 2014 at 9:47 AM UTC
FML, the
GDP….
***
Jul 7, 2016
Jul 7, 2016 at 4:41 PM UTC
I have so many faults
and you overthink about them
but I am not a bad person I swear
And it keeps up all night
thinking these thoughts are killing you
I wish I didn't make these mistakes but I wouldn't know what I do now
Apr 6, 2016
Apr 6, 2016 at 12:42 PM UTC
Let me tell you about myself...
I'm not scared to die.
I'm afraid of touching an angel
her purity makes me terrified.
So many times I've told a lie..
just to roll through and get by
hardest part about myself
is that I'm myself and don't understand why.
Seen mama had to cry,
my sisters didn't understand..
my brother needed guidance,
I couldn't demonstrate the good inside a man.
Haunted by a name...which is dull and hella bland
can you show me where peace is?
Can you show me the plan?
lord why don't you hear me?
grab control and steer me...
stop bringing me these women,
who are broken and need healing
who need a good soul
need that good feeling
who's beautiful evil eyes
are captivating and appealing.
can't hold on anymore
grip is coming loose
but if I fall, I win
just because you fall doesn't mean you lose.
hmm
I'm battling these emotions,
sent my heart out into the ocean
thought love would come easy
never knew it was so much devotion
all this commotion!
"please, can you calm down."
why are telling me I'm wrong?
when you came screaming in the house
I'm lost,
I'm spun out
I'm dizzy
I'm all out
I just wanted to know you
your inability to see is tough
you'd rather be kicked when you're down
you don't want a good man to pick you up
so I'll let you go now...
go ahead and be free...
what am I doing wrong...
why don't they ever stay...
what's wrong with the person inside of me...
nothing.
Cause it's not always me.
FML.
Sep 19, 2015
Sep 19, 2015 at 1:49 PM UTC
Absent from this creation
4 far 2 long
Words stuck pressed under a rock
3rdEyeBlind
Midnight Blues at Paisley
INspiration, head bobbin'
Taken 2 The Max with
New Princely Music
And grooves of the feminine
3rdEyeGirl
3rdEyeOpen
FUNK my LIFE
The new FML
Life is good
(c) Shawn White Eagle
Jun 28, 2013
Jun 28, 2013 at 1:44 AM UTC
I am a snow ball
Melting into a liquid puddle
Evaporating
Disappearing
By the thirsty air feeding on me
© Jl 2016
Feb 25, 2016
Feb 25, 2016 at 12:32 PM UTC
u got me waiting
blue eyed dreamer girl
like
eating dreams
we on an ultralight beam
and evenings are gold
you got to know i haven't
always felt like this
heaven's got dawn streets
laced with honey-faith
and sunlight texture
grace my feet
and i **** with that
just with your friends
and your blue eyes
****
May 28, 2016
May 28, 2016 at 8:07 PM UTC
Something's happening inside of me
It feels so familiar, its happened before
This sadness, loneliness, and smallness
I'm lost again, falling down, down, down
Reaching up, but there's nothing to hold onto
I know this feeling, I've felt it before
Its FML all over again
Stuck in this whole I can't get out
Falling deeper, I don't know how
Won't someone help me now?
This crying sadness and unnerving madness
No one to help me and no one to care
Meanwhile I'm in total despair
I know this feeling, I've felt it before
Its FML all over again
My have run dry but still I'm crying
My head hurts, I feel like I'm dying
Help me now, oh won't you please
I'm lost in this maze, please show me the way
No one answers, no one is there
I know this feeling, I've been here before
Its FML all over again
Oct 6, 2011
Oct 6, 2011 at 2:44 PM UTC
Where ever you may be let there be solicitude. Clear all other moods my dear. a sensitivity you took for granted. All the bull **** you ranted. Still all is forgiven, but not forgotten. As my inner demons want to see you rotting. this battle inst over yet, let compassion fill your heart; before all is to late an ripped apart. you had my sympathy but forget my empathy. Let off the deep end, descend my ill minded friend. i know this is hard to comprehend. quite useless indeed. just heed the warning because we may not see the next morning my friend. peace cease to rest as for your no longer here, just a mirror i broke. so evoke or choke on this toxic air. as its seems harder to bare. to everyone who thinks differently or indifferently i wish you all well. as i step through hell watching from the inside out.. endless route. i now walk in solitary, that this wont end through any
promissory i held. ashes fades to grey. only to feel betrayal to watch all vanish away.
_ marty ** ftw an FML
Jun 7, 2018
Jun 7, 2018 at 7:15 PM UTC
ive been on this website for about 10 minutes and not a single like or anything?
did that maddest **** this morning
hit the bowl and everything while in me crack
dont even give a ****
no pun intended
xxNoSxco0perxx
umad?
:))
eshay ler
Louis bitchop is the man yo,
still waiting for that sandwhich
fml ****
Apr 7, 2013
Apr 7, 2013 at 7:52 PM UTC
It's full of pain, lose, disease,
Anger, hatred, and poverty
If I missed something oh well
Every corner I turn there it is
Another thing trying to bring me down
But still I refuse to bow
I contemplate my demise
Every little detail
How deep to cut my wrist
How tight the nuse will be
What caliber of gun I will use
My life is hell
No sense in dying
When I'll just be here for all eternity
No rest for me
Just a life always meant to be ******
FML
Dec 12, 2012
Dec 12, 2012 at 7:17 PM UTC
Life is full of anger, hatred, pain
Let me tell you about myself
I am not scared to die
Been through so much tragedy sometimes I wanna be in the sky
I know how it feels to fly
Wonder how it feels to be in heaven
My mama believes I am Ignorant
For not thinking about Loans
No one told me life would be this way
And I never thought I would get this far
My life is hell
They say I should don’t worry
But why do I worry so much?
I cannot even get any relaxation
Money has to be everything
Every night I have nightmares about college in hell
No sense in success
Sometimes I feel like
FML
Jul 17, 2016
Jul 17, 2016 at 1:09 AM UTC
Some years ago, on a Monday, I met Joyce at Whitlows.
I bonded with her over bourbon and cokes.
She wore a black dress; sloping V, open back
It clung to her thigh, as though her skin
Was coated in sweets: sugar, honey, syrup.
Her face shined under the light overhead:
Denim eyes, velvet lips, an upturned nose.
She went to G.W.; read Junot; rode thoroughbreds;
Spoke Arabic; ate okra; watched Kubrick.
At the foosball table, I touched her wrist. She touched my arm.
The next day, after coitus and coffee,
I went to my car and found a ticket.
Apr 29, 2016
Apr 29, 2016 at 4:18 PM UTC
I woke up on the floor
From a party the night before
Feeling like a train wreck, looking like a mess
Trying to piece together last night’s events
But my memory’s **** & my fishnet tee is missing
So I roll up a cig, grab my coat and leave
I’m losing count on how many times I do this routine
Walking down the street
Going through the texts I sent when you were asleep
Telling you what drugs I’ve been on
What I genuinely think, I know I’m a nihilist
But I know I can also change in your company
It’s funny how the heart speaks
When ******* & MDMA is in the bloodstreams
Finally, I’m home
My mental state is melting like a Dali painting
So I crawl into bed for a good rest
Letting my body dissociate at the sight of 2PM
Some people say this is a waste of a day
But I didn’t think about that yesterday
Now I scream **** MY LIFE” loudly from the inside
Nov 18, 2020
Nov 18, 2020 at 4:17 PM UTC
**** Tuesday now! Weekend NO!
Common catchphrase deplete my atmosphere like a swooning sphere BLUE!
About to throw up nonsense!
Don't care how loud this music IS
Must SCREAM talk of beanstalk! ALL CORRECT!
I'll talk like you!
FML LOL *****
(burn)
SHUT THE **** UP
Oh, and I is typically capitalized when used in the way you're going for!
In fact, I can't think of when it's not capitalized when being used in the STUPID way you use it
GET IT RIGHT! I KNOW I SURE DON'T
(but seriously, I'm pretty sure, however informal your intent, it's capitalized.)
PEELING SKIN FROM OUR BONES
AAAHHHHH!!!!
I am inconsequential, you see
I don't matter, you can't see
I'm not here, quite all the way.
Get's me angry, get's me hot, get's me hard, give's me rot
Nothing but writing...
Isolate self
PUSH EM' AWAY
I'm so wrong
It's so bad
I'm incorrect
It's so sad
Dec 22, 2013
Dec 22, 2013 at 9:18 PM UTC
even nights terrors visit me more , best friends ive ever had
May 25, 2014
May 25, 2014 at 4:05 PM UTC
toxic
Where ever you may be let there be solicitude. Clear all other moods my dear. a sensitivity you took for granted. All the bull **** you ranted. Still all is forgiven, but not forgotten. As my inner demons want to see you rotting. this battle inst over yet, let compassion fill your heart; before all is to late an ripped apart. you had my sympathy but forget my empathy. Let off the deep end, descend my ill minded friend. i know this is hard to comprehend. quite useless indeed. just heed the warning because we may not see the next morning my friend. peace cease to rest as for your no longer here, just a mirror i broke. so evoke or choke on this toxic air. as its seems harder to bare. to everyone who thinks differently or indifferently i wish you all well. as i step through hell watching from the inside out.. endless route. i now walk in solitary, that this wont end through any
promissory i held. ashes fades to grey. only to feel betrayal to watch all vanish away.
** ftw an FML
Jun 7, 2018
Jun 7, 2018 at 7:14 PM UTC
Today
I finally realised
what love truly is
then discovered
after 21 years
I don't have it
Oct 25, 2015
Oct 25, 2015 at 5:44 AM UTC
Surrounded by a solid foundation
Not certain if it's for my protection
Not certain if it's for your protection
All these questions and blames games
But you never questioned or held blame
for the one you selected to be your president
It's easier to just stroll through a phone
and bicker about nonimportant messages
Don't save her. She doesn't wanna be saved!
He ain't a good teacher. Why does he get a raise!?
So, why you are dealing with the same life lesson?!
**** everything I have to say, unless it's relevant
I could put emphasis on that, but instead of f***ing this whole chain up rather remain celibate.
Everywhere I turn.
Somebody is trying to f*** me.
Without the ****
I'm not the begging type
but "fool, give me a break" PLEASE.
I can be calming and surprising
like the summer time breeze
Keep memories in heart company, when feeling unease
The feeling which is oh so lonely
Have you remembering talks of nostalgia
with your parents, like when you first discussed
"The Birds and Bees." Master these elements, summoning great power of one's eternal beyond to receive grace from deities.
Making sure all the contacts are informed and balanced, remaining as one in connection regardless of location. Which should've been incoperated through our history!
I been on this for centuries!
You call it business structure. I call it perfect symmetry!
I'm just another brother, which as much love to give as
a grateful mother in a world of living color....
We still burning each other alive.
Just for others to shine like a diamond
in the night, oh so bright.
We got idiots roaming around
making profit and we are nothing more than discarded objects
Last time I check. You can put a price on a ring.
You can't put a price on a wife?
Yet I am the problem??
So f*** my life right??
Feb 12, 2021
Feb 12, 2021 at 3:57 PM UTC
You would think
Of all people,
You should know me well enough
To know that I'm ******
Angry, and utterly
Frustrated.
Aug 3, 2014
Aug 3, 2014 at 6:25 PM UTC
You ever feel like you're always there
But then turn around and they don't even care?
Well that's just how the worlds gonna be
People may "love"
But all I see
Is the hidden pain
It never goes away
Just a dream of life
Doesn't even strive
They just expect it to come
As does the wind
But that's not how it works
For me I just might as well quit
Nov 15, 2013
Nov 15, 2013 at 8:00 PM UTC