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"behaviours" poems
I am the entourage Of a fantastic mirage I am the agent Of my mind's figment I am a believer Of mythical creatures I am a builder Of splendid architecture I am a drunkard Tripping on futures so absurd I plan construction Of my own destruction I am the feeder To dreams of grandeur I am a magician Of wild, potent concoctions I am a tycoon Of emotional typhoons I am an adept Skilled in exploiting concepts I am a parasite Brandishing fangs that bite I play host To a monstrous, hideous ghost I am an addict Of thoughts derelict I am the dreamer Incapable of anything lesser I am a diver Sinking deeper and deeper I am an insatiable thief Claiming trophies without grief I am an emotional hermit Hoarding my all in a bottomless pit I am a weaver Fabricating tales that meander I am a Neanderthal Adopting behaviours and habits that appall I am an ape Mending wounds that gape I am but me I'm blind, fighting to see I am rhymesmith I lie through my teeth Getting hard to breathe Heart to words, I seethe...
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Sep 21, 2014
Sep 21, 2014 at 7:28 AM UTC
Me
Found myself at a dental clinic... He was the best there was. Unorthodox and eccentric, But to the specialised craft, he was boss. Ran through the bits and bobs Like any normally would. The poking and prodding and the mandible X-rays. Everything cold and clinical, so was the mood. Strange was what happened next... Specialist and I then stood facing each other. He leaned close and pressed his palms against my rib cage. Held them there over a few breaths before it was over. Then a brief chat, small talk initiated by the man. Bespectacled and exceedingly chatty, small in stature. Talks of politics and odd human behaviours... What started off as friendly turned into a heated banter. I then realised that along with his decorated credentials, Was his propensity to be condescending and arrogant. Him being the best, I thought I could let it all slide, But soon enough I opted out of being a willing participant. Couldn't stand his abrasive cockiness! I snapped out of being cordial and passive thought. I wanted him to just stop talking! I went, "Well, are you going to fix my teeth or not?!" He was stunned momentarily... I suppose he hadn't seen that coming. Then his features softened to a blank I could almost read the unspoken words he was conjuring. With an exasperated sigh of resignation, He uttered his next words swollen with regret "There's no need...for you only have four years left." It dawned upon me that my timer has been set. And then I woke up...
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Oct 25, 2014
Oct 25, 2014 at 2:21 PM UTC
Strange Dream
i can only find the open palms of my demons in that red mist, the ones that once held my face in a much harsher way than you do now. your calloused hands feel like heaven instead of the hell that slept in the creases of their fingerprints. sometimes i fall too close and i see their blackened eyes that replay childhood traumas that i have spent years repressing with self-destructive behaviours and alcohol. your own remind me of the rivers i could drown myself in but i must remind myself that diving in will only give me peace, not death, though it feels like death whenever they're not in my sight. sometimes i think about hurting myself again but then i remember the claws of those monsters and how they can't compare to your nails tickling at my back in the late of the night where theirs would be cutting me open. i don't ever want to be in their grip again. never again. never.
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May 28, 2017
May 28, 2017 at 4:34 PM UTC
horror
Most of us are familiar with The escapism from pain. For an easy and cheap solution Or because of advices of the Doctors, psychologs; Most of us get a cheap piece of matter Triggering the oscillation of dopamine, Making most of us addicted to them As well as being harmed As the result of their side effects. Even the teens intoxicate things Causing these things. Some of call this signalling matter Nicotine or alcohol. Others call drugs as well as Medicines having great side effects on Our psychology that means Our minds, feelings and importantly Our souls. How these piece of matter Deletes your pain? Simply, by affecting your Biologic structure. This causes the cage of Emotions and behaviours Freezing your actions and thoughts As well as mostly The cage itself. This stabilization of actions therefore, Decreases the capability of Varying the actions. What you can do, You are capable to do. Capacity is the power. Lesser power lesser creativity. All in all Nothing more than robotic step You all do in all. By lesser creativity, What you do becomes Completely addiction. No good, no bad; Only the robotic step You all do. So subject becomes object of External distraction. In the hellish world, You are distracted to hell. A piece of addictive matter Ends with Painful robotic suffering Until you fade away. But the music, music, music Is the harmonious effective vibes of Yourself. This music can do anything, Instead of freezing you only if an only. This music can do anything, By transforming the self by Twisting you through making you Its beautiful voice. We classify the music In account of its causes. But material cause is not the music. Instead, the elegance of meaning As well as the shining effect Is the music. It is the music that will Create the best in us! Make the best of us! Hold the best of us! Than you may say, I want music but this is poetry. Than I say, Poetry is the music of the words. It is the music of life Will the shining ray of creativity. It is the music of life Will the kingdom of heaven. Its the nectar in form of music Being the music of nectar, Becoming the nectar of the music! Music creating music In seem of poem. Catch it, follow it! Better than any drugs. Music creating music In seem of poem. Say it! Sing it! Better than anything! It is the best, you desire! We call it, you are welllllllllll...
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Nov 7, 2019
Nov 7, 2019 at 10:32 PM UTC
Instead of Drugs, Music
Most of us are familiar with The escapism from pain. For an easy and cheap solution Or because of advices of the Doctors, psychologs; Most of us get a cheap piece of matter Triggering the oscillation of dopamine, Making most of us addicted to them As well as being harmed As the result of their side effects. Even the teens intoxicate things Causing these things. Some of call this signalling matter Nicotine or alcohol. Others call drugs as well as Medicines having great side effects on Our psychology that means Our minds, feelings and importantly Our souls. How these piece of matter Deletes your pain? Simply, by affecting your Biologic structure. This causes the cage of Emotions and behaviours Freezing your actions and thoughts As well as mostly The cage itself. This stabilization of actions therefore, Decreases the capability of Varying the actions. What you can do, You are capable to do. Capacity is the power. Lesser power lesser creativity. All in all Nothing more than robotic step You all do in all. By lesser creativity, What you do becomes Completely addiction. No good, no bad; Only the robotic step You all do. So subject becomes object of External distraction. In the hellish world, You are distracted to hell. A piece of addictive matter Ends with Painful robotic suffering Until you fade away. But the music, music, music Is the harmonious effective vibes of Yourself. This music can do anything, Instead of freezing you only if an only. This music can do anything, By transforming the self by Twisting you through making you Its beautiful voice. We classify the music In account of its causes. But material cause is not the music. Instead, the elegance of meaning As well as the shining effect Is the music. It is the music that will Create the best in us! Make the best of us! Hold the best of us! Than you may say, I want music but this is poetry. Than I say, Poetry is the music of the words. It is the music of life Will the shining ray of creativity. It is the music of life Will the kingdom of heaven. Its the nectar in form of music Being the music of nectar, Becoming the nectar of the music! Music creating music In seem of poem. Catch it, follow it! Better than any drugs. Music creating music In seem of poem. Say it! Sing it! Better than anything! It is the best, you desire! We call it, you are welllllllllll...
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Ya Know Peoples’ Behaviour’s... Getting... Stranger And STRANGER... !!! NO... Away In A Manger... !!! But PLENTY of DANGER... !!! In... Peoples Behaviour... !!! Because Corona’s Brought Flavours... When It Comes To THAT PAPER... !!! That Are A... GAME CHANGER... !!! So Some Peoples Behaviour’s... Beginning To Tailor... Itself Towards... Vader’s... !!! Because of DICTATORS... Who Have Now Endangered... !!! MORE THAN... Livelihoods... Now Lives Have Been Took... That’s EVEN SHOOK CROOKS... !!! So Behaviours Now Look... Like They’re Ready To Cook... MUCH MORE Than PROTESTS... When Leaders Send Feds’... To Now Fire BULLETS... !!! At WOMEN On Front Lines... Who Now STAND AGAINST... Racism And Violence... That Lead To Black Deaths... !!! By... Taking of Breaths... By Some YES Policemen... !!! They’re Behaviours ATTEST... To Delivering STRESS... To Lots of Blacks HEADS... !!! So OF COURSE Some Are VEX... !!!!! About Treatment We Get... !!! But... Protest Behaviour... Has Got... INSTIGATORS... Who May Be IMITATORS... ?!? And... CONTAMINATORS... Used To Be MUTILATORS... !!! of Behaviours Now Caused... By BLATANTLY FLAGRANT... ABUSE of THEIR Laws... !?! Hold Up... Let Me PAUSE...................... Did I Just Call Them... " LAWS "... ? What Do They Stand For... ?!? Cos They’re CLEARLY NOT Made... To Now PROTECT The Hoards … ? I Mean... MASSES of People... Who Seem READY For WAR... !?! In... Different Locations... It Seems That Behaviours... Are Now Fighting For... MORE Than Freedom of Thought... !!! IT’s... FREEDOM To TALK... That’s Now Being Cut SHORT... !?! When Clearly Behaviours... Should OPEN UP MORE Than EVER BEFORE... !!! But THESE MANIPULATORS... Have Their Perpetrators... of Behaviours That Walk... With Talk That Is FALSE... !!! From These CORONA Wars... To These CLOSED Corridors... Where Decisions Are BOUGHT ! I Dunno Anymore... ?!? If We’ll Ever ENFORCE... Behaviours Like Jailers... For Traitors Who Break Laws... !!! ESPECIALLY When... They Are Leaders And Lords !!! Instead of Behaviours... That... DESTROY The Poor... !!! We NEED CASTIGATORS... And... Coordinators... Whose Behaviours Are PURE... !!! Instead of These FAKERS... And... New Age ENSLAVERS... !!! Who Drive These Creations... of Thoughts That I TAILOR... To Speak On These Subjects... Like Peoples’... .... “BEHAVIOUR”....
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Nov 27, 2020
Nov 27, 2020 at 2:18 AM UTC
“Behaviour” ... A Poem written By Big Virge 25/7/2020
Ya Know Peoples’ Behaviour’s... Getting... Stranger And STRANGER... !!! NO... Away In A Manger... !!! But PLENTY of DANGER... !!! In... Peoples Behaviour... !!! Because Corona’s Brought Flavours... When It Comes To THAT PAPER... !!! That Are A... GAME CHANGER... !!! So Some Peoples Behaviour’s... Beginning To Tailor... Itself Towards... Vader’s... !!! Because of DICTATORS... Who Have Now Endangered... !!! MORE THAN... Livelihoods... Now Lives Have Been Took... That’s EVEN SHOOK CROOKS... !!! So Behaviours Now Look... Like They’re Ready To Cook... MUCH MORE Than PROTESTS... When Leaders Send Feds’... To Now Fire BULLETS... !!! At WOMEN On Front Lines... Who Now STAND AGAINST... Racism And Violence... That Lead To Black Deaths... !!! By... Taking of Breaths... By Some YES Policemen... !!! They’re Behaviours ATTEST... To Delivering STRESS... To Lots of Blacks HEADS... !!! So OF COURSE Some Are VEX... !!!!! About Treatment We Get... !!! But... Protest Behaviour... Has Got... INSTIGATORS... Who May Be IMITATORS... ?!? And... CONTAMINATORS... Used To Be MUTILATORS... !!! of Behaviours Now Caused... By BLATANTLY FLAGRANT... ABUSE of THEIR Laws... !?! Hold Up... Let Me PAUSE...................... Did I Just Call Them... " LAWS "... ? What Do They Stand For... ?!? Cos They’re CLEARLY NOT Made... To Now PROTECT The Hoards … ? I Mean... MASSES of People... Who Seem READY For WAR... !?! In... Different Locations... It Seems That Behaviours... Are Now Fighting For... MORE Than Freedom of Thought... !!! IT’s... FREEDOM To TALK... That’s Now Being Cut SHORT... !?! When Clearly Behaviours... Should OPEN UP MORE Than EVER BEFORE... !!! But THESE MANIPULATORS... Have Their Perpetrators... of Behaviours That Walk... With Talk That Is FALSE... !!! From These CORONA Wars... To These CLOSED Corridors... Where Decisions Are BOUGHT ! I Dunno Anymore... ?!? If We’ll Ever ENFORCE... Behaviours Like Jailers... For Traitors Who Break Laws... !!! ESPECIALLY When... They Are Leaders And Lords !!! Instead of Behaviours... That... DESTROY The Poor... !!! We NEED CASTIGATORS... And... Coordinators... Whose Behaviours Are PURE... !!! Instead of These FAKERS... And... New Age ENSLAVERS... !!! Who Drive These Creations... of Thoughts That I TAILOR... To Speak On These Subjects... Like Peoples’... .... “BEHAVIOUR”....
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In purple checked dresses we are confronted Behind a piano sits ‘Miss Creak’ head of house She has one bad eye, unfixable from childhood But plays beautifully perched on an oakwood And fabric stool. This is our secondary school. On the wall above the piano is a framed print ‘Madonna of the Meadows’ by the artist Bellini I pushed a drawing of a couple intertwining Under ‘her’ door knowing she never would have But a boy may have felt affection for ‘that’ affliction. Here we all ate meals, did fashion shows and sang I was glad my dress was purple not orange or red Went better with my blue eyes and blonde hair The rest of the school diveded into coloured checks To represent Shakespearean female characters. Just opened in Wandsworth a new comprehensive Serving all abilities, behaviours and nationalities Cordelia, Beatrice, Juliet, Katharine, Portia, Rosalind, Olivia, Viola a rather unsuitable Vision for such an uptake of adolescent froth. Miss Creak was, kindly, I wish I had always been.
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Oct 22, 2018
Oct 22, 2018 at 10:59 AM UTC
Purple Check.
him and i it was a love story so rare from our hometown to europe two similar souls and a story to be told him, the boy from upper class a genious with toxic behaviours me, the girl with the silent grace an artist with messy mind a story of love and cheating in the second jazz age we whispered secrets at night, and laughed in mornings our love was red, burning inside out i would write and he would read he would talk and i would listen our story still lives on in our hearts, yearns to belong but beneath it there is a sorrow
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Apr 30, 2023
Apr 30, 2023 at 7:41 AM UTC
roman holiday
Suffering from undiagnosed mental illness, Also talks about other undiagnosed disorders, Never saying that I officially have those, to be ficitious, Cause I am breaking and pushing all borders. Suffering from undiagnosed mental illness, Also talks about other undiagnosed disorders, In school labelled as the kid who was mischievous, obeying orders, so ****** disorded. Suffering from undiagnosed mental illness, Also talks about other undiagnosed disorders, hating social interaction, dark thoughts, labelled as malicious, Still loving hobbies and education, still ambitious. Suffering from Undiagnosed mental illness, Also talks about other undiagnosed disorders, Behaviours yet still suspicious, is it undiagnosed mental illness and disorders, that are tralatitious. Suffering from undiagnosed mental illness, Also talks about other undiagnosed disorders, From Depression, Suicide tendencies, Autism spectrum and ADHD, Taking medication that suppose to help, clearly does and doesn't. Suffering from undiagnosed mental illness, Also talks about other undiagnosed disorders, From Depression, Suicide Tendencies, Autism spectrum and ADHD, I don't say am like every other who suffers from mental illness or other disorders. Suffering from undiagnosed mental illness, Also talks about other undiagnosed disorders, Obesity isn't always a disorder, A Small part of obesity is generics or health conditions, A large part of obesity is the choice based upon society. Suffering from undiagnosed mental illness, Also talks about other undiagnosed disorders, Laziness is a mental, gaming is now a mental illness, Kids that want no job, nothing to achieve, no physician needed, Kids thinking that they are doctors, internet search and diagnosis, believing in self taught self hypnosis. Suffering from undiagnosed mental illness, Also talks about other undiagnosed disorders, Childhood, I was very precocious, Leaving friends, family and parents, Ferocious. Suffering from undiagnosed mental illness, Also talks about other undiagnosed disorders, behaviours of mine never when unnotice, Angry was always explosive, Never been seen for the symptom shown, never reaching an prognosis.
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Nov 6, 2020
Nov 6, 2020 at 7:22 AM UTC
Undiagnosed Mental Illness and other disorders.
Suffering from undiagnosed mental illness, Also talks about other undiagnosed disorders, Never saying that I officially have those, to be ficitious, Cause I am breaking and pushing all borders. Suffering from undiagnosed mental illness, Also talks about other undiagnosed disorders, In school labelled as the kid who was mischievous, obeying orders, so ****** disorded. Suffering from undiagnosed mental illness, Also talks about other undiagnosed disorders, hating social interaction, dark thoughts, labelled as malicious, Still loving hobbies and education, still ambitious. Suffering from Undiagnosed mental illness, Also talks about other undiagnosed disorders, Behaviours yet still suspicious, is it undiagnosed mental illness and disorders, that are tralatitious. Suffering from undiagnosed mental illness, Also talks about other undiagnosed disorders, From Depression, Suicide tendencies, Autism spectrum and ADHD, Taking medication that suppose to help, clearly does and doesn't. Suffering from undiagnosed mental illness, Also talks about other undiagnosed disorders, From Depression, Suicide Tendencies, Autism spectrum and ADHD, I don't say am like every other who suffers from mental illness or other disorders. Suffering from undiagnosed mental illness, Also talks about other undiagnosed disorders, Obesity isn't always a disorder, A Small part of obesity is generics or health conditions, A large part of obesity is the choice based upon society. Suffering from undiagnosed mental illness, Also talks about other undiagnosed disorders, Laziness is a mental, gaming is now a mental illness, Kids that want no job, nothing to achieve, no physician needed, Kids thinking that they are doctors, internet search and diagnosis, believing in self taught self hypnosis. Suffering from undiagnosed mental illness, Also talks about other undiagnosed disorders, Childhood, I was very precocious, Leaving friends, family and parents, Ferocious. Suffering from undiagnosed mental illness, Also talks about other undiagnosed disorders, behaviours of mine never when unnotice, Angry was always explosive, Never been seen for the symptom shown, never reaching an prognosis.
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I have a gun, I keep it under my bed and just for fun I decided not to tell anyone But it weighs heavy Now when people get under my skin I don’t begin to unwind and let my patience wear thin I just think of my gun under my bed. I think of a hole going straight through my head. My Heads just a borrowed mess, I’m just a high liar, dire trier trying too much again. You see friends in strangers but behaviours vary, yes its very scary times indeed. I took my gun out for a walk or maybe he took me for one when the sky showed sun. And it weighs heavy
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Nov 12, 2014
Nov 12, 2014 at 2:58 PM UTC
The Weight Of My Gun
Mannerless child! Shameless child! Arrogant child! You lack home training. Your parents must be bad. Please don't fault my parents I was raised well. I was raised to greet my elders and address them with respect. Just because I walked pass you at the mall, doesn't mean my parents are to be blamed, If my parents found out I will be scolded. I was raised to say "please" whenever I seek for a favour and to say "thank you" as a sign of appreciation, Just because I didn't utter any, Doesn't mean my parents lack gratitude, If my parents found out, they will never gift me. I was raised to wear decent clothings and be moral in my actions and behaviours, Just because I wore a skimpy outfit, Dosent mean my parents bought them, If my parents found out, they will burn them to ashes. I was raised to be humble and have patience, Just because you saw me cursing and fighting on the street, Doesn't mean my parent encourages it, If my parents found out I will be grounded. I was raised to be generous, to love and care without expectations, Just because I'm indifferent, Doesn't mean my parents are heartless, If they found out they will be disappointed. I was raised to study and be successful in life, Just because I'm a school drop out, Doesn't mean my parent never paid my fees, If they found out they will be angry. I was raised to always go to church or the mosques, To visit relatives and friends, Just because you saw me at the beer palour Smoking and wasting myself, Doesn't mean my parents ordained it, If they found out, the next day might be my funeral. So please don't fault my parent. I was raised well. ~boddobodes ---------------------------------
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Feb 20, 2021
Feb 20, 2021 at 2:16 AM UTC
I was raised
Mannerless child! Shameless child! Arrogant child! You lack home training. Your parents must be bad. Please don't fault my parents I was raised well. I was raised to greet my elders and address them with respect. Just because I walked pass you at the mall, doesn't mean my parents are to be blamed, If my parents found out I will be scolded. I was raised to say "please" whenever I seek for a favour and to say "thank you" as a sign of appreciation, Just because I didn't utter any, Doesn't mean my parents lack gratitude, If my parents found out, they will never gift me. I was raised to wear decent clothings and be moral in my actions and behaviours, Just because I wore a skimpy outfit, Dosent mean my parents bought them, If my parents found out, they will burn them to ashes. I was raised to be humble and have patience, Just because you saw me cursing and fighting on the street, Doesn't mean my parent encourages it, If my parents found out I will be grounded. I was raised to be generous, to love and care without expectations, Just because I'm indifferent, Doesn't mean my parents are heartless, If they found out they will be disappointed. I was raised to study and be successful in life, Just because I'm a school drop out, Doesn't mean my parent never paid my fees, If they found out they will be angry. I was raised to always go to church or the mosques, To visit relatives and friends, Just because you saw me at the beer palour Smoking and wasting myself, Doesn't mean my parents ordained it, If they found out, the next day might be my funeral. So please don't fault my parent. I was raised well. ~boddobodes ---------------------------------
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There is no reaction except to disagree Loving  words,  wasted on useless ears. Mind not comprehending, loving melodies Dead space, Nothing. Words of encouragement cast aside Insecurity races forward  and dominates Cry inside, left alone to contemplate relationship. a hint of love would satisfy emotions Nothing Sitting at dinner with nothing Random useless conversation, filling voids Carelessly spewing obscenities at behaviours Seldom stopping to understand Nothing I love you a ton, maybe two, noooo maybe three or maybe not at all, No reaction Said to loud , others may hear, whisper sweet nothings to empty space. mind strays to other possibilities Nothing Personalities clash, opinions are pointless Care or dare to care, who's winning Walk away slouched shoulders, broken inside No more feelings, numbness Nothing. Rage at the  nothing Find answers as to why. But, there is anger at the nothing There must be something.
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Feb 23, 2013
Feb 23, 2013 at 12:06 AM UTC
nothing
Suffering from undiagnosed mental illness, Also talks about other undiagnosed disorders, Never saying that I officially have those, to be ficitious, Cause I am breaking and pushing all borders. Suffering from undiagnosed mental illness, Also talks about other undiagnosed disorders, In school labelled as the kid who was mischievous, obeying orders, so ****** disorded. Suffering from undiagnosed mental illness, Also talks about other undiagnosed disorders, hating social interaction, dark thoughts, labelled as malicious, Still loving hobbies and education, still ambitious. Suffering from Undiagnosed mental illness, Also talks about other undiagnosed disorders, Behaviours yet still suspicious, is it undiagnosed mental illness and disorders, that are tralatitious. Suffering from undiagnosed mental illness, Also talks about other undiagnosed disorders, From Depression, Suicide tendencies, Autism spectrum and ADHD, Taking medication that suppose to help, clearly does and doesn't. Suffering from undiagnosed mental illness, Also talks about other undiagnosed disorders, From Depression, Suicide Tendencies, Autism spectrum and ADHD, I don't say am like every other who suffers from mental illness or other disorders. Suffering from undiagnosed mental illness, Also talks about other undiagnosed disorders, Obesity isn't always a disorder, A Small part of obesity is generics or health conditions, A large part of obesity is the choice based upon society. Suffering from undiagnosed mental illness, Also talks about other undiagnosed disorders, Laziness is a mental, gaming is now a mental illness, Kids that want no job, nothing to achieve, no physician needed, Kids thinking that they are doctors, internet search and diagnosis, believing in self taught self hypnosis. Suffering from undiagnosed mental illness, Also talks about other undiagnosed disorders, Childhood, I was very precocious, Leaving friends, family and parents, Ferocious. Suffering from undiagnosed mental illness, Also talks about other undiagnosed disorders, behaviours of mine never when unnotice, Angry was always explosive, Never been seen for the symptom shown, never reaching an prognosis.
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Nov 14, 2020
Nov 14, 2020 at 4:56 AM UTC
Undiagnosed mental health and other disorders.
Suffering from undiagnosed mental illness, Also talks about other undiagnosed disorders, Never saying that I officially have those, to be ficitious, Cause I am breaking and pushing all borders. Suffering from undiagnosed mental illness, Also talks about other undiagnosed disorders, In school labelled as the kid who was mischievous, obeying orders, so ****** disorded. Suffering from undiagnosed mental illness, Also talks about other undiagnosed disorders, hating social interaction, dark thoughts, labelled as malicious, Still loving hobbies and education, still ambitious. Suffering from Undiagnosed mental illness, Also talks about other undiagnosed disorders, Behaviours yet still suspicious, is it undiagnosed mental illness and disorders, that are tralatitious. Suffering from undiagnosed mental illness, Also talks about other undiagnosed disorders, From Depression, Suicide tendencies, Autism spectrum and ADHD, Taking medication that suppose to help, clearly does and doesn't. Suffering from undiagnosed mental illness, Also talks about other undiagnosed disorders, From Depression, Suicide Tendencies, Autism spectrum and ADHD, I don't say am like every other who suffers from mental illness or other disorders. Suffering from undiagnosed mental illness, Also talks about other undiagnosed disorders, Obesity isn't always a disorder, A Small part of obesity is generics or health conditions, A large part of obesity is the choice based upon society. Suffering from undiagnosed mental illness, Also talks about other undiagnosed disorders, Laziness is a mental, gaming is now a mental illness, Kids that want no job, nothing to achieve, no physician needed, Kids thinking that they are doctors, internet search and diagnosis, believing in self taught self hypnosis. Suffering from undiagnosed mental illness, Also talks about other undiagnosed disorders, Childhood, I was very precocious, Leaving friends, family and parents, Ferocious. Suffering from undiagnosed mental illness, Also talks about other undiagnosed disorders, behaviours of mine never when unnotice, Angry was always explosive, Never been seen for the symptom shown, never reaching an prognosis.
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She held him like a dangling participle, as mothers sometimes do. Disconnected from her sentence, he was held on but stiffly confused. He possesses a birthright to her hard-wiring, or is it mandatory? Woman-datory? Umbilical, precedence will or won't inherit addictive behaviours. Likability of some traits but not others, wishing he wasn't. More like her, realisations go awry. Pattern of outstretched arms dangling that boy. His diaper is off, and jettison's stream, so caution. Hiking along the forgotten path, brambling overgrowth blocked his continuing. He cuts a new path. She cuts the umbilical.
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Jul 5, 2017
Jul 5, 2017 at 9:39 AM UTC
Dangling Modifiers or Modifying Danglers
Ever been happy so much, You cried? Ever been sad so much, You laughed? Yeah, I love so much that I hate I hate, so I must love I'm a living mess Who am I, wandering this place? And know that I mean what I say, I say what I know But I know that not knowing anything Is what I know the best. A mess, tangled in wires Of unsorteable emotions and Unrecognized behaviours Unknown thoughts, Uncommon, just another head in the clouds. Who are you to change this world? A living contradiction. To be or not to be? To live, or not to live? I know the unknowable thoughts Because everyone knows what they do not know. Everyone has their reason to live, Or not to live. So I said let it be! So you can proudly say, »I know the unknown!« So you can always say, »I know the unknown!«
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Oct 17, 2017
Oct 17, 2017 at 2:49 PM UTC
»I know the unknown!«
Lost within my transcending mind, Seeking the answers for questions unknown, Indecisive thoughts soak in confusion, Aimlessly continuing within my human nature. Awareness grasps my undying sensitivity, Combining factors fuse into chaos within, As healing patterns face destruction, Behaviours revert to those once lost. Wavering between serenity and insanity, For my unfailing hope of peace, Eased through impatience by courtesy of vices, Sparking creativity and strong perspectives. Pondering over knowledge newly admitted, Resentment fills my every thought, For this love recently departed with, Haunts my every waking, lonely moment.
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Aug 15, 2013
Aug 15, 2013 at 12:35 AM UTC
Departed
...and noises, noises - they are many; they swarm around the head, attack; yes - noises, noises - the ears are straining, the sixth sense's straining, old patterns crack. old - all - outmoded, yearning freshness: behaviours, schemes, poetic means. ah - noises! noises!.. in the abyss - still sitting, fishing; fishing out - still.
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Jul 19, 2010
Jul 19, 2010 at 10:52 AM UTC
Noises
People watching people Gazing at screens Crouching behind veneers Of interconnected Digital Fibre optic Cabling Safely connected Safely disconnected To their Subjects Objects Judging them Demanding cosmesis Ordering alteration Controlling behaviours Controlling people In an out of control world The watched Conforming Naively Desperately Daily To gross Aesthetic stereotypes Pandering To the hits Prostituting For numbers Disordered society In which watchers Hold power Are you asked How many views do you have? Is it enough? Are you popular Enough? Are you worth Enough? Are you ever Enough?
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Jun 10, 2016
Jun 10, 2016 at 5:57 PM UTC
Surveillant society
Who are you? Self awareness is very tricky. You’re very complicated, we all are, people are the most complicated things we encounter in our everyday lives. Now imagine two complicated people together. We manage this complexity by limiting each other, with social contracts, to limit usurious behaviours. If we abide by the contracts things are simplified. Part of that is being polite - you don’t want a complex, bank teller, dentist or policeman - our society runs on simple transactions - perhaps 10 for each of us daily. The wild card is emotion - that’s why *** is so tricky. Do you want to depend on an emotional doctor or be stopped by a really emotional policeman? I think not.
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Nov 1, 2021
Nov 1, 2021 at 1:24 PM UTC
complicated
When we are born we are born to be made, Shaped like clay from the confines of the universes hands. Like art. And like art we are critiqued, And like art we become, Until our colours, thoughts, behaviours form, And we are human, We are all in one piece, And these people stand and these people stand and give their verdict, And these people stand and extend an invitation to us, an invitation that tells us to now be a "Starry night" instead of a Picasso painting,  although they don't know even Starry night had their Picasso days. And these people stand as they extend their arm, capturing the essence of our being on the street, when sometimes our clay is soft, or when the paint bleeds from us. But our arms and wrists can bleed, But our minds are told it cannot, With the exception of one day to ask: "Are you okay?" But by then I'm already in the kiln, and already dried to the bone, Because I am an artist, And i will shape myself again.
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Sep 26, 2018
Sep 26, 2018 at 7:39 PM UTC
Masterpieces of our own
Nightly whiskey flow stains a white-walled childhood home Parents seem blurry Love and danger co-occur Paroxysms of anger In childhood there’s no room for shades of grey It’s black or white, confusion sits unused A place for everything and each in place And I am in control and thus to blame Come adulthood to show me I’m confused So, consequences passed down like a gift In genes and in behaviours left unchecked To witness fights, hard falls, deep burns, and pain The trauma transfer, second-hand ingrained With love and anger, care and dark neglect Then later roughly realise there was wrong The blend of wrong and love is hard to hold Most often see the child who fails at school With low self-concept, guilt, hot shame, and fear But all built strength and power left untold Compensatory change for homeostasis Strong roles adopted Scars deftly hidden Chaos-order alchemy I must be The Responsible One Parentification at maximum pitch A list-making, chore-running, stable-housemaster A self-worth creator from jobs neatly done All leisure-time wary and leadership-rich I must be The Adjuster as well Will follow directions and bounce from extremes A dime-spinning, change-juggling, fresh puddle-jumper Surprise and emergency make me excel More calm at the edges than flat in-betweens I must be The Calming Placater Maintaining still waters whatever my price A vigilant, change sensing, smoothing class helper To people-please acts as a guilt-shame assuager All pliable, social, and overly nice Imperfect but strong coping mechanisms forged Power in order Capable, dependable Psyche shaped by survival
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Nov 22, 2024
Nov 22, 2024 at 10:10 PM UTC
A child of parents with alcohol use disorders
Nightly whiskey flow stains a white-walled childhood home Parents seem blurry Love and danger co-occur Paroxysms of anger In childhood there’s no room for shades of grey It’s black or white, confusion sits unused A place for everything and each in place And I am in control and thus to blame Come adulthood to show me I’m confused So, consequences passed down like a gift In genes and in behaviours left unchecked To witness fights, hard falls, deep burns, and pain The trauma transfer, second-hand ingrained With love and anger, care and dark neglect Then later roughly realise there was wrong The blend of wrong and love is hard to hold Most often see the child who fails at school With low self-concept, guilt, hot shame, and fear But all built strength and power left untold Compensatory change for homeostasis Strong roles adopted Scars deftly hidden Chaos-order alchemy I must be The Responsible One Parentification at maximum pitch A list-making, chore-running, stable-housemaster A self-worth creator from jobs neatly done All leisure-time wary and leadership-rich I must be The Adjuster as well Will follow directions and bounce from extremes A dime-spinning, change-juggling, fresh puddle-jumper Surprise and emergency make me excel More calm at the edges than flat in-betweens I must be The Calming Placater Maintaining still waters whatever my price A vigilant, change sensing, smoothing class helper To people-please acts as a guilt-shame assuager All pliable, social, and overly nice Imperfect but strong coping mechanisms forged Power in order Capable, dependable Psyche shaped by survival
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I am forever in a state of delusion and dreaming that blinds me from reality I spend hours imaging the most perfect version of myself that I want to be but fail to be I convince myself reality is like what I’m conjuring up the realisation that it's not, crushes me I am always surprised every time Like it's something new I am standing behind myself waiting to step inside myself and embrace reality and embrace the person I am but I cannot because I hold my hopes in the person I could be Sometimes I feel like I want to step outside of myself but every attempt I always fall off a cliff I want to peel these layers of ******** I am hiding under I am searching for the calm An end to these hideous emotions that have become a burden Dizzy from going around in circles in this tiny world with such an insignificant existence Repeating the same behaviours Being eaten by the same conflictions I have been fighting demons for years And I have spent a decade fighting myself when I should've been happy Sometimes it feels as though the walls inside my head are caving in My head is caving in Scraped knees, dirt in my finger nails from the muddy ground of my tortured mind in a vain attempt to crawl through the spaces back to reality again A prisoner of my own mind how does one escape themselves?! I can't find the door There are too many corridors and clutter I have to create my own door Through the top of my  head
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Oct 23, 2013
Oct 23, 2013 at 9:22 AM UTC
The Escapist
How I describe that feeling!! Feeling of taking the darker side, Feeling of leaving the brighter side, Hiding the sacrificial feel, Feeling the joy of thou. This is all about heart and love; They make us do painful thing in joyful manner; Your mother could have slept a little longer; Your dad could buy you cheap sandals; But she woke and worked, he bought you best he could; This smile too has many behaviours; Yes behaviours- to show gladness. To hide feelings; Love makes many sacrifices,  joy of giving becomes larger; Just imagine what it makes you to do; Giving someone more priority than you yourself; You don't plan it, you don’t think much you just do it; Things seem as if going themselves perfectly; Getting crazy is as if a compliment; Crazy for your beloved; Crossing social limits for your beloved;
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Oct 18, 2010
Oct 18, 2010 at 8:52 PM UTC
Love and Sacrifice
say       something       sluggish         nonsense about       swastikas;    never    say      a  word about     what     you   really    mean;  control every     image     and   never crack   a  smile; erase    any   history   that    you    don't  like; get   yourself  a  gun  and  play  with  knifes; spread      rumours   about     your   abnormal and    strange    religious  behaviours;     make odd   symbols   no   one  including    yourself do   not  understand;   confuse and    indulge yourself      into      oblivion      about      your superior     self;     surround    yourself   with friends  with  odd behaviours  and odd  point of    views;    pick    some     crucial  enemies; behave          like     a     *****       say      evil disrespectful      and     rude     things     about something  everybody  really   loves;     if  no one  pays   attention   get  drunk  and drive a car   without   a    license;   do   some    heavy drugs;   get   into    some  violence;   ********* your   suicide;     leave   everybody   confused with   some   hints    about  your   sympathies to    small    violent  groups    in   society;    let yourself  wear and  be  seen  among  symbols representing    all  that   is    harsh    and grim; if    asked   limit your  language to  yes  or no; if   nothing  of  this  works   die   young   pull an automatic  gun  and    pop  pop   pop   pop pop   pop  pop   watching   muthafuckas  drop.
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Aug 7, 2014
Aug 7, 2014 at 9:44 AM UTC
Watching Muthafukas Drop.
say       something       sluggish         nonsense about       swastikas;    never    say      a  word about     what     you   really    mean;  control every     image     and   never crack   a  smile; erase    any   history   that    you    don't  like; get   yourself  a  gun  and  play  with  knifes; spread      rumours   about     your   abnormal and    strange    religious  behaviours;     make odd   symbols   no   one  including    yourself do   not  understand;   confuse and    indulge yourself      into      oblivion      about      your superior     self;     surround    yourself   with friends  with  odd behaviours  and odd  point of    views;    pick    some     crucial  enemies; behave          like     a     *****       say      evil disrespectful      and     rude     things     about something  everybody  really   loves;     if  no one  pays   attention   get  drunk  and drive a car   without   a    license;   do   some    heavy drugs;   get   into    some  violence;   ********* your   suicide;     leave   everybody   confused with   some   hints    about  your   sympathies to    small    violent  groups    in   society;    let yourself  wear and  be  seen  among  symbols representing    all  that   is    harsh    and grim; if    asked   limit your  language to  yes  or no; if   nothing  of  this  works   die   young   pull an automatic  gun  and    pop  pop   pop   pop pop   pop  pop   watching   muthafuckas  drop.
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Sometimes the facts Just hit you in the face And all is silent Even the accusations Of your detractors As in horror You realize the truth The sobering, humbling Honest-to-goodness truth It kinds of stuns And sickens you For awhile As you realize The advice Was not an attack But an observation Of behaviours Of which you were not aware You see You chose to smash the mirror That portrayed Such an unflattering image It never occurred to you That they Whoever they were Were right
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Feb 14, 2010
Feb 14, 2010 at 5:19 PM UTC
Smash the Mirror