Trying to write something nice
I could write it all
I could write forever on how beautiful and perfect you are
But you'd never see yourself the way I see you
But that's alright, I'll just have to keep reminding you
I'll remind you how beautiful you are everyday
Hopefully it makes you feel pretty when you feel ugly
Makes you feel worth it when you feel worthless
Makes you feel loved when you feel alone
Because as long as I'm here I'll always remind you of you're beauty

"When a man learns to love, he must bear the risk of hatred"**
After being hurt so badly
I had given up on love
On any hope of being happy
I started to hate myself
Because there must be something
Wrong with me
I'm the reason people leave
I'm not good enough
I hated  the thought of being in love
The world seems empty
Without someone to love
So I'll keep risking it
I'll keep hating
Someday I'll get it right

Some people enjoy sleeping alone
I would rather sleep with someone
I don't care if it's hot or cold
I would hold them close
Feeling their warmth and their breathing
With a smell that leaves you wanting more
Getting to touch their soft skin
Knowing you're safe with that person
Knowing that person is yours

I want to feel like I matter to someone
To feel like I'm worth someone's time
I'm the guy who always wants someone
But is unwanted by that person
They say if you want something hard
You will get it
There is nothing I want more than her
They say if you work hard for something
You'll have it
I've tried so hard, there's nothing more I can do
Should I settle just so I'm not alone
Because I know I won't feel the same for someone else

When I'm with you I feel safe
When I'm with you I feel sane
When im with you I don't feel alone
When im with you I have no worries
When I'm with you I feel what I dont feel with anyone else

They say the eyes are the windows to the soul
Look into my eyes to see my truth
My soul is in pieces
Shattered by the last person who I let in
That person took a piece with them, I'll never see it again

I saw you, so beautiful and selfless
Willing to put me together
And share your soul with mine
To make me whole
I know you wont break my fragile soul
You'll strengthen it,
you'll make it tough
So I can stand on my own
So I can fight for myself
To find my missing piece

Even with someone else at my side I still feel alone
Even with the caress of another person I still dont' feel loved
Maybe it's me , maybe I've just grown cold
Maybe it's you, maybe it's your beautiful face
I wish I could move on, I want to find someone else but your heart is magnet to mine. 
If it was easy i would have pulled away a long time ago

Causen I'm in love with you
And you're in love with him
I can tell by the way you move
you don't know what you're doing to me.

As I touched your soft hands It felt so right
To be sitting with you that cold cold night
I looked in your eyes and guess what I saw
A girl so beautiful who left me in awe
As the night pressed on, asleep you fell
As you slept in love I felt

Among friends and family
I feel more alone than ever
It is suppose to be a happy time
But here I am with a fake smile
Pretending to be happy
Why is that?
What am I missing?

when I look into your eyes,
I can see that you are frightened.
and this is so painful for me because you are so young
So fragile ,so brave , so beautiful
I'm sorry young lady
I'm sorry that, I'm not there
telling you everything is going to be okay
I'm sorry that I'm not there to tell you, you are special, you are worth so much more
You are worth so much more than ****** fights and thoughtless arguments
Its not your fault, none of it will ever be your fault
I promise you that

You kissed me for the first and last time
You said it was a mistake
You said you still love him
Then why did you kiss me
You still plan to marry him
Maybe she was just curious
Maybe it was something new she had to try
I've waited 5 months for that kiss
For so long I wanted you
Maybe its time to give up

I'll be honest I'm still going through things because of what happend more than 10 years ago
I hate myself sometimes
But everyday I'm glad to be alive
After all I've been through I'm still a good and kind person (so I've been told)
So Don't lose hope
Talk to someone
Talk to me if it would help
Don't isolate yourself
There is always some to be your friend

Yesterday I said how I felt
As expected the feelings
Were not reciprocated
My heart still hurt nonetheless
She loves him more
After all this time she still
Believes in him
I want her to be happy
He won't make her happy
I know his kind

Apologies, I'm not being myself
I've never felt this way before
And I'm sorry to have put you in this position
I'm sure  it doesn't feel very good being the cause of someone's sadness
If it helps you're also someone's happiness