You reached for the stars
and put them in my eyes

I keep them locked
behind my eyelids


fearful

that you´ll change
your mind

I´ ve lost the count
of sleepless nights
when dark window
mirrors my face
I no longer recognize
without you
I am nothing

You were teaching me
for years
how worthless
I were

Now I walk around the world
learning
my own lessons
of love
and forgiveness

You make me feel
like a monster
for  years

I did believe you
But you don't
even know me

And you
Don't
own me

I offered my heart
Little by little
Piece by piece
You took it all
After you left
And now I must live heartless

Loving you is the purest act
I' ve done in my life

Even if you don't care
I won't change a thing

You broke me
beyond repair
I am not a woman
anymore
just the collection
of shattered pieces
that no longer
fit together

You paint
my soul
all the colours
of the rainbow

One glimpse
of the corner
of the stranger's eyes

And you sneaked
back in
my old friend
self- hate

Will
you
ever
leave?

Unseen in the dark
I stole the piece
from the sky
that was never mine

Hidden ashamed
I must wait
for the price
I´ll have to pay

The night you left
I burned to ashes

I am on the run
from my broken heart

Healing my burns
Collecting my wounds

Until the day
You set me on fire again

You are
My miracle
That is yet
to happen

I don't forget your face
and I tried hard
over and over again
Do you forget mine?

If you meet me
in my current state
would you recognize me
even with grey hair?

Will you recognize me
On the other side
Will you still feel
how my heart race

lying next to you
same bed
still
continents apart


wondering
where your mind travels
and where your heart
lies

My love for you
make me a poet
for your eyes only

to stroll
through the lines
to reach out
and caress my heart

There it was
the lonely wooden heart
the last one
in the souvenir shop

With huge wound
right in the middle
Nobody wanted to buy
the broken heart

I have it
put it on my sleeve
it suits me well
I think

Put  your hands
on my body
before dawn
arrives

I know it will hurt
make me scar

but my heart
only beats
under your
palm

I came to you
Over and over

For the pain
That became my air

But for the upcoming year
I promise myself

Never again

I took my love for you
my broken heart,  my fears
and buried them so deep
that now I wonder
if I ever get the wings

I caressed a stranger in the tube
brushed my fingers across his

For a little second desperate I became
to  feel the human´s warmth

I wonder why God gave me this body  
that no one never touches

I saw the northern lights
and slept on the beach
to watch how the sun
greeted the morning

I cried at  Güell Park
and wept at Monet´s garden
to handle the beauty
I never see again

I kissed a stranger in Rome
and lid the candles in cathedrals  
I met the beautiful people
and make them my friends

And yet
I´d exchange all of that
for the little wrinkle you had
last time you smiled at me

On the cliff
she´s standing

waiting

for the one
who never arrives

longing

grieving

for love
that never
comes

I came to you slowly
after you pierced my heart
with your gaze

I came to you slowly
reaching just my fingertips
to ease my fears

I came to you slowly
opening my soul
exposing my flesh

I came to you too slow
after you
already left

On my way
to you
I lost
myself
in my own life

You carved your lips
Into my skin
Leaving the marks
I treasure
I worship
The most precious gift
I'll ever receive

I have a secret life
very well hidden
from anyone´s eyes
in the glass coffin
I am lying
waiting
for you
to  never come

Setting  you free
letting you go
sentenced me
to life
without
sunlight

The night you left
my heart broke
into million pieces

spread underneath your soles
to make you stop
just for the moment


for the split second
so I could caress your face
for the very last time

Why did I allow you
to crush me over
and over again

When will I
learn to stand
for myself
finally?

You shut the door
reach the fingertips
taking all
as you always do

Here I stand
trembling
waiting
as I always do

and always will

In the darkest hour
Just before the dawn
My mind goes wild
Flies far away
Above the sky

Where my fingertips tickle
The little hairs on your neck
Where your smiling eyes
Read me between the lines

In that special place
Over the clouds
You wait for me

I believe

The same way I wait here
For you
To arrive

You are the man
of my dreams

very well hidden
behind my eyelids

You are the man
of my dreams

who sleeps
next to someone else

It´s hard to say sorry
to the rainbow eyes
that meant a whole world
to me once

and still does

sorry for my mistakes
for misunderstandings

it´s hard to say sorry
to these beautiful eyes
when I am supposed to say

good bye

When the darkness swallows me
in my dreams you come
to cover  my body
to wrap  my heart
into your warmth
untill the dawn
when I wake up
alone

Each time  
I reach
for you

I find
an empty
space

I know that my happiness
shouldn't rely on other people

But I still put my whole life
to the palm of your hand

I miss the times,
when you made
me laugh

I miss the times
when you made
my heart beat fast

I miss the times
when you craved
the touch of mine

Those times we
left behind
Please lets figure out
what we are now

You broke my heart gently
wiping my tears away

You broke my heart tenderly
caressing my soul for a second

I fell for the best person
in the worst time

Your eyes make me
pure again

Your touch  removes
all  my scars

Your caress heals
my broken parts

I bought you a present
and  hid it  in my palm
I clutched it till I  bled
waiting for   you to come
I brought you the gift
you will never receive

If they asked me
where is  my home
I said at your
collarbone
protecting
your heart

You shut the door
And left me in the dark
Like little baby doll
With broken legs and arm

Kept in the secret box
Close to your heart
For other game
Or to repair?

Whenever  the world hits me
pushes me to the ground

I escaped to my fantasy land
the promised land


where  I am worthy
of your love

I want to wake up
Fifty years
From now
when time will
be right

But for tonight
let me close my eyes
and put my head
On your chest
To rest for a second

For little moment
That only could
be us