It was so beautiful
Like we've known each other
I wanted to hold your hand
But, of course I couldn't

I just wanted to hold you
Wanted to embrace,
Wanted to touch your face
Feel the heat of your skin
Hear the beat of your heart
Ready to be teared apart
But, of course I couldn't

I was so close, so close to do,
to do all of this!
Was so close to you,
so close to lean and kiss your lips!
Wish I could, how I wish I did!
I asked myself, right said should left said shouldn't
And of course, I just couldn't...

I regret what I did
And what I see
In my mind
That’s a dark sea
I regret a lot
Sometimes every moment
Can someone stop me
From regretting things

Maybe you never really loved me
I know that sounds weak
But how could I ever know
Since your existence in my life was bleak?
You were the whisper in my ear
The call out in the night
The possessive arms around me
that just held a bit too tight

A memory is what you are
a flicker to start a fire
Maybe you never really loved me
Maybe all you did was inspire

To write my heart on blank pages
that are swept away with my thoughts
And crash against the shoreline
of dreamless nights only to be fraught
With the fear of losing
when there is nothing to win
Maybe you never really loved me
But at least you knew how to tuck me in